Angel : "You're holding on to something that has disappeared long ago and you're making it bigger than ever . . . its never going to be the same . . . and its not going to be like how you had imagine its going to be . . . "
Angel : " let go truly , stop yearning and start living"
me :"I don't know what to say"
And so she insert the kiss icon on msn . . . " I know you don't "
She knew my thoughts . . . or rather she knew how i felt . . .
"Start living and stop yearning" . . . i like this ahah . . . isn't it true ? you don't move when all you do is wish and hope . . . nothing change when you are not doing anything . . . so start living . . .
Had a long chat with Nigel last night as well . . . but i will post that another day . . . after i return from my situational test . . .
Heres something from a book i borrowed from Nigel
" Its better to regret what you have done rather than what you haven't "
Kenny and Nigel read my blog but they never tag at all -_- tag la ! ! ! so empty there . . . .
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
Back Again ! ! !
>.<
If you have one desire . . . one desire that is logical . . . one desire that is obtainable . . . what would that be . . . in other words . . . what do you want in life ?
Car ? Money ? Family ? Someone ?
ahah think about it . . . i'll let you known mine soon . . .
Recently my platoon has begun the forbidden "BLANKET PARTY" lol . . .
My Section is the one who started it LOL . . .
We as a section of 13 men targetted other section guys . . . . one our guy will grab other section guys to our section and we LOL . . . strip him bare and put tons of stuff all over his bare body . . . camo cream . . . toothpaste . . . muscle ache cream . . . boot kiwi . . . lol . . .
Its a tradition in the army . . . a good thing is that . . my section has all the BIG BOYS so well ^^ we're the one who blanket others :P
So you ask . . . are there spooky stuff in the army ? . . . yes . . . and it happen . . . .
Imagine a bunk where there are only guys . . . short hair . . . all of a sudden u find long hair on the bed after you leave the room . . . happens quite a few time in one of the section . . . its true . . . every night when lights out . . . the wall will give a loud knocking sound . . . sound that comes from mosquito netting rods . . . we checked many times but no one did this on purpose but the sound continues when we put our mosquito nettings . . .
Don't believe ? come see for yourself . . . i can vouch because the sound is just beside me and my buddy wall . . . and EVERY FREAKING NIGHT IT HAPPEN . . . we don't question anything and we just take it as it is . . . . so we live peacefully . . . everynight i listen to radio lol . . . because the sound is . . . sigh terrible . . .
Going for situational test next week . . . that is FIELD CAMP AGAIN . . .zzZZZZzZZZ
I miss you . . .
If you have one desire . . . one desire that is logical . . . one desire that is obtainable . . . what would that be . . . in other words . . . what do you want in life ?
Car ? Money ? Family ? Someone ?
ahah think about it . . . i'll let you known mine soon . . .
Recently my platoon has begun the forbidden "BLANKET PARTY" lol . . .
My Section is the one who started it LOL . . .
We as a section of 13 men targetted other section guys . . . . one our guy will grab other section guys to our section and we LOL . . . strip him bare and put tons of stuff all over his bare body . . . camo cream . . . toothpaste . . . muscle ache cream . . . boot kiwi . . . lol . . .
Its a tradition in the army . . . a good thing is that . . my section has all the BIG BOYS so well ^^ we're the one who blanket others :P
So you ask . . . are there spooky stuff in the army ? . . . yes . . . and it happen . . . .
Imagine a bunk where there are only guys . . . short hair . . . all of a sudden u find long hair on the bed after you leave the room . . . happens quite a few time in one of the section . . . its true . . . every night when lights out . . . the wall will give a loud knocking sound . . . sound that comes from mosquito netting rods . . . we checked many times but no one did this on purpose but the sound continues when we put our mosquito nettings . . .
Don't believe ? come see for yourself . . . i can vouch because the sound is just beside me and my buddy wall . . . and EVERY FREAKING NIGHT IT HAPPEN . . . we don't question anything and we just take it as it is . . . . so we live peacefully . . . everynight i listen to radio lol . . . because the sound is . . . sigh terrible . . .
