T_T

Sigh Sigh Sigh

Nights off . . . so i came home to rest for a while . . .

Got posted to Arty Institution . . . but i'm trained as a mortar spec . . .

Bad news . . . after this 6 weeks of training will be posted to 5 SIR i think . . .

I DUNAWN ! ! ! Its damm far lohz . . . at Bukit Panjang . . . HAI ! ! ! I DUNWAN TO SPEND THE REST OF MY NS LIFE THERE . . . .

Still got hope . . . out of the 13 CPLs 4 will be chosen as Instructor . . .

I got like 30% chance to get it . . . base on your knowledge and of course your attitude . . .

I hope i can become instructor here . . . its like so far to travel to bukit panjang everytime you book out . . . Khatib is so much nearer to my house . . .

Sigh . . . Quite low morale . . . depress . . . arghhhh damm sad . . . . i wonder if i can shake out of this feeling . . . hai . . . can only hope . . . but i'll do what i can to bring up my chances . . . to stay as instructor . . .

I'M CPL AW W H

^^ Passed ! ! ! I've cleared the 28km road march which starts from Thursday 10pm till Friday 5 am plus about 1 hour graduation in Full Battle Order attire immediately after the march . . .

The march was long and tiring . . . i almost want to opt out after 20km . . . because of the terrain we were marching on . . . slopes !!!!!!!!!!!! quite a few opt out of the march during the 24th km . . . . while the rest push on for their final achievement in BSLC . . . i'm glad i did it . . . and only God knows how i did it . . .

I basically don't feel like talking throughout the march . . . my foot is covered with blisters even though i wore two socks . . . coupled with gortex boots . . . my waist was bruised because the load was resting on my waist most of the time . . . during rest points when some of my friends took off their boots we could see smoke . . . yes smoke from their boots LOL . . . even we are emmitting smoke from our body . . . we were very warm and our shirts are soaked wet with our own perspiration . . . one of my bunk mates even got his own boot lace YES BOOT LACES wet with his own perspiration . . . its not easy . . . i haven't caught a good sleep since then till now which is like 9 pm ?

Whats the highlight of the march ? I was the front scout throughtout the march with my GUARDS sergent . . . lol basically we can call this 28km march a "Fast March" there is a big difference between a normal march and a fast one . . . fast march is as if you are running but because of the load you carry you cannot really run but walk very briskly . . .

During the march we pass by NTU hostel . . . a group of very beautiful ladies boarded a cab and went pass us . . . they wave at my platoon mates lol ^^ it did give them some moral boosting . . . some even say jokingly that if they wave again . . . he would dash into the cab ahah ^^

Road marches is a task that requires you to overcome all physical pains and focus on your mental endurance . . . the moment i stop walking all the pain will set it . . . the moment i step on a rocky surface my blister will hurt like hell . . .

I'll continue later . . .

I caught a cold . . . a real bad one . . . now i'm going to see a doctor ^^

Blink ^^

Just went to watch the Jack Neo's movie . . . i think its alright if you're looking for some laugh ^^

Turning 21 ! ! ! This Thursday . . . i'll be doing my final 28KM road march in SISPEC . . . the guys will probably come " take care " of me . . .

Will i celebrate ? Probably not . . . i mean well , what do you mean by birthday celebration . . . get a cake ? people ? buffet ? put them together and you make a wish . . . thats birthday ? i don't see the meaning behind it actually . . . birthday is like a day where it marks a brand new year on earth . . . maybe not . . . ahah i'm not sure . . . i don't have that "Happy Birthday Mood " . . .

I just live day to day . . . and the DAYS are passing by much faster than i thought T_T i'm aging man~ maybe next time when i'm attached or married or what so ever status . . . celebrating birthday wouldn't be such a bad idea . . . and of course not during NS time . . .

Maybe i'll just make a wish this time . . . maybe no cakes in front of me . . . i'll probably have whole meal bread and a hard boil egg as my "cakes" thats what you have for breakfast in camp sometimes . . . noodles might be good ^^ haha

Wish ? Simple . . . i'll keep wishing every year for the same thing till it occur . . .

