Ding Ding . . . How was chinese new year for me ? Haha tons of food and money ^^ . . . Its about the same every year . . . gather , eating , gambling ^^ sweet . . . Previous 2 years "she" was with me during the festival . . . but i felt she didn't enjoy it . . . afterall "she" doesn't know them well . . . but i don't know how to make "her" feel better . . . strangely no one there asked about "her" . . . guess i'm the only one sitting by the swing thinking of "you". It wasn't easy i guess when "you" were not around to bring me luck ^^ or tap my card so i could get lucky . . . don't be mistaken "she" isn't a tool to bring luck . . . i just miss "her" ^^ I have to get use to it somehow . . . I cannot always live in the memories which I once carved with "her" together . . . it might not be the best compared to others . . . it might even be boring . . . but to me its definately something so precious that i would not give up .
Enough about that . . . Rozen Maiden Traumend has concluded and now i'm watching Shuffle! . . . ^^ Going to get a DVDR so i can burn out all the anime and I will also be getting new HD ^^ . . . Any nice anime to introduce ?
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Thursday, January 26, 2006
You're different . . . .
Again . . . i did not turn up for class . . . basically i find the morning lecture is of no use to me . . . guess i will turn up when its about the exam . . .
Reach school at 12 noon had my lunch with my classmates at FoodJunction . . . I didn't speak much ^^Some of them went to class first and some went to get their transcript . . . it didn't really bother me much actually . . . so left me and Felicia . . . So i asked if shes waiting for anyone ? It seems to me she is . . . but it wasn't so we left for class . . .
She asked : How are you ?
Me : I'm the same . . . nothing great ^^
Me: why ?
She: (Can't remember what she said but i think is something about not talking for some time)
She: You've changed
Me: Is that so . . .
She: You different from the time i knew who you are . . . you seems to be more wary and cautious of people . . . protecting yourself . . .
Me: Is that good or bad ?
She: ( I think she said its not a bad thing to protect yourself )
Me: I guess so . . . I'm different now . . . i don't speak much at all
She: Its good that you know
Me: I can't change anything
She: Its not that you can't . . . its you who decide to change or not . . .
Me: I suppose you're right . . .
Conversation ended as we entered the class . . .
I knew i had changed . . . i'm so different from who i really was back then . . . perhaps its due to some experiences which left me not wanting to speak much . . . tired ? I'm better now definately but maybe the silence isn't good . . . but what should i say ? I'm observing people everyday . . . thats what i do . . . just had nothing to say . . . anime ? games ? cooking ? food ?
People can come to me with anything . . . i can listen . . . ^^
Kenny mention that i'm always absorbing what people say but never really reply much . . . to some extend he is correct . . . but to them they knew me well enough . . . i'm just thinking ^^
I was telling my sister i'm going to get a social worker certificate . . . she was like -_- . . . Even Esther said that i can't even help my ownself . . . how am i suppose to help others deal with their problems . . . Yes yes i know . . . the r/s wound is always always there and i should not dwell on it and i should not hope for anyting or try . . . yes yes i get you folks . . . but then again . . . it really was me who made the decision to try . . . but then again i'm slowly moving away from "her" . . . i'm not getting the right response either so i guess . . . theres no more reason to continue anyway . . .
Advance driving theory test tomorrow . . . better study now and i guess i might be late for morning class again ^^ . . . what a bad habit . . . bad habit . . . really bad . . .
I got nothing to say . . . ^^ Silence :P Its sort of contradicting when i can blog so much when i say i got nothing to say . . .
Reach school at 12 noon had my lunch with my classmates at FoodJunction . . . I didn't speak much ^^Some of them went to class first and some went to get their transcript . . . it didn't really bother me much actually . . . so left me and Felicia . . . So i asked if shes waiting for anyone ? It seems to me she is . . . but it wasn't so we left for class . . .
She asked : How are you ?
Me : I'm the same . . . nothing great ^^
Me: why ?
She: (Can't remember what she said but i think is something about not talking for some time)
She: You've changed
Me: Is that so . . .
She: You different from the time i knew who you are . . . you seems to be more wary and cautious of people . . . protecting yourself . . .
Me: Is that good or bad ?
She: ( I think she said its not a bad thing to protect yourself )
Me: I guess so . . . I'm different now . . . i don't speak much at all
She: Its good that you know
Me: I can't change anything
She: Its not that you can't . . . its you who decide to change or not . . .
Me: I suppose you're right . . .
Conversation ended as we entered the class . . .
I knew i had changed . . . i'm so different from who i really was back then . . . perhaps its due to some experiences which left me not wanting to speak much . . . tired ? I'm better now definately but maybe the silence isn't good . . . but what should i say ? I'm observing people everyday . . . thats what i do . . . just had nothing to say . . . anime ? games ? cooking ? food ?