Going for situational test next week . . . that is FIELD CAMP AGAIN . . .zzZZZZzZZZ
I miss you . . .
Monday, October 23, 2006
Simple Me
Funny Title for this entry . . . but here goes . . .
Was talking with Simone earlier in the afternoon . . . so she actually pasted something i mention to her in her blog . . .
Me : Where you are today is partly because of the decision you made back then , what you decided to do today will affect tomorrow too . . .
True ? Its up to you to decide . . . as for me i find it true . . .
Had a terrible headache when i went over to cousin's house to attend the prayer session for my grandfather . . . then i had to fall out half way because i really had to take a rest . . . i have not fully recovered from the sickness since i enter army . . . but oh well it doesn't really bother me . .
I was sitting around the younger cousins together with wencong and both of us were like telling them to study hard as they are in their secondary school final year . . . at that point i shot out this sentence
Me : What you obtain for secondary school will somehow seal the future options for you . . . certain options in life will no longer be avaliable to you . . .
What do you guys think ? Somehow i personally feel it is true . . . its like a bus thats approaching once you miss the opportunity it means you miss that particular experience on that particular bus . . . No , i don't mean you will forever be stuck with limited options . . . you will be presented with other options but those who manage to catch that particular bus will have MORE options compare to those who miss it . . .
"As we grow . . . the more miserable we get" . . . a friend of mine mention this to me . . . i was at first shocked to hear this from him but later i realise why he felt that way . . . life is no doubt stressful as we aged but again i must stress this new found defination of life . . .
"Life is simple . . . it is us people who make it tough for ourselves and others"
Imagine everybody would do each and everyone of us a favour by giving us some peace of mind at times . . don't you think life can be relaxing and simple ?
But its hard to achieve that . . .
What you can't change don't even think about it . . . what you can change , do something about it . .
When you view life as something eternal . . . you will never treasure anything . . .
But when you view life as a chance to make eveyrthing worthwhile while it last . . . you will see the beauty and appreciate everything around you . . .
Life is really that simple . . . enjoying the moments while it last ^^
Don't give up . . . sometimes its tough , its painful but remember it will be over before you know it . . . and remember you will smile again . . . take care my dear folks . . . i'll see you people around soon . . . going back to camp on tuesday and very soon i have to embark on another field trip . . . maybe i'll come back with more new things ^^ stay tune
Was talking with Simone earlier in the afternoon . . . so she actually pasted something i mention to her in her blog . . .
Me : Where you are today is partly because of the decision you made back then , what you decided to do today will affect tomorrow too . . .
True ? Its up to you to decide . . . as for me i find it true . . .
Had a terrible headache when i went over to cousin's house to attend the prayer session for my grandfather . . . then i had to fall out half way because i really had to take a rest . . . i have not fully recovered from the sickness since i enter army . . . but oh well it doesn't really bother me . .
I was sitting around the younger cousins together with wencong and both of us were like telling them to study hard as they are in their secondary school final year . . . at that point i shot out this sentence
Me : What you obtain for secondary school will somehow seal the future options for you . . . certain options in life will no longer be avaliable to you . . .
What do you guys think ? Somehow i personally feel it is true . . . its like a bus thats approaching once you miss the opportunity it means you miss that particular experience on that particular bus . . . No , i don't mean you will forever be stuck with limited options . . . you will be presented with other options but those who manage to catch that particular bus will have MORE options compare to those who miss it . . .
"As we grow . . . the more miserable we get" . . . a friend of mine mention this to me . . . i was at first shocked to hear this from him but later i realise why he felt that way . . . life is no doubt stressful as we aged but again i must stress this new found defination of life . . .
"Life is simple . . . it is us people who make it tough for ourselves and others"
Imagine everybody would do each and everyone of us a favour by giving us some peace of mind at times . . don't you think life can be relaxing and simple ?
But its hard to achieve that . . .
What you can't change don't even think about it . . . what you can change , do something about it . .
When you view life as something eternal . . . you will never treasure anything . . .
But when you view life as a chance to make eveyrthing worthwhile while it last . . . you will see the beauty and appreciate everything around you . . .
