Azure Sky

I saw the fighter planes in the skies.I always say to myself i will make sure i fly up there in the skies. This is a dream...a dream i will try my best to fufill...like i always tell her about my dreams of having so many things with her. It just need time to happen. But it cannot happen anymore. I'm not giving up anything yet no way. I will not just die for nothing. I will still care if you all need me i will only go when my life is not required by everyone. I still believe that i'm needed around. If anyone of you need me still just come to me... i will make sure u are safe and sound.

If life is dark i will walk with you
if there is no light i will be your light
if there is no path i will pave one for you
if there is no future i will make one with you
if you need me just call my name
i will definately come running to you
no matter where no matter what
i will be there really
i promise to you
and so shall this promise be kept always
( dedicated to all who think i would say this to you ) ^.^

So going for some coffee session with some pals soon ^.^ very nice feeling ^.^. Work is hot as usual but its enjoyable because i know how to treasure people. Big Hug for all. My heart still loves and care ^.^ it will beat till the day when it cannot beat anymore.

Bubbye ^.^

The Rain Never Stop

Slept for 3 hours only busy with something . Woke up at 7 met my trainer and took a ride on his bike to Boon Lay for my perfomance practice. Now i got a few brusies on my back going to have more in the later stage ^.^ buts it is ok.

Yesterday after the birthday celebration at Aishah place i took a ride on Mr Wiro's Bike and guess what happen. The engine gave way on the road 3 times i think because of some settings and we almost lost our way but the ride was fun ! I wished he could have run at 150 or something.Well thats about it for yesterday and it was pretty fun talking to BP's bf.

So after my practice i took a train back to Granny's house from Boon Lay and OMG it rain again. And this rain is so heavy....as usual someone is crying very hard i guess. I happen to know that someone who owned up but well hope i cheer her up ^.^. Today cousin is in a real bad mood don't konw what got into him. Perhaps his cough i guess.

One funny thing i saw today a lady in her early twenties was writing something on the train. (I was standing as usual ) and this guy who sat beside her keep looking at what she is writing. I think this lady was writing a diary i guess...that guy keep looking and looking but before i know what the lady did to him i had to alight. I guess that guy would get a slap or something. And i caught hold of her eyes a few times look pretty and nice to me. Just like any plain Jane around. Well yes Allan and Nigel i like plain Jane girls NOT those which you 2 Donkeys keep saying. ^.^

Ok need to go rest a bit been awake for 45 hours going to faint anytime. I ran in the rain today felt so super when a car almost knock me down........but it miss me cause i was too fast for him.Well just joking....but i did ran in the rain. so going to be sick soon. I'm starting to trust Mr Ikeda....

Sunny Day

It rained last night.....strange... someone is crying i guess. Everytime when it rains i feel that someone out there is crying in any parts of the world. Perhaps rain brings a certain sadness...Its as if the Heaven is crying...for someone.

I played a team leader in today assignment . Pratically did nothing much just walking here and there looking at my 3 teams of friends doing the job while ensuring i know what is going on. Leader...leader...it got me thinking. Can i really lead ? If i can i would like to be the lead of an Air Force Unit. I wish to fly in the skies without limit. Up there no one can restrict my speed i'm just as free as a bird...nothing to worry about. I wish to love and be loved again...a hope which might come true with time. Will not jump into any ship hastily other wise it might sink because of not enough preperation.

Getting my performance costume this sunday. Missed gym session for 3 days already hope sunday i can go to gym a while before going to granny's place. Busy Busy need to memorize the PFD for monday hope i can get everything into my head but i going to just rest for the night by watching VCD and talking to people ! I also got the bus to sing B`day song to Dear Ah Sha. I also got Feli to become my Da Jie, ShanYu too! ^.^ A big log like me got 2 ladies to become my da jie seems funny if u see me walking beside them. Like gangster ! But i'm not gangster ok.

Without knowing i'm graduating soon... just when you thought everything might last forever suddenly u woke up to find tomorrow is the last day and its going to be heartbreaking....but a fresh start is coming so just get ready and wipe those tears away to embrace the new day.

No matter what happens in your life never never give up on yourself. If you do, no one can help you anymore. There will always be someone who will care and love you..do not be dishearten by a small setback in life. Learn from it and move on...it takes time and you must learn to forgive and forget....giving a chance if you must. If any of you cannot find anyone to talk to....come here and tag on my board i will answer no matter who you are. If you got my number great ! Just give me a call ^.^ because to me once i know you, once you enter my life you will never be forgotten.

Ok Orange Days !

Holiday

This Blog Will Not Be Updated For A While.

Time waits for no man....the future has no comfirmation for anyone...anything can happen.

Breezy Day

So whats up for the day ? First day i wear the jumpsuit for Field Training In CPTC. I guess the size was too big for me. Maybe the fatter WenHao can fit in but not now. The whole day was kind of BORING but still manage to inject some fun into it ^.^ thats life for me. If it is dull i must inject some life to it no matter what. I guess i will be burning a lot of fats by wearing that jump suit with another set of clothing beneath . The heat is too much for me, maybe by the end of the attachement i will become 70 kg ? But no way am i going down the scale after that ! It will make me look like a bamboo guy.