People can come to me with anything . . . i can listen . . . ^^
Kenny mention that i'm always absorbing what people say but never really reply much . . . to some extend he is correct . . . but to them they knew me well enough . . . i'm just thinking ^^
I was telling my sister i'm going to get a social worker certificate . . . she was like -_- . . . Even Esther said that i can't even help my ownself . . . how am i suppose to help others deal with their problems . . . Yes yes i know . . . the r/s wound is always always there and i should not dwell on it and i should not hope for anyting or try . . . yes yes i get you folks . . . but then again . . . it really was me who made the decision to try . . . but then again i'm slowly moving away from "her" . . . i'm not getting the right response either so i guess . . . theres no more reason to continue anyway . . .
Advance driving theory test tomorrow . . . better study now and i guess i might be late for morning class again ^^ . . . what a bad habit . . . bad habit . . . really bad . . .
I got nothing to say . . . ^^ Silence :P Its sort of contradicting when i can blog so much when i say i got nothing to say . . .
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Why not sleeping ?
Just want to type some rubbish before i sleep . . .
Partly because i slept for too long during the afternoon thus i'm so awake now . . . .
Late for class . . . this morning and many people started calling me to get there so they can begin the session . . . thats class rep for you . . .
I don't feel the sense of urgency anymore . . . funny
I just take my time and look around me . . . when i reach the room i just look at them . . . i'm here . . .
I'm drifting in my own world . . . day dreaming . . . what am i doing actually . . .
Reach home . . . sit down . . . watch anime . . . go out for movie . . . hang out with friends . . .
Meaning . . . meaning . . . meaning of life . . . my life . . . need to find it . . .
By the way i bagged 2 more Bs for my other two modules . . i'm safe for a while . . .
Left a short while before a new chapter of my life begins . . .
Partly because i slept for too long during the afternoon thus i'm so awake now . . . .
Late for class . . . this morning and many people started calling me to get there so they can begin the session . . . thats class rep for you . . .
I don't feel the sense of urgency anymore . . . funny
I just take my time and look around me . . . when i reach the room i just look at them . . . i'm here . . .
I'm drifting in my own world . . . day dreaming . . . what am i doing actually . . .
Reach home . . . sit down . . . watch anime . . . go out for movie . . . hang out with friends . . .
Meaning . . . meaning . . . meaning of life . . . my life . . . need to find it . . .
By the way i bagged 2 more Bs for my other two modules . . i'm safe for a while . . .
Left a short while before a new chapter of my life begins . . .
Monday, January 23, 2006
Parent's Hope
^^ Ding Ding . . . 4 pm class ended but there was another tutorial class during 6.45pm . . . decided that the tutorial isn't beneficial at all to me so i skipped it and went home .
On the way back . . . i saw the Mother of an old acquaintance . . . i knew this since young till my teenage years
Friend's Mother : (Looking at me wondering why a gangster with a boxing bag smiling at her)
Me: Hello Auntie.
Friend's Mother : Oh hello wenhao , how are you ? Graduating soon ? Hows your sister ? :)
Me: Oh i'm graduating soon and my sister is in the same poly as me in 2nd year . . . by the way how is your son doing now.
Friend's Mother : *Smiled* He ? *Laugh* My son too playful , he doesn't like to study at all . . . attend a private school and dropped out after he flunk year 1.
She continue smiling to me and telling me little things about her son . . . though the conversation was short . . . i could feel dissapointment in her . . . so much that i think i saw tears in her eyes . At that moment i had to go but i was half dazed trying to fully immerse myself in her shoe. Before i left i told her not to worry , her son can still do well in life . I always believe this friend of mine is much intelligent than me but to reduce to such stage and seeing how his life turn out i can only conlude one thing . He himself allow things to happen and not taking control of his own life. Sad to say the environment also play a huge role in narrowing his future making it seems so bleak and dusky. But its alright i'm sure one day he could make it in life.
Every parents wish their son/daughter to do well in life . . . get a good degree , stable job , faithful soulmate , and a blissful marriage . . . ect ect ect the list goes on .
If you have not been noticing how hard your parents has been working try looking at them for a moment . . . the mom and dad u knew might have so much age marks on their face . . .
I've been looking at my Dad every night when i'm on the desktop . . . the longer i look at him the more heartache i feel . . . Those eyes which look after me since i was born till now is surrounded by wrinkles . . . things , people which we grew accustomed to are often the one which has the most value in them and sadly most of the time they are also the ones which tends to be neglected. . . its only when you take time to see what those things you have neglected then you will understand the true value . . .
I've been taking a long time to think . . . a long time in daze to see . . . a long time to feel what has not been felt . . . and a long time to remember those who has been forgotten . . . somehow i'm learning again . . .