Life is really that simple . . . enjoying the moments while it last ^^
Don't give up . . . sometimes its tough , its painful but remember it will be over before you know it . . . and remember you will smile again . . . take care my dear folks . . . i'll see you people around soon . . . going back to camp on tuesday and very soon i have to embark on another field trip . . . maybe i'll come back with more new things ^^ stay tune
Sunday, October 22, 2006
wenhao
Just had pizza with the guys and a little chit chat at mac . . . i just finish showering and its a really nice cooling feeling now . . . so peaceful and mm . . . serene i would i say . . .
Listening to Paradiso by Hitomi . . . an OST from GUN X SWORD . . .
Just feel like sleeping now . . . oh well i should not waste my time sleeping . . . i want to enjoy every moment i have now at home . . .
I don't really have the mood to blog about the rest of the field camp experience . . . overall its good and fun. . . but if you ask me to go through it again . . . i would hope i don't have to go through it again . . . its not easy at all . . . and one must have a positive mindest throughout the whole journey . . . i learn a lot during this 7 days . . . apart from the combat stuff . . . i gain more on character building . . . understanding myself better . . . more cool headed rather than hot headed . . . because in field camp people tend to lose temper easily as we are very deprived of sleep . . . but still i manage to change myself on that part . . . ^^
Hows life for you guys out there ? I think it should be quite fun ^^ maybe stressful at work but at the end of the day you get the rest you deserve and treat yourself to something nice during the weekend ^^ take care of yourself and its good to spoil yourself everynow and then ^^
I would without fail treat myself to something nice during the weekend when i get the chance to book out of camp . . . maybe breakfast with jiemei . . . movies with the gang or other stuff . . . though it cost me a bit at times but i see it as a reward for the effort i had put in during the time i'm under training . . .
I hope everyone is well . . . though i can't meet up with some of you but if i have the chance i would ^^ . . .
I'm tired . . . need to get some sleep soon ^^ . . . sleep early guys :P good night
Listening to Paradiso by Hitomi . . . an OST from GUN X SWORD . . .
Just feel like sleeping now . . . oh well i should not waste my time sleeping . . . i want to enjoy every moment i have now at home . . .
I don't really have the mood to blog about the rest of the field camp experience . . . overall its good and fun. . . but if you ask me to go through it again . . . i would hope i don't have to go through it again . . . its not easy at all . . . and one must have a positive mindest throughout the whole journey . . . i learn a lot during this 7 days . . . apart from the combat stuff . . . i gain more on character building . . . understanding myself better . . . more cool headed rather than hot headed . . . because in field camp people tend to lose temper easily as we are very deprived of sleep . . . but still i manage to change myself on that part . . . ^^
Hows life for you guys out there ? I think it should be quite fun ^^ maybe stressful at work but at the end of the day you get the rest you deserve and treat yourself to something nice during the weekend ^^ take care of yourself and its good to spoil yourself everynow and then ^^
I would without fail treat myself to something nice during the weekend when i get the chance to book out of camp . . . maybe breakfast with jiemei . . . movies with the gang or other stuff . . . though it cost me a bit at times but i see it as a reward for the effort i had put in during the time i'm under training . . .
I hope everyone is well . . . though i can't meet up with some of you but if i have the chance i would ^^ . . .
I'm tired . . . need to get some sleep soon ^^ . . . sleep early guys :P good night
Friday, October 20, 2006
Field Camp Diary Part 1
Recruit Aw Wen Hao
Day 1
Status : Healthy
Skin Condition : Clean
We did a 8 km march from camp to our first campsite which is like a rubber plantation . . .
Status : Green . . . but my whole uniform is wet . . . not from rain but sweat from my own body
Terrain : Solid Rocks
Vegetation : Some small bushes and rubber trees
Creepy Crawlies Present : Ants , Fire Ants , Spider , Cricket , WILD BOAR ( Freaking BIG )
I had to dug a drainage around my tentage area with my buddy and it took us for like 1-2 hours . . . to dig like 30 cm deep . . .HOLY CRAP the ground is FREAKING HARD PLUS there are many huge roots to keep the soil so intact which really make me tear when i was digging the drainage system . . . seems the toughest part was over but HELL NO . . . its just the beginning of an experience which i will never ever forget ^^ its downright DIRTY AND SMELLY . . . its not those "dirty" when you are a civilian . . . when we talk about dirty in army it means !~!@#!@# . . . i can't describe it to you but just imagine the stench from 1 set of my uniform can make EVEN myself faint just from 1 day activity. . . we are covered with so many rubbish . . . Basically Day 1 we attend lesson . . . sitting on grass and soil while listening to our Sirs giveing lectures . . . pretty easy day . . .