Pretty fun when doing line tracing today walk and walk but it was a disappointment when we did not manage to climb the distillation column. The SCENERY IS super NICE ! Any way if i get to hit the night shit on week 5 of my training i will definately find 2 hours of break and sit on the top of the column to CATCH shooting stars ! Maybe i drag some of my friends up there ^.^

Now i'm confuse weather to get Ixus 30 or Ixus 40 . Went to took a look at Ixus 40 yesterday but the price is 580 with other misc stuff i wonder if its worth it. Still looking around for a better price but if its about the same for any place i would just get it from the shop i went to yesterday. So people who hang out with me please beware ! I will be snapping you guys in your most natural moments !

Haha i played with the microphone on the charted bus today and it was pretty fun ! Feli~ says i was like a professional ! Woot... well i hope tomorrow i can play with it again ^.^ MAYBE jsut maybe i get the whole bus to sing eh ! Just like a school bus filled with students going for camp. Fun Laughter And Joy.... I miss them and they have return. Yes ! June will be fun !!!

OK no time to waste Orange Days !

Raine

I wonder where did the rain go
Was still watching Orange Day when i decided to come blog ^.^
Feel so warm inside my heart. Nice feeling
Well WenHao is a guy who is easily touched and a very empathy feeling guy.
Get angry easily at times but will be ok in 5 minutes ^.^
I use to have a very bad temper ^.^ but its different now ^.^
Well well...feel free to talk to me ok ^.^ all are welcome.
But i can get drained very easily so i need to take a rest a times ^.^
Those got my numbers CALL ! SMS ! If your phone book got no one to talk to
Please scroll down to "W" theres someone call wenhao who will always answer to you
Sometimes you have to speak up for yourself otherwise no one will ever know how you feel
Don't just keep quiet dear friends and ladies and handsome.

Argh I going to finish Orange Day Soon !! PY more Drama please next time we go Kino find ! Or Japan ! Kept drawing pictures in class today ^.^ Oh well well back to my show ^.^ Jap Drama
I guess only some has same intrest as me ^.^ warm warm feeling so nice ^.^

Hopping to get into sign language course ^.^ would help me in understanding people i guess as i guess i would be better in see how others facial expression means ^.^ and also communicate with those who can't speak normally like us ^.^ Anyone keen to join me ? No joke i'm serious...
Time is a problem though... need to plan ^.^

As for you Sherri DON'T ! i mean DON'T put sugars TO FLOWERS !

Back to show ^.^

Responsibility

Today was kind of a bad start for the day but well everything went very smoothly ^.^ except for somethings which i feel kind of heavy.

Got my personal protective equipment for the field training course and guess what those folks in the class volunteer me for the " Fire Warden Post " its kind of like a class chairman and stuff. And i got posted to Exxon Mobil ^.^ lucky me but this happiness i have no one to share with thats why i'm blogging it now to share with those who read this...on the surface i may be fine but deep down i remember someone always.

Well lots of responsibilites now. So going to be so busy matching everyone's schedule to get the best timing ^.^ more like " shitty job " to some but well someone got to do it ^.^ so well take this as an opportunity.

Going to watch Orange Day !! I learn a lot lately so any problem find me ok ^.^ So you guys might be wondering about me wanting to be attached again or not but i only got something to say " If got means got if don't have means don't have " but i still believe in nurturing love from nothing.

Orange Days

Started to watch orange day and it was so so so Sweet. A very Sweet Jap Drama. Well going to watch it slowly ^.^ Going overseas soon i guess haha had a talk with my Uncles and they will be taking me along on their next trip but i'm not sure when and i guess in this year end i hope to convinced my parents to put down their work and go overseas.

So where would i want to go most ? Japan country side i guess if possible just to learn their way of living. But i would love to go overseas with friends ! Money is a problem now but haha i have my means.

Mum willing to fork out 1k plus plus to get me to do laser surgery for my scars but i'm still wondering if i should do it. I need to take 7 days MC if i do it haha but the effect is good maybe next semester i would become so different. Just a little something for myself after such a long time of living with all these.

Esther hurry up and teach me all the *secret* ok haha. Should be going star gazing again this time round i need to find the most clear spot in Singapore. Had to wait till almost 3 am to see one shooting star is not an easy task. Been staring at the sky yesterday night but saw none i guess it is lucky of me to have seen one but i believe that star might bring some luck to me ^.^.

Serene Evening

Just came back from a cooling night....So what happen today ?? Aw kind of disappointing actually when the sushi buffet was canceled due to some problems face by a few of us. Was suppose to go to Night Safari as suggested by Ah Lim but the rain started pouring in so its canceled as well. Fret not it will be fufilled ^.^ So lots of up coming plans for the later few weeks. So those free please come along. Today we ate KFC though it was suppose to be sushi but everyone turn up in the evening still. See! everyone has put in some effort ^.^ Saw Yiting friend when she came to KFC but it was such a pity that she left as soon as she enter. We guys gave her a 9/10 score mostly but Yiting say such sights are common in SBM but well it was a nice one for us.

