As humans we tend to make a lot of mistakes in our life ; be it in relationships , work , marriage , friendship or daily lifestyle . . .
How do we correct it ? How do we learn from it ? Or did we just push it back to the end of our head and simply forget about it ?
From what i see for the past 20 years for myself . . . humans only learn from mistakes when it really affects them . . . its either they don't realise it or they simply can't be bothered with it . . .
I think when a person is really affected by the mistakes they make , they will then try to learn and correct it . . . but the first part to learning is to accept things . . . just like having lessons in class if you don't accept those theories taught most likely you would be forcing yourself to remember rather than learning it . . . but if we accept it , it would be much easier for us to understand and master it . . .
But mistakes are very much often harder to be accepted . . . it takes a while before we allow ourself to fall fully and accept that we are in the wrong . . . sometimes what you do in everyday's life seems the right way to you but to others its a wrong thing to do . . . so what should we do ?
Mistakes . . . i would say is a society thing . . . if society deem this action as a mistake it will be a mistake . . . but sometimes we personally view it differently . . .
So this guy rape your girlfriend . . . you decided to teach him a lesson yourself because you can no longer keep your cool and to actually violate someone so precious to you angers you more , because you love her so much you don't wish such a thing ever happen to her . . .
See the root of this ? It stems from a very good cause but to beat someone up is wrong !
I guess weather it is a mistake or not , only we ourselves will understand it and resolve it eventually . . .
"To fall is not a bad thing , To fall and not get up is a bad thing"
"We fall many times before we learn how to walk to our moms"
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
The road too short . . .
I saw someone from my secondary school when i finished my lesson yesterday . . . If i recall properly her name was Wantian . . . i think that should be her name . . . she change quite a lot since then and i must say shes not a bad girl . . .
Back to what happen today . . .
While clearing the circuit reversing technique into the T box~ . . . i was told to drive out to begin my new subject which is right turn . . . everything was smooth but when i got too comfortable i start to go faster . . . there comes a point when i cannot stop in time T_T at the junction BECAUSE THE LIGHT TURN AMBER SUDDENLY . . . thankfully no one was crossing . . . then it began to rain heavily and . . . my car float~ . . . aqua something something they call it where your wheels has not much contact with the road itself . . . and a longer time is required for me to slow the car down . . .
^^ Ps3 out soon . . . another 5 months time . . . but i should be in camp still haha . . .
Continue another time . . . .
Back to what happen today . . .
While clearing the circuit reversing technique into the T box~ . . . i was told to drive out to begin my new subject which is right turn . . . everything was smooth but when i got too comfortable i start to go faster . . . there comes a point when i cannot stop in time T_T at the junction BECAUSE THE LIGHT TURN AMBER SUDDENLY . . . thankfully no one was crossing . . . then it began to rain heavily and . . . my car float~ . . . aqua something something they call it where your wheels has not much contact with the road itself . . . and a longer time is required for me to slow the car down . . .
^^ Ps3 out soon . . . another 5 months time . . . but i should be in camp still haha . . .
Continue another time . . . .
Sunday, April 23, 2006
How ?
I saw Simone's nick : Live for yourself and not others . . . but how ?
Do things that you yourself enjoy ? Do things which you wanted ?
Can we really just live for ourself without affecting others ?
Its true that we should live for ourself and not others . . . and theres nothing wrong in doing so
You lead a life base on your own decision and not others . . .
I was once told this " Wenhao . . . you don't live for one person . . . you live for yourself " , "I'm sure there is much more things out there for you , wenhao " . . .
True , because when you live for one person . . . your life would become meaningless . . . as people would tend to forge everything onto that person . . . when this very person leaves or disappear . . . it becomes meaningless to live . . .
So i ask " How ? " and her reply to me was " Slowly you will begin to understand , there is no rush for anything "
Sometimes when we seek answers . . . we get some replies like that , but that is also a form of answer, isn't it ? Its just that that answer given isn't direct enough to solve your question . . . i felt that when we often question about such issuse , normally those are the answers we get but they are the right answers . . . we can only understand it with time . . . and only after we ourself have gone through it . . .
So i guess i leave it up to time , to tell me how to live for myself and not for others . . .
Do things that you yourself enjoy ? Do things which you wanted ?
Can we really just live for ourself without affecting others ?