Its pretty hard to sleep on rocks if you ask me . . . and the ground is like slanted 45° . . . but i have to say out of the 7 days . . .the 1st day campsite is the best of all 3 . . . ok i need to go now to send my uniform for washing . . . stay tune for the 2nd day . . . ^^
Day 1
Status : Healthy
Skin Condition : Clean
We did a 8 km march from camp to our first campsite which is like a rubber plantation . . .
Status : Green . . . but my whole uniform is wet . . . not from rain but sweat from my own body
Terrain : Solid Rocks
Vegetation : Some small bushes and rubber trees
Creepy Crawlies Present : Ants , Fire Ants , Spider , Cricket , WILD BOAR ( Freaking BIG )
I had to dug a drainage around my tentage area with my buddy and it took us for like 1-2 hours . . . to dig like 30 cm deep . . .HOLY CRAP the ground is FREAKING HARD PLUS there are many huge roots to keep the soil so intact which really make me tear when i was digging the drainage system . . . seems the toughest part was over but HELL NO . . . its just the beginning of an experience which i will never ever forget ^^ its downright DIRTY AND SMELLY . . . its not those "dirty" when you are a civilian . . . when we talk about dirty in army it means !~!@#!@# . . . i can't describe it to you but just imagine the stench from 1 set of my uniform can make EVEN myself faint just from 1 day activity. . . we are covered with so many rubbish . . . Basically Day 1 we attend lesson . . . sitting on grass and soil while listening to our Sirs giveing lectures . . . pretty easy day . . .
Its pretty hard to sleep on rocks if you ask me . . . and the ground is like slanted 45° . . . but i have to say out of the 7 days . . .the 1st day campsite is the best of all 3 . . . ok i need to go now to send my uniform for washing . . . stay tune for the 2nd day . . . ^^
Back From Field Camp
I'M BACK FROM FIELD CAMP 7 DAYS . . . SO DIRTY AND ACK~
But before i continue my field camp story i will give an entry for my Grandfather
My GrandFather just pass away on 10th October 2006 10.30pm from Colon Carcinoma . . . .
I attended the funeral for 3 days only and had to report back for field camp . . . wasn't able to attend the cremation ceremony . . .
I hope hes fine now . . . . free from all pain . . .
But before i continue my field camp story i will give an entry for my Grandfather
My GrandFather just pass away on 10th October 2006 10.30pm from Colon Carcinoma . . . .
I attended the funeral for 3 days only and had to report back for field camp . . . wasn't able to attend the cremation ceremony . . .
I hope hes fine now . . . . free from all pain . . .
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Field Camp
Going to get confinement again in preperation for field camp this coming friday . . .
I wonder how its going to be like -_-??? But well it should be enjoyable ahah . . . but the sleeping and eating part may not be such a good experience i guess . . .
I spend a lot of money on doctors . . . . close to about $100 already ? the sore throat and cough just won't go away . . . and its making me feeling so terrible till i can't even talk properly . . . and its making me feel very weak . . . can't do activities with my full potential T_T
Anyway. . . i shall stop here . . . i'll be back 2 weeks later ^^ wait for my stories :P
I wonder how its going to be like -_-??? But well it should be enjoyable ahah . . . but the sleeping and eating part may not be such a good experience i guess . . .
I spend a lot of money on doctors . . . . close to about $100 already ? the sore throat and cough just won't go away . . . and its making me feeling so terrible till i can't even talk properly . . . and its making me feel very weak . . . can't do activities with my full potential T_T
Anyway. . . i shall stop here . . . i'll be back 2 weeks later ^^ wait for my stories :P
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