Not going to bore you guys with any of my stuff but a nice thing i saw today a very nice one....a shooting star so bright flew past near the moon. First time see one so clearly. Made a wish of course ^.^ Allan was saying why he didn't see it when he was staring at the Moon all the time but well ^.^ it depends on your luck after all.

Time to sleep lots of things to attend to tomorrow....Jya Ne

Raining

Where should i begin ^.^ Went with Py and her elder sister to Zouk to attend a graduation fashion show put up by Lasalle. On the way there their friends join in ^.^ Zouk seems to be more spacious than Double O but they lack of SEATS boy~ we were standing there while watching the show. But i must admit some of the costume the students design was splendid. But mainly for ladies wear perhap guy's costume are harder to design i guess but the models was so Suave and Beautiful. All of them i guess were professional or perhaps freelance models ? There is also a little girl who is a model, i wish i had a camera with me at that point of time so i can show you guys how young she was. I guess she is less than 10 years old i think. But well she is brave enough to be a model on the stage for such a young girl like her. After that Py and Me stayed over at Allan's house ^.^ Chat till wee hours before me and allan was knock out. Going to meet up with Bachelor's Club members later LOLX. Sounds funny eh. Didn't drink last night haha but ate a lot of junkies food. Good news my weight has come down to 72.8 Kg only Oh boy just like my Secondary school days. But this time round my body shape would not be so sloppy anymore ^.^. Lots of things to be done for this week.

Haha guess i going to set a date for my Basic Theory Test soon. Sherri want me to send her home lolx. Hope Dad can buy me the car ^.^ if not i going to get bike first. Bing Bing. NUS i aiming for their Applied Chemistry Degree. Can't wait to graduate and enter army ^.^ faster go University....get a girlfriend earn LOTS OF MONEY AND live happily ever after ^.^ Fairy tale like life ^.^ if only things were so easy haha but without failure one cannot learn so take things at a step.

Jya Ne~

Awaken

Woke up early in the morning to browse through the notes for the exam later but i guess i cannot absorb any of them into my head. Its just too much information to get inside my head in just one day but well i hope for the best.

Thats Me 

Raine

I guess i will be looking for someone by the name of Raine if any of you come across such a person please let me know. I would want to know that person. Ever since my final fantasy life i have been thinking about this name even till now. Seems like this name has some connection to me ? I suppose so. Raine..the name sounds so serene and lady like. I wish to meet such a person if given me a chance. Pretty free during weekends so lately i had lots of activities coming up. This saturday going to be fun. Well after that day i will load all the pictures up.

Today at gym with Brother Allan i met a new friend his name is Jeffery and guess his age ! 43 ! A father already and is still at gym he look like only 30 + but oh my goodness when he told me his age. He taught us some training techniques and it was pretty useful glad that i met him. A very nice man. So what can we learn from this. If you don't exercise you will definately aged faster so get out of that couch now and start exercising. Your cells die faster if u don't use them. So keep yourself healthy ok.

Many thanks to those around me ^.^ I even got to know many people from other classes lately because now i'm sort of a classrep for 55 students. What a big group haha but well perhaps its in my blood i feel i'm able to communicate with a lot of people too. Not shy or what but just feel so good. ^.^ Need to check the bus booking time hope i can finalise the best time for everyone by Firday as some Ingrates pissed me off today by showing me disrespect. He thinks hes BIG or his PLAN IS super or some shiet but heck i don't give a dammed to him. Just being an asshole with the way he talk to me, i can easily slam him to the ground now if i wanted to but i just wait and see what he gets in his life. Not going to pity such people they deserve it.

Busy Busy Going to check about NUS entry requirement soon And MDIS Entry requirement . After Army i wan to continue study regardless of what.

Muscles Ache

My chest and arm hurt a lot...guess i over did the biceps curl and those weight lifting. But i'm statisfied with the workout. Going to stick to this training schedule. By next semester i hope to see some changes in my body built. Oh going to work on those abs as well ^.^...Tomorrow another workout day woot ^.^ Thursday must study a while before i go out. So packed for the week. And finally i have an answer myself ^.^ to those who know please keep it to yourself those who do not know just don't take it to heart.

Pratical soon, got a B for my log book going to aim for an A the next one. Die die also must get into NUS just a few more GPA points. Ok busy for now

Raine where have you been...

I've been searching for you high and low....
But you cannot be found perhaps you have gone away from me... to someone better than me...
But why... why did you leave without warnings perhaps i could have done something...
Time has changed everything for us....but i suppose some things still stay.....
My heart just wish to sleep and hope that by the time its awake...i would see you again....raine will you return to my side once more.....i'm badly hurt...this time...