Its true that we should live for ourself and not others . . . and theres nothing wrong in doing so
You lead a life base on your own decision and not others . . .
I was once told this " Wenhao . . . you don't live for one person . . . you live for yourself " , "I'm sure there is much more things out there for you , wenhao " . . .
True , because when you live for one person . . . your life would become meaningless . . . as people would tend to forge everything onto that person . . . when this very person leaves or disappear . . . it becomes meaningless to live . . .
So i ask " How ? " and her reply to me was " Slowly you will begin to understand , there is no rush for anything "
Sometimes when we seek answers . . . we get some replies like that , but that is also a form of answer, isn't it ? Its just that that answer given isn't direct enough to solve your question . . . i felt that when we often question about such issuse , normally those are the answers we get but they are the right answers . . . we can only understand it with time . . . and only after we ourself have gone through it . . .
So i guess i leave it up to time , to tell me how to live for myself and not for others . . .
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Nice Song !
Got a nice song ^^
You are my love by Yui Makino
Jap Version Translation . . . theres another English version which i have not heard of.
On your cheek, wet with rain
It smells like tears
You, the traveller with a kind face
It echoes silently...
This nostalgic melody
The forgotten memories...
Let's awaken them
This dream is the beginning
Of a journey carried on small wings
To the place where feelings disappear
The two of us...
Are crossing over the faraway sky and sea
In the black of night
I will shine
You, who have such a kind face
I miss you
. . . . . . I still can't smooth out my driving -_- the accelerator pad is driving me nuts . . . over all still ok . . . the foot work needs practices . . . T_T i wonder if i can complete the subjects with the rest of my lessons otherwise i have to book additional lessons -_- more
You are my love by Yui Makino
Jap Version Translation . . . theres another English version which i have not heard of.
On your cheek, wet with rain
It smells like tears
You, the traveller with a kind face
It echoes silently...
This nostalgic melody
The forgotten memories...
Let's awaken them
This dream is the beginning
Of a journey carried on small wings
To the place where feelings disappear
The two of us...
Are crossing over the faraway sky and sea
In the black of night
I will shine
You, who have such a kind face
I miss you
. . . . . . I still can't smooth out my driving -_- the accelerator pad is driving me nuts . . . over all still ok . . . the foot work needs practices . . . T_T i wonder if i can complete the subjects with the rest of my lessons otherwise i have to book additional lessons -_- more
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Hot Pot . . .
^^ Today passes very fast . . .
Head for driving lesson . . . pass the mini test . . . taught on how to use gear 4 . . . travel at 70km/h . . .
Pretty fun . . . exciting when the car pick up speed faster and faster . . . BUT ! the instructor brake for me . . . T_T because i go too fast . . . I like the instructor now . . . able to teach me better . . . ^^
After car driving i met up with kenny at 5.30 pm at cityhall station but we met each other on the way there . . . so we were suppose to have hot pot dinner at suntec . . . when we decided to get people to come . . . Puiyee and Ee Mei was invited but somehow they couldn't make it initially . . . so we took a walk around the area and suddenly both of them could make it so we waited for them ^^
Its a steamboat dinner with 2 soup base . . . Spicy and Chicken broth . . . with a divider inbetween .
Because we were too hungry to decide on the dishes . . . Kenny just told them to bring everything . . . and they really bring a few of everything . . .
Its was very enjoyable to talk with them . . . funny folks i had known for years ^^
I think kenny ate 20 dollar worth of cockles and Eemei ate more than me ! Haha . . . I think the next time i meet up shes going to come after me for that statment. Puiyee loves to eat luncheon meat and tiny sausages . . . you know those CANNED food . . . so we keep teasing her of choosing those of lower value dish . . . i like the fish paste best of all . . . it takes skills ! to cook them you know . . . and Eemei is extremely good with that . . .
Its a pity i did not have my camera with me . . . otherwise i could have posted a lot of pictures for this session . . . We each paid $35 for this dinner . . . so that amounts to $140 . . .
Bills aside . . . Puiyee seems to be very photogenic ^^ Kenny commented that she looks extremely good in pictures ONLY . . . well i guess Puiyee looks good regardless of picture or reality . . . ^^Eemei too . . . looks nice with the new hair ^^
So much for today . . . they say i keep mentioning about love on my blogs ahah . . . OK no more love love stuff next time . . . ^^ but i doubt it myself
Head for driving lesson . . . pass the mini test . . . taught on how to use gear 4 . . . travel at 70km/h . . .