Even though you spoke to me . . . i could barely hold one conversation with you . . . the heart just beat harder . . . yet i don't know what to say . . . i still miss you . . .
On the way back . . . i saw the Mother of an old acquaintance . . . i knew this since young till my teenage years
Friend's Mother : (Looking at me wondering why a gangster with a boxing bag smiling at her)
Me: Hello Auntie.
Friend's Mother : Oh hello wenhao , how are you ? Graduating soon ? Hows your sister ? :)
Me: Oh i'm graduating soon and my sister is in the same poly as me in 2nd year . . . by the way how is your son doing now.
Friend's Mother : *Smiled* He ? *Laugh* My son too playful , he doesn't like to study at all . . . attend a private school and dropped out after he flunk year 1.
She continue smiling to me and telling me little things about her son . . . though the conversation was short . . . i could feel dissapointment in her . . . so much that i think i saw tears in her eyes . At that moment i had to go but i was half dazed trying to fully immerse myself in her shoe. Before i left i told her not to worry , her son can still do well in life . I always believe this friend of mine is much intelligent than me but to reduce to such stage and seeing how his life turn out i can only conlude one thing . He himself allow things to happen and not taking control of his own life. Sad to say the environment also play a huge role in narrowing his future making it seems so bleak and dusky. But its alright i'm sure one day he could make it in life.
Every parents wish their son/daughter to do well in life . . . get a good degree , stable job , faithful soulmate , and a blissful marriage . . . ect ect ect the list goes on .
If you have not been noticing how hard your parents has been working try looking at them for a moment . . . the mom and dad u knew might have so much age marks on their face . . .
I've been looking at my Dad every night when i'm on the desktop . . . the longer i look at him the more heartache i feel . . . Those eyes which look after me since i was born till now is surrounded by wrinkles . . . things , people which we grew accustomed to are often the one which has the most value in them and sadly most of the time they are also the ones which tends to be neglected. . . its only when you take time to see what those things you have neglected then you will understand the true value . . .
I've been taking a long time to think . . . a long time in daze to see . . . a long time to feel what has not been felt . . . and a long time to remember those who has been forgotten . . . somehow i'm learning again . . .
Even though you spoke to me . . . i could barely hold one conversation with you . . . the heart just beat harder . . . yet i don't know what to say . . . i still miss you . . .
Friday, January 20, 2006
Smile~ Always ...
^^ Just finish watching Episode 1 of "Hantsuki"
Rather nice anime ^^ If you're intrested you can download it . . . .
A romance story i guess between a 17 yr old guy and a 17yr old girl who has weak heart tissues.
I'm not sure how the anime will progress from now . . . i've added a new link where someone wrote reviews about anime so be sure to check out the link if you are intrested . . .
Its drizzling . . . Going to bugis later . . . to meet up with K and N . . . Still sick with cold and cough . . . Its a rather peaceful day ^^ . . . Not too warm . . . not to cold . . . a nice ambience for couples to go hand in hand down the beach . . . A pity that i don't have one to do that with . . . but isn't it always good to be able to hug someone you love or be hug by someone who love you as well . . . ^^ for those who has experience it i'm sure you get what i mean . . . been seeing too much romance anime so i'm getting a bit emotional . . . its too perfect in anime . . . where theres happy ending most of the time and feelings being understood . . . it really is a fantasy world where human most desired emotion can be manifested upon . . .
ever wished you were understood by the one you love most ?
ever wished that love never fades and live happily ever after ?
ever wished that you can have a fun loving and intresting relationship forever ?
In anime things are made such that its possible . . . in reality it require hard work and open communication to allow it to work . . . feelings of love is a rather powerful emotion ^^ impossible to explain but a very strong driving force . . . . burning feeling ? warmth ? soothing ? sweet ? I guess there isn't a specific word to describe it . . .
Love can be a mixture if all emotion feelings . . . good or bad . . . it can be both, don't you think so ?
Oh well ^^ I'm graduating real soon . . . 3 - 4 weeks time i will be having my final examination . .
Going to the army soon . . . Puiyee said my perception of life might change after i enter army . . . i guess so ^^ . . .
Do you know i still feel a lot for you ? But yet i got no courage to go after you, after knowing that your heart already has someone else . . .
Rather nice anime ^^ If you're intrested you can download it . . . .
A romance story i guess between a 17 yr old guy and a 17yr old girl who has weak heart tissues.
I'm not sure how the anime will progress from now . . . i've added a new link where someone wrote reviews about anime so be sure to check out the link if you are intrested . . .