^.^ As usual broing lectures in school accompanied by dozing off during video classes. Well its pretty boring in Jurong Island. After my day there i went to gym with friend to tone myself up once more. And i get to listen to others problem again ^.^

Sometimes when you walk with someone holding your hand you feel so loved....but do you know this very hand could leave you one day... and would you just stop walking ... tears could flow ... heart will break but if during this time while holding this hand you reach your hands to others...you will be able to walk on even if that hand leaves you..... friends...family....people around whom you have touched before will come forward and lift you up.....now you have to be brave and step out....those who doesn't appreciate you just let them be....no point looking back and think of the good past because they are over already....look forward and just get on with life...i will be there to show you the way but you have to walk out yourself....slowly as time pushes those sad moments away from you, you would feel better with each passing day.......seems like old time when i would just sit at a corner of the class talking to people who are hurt from relationship...i guess thats me.....isn't it true sherri ? simone ? shuning ? esther ? ^.^ will be uploading stuff up soon so stay tune.

Good day

Woke up at 8 am went to join the youth culture festival. Preparing for the show in about July. Before that anyone know what is CARE ? If you don't then don't go jabbering about anything. Only make yourself sounds silly. Bystanders comments are always so superficial they just cannot seems to see the whole picture. I do care but if its not enough just iron things out why bottled it down and let it exploded. Those nurse care for patients do u feel it when u see them doing something for the patient ? Do you FEEL A THING ? All u can say is CARE but do you know WHAT KIND OF FEELING IS THAT ? NO you will never understand just be LOOKING and LISTENING you need to feel it but if you can't ? You cannot say that person doesn't care or its not enough just because you don't sense it feel it see it hear it or whatever. You feel care you don't speak of care, words can never justify a thing even if its something you wish to say badly because it is never the correct word to justify it. A spoilt gangster can never feel his mum's care but the mother care ! So ? Does that mean the kid doesn't feel it means the mum doesn't care ? Human emotions is a complex thing so why shoot comments about others just because you feel its right ? 10 years down the road you will feel it for yourself if someone were to say it to you.
Meaning less to justify it to you...you will definately learn it one day...the hard way or the good way it depends.

So where was i mm....the YCF thing. We did human bridging which involve 200 over people and i was one of the baseman where people stand on my shoulders ^.^ pretty painful when adults so heavy were to stand on you. But to see the whole bridging works its definately very fufilling. Made quite a lot of friends and learn about their life story. Its just about making the other party happy. Ask yourself this have you made your other half happy before ? Or were you always on the recieving end ? Or perhaps no matter what you do you just cannot make him/her happy ? Sometimes its just about that " Happiness " or adding value to each other life that will make a marriage or relationship last. Romance only last a while but true happiness last, its true. Some of you may not agree but if you go through it you will know. If you think i am wrong or what feel free to state examples.

Went to town with Allan to get gift for someone ^.^

Every Candy will melt in your mouth someday......

I've decided

I guess i have been thinking enough...enough to wear myself out. Its time to put an end to all this a time to let me move on. You enter my life i was so afriad to try...but i give this chance to prove that no one should be left alone..yet i was hurt in this process..i lost many things...i only gain you but to lose you again...you made my sky so bright but now it became dark...i thought it was all for naught and almost sank int depression...a helping hand pull me out...familiar faces started appearing but you where not there....your coldness...your attitude towards me doesn't seems i stand a chance..you had someone already or perhaps not.....it doesn't matter to me..it will still hurt me when i see you but i know it will go away...i have things i want to accomplish though you cannot be my love and wife this time perhaps in the future but i will not look or do anything for you anymore as one caring person i use to be..i will just be a normal person..a normal friend whom you can call forth to bring you out of the darkness...i will seek for my love again....if we are meant to be we will be together but if we are not there is no point for me to brood over it anymore..i will try my best not to look at you with that kind of eyes that care for you a lot i will just see you with a pair of eyes a normal friend would....it may be hard for me but its a decision i must make i cannot be possibly be thinking for you everynow and then....when it rain just now so heavily i could hear you...i told my friend someone is crying and i knew it was you....perhaps you really love that guy more than me, i guess its fate or my fault or anything...but its about time already.I've decided to let go of you....this pair of arms will no longer be there for you everytime anymore...i'm tired of loving you so much yet it goes unappreciated....the future is uncertain and nobody knows.Before this passage ends i wish to say this one more time " Baby I love you * Snuggle Snuggle * Big Hugs for babylyn and tatty "

Well today was a tiring day to begin with woke up thinking of someone. But well hope i don't dream so often about her anymore. Met up with Allan to do a photoshoot for Nigel. Took us quite a bit of effort but the effect was cool. I had the image of his drawing for the photoshoot in my HP but cannot upload it for now. After the photo shoot we chat at MacDonald till 6 pm. Went to meet up with Emeris and Ernest at Chomp Chomp. We ate a lot..stuff like sting ray...lala....satay....salad you tiao....jugs of sugarcane drinks...and many more ^.^ enjoyable night after that we went to coffeebean for a chat. I called for hot chocolate and it was pretty good ^.^ i love this life though i miss someone at times but i must let her go....so well pretty good with my friends now....relationship all this i guess i just let it come by itself....i'm different now as i learn a lot more....but still i have back my hands to care for you guys once more...love has hurt me once more but i will not turn it away if it knocks at my door again....i believe in giving chance and building love from nothing. This is my motto in life. Tired day and a freed mind...yes i still care a bit for you...the decision may be heartless but i still carrying something for you hope it will wash away with time or perhaps bring us back together but for now i leave it to time and i've decided.