Pretty fun . . . exciting when the car pick up speed faster and faster . . . BUT ! the instructor brake for me . . . T_T because i go too fast . . . I like the instructor now . . . able to teach me better . . . ^^
After car driving i met up with kenny at 5.30 pm at cityhall station but we met each other on the way there . . . so we were suppose to have hot pot dinner at suntec . . . when we decided to get people to come . . . Puiyee and Ee Mei was invited but somehow they couldn't make it initially . . . so we took a walk around the area and suddenly both of them could make it so we waited for them ^^
Its a steamboat dinner with 2 soup base . . . Spicy and Chicken broth . . . with a divider inbetween .
Because we were too hungry to decide on the dishes . . . Kenny just told them to bring everything . . . and they really bring a few of everything . . .
Its was very enjoyable to talk with them . . . funny folks i had known for years ^^
I think kenny ate 20 dollar worth of cockles and Eemei ate more than me ! Haha . . . I think the next time i meet up shes going to come after me for that statment. Puiyee loves to eat luncheon meat and tiny sausages . . . you know those CANNED food . . . so we keep teasing her of choosing those of lower value dish . . . i like the fish paste best of all . . . it takes skills ! to cook them you know . . . and Eemei is extremely good with that . . .
Its a pity i did not have my camera with me . . . otherwise i could have posted a lot of pictures for this session . . . We each paid $35 for this dinner . . . so that amounts to $140 . . .
Bills aside . . . Puiyee seems to be very photogenic ^^ Kenny commented that she looks extremely good in pictures ONLY . . . well i guess Puiyee looks good regardless of picture or reality . . . ^^Eemei too . . . looks nice with the new hair ^^
So much for today . . . they say i keep mentioning about love on my blogs ahah . . . OK no more love love stuff next time . . . ^^ but i doubt it myself
Monday, April 17, 2006
. . . . Ocean
Have you had any idea how much i miss you . . .
It seems my memories of happiness revoles around you mainly . . .
Every now and then i would think back . . . your smile . . . your scent . . . your touch
Be it while eating things we shared before . . . passing by places we went before . . .
I never once forgotten you . . .
I should have allow memories of you to fade . . .
But it cannot be done . . . the gentle you etched deeply into my heart . . .
If someone were to pull that out . . . my heart will definately stop . . .
How i feel for you is beyond any logical explanation . . . its just so hard to stop feeling for you
Why is that so ?
Its just one of those stuff on Earth where there is no answer to them . . .
If life was a fairytale . . . mine would be an incomplete fairytale . . .
I miss you . . . though this feeling will never reach you again , at the very least i'm allowed to keep it . . .
The End . . .
Just came back from driving so feel like cooking up some stories lol . . . Oh ! Tomorrow i have a mini test . . . if i pass it i will move on to 2nd stage of driving ^^ . . . i hope things will go well . . . so far today on road . . . nothing much happen . . . except i'm a little slow in getting the car to stay on slope without rolling back . . . ^^
So much for today . . .
It seems my memories of happiness revoles around you mainly . . .
Every now and then i would think back . . . your smile . . . your scent . . . your touch
Be it while eating things we shared before . . . passing by places we went before . . .
I never once forgotten you . . .
I should have allow memories of you to fade . . .
But it cannot be done . . . the gentle you etched deeply into my heart . . .
If someone were to pull that out . . . my heart will definately stop . . .
How i feel for you is beyond any logical explanation . . . its just so hard to stop feeling for you
Why is that so ?
Its just one of those stuff on Earth where there is no answer to them . . .
If life was a fairytale . . . mine would be an incomplete fairytale . . .
I miss you . . . though this feeling will never reach you again , at the very least i'm allowed to keep it . . .
The End . . .
Just came back from driving so feel like cooking up some stories lol . . . Oh ! Tomorrow i have a mini test . . . if i pass it i will move on to 2nd stage of driving ^^ . . . i hope things will go well . . . so far today on road . . . nothing much happen . . . except i'm a little slow in getting the car to stay on slope without rolling back . . . ^^
So much for today . . .
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Its true . . .
Met up with MingHui , Bek and Emeris to have dinner at . . . i forgot whats the name of the restaurant . . . but its at bugis . . .