Its drizzling . . . Going to bugis later . . . to meet up with K and N . . . Still sick with cold and cough . . . Its a rather peaceful day ^^ . . . Not too warm . . . not to cold . . . a nice ambience for couples to go hand in hand down the beach . . . A pity that i don't have one to do that with . . . but isn't it always good to be able to hug someone you love or be hug by someone who love you as well . . . ^^ for those who has experience it i'm sure you get what i mean . . . been seeing too much romance anime so i'm getting a bit emotional . . . its too perfect in anime . . . where theres happy ending most of the time and feelings being understood . . . it really is a fantasy world where human most desired emotion can be manifested upon . . .
ever wished you were understood by the one you love most ?
ever wished that love never fades and live happily ever after ?
ever wished that you can have a fun loving and intresting relationship forever ?
In anime things are made such that its possible . . . in reality it require hard work and open communication to allow it to work . . . feelings of love is a rather powerful emotion ^^ impossible to explain but a very strong driving force . . . . burning feeling ? warmth ? soothing ? sweet ? I guess there isn't a specific word to describe it . . .
Love can be a mixture if all emotion feelings . . . good or bad . . . it can be both, don't you think so ?
Oh well ^^ I'm graduating real soon . . . 3 - 4 weeks time i will be having my final examination . .
Going to the army soon . . . Puiyee said my perception of life might change after i enter army . . . i guess so ^^ . . .
Do you know i still feel a lot for you ? But yet i got no courage to go after you, after knowing that your heart already has someone else . . .
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Time is Running Out
I bagged "C" for Industrial Safety Test , "C" for Process Optimization Test , "B" for Rotating Equipment , "B" for GMP . . . .
This is DEFINATELY NOT GOOD ! I wan A A A A A A A A A . . . . Now those that i got C my chances are . . . to push them up to B+ . . . those i get B . . . push them to A . . .
Possible ? Yes it is possible . . . i calculated my odds . . . most of them are in my favour . . . its not like i'm gambling . . . but i need to know my chances . . .
I'm not those who likes to compete with others . . . i only compete with my goals . . . i got my own target to reach . . . so i must reach them . . .
Typing halfway . . . Sharon smsed . . . " I passed Advance Theory " >.< Now i'm stressed . . . next week my turn . . .
Back to my topic . . . CMPB should be sending me the letter of my new PES status soon . . . Probably B or A . . . ^^ Since there IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME . . . .
Caught a cold lately . . . sneezing a lot . . . feeling so lethargic in class . . .basically very uncomfortable . . . >.< Never mind a short rest will clear everything . . .
You don't even look at me now . . . do you hate me that much ?
This is DEFINATELY NOT GOOD ! I wan A A A A A A A A A . . . . Now those that i got C my chances are . . . to push them up to B+ . . . those i get B . . . push them to A . . .
Possible ? Yes it is possible . . . i calculated my odds . . . most of them are in my favour . . . its not like i'm gambling . . . but i need to know my chances . . .
I'm not those who likes to compete with others . . . i only compete with my goals . . . i got my own target to reach . . . so i must reach them . . .
Typing halfway . . . Sharon smsed . . . " I passed Advance Theory " >.< Now i'm stressed . . . next week my turn . . .
Back to my topic . . . CMPB should be sending me the letter of my new PES status soon . . . Probably B or A . . . ^^ Since there IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME . . . .
Caught a cold lately . . . sneezing a lot . . . feeling so lethargic in class . . .basically very uncomfortable . . . >.< Never mind a short rest will clear everything . . .
You don't even look at me now . . . do you hate me that much ?
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Friday, January 13, 2006
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Remembering the Past
Did some studying for Friday Test before i felt i can't concentrate anymore ^^ So i look at my old old entries . . .
I can remember what event occured back then . . . the pain . . . the happiness . . .basically everything is still crystal clear in my head.
It rain again . . today's the 4th day it rained . . . i'm hopping that saturday doesn't rain . . . got a few places i have to go . . . please don't rain on Saturday . . .
What should i write about ? Guess i got nothing to write about . . . Just DON'T rain on Saturday and then i can get some photos up . . .
I can remember what event occured back then . . . the pain . . . the happiness . . .basically everything is still crystal clear in my head.
It rain again . . today's the 4th day it rained . . . i'm hopping that saturday doesn't rain . . . got a few places i have to go . . . please don't rain on Saturday . . .
What should i write about ? Guess i got nothing to write about . . . Just DON'T rain on Saturday and then i can get some photos up . . .
Monday, January 09, 2006
Raining Again
Yet another cooling day ^^ . . .