Guys like the picture ma haha will be posting more when i get my digicam soon perhaps one day you will see my girlfriend oh ^.^

Wiro The SuperDrunk 2nd Row Far Right 

One Family 

I still think of you

I did made an entry before i got knocked out last night but blogger has some problems so my whole entry was gone. Going to meet up with Friends to do some phototaking session for a kind of project i guess. Well i wonder hows it like. People always say first love is hard to get over and no matter how long time washes it away a mark is always there. I guess for me it isn't about hard to get over i just wish to be with her again and love her. Feelings ? what do i feel ? What am i feeling ? I didn't notice her ever since the first day in school but now i keep looking at her. Why ? Cannot let go ? I accept the fact already but it doesn't make much of a difference. She still has a big place in my heart. It has been like almost 1 week plus since the incident. Conversation is very little between me and her.I try to make eye contact with her but does it help? She has been hanging out with someone perhaps she like that someone or that someone like her or both ways. I still love her though. Nothing i can do i guess or is there something i can do for a start with her. Its not really about the past feelings or what its about her. What should i do. Pisces always get hurt. I forever get hurt.

You think my blog shows that i'm occupied is really so true ? Do you know i think of her every now and then. I still have her everything with me but not her and her love! Perhaps she doesn't love me anymore not a bit of feeling at all. What am i hopping for ? Many knows perhaps she knows too. I wish i cannot feel anything for her so i won't feel so hurt but i can't. I read her blog everyday her entries with that someone..i wish i was that someone.But i guess it cannot be helped.

Yes yes went to Double O last night with bunch of friends. Place was smoky but its a relaxing place for chill out provided you get to sit down instead of standing up which some of the folks there seems to have difficulty with. Sx , Feli , Joanne was late ! by the time they came most of us was red! Clubbing is just about making friends but i guess its just a short time of fun and happiness. Wiro was the first one to get drunk. Went around hugging people. Zan too was the first girl to have fallen. I was still quite sober after a few drinks but my head starts to hurt so i stop we took some photos and perhaps i could upload it for all to see. Sx almost threw up on the cab home. Thanks for letting me alight home first. ^.^ Still during that time in my heart and mind i was thinking of you. Do you feel it ? Can you sense it ?

Wonderful

Tired.....very tired. Spend almost 12 hours at Jurong and having to spend so much time listening to garbage. Its eating me up. Well thought a lot for today. Perhaps let me begin with the most sensitive ones before i let you know what i did today ^.^

Well i'm not sure if YOU are reading this article which i hope you would. Yet again i stole many glance at you. While you were sleeping while you were writing. Its always so nice to see you fall asleep. If you say i have forgotten about you or trying to ignore you. I must say you are wrong. Lately my heart is in such a confusion that i don't know where to begin. The more i read your blog the more i'm hurt. Seems like someone has enter your life, as i am afriad you would be attached and my chances would be slimmer to hold you once more. I cannot help but feel so hurt i don't know why but its just so painful thus i decided to shut myself out first. I did some soul searching and realise something....you still have a place in my heart....if you are attached or going to be attached i guess i can only be happy for you but that doesn't mean i have given you up. If i have to finish NS before i can get you back i would. Still i hope you take care of yourself silly girl.

Today was kind of dramatic haha. Neyton called and said he will be late and when he turn up he ended up without a gate pass. He had no choice but to go back home and take AND spend few hours of journey to get back to CPTC. Well during lunch break me and Neyton hithc a ride on Mr Goh Mazda 3 to get some food for our friends and we got KFC. Was quite a fun thing to do hope i get to sit in his car again. During Mr Goh's lecture i was urged by my friends to join in the ORIGAMI activity haha FOLDING FLOWERS FROM PAPER NAPKINS. I was enjoying myself .I'm not afriad of standing in front of many people ^.^ i made the flower and it was suppose to be given to her but i felt scared to present it to her so i presented it to AH SHA.

While waiting for our charted bus home i join the guys for BASKETBALL that feeling was so GREAT. Imagine i was like doing some routine stuff last time because of some commitment now i am like a fully charged up TIGER! I love my life now but i still wish to find someone who can love me too. I know that time management and friends play a very important role in maintaining a relationship. You need to be recharge otherwise your relationship will suffer.

Reading Bridget Jones Diary now. Hope after this book i can get a good book to read also.

When you are in love you heart is covered in a warm blanket but when the love is gone your heart is exposed and it will feel so painful.