Pretty nice food there . . . while waiting for Emeris and Bek . . . MingHui wanted to go to the temple to ask for a . . . i forgot the word for it . . . something like fortune telling where you shake a wooden can of sticks with numbers or whatever symbol on them . . . so after sometime ONE of the sticks will fall out after shaking . . . then you take this stick to someone who will decipher the lot you obtained . . . but it was rather late so we did not manage to do that . . . maybe ^^ someday i ask her go and try again . . . currently she working in a bank . . . pretty cool it seems . .
Throughout the whole outing i spoke little . . . its really eating into me . . . that i no longer talk like i use to . . . i hate the silent when there's suppose to be a conversation but i no longer know how to start one . . . now it seems i like to listen to people's conversation more rather than participating in them . . .
Maybe . . . . its because . . . .
Haha guess i will get over this shit one fine day . . . i use to be one of the talkative guys back in secondary school time . . . things will slowly pick up i guess ^^
I'm sorry if i don't speak much when i go out . . . its not that i'm not intrested or bored . . . its just me , so don't worry about it . . .
Pretty nice food there . . . while waiting for Emeris and Bek . . . MingHui wanted to go to the temple to ask for a . . . i forgot the word for it . . . something like fortune telling where you shake a wooden can of sticks with numbers or whatever symbol on them . . . so after sometime ONE of the sticks will fall out after shaking . . . then you take this stick to someone who will decipher the lot you obtained . . . but it was rather late so we did not manage to do that . . . maybe ^^ someday i ask her go and try again . . . currently she working in a bank . . . pretty cool it seems . .
Throughout the whole outing i spoke little . . . its really eating into me . . . that i no longer talk like i use to . . . i hate the silent when there's suppose to be a conversation but i no longer know how to start one . . . now it seems i like to listen to people's conversation more rather than participating in them . . .
Maybe . . . . its because . . . .
Haha guess i will get over this shit one fine day . . . i use to be one of the talkative guys back in secondary school time . . . things will slowly pick up i guess ^^
I'm sorry if i don't speak much when i go out . . . its not that i'm not intrested or bored . . . its just me , so don't worry about it . . .
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Graduation Dinner And Dance
Have been invited to Graduation Dinner and Dance . . . but finally i gave them my answer . . . I'm not going to attend . . . not because of money . . .
I just don't have any mood for this event . . . its suppose to be something memorable . . . but the chunk of memorable things i want to remember cannot be found there . . . if i were to attend i guess i won't interact much either . . . i ask around those closer to me . . . should i go ? Their point of view is the same . . . to have a memorable day . . . but they told me if i'm not willing to go i don't have to . . . afterall this is an event which is suppose to be happy . . .
I just don't have any mood for this event . . . its suppose to be something memorable . . . but the chunk of memorable things i want to remember cannot be found there . . . if i were to attend i guess i won't interact much either . . . i ask around those closer to me . . . should i go ? Their point of view is the same . . . to have a memorable day . . . but they told me if i'm not willing to go i don't have to . . . afterall this is an event which is suppose to be happy . . .
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Changes . . . Garlic ?
On friday went to meet up with the two Jie Meis~ to eat at Garlic Restaurant . . .
The name sounds pretty cool but i don't really rate the place very well but i must say their garlic prawn is pretty tasty , pricing wise is about $15-20 per dish so its about the cost which you dine at Swensen ? Still once you go to Sun with Moon before you will start to find most food out there not up to quality . . .
Next place to visit would be Fish Moon~ A seafood and pasta base restaurant food, the pricing i think ranges from $20-30 per dish , just a rough estimation from me.
Kenny suggested to dine at Suntec someday . . . Cannot remember the name of the restaurant but it serves hot and spicy steamboat . . . Price Range - $26-30 - Buffet Style
Till then . . . ^^ OH one more place . . . Outback Steak House also a place to visit ^^ They don't just serve steaks only . . . there are other food as well and the portion is quite enough for guys and too much for girls . . . ^^ Nice environment too . . .
Till the next time ^^
The name sounds pretty cool but i don't really rate the place very well but i must say their garlic prawn is pretty tasty , pricing wise is about $15-20 per dish so its about the cost which you dine at Swensen ? Still once you go to Sun with Moon before you will start to find most food out there not up to quality . . .
