Final year ~

School Starts tomorrow and i will officially be in the final year of U~ Finally after studying for like so many years ... but then again the fear of joining the pool of jobless people in the market is freaking me out haha ...

Hope i land a pretty normal job ... normal salary ... to enjoy my normal life ... so that i can build a normal family ^^

I'm a bit sick at the moment so this entry is short ... will be uploading USS pictures here as well ^^

Sunny Sunday ~

I've recently received an invitation to a friend's wedding reception then it occur to me that i've grown very much in age ... it seems as if time just went past, with me struggling to plan the future.

When i was a few years younger i would ask people how are they doing during those gathering session. But now i would ask them when are they going to get married . I couldn't figure out why i ask them such questions but i guess that its only natural for me to ask . A friend asked me how is it possible that people would be sure of the one they are currently dating would eventually be the best souldmates for them . I can only say that why choose to go into a relationship then only to end it eventually ... i think it pretty much turns you or the other person upside down inside. Every phase of your life you meet different kinds of people , those which may not appear intresting or appealing to you may suddenly appear at a later stage of life .

Does this mean you give up your current partner and trade them for someone better ?

Does that indicate to others that your partner isn't good enough for you anymore ?

Can you gurantee that the new partner would find you good enough eventually ?

All forms of relationships reaches a peak and settles down ... there are those with never ending excitement and romance but you have to work for it ... if you simply choose to have a new partner just to experience that thrill once again then eventually you would settle down into a marriage not because you want it ... because you're too old to be playing in the field ...

Somehow a safe person is never as intresting as those dangerous ones ... But then again ... what kind of love are you seeking ? what kind of person are you seeking ? If you seek the thrill now but yet you want those stable life later on ... its pretty hard to find but its not impossible though .

Of course ... unhealthy , abusive r/s ... you better get out of it ^^

Take care peeps