Randoms

Got a job ... after so much thinking ... or rather i didn't have much choices at that point of time and it was like pressing myself to get a job ... social pressure ... i guess ...

So this is my 4th week already into the work ... and if you ask me ... my job pretty much requires a lot of PR skills than technical knowledge ... the work environment and people are some of the best i can say ... the compensation package for salary isn't all that great except that the benefits such as leave, dental is quite good ...

Well you can say that as long as you are good ... you will get the pay eventually ... i'm just afraid that i made the wrong choice ... but seriously who can tell me what is right other than myself ... if i myself don't even know what i want ... then who else would ? I don't wish to lock myself up and trapped ...

I know the ultimate reason or rather the goal i seek is to create the best family life ever ... because this is somewhat lacking for me ... because my parents had to work very hard to give me and my sister the education we need and also the financial support ...

One day i will be in their shoes too ... but i don't wish to miss out on the life ahead and the chance to have strong family/friends bonding ... but i also cannot earn too little ... otherwise i will be brooding over how to earn more money every single day ...

I think everyone wants such a scenario where u have enough to spend ... enough to save ... enough time to do what you like ... enough time for everything that matters in life ... but many people say its hard to achieve all of it ... i want to ... and i am trying to find out how ...

I guess giving myself 1 year in this current job would be a good assessment if i want this for my life ... i am questioning myself every now and then ... if this is the path i want ....