Next place to visit would be Fish Moon~ A seafood and pasta base restaurant food, the pricing i think ranges from $20-30 per dish , just a rough estimation from me.
Kenny suggested to dine at Suntec someday . . . Cannot remember the name of the restaurant but it serves hot and spicy steamboat . . . Price Range - $26-30 - Buffet Style
Till then . . . ^^ OH one more place . . . Outback Steak House also a place to visit ^^ They don't just serve steaks only . . . there are other food as well and the portion is quite enough for guys and too much for girls . . . ^^ Nice environment too . . .
Till the next time ^^
Saturday, April 08, 2006
I MADE IT
LETTER CAME ON MY DESK . . .
NTU !~
I GOT IN !
MY 1ST CHOICE !
ENVIRONMENTAL ENGINEERING . . . 2ND YEAR ENTRY START IN 2008-2009
NTU !~
I GOT IN !
MY 1ST CHOICE !
ENVIRONMENTAL ENGINEERING . . . 2ND YEAR ENTRY START IN 2008-2009
Friday, April 07, 2006
3rd lesson
LOL today drive on main road . . . it was a scary thing . . . with people who jaywalk -_- BIG BUSES BIG TRANSPORT LORRY . . . . i couldn't do as well as inside the circuit . . . forgot to slow down at bends . . forgot to stop properly . . . all my brakings become shitty~ -_-
Instructor : Howcome inside circuit so steady but on main road you seems confused and lost . . .
Me: No experience on road . . .
Forgot to check blind spot and stuff . . . so many things to remember . . . but luckily i clear today lesson . . . could have pass another lesson today for "blind spot " checking but he felt that i not very good yet so he didn't approve but next lesson will be on blind spot again . . .
One funny incident was . . . bus was waiting to drive out of stop . . .he shift out a bit i QUICKLY TURN RIGHT TO AVOID HIM . . . scared he knocked into me . . .
INstructor : DON'T SCARED ! HE CANNOT MOVE AS LONG AS U STAY IN YOUR LANE . . .
Theres a big difference in driving and sitting in the car enjoying . . . ^^ need to practice more on my guts i think . . . car handling no problem :P ^^
Instructor : Howcome inside circuit so steady but on main road you seems confused and lost . . .
Me: No experience on road . . .
Forgot to check blind spot and stuff . . . so many things to remember . . . but luckily i clear today lesson . . . could have pass another lesson today for "blind spot " checking but he felt that i not very good yet so he didn't approve but next lesson will be on blind spot again . . .
One funny incident was . . . bus was waiting to drive out of stop . . .he shift out a bit i QUICKLY TURN RIGHT TO AVOID HIM . . . scared he knocked into me . . .
INstructor : DON'T SCARED ! HE CANNOT MOVE AS LONG AS U STAY IN YOUR LANE . . .
Theres a big difference in driving and sitting in the car enjoying . . . ^^ need to practice more on my guts i think . . . car handling no problem :P ^^
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Mezame . . .
I guess its enough thinking about getting or not . . . like what cousin said " NO BIG " don't get bogged down by this . . . search for an alternative path . . . stupid system of admission , i will prove to them that grades don't matter in this world . . . grades does not equates to success . . .
Anyway if it comes it comes , let time unfold everything . . .
For now i'm learning driving ^^ Amazing
1st lesson review :
Pretty nervous . . . first time behind the driver seat . . . the car number i had was 94 and a rather not talkative instructor . . . because my legs are too long i had some trouble controlling the clutch well T_T and the clutch is too soft , so when i have to release to the " biting point " i often stalled the car's engine . . . this happens 2-3 times lol . . . and 2 times i slam the brake too hard causing the car's engine to stall as well . . . didn't get much scolding lol . . .
2nd lesson review :
Cool today was a breeze . . . when moving off i always have this problem of jerky car . . . again because of my clutch being release too fast . . . after a few times i manage to get the hang of it . . . a few rounds around the circuit and its very easy to cope . . . THEN ! one car in front of me STOP SUDDENLY ! so i slam the brake again BUT I FORGOT MUST CLUTCH IN FIRST . . . the car jerk like mad . . . now i know how it feels like if couples do kinky stuff in their cars . . . the instructor still laugh . . . i freak out because the car in front too close . . . he had his foot placed on the brakes as well . . . T_T GIRLS ~ drive slow . . . sudden stopping -_- omg~ but i at fault also haha . . . because i forgot the step :P ^^ but i'm given to OK sign to go on road tomorrow ^^
"I cannot let go of this feeling for you . . up till now . . . "
Anyway if it comes it comes , let time unfold everything . . .