Still waiting for SX reply should be going to Double Os with them. Very exciting ^.^

Tiring But Full Day

Tired....this training is going to drained me of my energy but not bad also. Play cards and sleep during lesson. Watch people play basketball. ^.^ Wonderful no restriction no nothing. Going to enjoy my future days man haha. As usual GET a Japanese GirlFriend haha like Ayumi ^.^. Went to Aunt House after class. We chatted for a while and saw Cousin Irene . As usual the sweet demure girl with with good command of english. Like talking to her. HaHa She was with little cousin only 2 and a half year old. Went for dinner at Ang Mo Kio central bought the little guy ice cream...he was so scared of me when i saw him the first time but today he drop his straw and i picked it up for him. He took it and look at me. How beautiful those eyes were and the purity of it. If i can i won't want to enter adulthood too much lies and many ingrates. But its ok joining more activities before going army ^.^ make more friends and going overseas heehee.

Had ramen and dumplings with Aunt as Irene had to take little Boi back home for dinner ^.^ quite full today haha though its at s-11 but the food is good ok! Haha ok Allan is here going to do some transfering and going to get busy soon. I guess i end here. Getting Digicam le but Lady Felicia told me to do more research haha Yar if not i sure just buy Cannon Ixus 4 . Hope attachement can get about 2k going to get a Dell laptop ^.^. Dell laptop is good . Wait till i show you Allan's one super powerful. But well his LapTop going to USA for one month. Haha can't do data transfer for a moment ^.^ going to get one myself too so YESH! OK i end here too lengthy not good too short also not good. Thats about all.

I believe that good or bad things in life happens for a reason.Take care all. Not everyone out there is kind you know ^.^

First Day In Jurong Island

First day in Jurong Island so whats my feeling ? Well hard to describe but if you had to travel so far to sit and have to bear with 2 weeks of lectures of about 8 hours you would find it HELL or say you are just like being in Jail haha. Because we cannot just leave the place as if its NYP. But the journey there is nice. Morning Sun and calm sea....how refreshing perhaps when i get my digicam soon i will get pictures for all of you to see. Still remember seeing sunrise with cherwyn and shawn haha Its like an EGG YOLK Rising and it happen to be low tide so there is like an island in the middle of the sea. We look at it as if it was our precious. How wonderful ^.^ took us about 2 hours to see the whole event. Very nice scenery. ^^ So one day going to get you guys out to see it again ^^. Chalet hard to plan the last one was like so garbage. Unless we bring in more stuff lolx MORE DRINKS ! Going to be even better. Still remember how i got drunk by drinking undistilled Voldka haha end up drag Sherri to the pool and talk. After that everyone starts to jump into the pool. ^^ I like those events so soothing ^^ except for the occassional hiccups. Well guess i going to stuck with this training sh*t at Jurong island but haha not for long started to notice someone in TP can be good friend with that person haha seems friendly. Lets hope for the best ^^.

What a Full Stomach Day

Haha from the title you must have know that i ate a lot. Today begin with rain ^.^ my favourite rainy days not because they symbolise sad things or what but to me rain is a wonderful thing. Rain to me is refreshing and new. A very great feeling indeed . Planned to go swimming with Zy and Brothers but rain too big so plan cancel and i was still at Grandma house had Roasted Pork Ribs for lunch and my sweet loving grandma sat with me as i eat. I use to eat while watching TV but i begin to understand the importance of sitting down and eat together. The bonding is there or should i say the time to bond a friendship , love and family ties starts there.

Had a long chat with my aunts and uncles last night. Their smiles are so bright which really makes me so happy. I live this life so far worrying for many people but when times i worry for myself those around doesn't seems to know but i know that keeping silence and worrying alone isn't going to help. Action has to be taken so that the problem can be solve but worrying for something or someone for too long can be bad so its a lesson to be learn.

My dearest cousin will ORD this June he will be taking a Bachelor Degree in Finance Or Marketing after coming out and as he said will take me out again.Before he send me home we went to eat Fried Hokkien Mee very nice going to take you guys there someday ^^. I'm looking forward to all this. Also one of my cousin told me to make plans for my further education and i have set my goal in getting an A in this attachement and scoring full As in my last semester to ensure that my overall GPA will rise to 3.5 which currently now is 3.15. I'm not going to just stop with a diploma i'm going to pursue what i want in life. Going to submit my application to NTU and NUS after my attachement and if they accept me as a provisional Student, after my final semester if my results are not bad perhaps they will accept me as their student completely.

Tomorrow going to meet up with Sx , Jo and perhaps some beautiful ladies from my class to make our way to Jurong Island for our training progamme. Also next sunday will be joining some youth club recommended by my uncles whom they themselves are involve. Life is so much like my secondary school days packed with so much activity and laughter. Though sad things just occured lately but life has to go on. I blame no one for this but i just leave it to fate for the future of both of us ^.^ If you ask me do i still love someone ? I guess you all know the answers right ^.^ shall not carry on about this :P. I'm a class rep for many years in my life and it is always my responsibilites to care for my classmates. Though i may not be your class rep the next sem CP0305 i am still your friend ^^.