So how was todays's exam . . . not much comments though but i guess it won't be very fantastic either ^^
Oh " Suzuka " has finally ended ^^ Suzuka accepted Yamato finally after apologising to her Senior at his grave . . . ^^
Ahh~ happy ending ^^ So the complete set is out for downloads as well . . . in total 26 episode ^^ Maybe i'll download them and record it into disc ^^
Current anime is Karin ^^ A vampire anime :P Rather humorous and Some slice of life in it ^^
MM . . . . bye folks
So how was todays's exam . . . not much comments though but i guess it won't be very fantastic either ^^
Oh " Suzuka " has finally ended ^^ Suzuka accepted Yamato finally after apologising to her Senior at his grave . . . ^^
Ahh~ happy ending ^^ So the complete set is out for downloads as well . . . in total 26 episode ^^ Maybe i'll download them and record it into disc ^^
Current anime is Karin ^^ A vampire anime :P Rather humorous and Some slice of life in it ^^
MM . . . . bye folks
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Raining Raining . . . and Raining
Yes its the rain ! Its here again . . . cold wind . . . rainy nights . . . chilly feelings.
I guess its the raining season ? Maybe not , I'm not sure about that. . . Taking a short break from studying for my exam tomorrow . . .
Yesterday i went out with Nigel and ZhiYang . . . too Queenstown shopping complex to buy things . . . after which we went to Jurong point ^^ . . . Pretty fun but . . . because it rain heavily yesterday i caught a cold -_- but after some rest i'm fine ^^
So what was my latest question to people ? This was asked during a lab session and the group who got question was . . . Tianlin , Liyana , Sharon , Faz
1st Question . . . Can a breakup between two ends up in best friends outcome ?
Liyana : It will be determine by the way how the breakup occurs. If its because of religion it will be possible.
Tianlin: If both agree to it ^^
My point of view is the same as them . . . as long as both feels that continuing would bring them no where and somehow both agree to breakup . . . they would remain as friends . . . but as long as one holds feeling for the other party . . . it will be hard for it to happen.
2nd Question . . . Can you tolerate cheating from your boyfriend ? ( Two Timing )
Liyana : Yes ( First Offender )
Tianlin : Yes ( First Offender )
Love ^^ can do wonders . . . even forgiving someone who cheat on you . . . but the ladies told me their trust would be breached thus the guys must work hard to build the trust back . . . So i twist the question a bit . . . IF ( During Two Timing the guy slept with the girl would you still forgive him ? )
^^ The answer is a big NO . . . Dream on !
If i direct this question to guys who are serious about relationship, no guys would want that to happen . . . it hurts . . its very painful don't you think ? Anyone would be angry . . . when the angry pass sadness will set in . . . disappointment will come in . . . if work isn't put in to rekindle the love . . . the flower that both parties tried so hard for it to blossom will never grow . . . it will wither and die . . . Thats love . . . A great deal of effort and tolerance . . . its not always the blue sky and beautiful scenery . . . ^^ I'm sorry because the question was asked during Friday and i could not remember everything as i'm trying to study now . . . thus . . . its a bit of short BUT i promise i bring some more new topics in ^^ . . . its always about feelings and emotion on my blog . . . ^^ Its a never ending topic to me. . .as one grows one's view about things changes . . .
I once saw a nick of my friend " Lots of people wants to ride with you in the Limo , but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you if the Limo breaks down " .
Is this true for you ?
Mmm . . . the rain. . . its pleasing ^^ i like it . . .
I used to say when it rains means someone is crying . . . today my sister cried -_- because the boyfriend and her was quareling at home . . .yes my home . . . i think the whole afternoon they were quarreling . . . ^^ i was in my room . . . shouting here and there . . . my sis cannot understand the guy's intention thus repeating herself . . . guy got rather pissed at the repeating and accusuation . . raises his voice . . . guy started to defend and retaliate . . . it becomes never ending . . . the problem was very simple actually . . .
From what i see . . there really wasn't any problem to begin with . . . it was a simple simple thing . . . i almost went out and talk to them but i guess i should let them iron things out themself maybe i'll tell my sister whats wrong when the guy isn't around . . . both party were at fault or rather they just cannot get the meaning of each other . . . . so people repeat and repeat . . . theres a limit somehow before ones start to raise their voice to get the thing across but it won't work as it only fuels the matter and the next thing that happens will be quarrel . . . . it happens on myself on my last r/s . . . there were just too many unecessary quarrels in fact whats there to quarrel . . . i'm still learning and correcting my mistakes made previously . . . not in the hope of winning my ex back . . . which i feel is totally impossible . . . its just to be a better person . . . though i still feel for her but it will just stay some where within my heart . . . i'll just stay out of her way ^^. . .
>.< Dinner time ^^ and back to study :P
"No matter how much time is going to pass , somehow i believe that person will stay in my heart"
I guess its the raining season ? Maybe not , I'm not sure about that. . . Taking a short break from studying for my exam tomorrow . . .