For now i'm learning driving ^^ Amazing
1st lesson review :
Pretty nervous . . . first time behind the driver seat . . . the car number i had was 94 and a rather not talkative instructor . . . because my legs are too long i had some trouble controlling the clutch well T_T and the clutch is too soft , so when i have to release to the " biting point " i often stalled the car's engine . . . this happens 2-3 times lol . . . and 2 times i slam the brake too hard causing the car's engine to stall as well . . . didn't get much scolding lol . . .
2nd lesson review :
Cool today was a breeze . . . when moving off i always have this problem of jerky car . . . again because of my clutch being release too fast . . . after a few times i manage to get the hang of it . . . a few rounds around the circuit and its very easy to cope . . . THEN ! one car in front of me STOP SUDDENLY ! so i slam the brake again BUT I FORGOT MUST CLUTCH IN FIRST . . . the car jerk like mad . . . now i know how it feels like if couples do kinky stuff in their cars . . . the instructor still laugh . . . i freak out because the car in front too close . . . he had his foot placed on the brakes as well . . . T_T GIRLS ~ drive slow . . . sudden stopping -_- omg~ but i at fault also haha . . . because i forgot the step :P ^^ but i'm given to OK sign to go on road tomorrow ^^
"I cannot let go of this feeling for you . . up till now . . . "
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
There is no point in waiting . . . .
So much good news from my class mates ^^ One by one they got offered place in the University . . . I must congratulate to those who got in ^^ Now i must grumble a bit . . .
Then the worries start to set in T_T think my grades did not make the cut to get into NTU . . . Sigh . . . at least send me a letter of rejection ? I want to see something at least . . . Even the army don't want me . . . June intakes are out and i'm not one of those . . . so i might get selected for July intake . . .
Maybe its the education system that grind this mentality into me that after NS for guys . . . we should go University . . . in my own views i never recognise private UNI . . . they seems to be a level lower than our local University . . . Now my plans are pretty messed up . . . future looking so bleak and dark . . . now my path is not straight ahead because after NS i have to make a turn , where will this turn lead to and what will be the outcome . . . i don't know . . . honestly speaking i want to get in . . . and i would be happy if i could . . . at least thats what i wanted for myself . . . perhaps now the dream of having a perfect family and a stable job would be far from me . . .
Why . . . when you try your best . . . fate still pull you down . . . something i hate something i wish i could have absolute control over it . . . guess i'm just not smart enough . . . oh well . . .
Its not really the time to give up yet ^^ I still want to get married and have a family so the path won't end here . . . Oh boy~ now i have to think again . . .
Its a sad thing actually . . . it weighs heavily upon me . . . how disappointing
Then the worries start to set in T_T think my grades did not make the cut to get into NTU . . . Sigh . . . at least send me a letter of rejection ? I want to see something at least . . . Even the army don't want me . . . June intakes are out and i'm not one of those . . . so i might get selected for July intake . . .
Maybe its the education system that grind this mentality into me that after NS for guys . . . we should go University . . . in my own views i never recognise private UNI . . . they seems to be a level lower than our local University . . . Now my plans are pretty messed up . . . future looking so bleak and dark . . . now my path is not straight ahead because after NS i have to make a turn , where will this turn lead to and what will be the outcome . . . i don't know . . . honestly speaking i want to get in . . . and i would be happy if i could . . . at least thats what i wanted for myself . . . perhaps now the dream of having a perfect family and a stable job would be far from me . . .
Why . . . when you try your best . . . fate still pull you down . . . something i hate something i wish i could have absolute control over it . . . guess i'm just not smart enough . . . oh well . . .
Its not really the time to give up yet ^^ I still want to get married and have a family so the path won't end here . . . Oh boy~ now i have to think again . . .
Its a sad thing actually . . . it weighs heavily upon me . . . how disappointing
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Life ? Death ?
I watch Mai Hime today and i completed the whole 26 episode which last 25 mintes per episode today . . . was suppose to meet up with MingHui and the rest for her birthday celebrationg but someone the others couldn't make it last minute so its was postphoned.