This is for all those how has known me since the day i reach my hand out to you.
How time flies my friends
How many days has passed since we last chat and laugh together
You and I we have shared many laughters and tears
I will not forget any of you even if i'm gone from the surface of the earth one day but do not weep for me on the day you pray for me for i would not want to see tears at all. Smile ok ^.^
My heart has all of the memories and i am renewing them everyday with you
Yet even though i have negelected you guys for a period of time
When i needed you to lift me up . You guys are always there. Never was i abandon and left to cry alone.
This i must thank all of you. My old friends my new friends. They never let me walk alone.
Each chapter of my life never fails to have all of you inside. I have learnt a lot recently and know of many places of delicaces its time we hang out once more. Like a big family once again.
My friends were to first to celebrate my teenage birthday. I use to be alone but i found them. I can still remember i was sitting outside the chalet reading papers and all of them emerge with this candles lighted cake. They sang me a song. A song i cannot forget. Simone Yiting Allan Puiyee Kimwee Jay MeiZhu Nigel Kenny Esther Sherri AhGuan Ck EeMei Emeris Ernest. Cannot forget at all. Shuning i still remember the stars u gave me you know. Every letter we wrote in class i still have them. Though they are yellowish now but i still remember you and care for each and everyone of you. You may all think i have neglected you but i am not such a person. Those who know will understand those who don't perhaps you will know someday.I still care no matter what happend before. "Cheer up everyone no matter what happens in life...no matter how dark the road ahead seems to be friends will always be there to show you the way...it just take you a little effort to walk on...very soon you will see smiles again" copyright protected this is my catch phrase haha. Going out to meet Allan so take care folks.

Esther have you planned the overseas trip already ? Time to get people to go ^^ me going NS soon don't wait till i botak then cannot go T_T. Tomorrow i guess its going to rain as well.^^ refreshing ^^

Beautiful Begining

Saturday met up with Roy and Calvin for lan gamming got to know them so much more. I thought i knew them enough but in fact they too are talkative bunch of guys. Decided to pick up guitar and learn. Not to play to charm ladies or cheat them which some of you may think it that way. Just to play it for every. To play it and let them know how beautiful life still is. I'm not letting a small setback to stop me from advancing. I'm still getting fine and i have all the support i need. The very least i have to do is to face it and accept it.

After my Lan Gamming Session with roy and calvin i went to look for my aunt. Chatted with her for hours and felt so carefree again. I'm free from all the worrying for someone which perhaps didn't realise anything but its the past. I'm not going to dwell on it. Whats yours is yours whats never yours will never be yours.

Called up Mr Soh and check for the Charted Bus service and he say i will take bus with my own classmates because some NYP students will be driving to Jurong Island and the same for some TP students so well i get to be with my friends ^^. I wasn't home at all last night i slept at cousin house. He return from army too and we chat just like the old days when i was so carefree. Both of us has aged somehow hes 23 now and i'm 19 hes like my big brother and still i will keep going over to keep this bond. He bought me chicken sandwich from delifrance and we watch tv like we used to.When i woke up his dad would buy me food to eat and i would accompany grandma during the day now i came back because i need to get changed and meet up with my brothers later at about 7pm i need to go have my family gathering. Going to be fun ^^ Boy i miss out those time but they are still there.

Esther girl ah take care of yourself oh we going beach soon ma so be sure to be in tip top condition . Going to watch House of wax mith Darlene and Mummy Next Saturday or Sunday . Going to meet roy church mates even Cousin ask me to go too. HeeHee not going to condem anyone also for their comments.

In life there is setback but if you let this setback take over you. You cannot stand up anymore.
But look around you everyone has to go through it and accept the fact. Its a lesson to learn and never to repeat again. Life is still beautiful and some of my friends are going through rough patch also. I am always here for you guys feel free to look me up and let me hear your stories again. Few days back i may have fallen but i am back for good. Live life to the fullest and open your heart to those who come across your path. I'm not going to build a wall around my heart anymore . Love haha is wonderful but well just leave it to fate. I've closed my old book and this is my new book ^^ i'm including you all in this new chapter of my life. Who knows i get a girlfriend soon haha. Jokes aside for the moment. Everyone take care ^^.

Beautiful Begining

Saturday met up with Roy and Calvin for lan gamming got to know them so much more. I thought i knew them enough but in fact they too are talkative bunch of guys. Decided to pick up guitar and learn. Not to play to charm ladies or cheat them which some of you may think it that way. Just to play it for every. To play it and let them know how beautiful life still is. I'm not letting a small setback to stop me from advancing. I'm still getting fine and i have all the support i need. The very least i have to do is to face it and accept it.

After my Lan Gamming Session with roy and calvin i went to look for my aunt. Chatted with her for hours and felt so carefree again. I'm free from all the worrying for someone which perhaps didn't realise anything but its the past. I'm not going to dwell on it. Whats yours is yours whats never yours will never be yours.

