Randoms

Got a job ... after so much thinking ... or rather i didn't have much choices at that point of time and it was like pressing myself to get a job ... social pressure ... i guess ...

So this is my 4th week already into the work ... and if you ask me ... my job pretty much requires a lot of PR skills than technical knowledge ... the work environment and people are some of the best i can say ... the compensation package for salary isn't all that great except that the benefits such as leave, dental is quite good ...

Well you can say that as long as you are good ... you will get the pay eventually ... i'm just afraid that i made the wrong choice ... but seriously who can tell me what is right other than myself ... if i myself don't even know what i want ... then who else would ? I don't wish to lock myself up and trapped ...

I know the ultimate reason or rather the goal i seek is to create the best family life ever ... because this is somewhat lacking for me ... because my parents had to work very hard to give me and my sister the education we need and also the financial support ...

One day i will be in their shoes too ... but i don't wish to miss out on the life ahead and the chance to have strong family/friends bonding ... but i also cannot earn too little ... otherwise i will be brooding over how to earn more money every single day ...

I think everyone wants such a scenario where u have enough to spend ... enough to save ... enough time to do what you like ... enough time for everything that matters in life ... but many people say its hard to achieve all of it ... i want to ... and i am trying to find out how ...

I guess giving myself 1 year in this current job would be a good assessment if i want this for my life ... i am questioning myself every now and then ... if this is the path i want ....

Vex .... Troubled .... Lost

As i approach my final 4 examination papers and my presentation for the final year projects ...
I am also nearing the end of my Uni education .... Which also means i have to make a decision to join the industry ...

I'm not sure if i will end up with a 2nd upper or a 2nd lower honours ... i'm pretty secured for a 2nd lower .... but i'm trying to get a 2nd upper ... because it offers more job opportunities ... most of my peers secured their jobs already ... and most of them are big companies ... the salaries are pretty decent and way above my expectation ...

While i'm brooding over where to focus on ... my peers walk ahead of me ... I'm still pretty lost ... its pretty scary actually ... because i'm afriad of entering the wrong industry ... and you become stagnant ... then you would be out of the rat race ...

I'm kind of lost at this stage ... i know my ultimate goals ... but i failed to plan for the process to achieve my goal ... and that ... is crippling me now ...

Graduating soon

Graduating soon ...

So many worries ...

Job ah Job ...

Ding Dong Ding Dong

2 more months to exam ! Study Hard People !

Some reflection ...

I'm quite emotional ... lots of feelings ... filled inside me ...
I know i won't be some great engineer or someone good in management ...
What i am studying ... i know it isn't my interests ... i am just pushing myself to do it ... because everyone else was doing it ... there wasn't much option ... for me ...

I know what i had wanted ... since a long time ago ... to be the pair of ears ... to heal wounded hearts ... i am sure it is much more fufilling for me than punching numbers on calculators or churning reports that never ceased to stop ...

I want to be that pair of ears ... the person to be there ... because there aren't many out there ...
I understood some of the common pain some others had experienced before ... maybe the journey to healing others is tough ... but the end result would definately be worth it ...

I know what i want ... like it was just meant to be ... i hope i get that job ... apart from having to work on saturday ^^ ... hope i will be shortlisted ...

2011 ~

Looks For jobs ...

Clear my FYP ...

Start Planning ... for the future ... house ... bla bla bla ...

Welcome to the working society ...

I will miss school life ... classmates and mugging books together is fun ...

Continue to smile ...

Continue to bond ...

For this shouldn't be the time we part ...

Contacts can still be maintain as we each pursue our path ... ( like i have any ... Ha )

Whats in store for me ?

Hope i get all As again ... so i can reach 2nd upper ... more doors will be open ^^