Yesterday i went out with Nigel and ZhiYang . . . too Queenstown shopping complex to buy things . . . after which we went to Jurong point ^^ . . . Pretty fun but . . . because it rain heavily yesterday i caught a cold -_- but after some rest i'm fine ^^
So what was my latest question to people ? This was asked during a lab session and the group who got question was . . . Tianlin , Liyana , Sharon , Faz
1st Question . . . Can a breakup between two ends up in best friends outcome ?
Liyana : It will be determine by the way how the breakup occurs. If its because of religion it will be possible.
Tianlin: If both agree to it ^^
My point of view is the same as them . . . as long as both feels that continuing would bring them no where and somehow both agree to breakup . . . they would remain as friends . . . but as long as one holds feeling for the other party . . . it will be hard for it to happen.
2nd Question . . . Can you tolerate cheating from your boyfriend ? ( Two Timing )
Liyana : Yes ( First Offender )
Tianlin : Yes ( First Offender )
Love ^^ can do wonders . . . even forgiving someone who cheat on you . . . but the ladies told me their trust would be breached thus the guys must work hard to build the trust back . . . So i twist the question a bit . . . IF ( During Two Timing the guy slept with the girl would you still forgive him ? )
^^ The answer is a big NO . . . Dream on !
If i direct this question to guys who are serious about relationship, no guys would want that to happen . . . it hurts . . its very painful don't you think ? Anyone would be angry . . . when the angry pass sadness will set in . . . disappointment will come in . . . if work isn't put in to rekindle the love . . . the flower that both parties tried so hard for it to blossom will never grow . . . it will wither and die . . . Thats love . . . A great deal of effort and tolerance . . . its not always the blue sky and beautiful scenery . . . ^^ I'm sorry because the question was asked during Friday and i could not remember everything as i'm trying to study now . . . thus . . . its a bit of short BUT i promise i bring some more new topics in ^^ . . . its always about feelings and emotion on my blog . . . ^^ Its a never ending topic to me. . .as one grows one's view about things changes . . .
I once saw a nick of my friend " Lots of people wants to ride with you in the Limo , but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you if the Limo breaks down " .
Is this true for you ?
Mmm . . . the rain. . . its pleasing ^^ i like it . . .
I used to say when it rains means someone is crying . . . today my sister cried -_- because the boyfriend and her was quareling at home . . .yes my home . . . i think the whole afternoon they were quarreling . . . ^^ i was in my room . . . shouting here and there . . . my sis cannot understand the guy's intention thus repeating herself . . . guy got rather pissed at the repeating and accusuation . . raises his voice . . . guy started to defend and retaliate . . . it becomes never ending . . . the problem was very simple actually . . .
From what i see . . there really wasn't any problem to begin with . . . it was a simple simple thing . . . i almost went out and talk to them but i guess i should let them iron things out themself maybe i'll tell my sister whats wrong when the guy isn't around . . . both party were at fault or rather they just cannot get the meaning of each other . . . . so people repeat and repeat . . . theres a limit somehow before ones start to raise their voice to get the thing across but it won't work as it only fuels the matter and the next thing that happens will be quarrel . . . . it happens on myself on my last r/s . . . there were just too many unecessary quarrels in fact whats there to quarrel . . . i'm still learning and correcting my mistakes made previously . . . not in the hope of winning my ex back . . . which i feel is totally impossible . . . its just to be a better person . . . though i still feel for her but it will just stay some where within my heart . . . i'll just stay out of her way ^^. . .
>.< Dinner time ^^ and back to study :P
"No matter how much time is going to pass , somehow i believe that person will stay in my heart"
Thursday, January 05, 2006
What a good sleep ^^
It was raining !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I slept the whole afternoon ^^
Heres some question . . . where would you like to visit given a chance to go overseas . . . ^^
For me i want to go JAPAN ! I want to see tons of things there ^^ Their human like robots and their anime !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^^
Heres some question . . . where would you like to visit given a chance to go overseas . . . ^^
For me i want to go JAPAN ! I want to see tons of things there ^^ Their human like robots and their anime !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^^
Little WenHao
Just how many of you did i reveal my childhood to ? None i guess . . . not even the one who was together with me for a short while . . . though she knew a bit of me ^^
Let me start with my parents . . . my Dad runs the family business together with my aunts and uncles which is about providing vegetables and fruits to restaurant and sometimes to those market food stalls . . . The business was pass down from my Grandparents ^^
Being young and naughty . . . i got into countless of arguments with teachers and classmates . . . I could still remember my primary school teacher her name was Mrs King . . . she would always always scold me and pull my ear till they would almsot come off . . . because i was naughty . . . i was a very bad kid partly because no one really bother to teach me whats right or wrong . . . My mum use to be a seamstress ^^ she can sew very well and shes a great cook . . . but because Dad was short handed so Mum had to go help out . . . My mum was often called down to school because i was naughty . . . so often that she told the teacher to "take care of" me lol . . . it works somehow . . . I did not become a gangster as some think i am . . . ^^
When my mum was a seamstress . . she works from home so she always cook . . . i would be doing my homework in the kitchen with her cooking or having my afternoon naps with her . . . when i fall sick she would take me to doctor and buy me toys just to coax me to take the medicine. . . but it wasn't long before that everything comes to a change . . . when my mum went with dad during the first day to work . . . i woke up at 7 am but i could not find her . . . i just cried and cried . . . looking for my mother~ but no response came . . . grandmother came to look after me and my sister . . . strange enough i was the one crying and looking for her ^^. That was the first time i felt so painful . . . since then i do not have much conversation with my parents . . . maybe i got too use to being alone at home . . .