Called up Mr Soh and check for the Charted Bus service and he say i will take bus with my own classmates because some NYP students will be driving to Jurong Island and the same for some TP students so well i get to be with my friends ^^. I wasn't home at all last night i slept at cousin house. He return from army too and we chat just like the old days when i was so carefree. Both of us has aged somehow hes 23 now and i'm 19 hes like my big brother and still i will keep going over to keep this bond. He bought me chicken sandwich from delifrance and we watch tv like we used to.When i woke up his dad would buy me food to eat and i would accompany grandma during the day now i came back because i need to get changed and meet up with my brothers later at about 7pm i need to go have my family gathering. Going to be fun ^^ Boy i miss out those time but they are still there.

Esther girl ah take care of yourself oh we going beach soon ma so be sure to be in tip top condition . Going to watch House of wax mith Darlene and Mummy Next Saturday or Sunday . Going to meet roy church mates even Cousin ask me to go too. HeeHee not going to condem anyone also for their comments.

In life there is setback but if you let this setback take over you. You cannot stand up anymore.
But look around you everyone has to go through it and accept the fact. Its a lesson to learn and never to repeat again. Life is still beautiful and some of my friends are going through rough patch also. I am always here for you guys feel free to look me up and let me hear your stories again. Few days back i may have fallen but i am back for good. Live life to the fullest and open your heart to those who come across your path. I'm not going to build a wall around my heart anymore . Love haha is wonderful but well just leave it to fate. I've closed my old book and this is my new book ^^ i'm including you all in this new chapter of my life. Who knows i get a girlfriend soon haha. Jokes aside for the moment. Everyone take care ^^

New Begining

Perhaps ending the relationship was a good thing. Though i feel sad about this relationship i had with jerelyn ( ex now but we still friends ) but i have no regrets ^.^ after all, its fate so well, i leave it to fate if we are destined to be together a not. If cannot be lovers just be good friends is also not a bad thing.

I guess i neglected my friends a lot when engaged in a relationship but well its my first time so i'm learning what to do and what not to do. I kind of felt suffocated during that relationship at times but i guess we should all try our very best ^.^

Sunday i was dealt a blow by my ex so being the soft hearted me i break down very fast and it was the most most painful thing i have ever felt in my whole life.As i said it was my first relationship after all so kind of sad for all this to happen. I learn not to be too sensitive and possessive which might give girls stress haha. Though i lost someone i love but through out this first big event in my life which lasted about a 4 days i gained a lot more.

I patch things up with Mum And Dad , Sister , I gained back all my friends , Learned to be more mature in handling feelings of losses and yes i am single. I must thanks a lot of people who has been calling me to talk to me and accompany me. Sherri , Esther , Simone ,Ming Hui , Yiting , PuiYee , Emeris , Shuning , Nigel , Kenny , Liang Guan , Sharon , Felicia , Shanyu , Joanne , Shi Xiang , Irene , WenCong's mother , Irene's mother , my parents , my sister..and many many more.They have been supporting me for very long and i really feel the care i wanted. I realise that i've grown quiet when i was in the previous relationship and so afriad to speak i guess due to stress during those time. Now i will use all my time to know them again though i knew some of them for 7 over years already its better to be late than never. Time to forge those bonds again.

Come to think of it i was quite silly to have gone into the relationship perhaps i was enjoying being loved and cared for but doesn't really know the other party well thus resulting in such outcome. As i said i never regret. Though i can accept this fact that it is over but i still feel sad because someone's love was lost but it takes some time to heal completely. Well jerelyn is still around to be my friend so just start everything from normal. After all if someone really love you, after sometime he/she will come to you eventually you do not have to begged or what, just be normal and true to everyone. I will just care for everyone again though i neglected some before i hope it isn't too late for them to notice that a person does change for the better ^^ so sorry guys just that i've been plagued by many things in my head so sometime if i neglected you let me know just be direct with me and i would too let you know why. I feel that if someone ever neglected you, you should not feel angry or disappointed as everyone undergoes ups and downs in life if you never try to understand that person's reason you will just feel so angry and sad.

I realise being in love is not just about feelings. You think feelings can make your relationship survive forever ? Feelings fade with time even for married people TRUST me on this one i had many conversation with my aunts and this is what they told me. So its not only about feelings there is a lot more to it if you are unwilling to commit then don't go into one . You need to compromise..give and take....understanding....tolerance....tactful with words...most important of all be forgiving....it never hurt to give another one a chance as you never really know if that person is lying or not.

But if its time to let go and start afresh with that person as friend just accept it.( I'm getting naggy with my new philosophy of life ) Well its true also. So if any of you need a listening ear i am here i've gone through pain before like having crush on some girl for 6 years , first love break ups guess thats all but of course i know a lot more ^^ so ever need someone to confide in i'm always around . Hope i can get to learn to become a counsellor. Of course i cannot comfort myself neither can you alone. You need people around you to walk with you. Humans are all the same when they get hurt themself they don't know what to do.

Treat people well and people will do the same to you.
Life is good for me meeting Roy and gang for some lan gamming tomorrow and going to visit wencong's mother . Next week even fun i can get to know TP GIRLS and guys . Not despo but its good to know more people ^^ Irene thank you though you may not read my blog or what you really do knock some sense into me. Ok tired liao i go sleep Bye Friends

WenHao