After finish watching the anime i start to think is death a frightful thing ? If we worry about dying won't we be wasting our time . . . I keep thinking how does it feels like if you are dead . . . Can you still feel ? Can you still think ? Are you even aware of anything ? Is the feeling like being asleep without dreams ? How is it like ? Don't get me wrong i'm not trying to kill myself . . . Its just something i have been trying to find an answer to . . . I think when you got too much free time your brain starts to wander off . . . well thats me . I feel that death itself isn't fearful . . . there is nothing frightful about death . . . the frightening part is when you realise that what you do in day to day live will never be possible again . . . that is the most frightening part . . .
Being unable to call your friends , unable to think of someone you miss dearly , unable to feel , unable to watch your favourite tv shows , unable to taste , unable to do anything . . . that is frightening . . . perhaps that is why people say live your life to the fullest and never have regrets but humans alive doesn't really think of that most of the time . . . because when i suddenly have this thought then i realise for a long time i thought everything was going to be forever . . . which isn't at all . . . just like how plants and animals pass away when the time comes , people also will come to pass . . . i really don't like this thought because it leaves me wanting to remembering everything , wanting to do all i can . . . life is short as some would say and its true . . . without realising the precious meaning of being alive i doubt one can live a meaningful life . . .
Being able to feel make us alive . . . even if they are painful , bitter , sweet , regardless of what its a good thing to be alive . . . though one day everything has to go but when things last . . . make sure you really treasure it . . . don't waste time regretting it . . . just remember the good times , even if someone broke your heart . . . if you still love them still . . . you can continue to do so . . . its your life after all . . . cherish whatever you have . . . one day it will all become memories to others . . .
Does this entry sounds a bit mm . . . negative and dark ? But don't take it that way i'm not trying to inject fear into people who read this entry . . . thats not my purpose . . . its a positive thing i'm trying to say but i hope it will be discovered by your own self . . .
I have a nice album to introduce . . . if you like musical instruments pieces please buy
"Winter Story" by Eric Chriyoku . . . Well if you wish to listen to it before considering please visit the link here
http://www.soundclick.com/pro/view/01/default.cfm?bandid=251849&content=main&songid=0
Have a nice day ^^
After finish watching the anime i start to think is death a frightful thing ? If we worry about dying won't we be wasting our time . . . I keep thinking how does it feels like if you are dead . . . Can you still feel ? Can you still think ? Are you even aware of anything ? Is the feeling like being asleep without dreams ? How is it like ? Don't get me wrong i'm not trying to kill myself . . . Its just something i have been trying to find an answer to . . . I think when you got too much free time your brain starts to wander off . . . well thats me . I feel that death itself isn't fearful . . . there is nothing frightful about death . . . the frightening part is when you realise that what you do in day to day live will never be possible again . . . that is the most frightening part . . .
Being unable to call your friends , unable to think of someone you miss dearly , unable to feel , unable to watch your favourite tv shows , unable to taste , unable to do anything . . . that is frightening . . . perhaps that is why people say live your life to the fullest and never have regrets but humans alive doesn't really think of that most of the time . . . because when i suddenly have this thought then i realise for a long time i thought everything was going to be forever . . . which isn't at all . . . just like how plants and animals pass away when the time comes , people also will come to pass . . . i really don't like this thought because it leaves me wanting to remembering everything , wanting to do all i can . . . life is short as some would say and its true . . . without realising the precious meaning of being alive i doubt one can live a meaningful life . . .
Being able to feel make us alive . . . even if they are painful , bitter , sweet , regardless of what its a good thing to be alive . . . though one day everything has to go but when things last . . . make sure you really treasure it . . . don't waste time regretting it . . . just remember the good times , even if someone broke your heart . . . if you still love them still . . . you can continue to do so . . . its your life after all . . . cherish whatever you have . . . one day it will all become memories to others . . .
Does this entry sounds a bit mm . . . negative and dark ? But don't take it that way i'm not trying to inject fear into people who read this entry . . . thats not my purpose . . . its a positive thing i'm trying to say but i hope it will be discovered by your own self . . .
I have a nice album to introduce . . . if you like musical instruments pieces please buy
"Winter Story" by Eric Chriyoku . . . Well if you wish to listen to it before considering please visit the link here
http://www.soundclick.com/pro/view/01/default.cfm?bandid=251849&content=main&songid=0
Have a nice day ^^
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