Do you know how much i want to be wanted back then ! ! ! . . . even now its the same . . .
^^ Haha i can't continue this . . . too much for the heart to take . . . but ^^ i understand why my parents has to work and they still care ^^ :P
Let me start with my parents . . . my Dad runs the family business together with my aunts and uncles which is about providing vegetables and fruits to restaurant and sometimes to those market food stalls . . . The business was pass down from my Grandparents ^^
Being young and naughty . . . i got into countless of arguments with teachers and classmates . . . I could still remember my primary school teacher her name was Mrs King . . . she would always always scold me and pull my ear till they would almsot come off . . . because i was naughty . . . i was a very bad kid partly because no one really bother to teach me whats right or wrong . . . My mum use to be a seamstress ^^ she can sew very well and shes a great cook . . . but because Dad was short handed so Mum had to go help out . . . My mum was often called down to school because i was naughty . . . so often that she told the teacher to "take care of" me lol . . . it works somehow . . . I did not become a gangster as some think i am . . . ^^
When my mum was a seamstress . . she works from home so she always cook . . . i would be doing my homework in the kitchen with her cooking or having my afternoon naps with her . . . when i fall sick she would take me to doctor and buy me toys just to coax me to take the medicine. . . but it wasn't long before that everything comes to a change . . . when my mum went with dad during the first day to work . . . i woke up at 7 am but i could not find her . . . i just cried and cried . . . looking for my mother~ but no response came . . . grandmother came to look after me and my sister . . . strange enough i was the one crying and looking for her ^^. That was the first time i felt so painful . . . since then i do not have much conversation with my parents . . . maybe i got too use to being alone at home . . .
Do you know how much i want to be wanted back then ! ! ! . . . even now its the same . . .
^^ Haha i can't continue this . . . too much for the heart to take . . . but ^^ i understand why my parents has to work and they still care ^^ :P
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Caring Soul Warms Another Lonely Soul
Finished watching "To Heart: Remember My Memories" another anime with a slice of life in it.
Care . . . Ever felt that feeling before ? I did ^^ and i'm glad i did . . . i recieve it from a girl once and i come to realise why it was lost somehow . . . i still misses that girl a lot . . . and the hugs she gives . . . :P
Sometimes people must understand that feelings within oneself may not be felt by another that easily . . . thats why feelings has to be turn into actions which perhaps may be felt by another ( i wish i understood all this back then ) . . . when you got this very euphoria feeling of wanting to hug someone . . . you will just hug and the warmth of the other made you feel rather comfortable . . . soothing . . . safe, a hug dissipate all fears and warms the heart up . . . i once read why the touch of the human be so comforting . . . you were born with someone hugging you . . . when a baby cries , the mother will hold the baby close and most of the time the baby will stop crying . . . ever thought of it ? When you cry so sadly at times do you not wish someone would hug you and let you cry your heart out ? I guess many do . . .
^^ Maybe i'll do more research of this and get back to everyone ^^ Individuals feel differently about hugs . . . but the bottom line of hug should be nice ^^ and warm . . .
Care . . . Ever felt that feeling before ? I did ^^ and i'm glad i did . . . i recieve it from a girl once and i come to realise why it was lost somehow . . . i still misses that girl a lot . . . and the hugs she gives . . . :P
Sometimes people must understand that feelings within oneself may not be felt by another that easily . . . thats why feelings has to be turn into actions which perhaps may be felt by another ( i wish i understood all this back then ) . . . when you got this very euphoria feeling of wanting to hug someone . . . you will just hug and the warmth of the other made you feel rather comfortable . . . soothing . . . safe, a hug dissipate all fears and warms the heart up . . . i once read why the touch of the human be so comforting . . . you were born with someone hugging you . . . when a baby cries , the mother will hold the baby close and most of the time the baby will stop crying . . . ever thought of it ? When you cry so sadly at times do you not wish someone would hug you and let you cry your heart out ? I guess many do . . .
^^ Maybe i'll do more research of this and get back to everyone ^^ Individuals feel differently about hugs . . . but the bottom line of hug should be nice ^^ and warm . . .