It isn't really a birthday wish . . . its actually my wish for what i want in this lifetime . . . so it comes in a package of " Setting up own family , Carssssss , house big enough for everybody , happy old age retirement with many grand children , not having to worry about day to day living "

^^ Its that simple isn't it . . . the house and car is definately not a problem . . . :P the family part is ahah . . . if cupid doesn't knock on my door i guess i can become a monk lol . . . like how esther always say~ . . . "Be a monk wenhao , good for you" !@#!@#!@

Guess i have to agree with my Instructor . . . " wenhao , what you lack is confidence in yourself "

^^ But well :P Maybe there isn't any drive in me anymore . . . ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZzzzzZzzzzzzzz

I'm tired . . . time to sleep

Hahah i gave away 140 bucks this year ^^

Woo hoo my sister playing for me ^^
My Lovely Grandmother ^^
This Is A Lively Chinese New Year ^^

Just came home after "giving" away $140 bucks lol but well i don't feel the pinch . . . maybe i'm happy with the atmostphere :P

My lucky star today was my sister ahaha she helped me won $70 ++ BUT after she left for home i started to "give" money back . . . Cousin Cong keep asking me to raise the stake lol BUT WTF it backfired 3 times and my winnings are gone . . . i had to "refill" from my own wallet . . . i'll return the next year ahah

At one point during the day i suddenly thought of " you ALL know who " . . . quite miss the time where i get Cousin to fetch her to my family side . . . she would smile and greet everybody . . . of course shes my lucky star ^^ she would sit there quietly watch me play then i would ask her to give the cards a gentle touch ^^ then TADA . . . money starts rolling in :P those where the days.

Well . . . take care of yourself . . . hope you have a good piggy year with your beau . . .

Hope the posting i get this coming friday is good >.<>.<

Happy Chinese New Year Folks . . . hope you guys win big big

Back and Glad ^^

I'm back for the holiday ^^ HOO YA ! ! !

Heres a short review on the assessment exercise . . .

Wanderer : Day check point found 3/4 Night Check point 0/2 with Full Battle Order

Basically we screwed up the night one because the check point CANNOT BE FOUND even when we scout the area for 2 hours . . . it wasn't so bad for the day as we found 3 out of 4 check points ^^
Grand Slam : GOOD . . .

Wait till i get the picture to show you folks ^^i was my section harbouring commander and had to set up my side of the base . . . it took us a while to get things up and after setting up my job was done, then its time for mission. I was the enemy most of the time while my section mates assault me . . . because my assessment was done long ago so during this exercise others were given a chance to lead the section and the sergents will see what they are capable of ^^ but because every mission only 7 men will leave the harbouring base the rest will stay and help in manning the base. When they return from mission a fresh new 7 men will be picked for the new mission , but the only one who will be assess on will be the section commander so i was sent out as one of the men under a section commander as the rest was very tired from the previous mission. After one mission under the lead of my section mate . . . i was shagged out lol then people will scold you " SHAGGED CANNOT THINK PROPERLY AH ? "When i wear helmet half my common sense is gone and i basically become a walking zombie who . . . :P but it was fun . . . it is tough but we learn how to enjoy all this tough moments.

So the field assessment pass very fast and i was extracted after the night ambush mission to prepare for the OfficerCadet School interview the next day. Quite shocked that i was selected out of the rest for this interview . . . i'm happy yet i was afriad because its not easy to pass the interview . I sat for the interview already . . . vetted by some high ranking officers and warrant officers . . . i was a bit nervous . . . i'm not sure if they are impressed with me but well ^^ if i'm able to get in i'll have to be prepared to suffer more T_T heard from Dickson that Jungle Confidence Course is back for the cadets so if i'm so lucky as to enter the Officer's Corps i will have to go through that course . . . but i hope i don't go in ^^ scared . . . scared i can't survive ahah . . .