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
^^ To Heart : Remember My Memories
I'm too emotional . . . just finished downloaded my new anime
"To Heart : Remember My Memories" watch till Episode 4 and ouch ! . . . touching ^^
I wanted to downlaod the part one but it was liscened . . . so anyone has them ??? Please lend me . . . if not i might go purchase it >.< . To Heart 2 is out too . . .
And Suzuka is coming to and end . . . episode 26 . . . the finale ^^
Rozen Maiden is ending ! >.< 3 more episode to go . . . while Bleach is ongoing . . .
Oh well . . . ^^ I'll search for more . . .
"even if you forget our memories . . . i would still remember them . . . for you and me"
"To Heart : Remember My Memories" watch till Episode 4 and ouch ! . . . touching ^^
I wanted to downlaod the part one but it was liscened . . . so anyone has them ??? Please lend me . . . if not i might go purchase it >.< . To Heart 2 is out too . . .
And Suzuka is coming to and end . . . episode 26 . . . the finale ^^
Rozen Maiden is ending ! >.< 3 more episode to go . . . while Bleach is ongoing . . .
Oh well . . . ^^ I'll search for more . . .
"even if you forget our memories . . . i would still remember them . . . for you and me"
Monday, January 02, 2006
Its school again . . . .
My 1 short week of study break is over !!!!!
Stayed up till 5am this morning to play games with Nigel , Ck , and Allan . . . Zhiyang gave up halfway and went to bed . . .
Woke up at 8am and met up with all of them including Kenny for breakfast . . . A pity that the prata house was full . . . >.< Didn't notice anything special on the road today . . . Went back home at 3pm and started to read some of my texts for Wednesday test . . . almost fell asleep while doing so.
So after reading and reading . . . and nothing got into my head . . . i went to re-watch "Rozen Maiden" ^^
I like the soundtracks played for this anime . . . most of them are rather soothing . . . sometimes they are rather sad . . . but overall they are great.
In 2+ months time i will be graduating . . . more things to do i guess ^^ perhaps before i got enlisted i'll do some part time and take a short break . . . afterall everyone needs a break to relax . . . ^^
Stayed up till 5am this morning to play games with Nigel , Ck , and Allan . . . Zhiyang gave up halfway and went to bed . . .
Woke up at 8am and met up with all of them including Kenny for breakfast . . . A pity that the prata house was full . . . >.< Didn't notice anything special on the road today . . . Went back home at 3pm and started to read some of my texts for Wednesday test . . . almost fell asleep while doing so.
So after reading and reading . . . and nothing got into my head . . . i went to re-watch "Rozen Maiden" ^^
I like the soundtracks played for this anime . . . most of them are rather soothing . . . sometimes they are rather sad . . . but overall they are great.
In 2+ months time i will be graduating . . . more things to do i guess ^^ perhaps before i got enlisted i'll do some part time and take a short break . . . afterall everyone needs a break to relax . . . ^^
Sunday, January 01, 2006
New Year ^^
Happy New Year folks . . .
2006 is here and there goes 2005 . . . What is past will be past . . . stop dwelling on the past and embrace what you will have in the coming new year. . .
What will be your wish for this new year ? Keep that wish to yourself ^^ When i was younger people say wishes doesn't come true once its mentioned . . . maybe it is because if wishes were to be voice out that easily . . . it won't be a wish that comes from the inner self . . . I'm sure everybody wishes for something good . It could be for oneself or for another. . . And there will be those who doesn't wish for anything. ^^
This new year eve i did not go anywhere . . . just got Nigel and Allan out for a drink ^^ the rest are either at home with their girlfriend watching Movies or at Esplanade watching fire works . . .
How did you spend yours ? Did you enjoy your eve ?
Now for those who are reading . . . stay happy and cheerful always . . . In the new year everyone will be even nicer and kinder ^^
I'm 20 this year ^^ Getting old~ :P
2006 is here and there goes 2005 . . . What is past will be past . . . stop dwelling on the past and embrace what you will have in the coming new year. . .
What will be your wish for this new year ? Keep that wish to yourself ^^ When i was younger people say wishes doesn't come true once its mentioned . . . maybe it is because if wishes were to be voice out that easily . . . it won't be a wish that comes from the inner self . . . I'm sure everybody wishes for something good . It could be for oneself or for another. . . And there will be those who doesn't wish for anything. ^^
This new year eve i did not go anywhere . . . just got Nigel and Allan out for a drink ^^ the rest are either at home with their girlfriend watching Movies or at Esplanade watching fire works . . .
How did you spend yours ? Did you enjoy your eve ?
Now for those who are reading . . . stay happy and cheerful always . . . In the new year everyone will be even nicer and kinder ^^
I'm 20 this year ^^ Getting old~ :P
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