After OCS interview, i was short listed for 7 SIB Sniper selection but when i went there and listen to the talk i withdraw myself out ^^ because ^^ the 7 SIB is under GUARDS so after the Sniper Course i would have to undergo GUARDS conversion course T_T because i'm a bit tired of out field training so i decided that i'm not intrested so i withdraw ^^

Finally i'm going to graduate as Coporal after next week ^^ . . .10 weeks is over le ^^

I'm very happy to go through SISPEC . . . its tough but it really makes u stronger . Everyone will tell you its tough but when you look at all the hardship you went through its sweet in the end. I enjoy those moments where we leave camp very early and come back the next day morning . . . its tiring and tough but when everything ends , we would sit down and clean arms then when you turn and look around you , you see your friends shagged out face with messed up camo cream laughing at you . This moment . . . this memory . . . money can't buy them , although i injured myself a few times i never regretted coming in . . . yes i do complain about the comfort level here but deep down i know i achieve somethings some people might not achieve.

Hey Nigel ! ! ! Go for SISPEC . . . you won't regret it . . .

So bascially i'm doing well ^^ but a lot of aches here and there ahah ^^

Back and going soon . . .

~>.<~ extremely tired . . . just finish my section live firing at 3 am and i just book out at 7 am . . . but i have to report back to camp at 8 pm . . . not much free time today . . .

Basically my saturday was burned for that T_T but well 1 more week to go and i'll have a short break . . .

Finally ! ! ! Heres a quick review of what i did for the week . . .
Standard Obstacles Course ^^ i cleared : 9 mins 09 seconds
I feel very happy about that because ! ! ! ! i always stuck at the low rope and i can't climb up the rope with one try SO my timing for the course always hit 11 mins which is a fail ~ . . .

By the way for Basic Section Leadership course the passing timing is 10 mins 30 seconds and for Advance Section Leadership course the passing timing is 9 mins 30 seconds .

All the physicall fitness tests are over and i'm clear from them while those who haven't clear those have to keep taking the test till they pass . . .

Lastly i will be gone for a whole week . . . YES ITS exercise " Grand SLAM " out field . . . sleeping in the field . . . . and the exercise is coupled with " Wanderer " where a few people in a small team find check points all over the place . . . its a FINAL navigation test where you wander around and get lost >.< . . . So what awaits after all this is a short break ^^ because of Chinese New Year . . . YAY

I'll give a final review soon about my 3 months of training . . . after which i will be posted out ( Hopefully ) and more new stuff to come ^^

Ouch~

^^ Home sweet home after field training >.<

This time i did not roll onto the road ! ! ! but ! ! ! . . . . this is how the story begin

I was tasked as the sub machine gunner . . . the weapon is damm heavy plus the other stuff i carry with me . . . me together with 6 of my other section mates form a detail as fighting patrol at certain place . . . remember all this are mock battles . . . no one is injured in this exercise except me LOL . . . cause i blur blur when i wear helmet . . .

So we have to engage enemy when we see them . . . then as we approach to an enemy site . . . the first 3 person walking in front of me did not see a hole in front but ! ! ! they did not fell into it . . . when its my turn to dash out . . . BOINK ! my left foot went into the HOLE ! ! ! my weapon dropped , helmet drop . . . fall flat on mimosa plants which is damm thorny . . .worst still i twisted my ankle . . . but still i have to carry on with the mission otherwise the whole assessment thing would be screwd up . . . lol >.< after mission cleared a new task was given. . .

I was tasked as the section commander to lay ambush on enemy at certain location and many weapon system gunners for me to deploy . . . very tiring when i have to deploy them at the ambush site . . . made a mistake by deploying my men too near to the killing zone where the enemy are suppose to come . . . but overall its still ok >.< thats an assessment for me so luckily all the booby traps i set trigger off and we get to return back first for a shower :P

^^ Damm fun at times but ! ! ! the palces i went this time is full of spiders as big as your palm ! ! ! you know those normal spider webs where u jsut sweep off with your hands ? The spider webs created by these huge spiders doesn't get damaged so easily . . . we got caterpillars running into our pocket notebooks lol . . . and on of my section mate fell down into a pool of oiy muddy water T_T when we saw that . . . all of us "SIAM" that area and find a drier place to conceal ourself >.<