How was EXAM ? Pretty rush . . . i spend too much time on thinking which in the end after the paper i think i made errors on the question i spend the most time on . . . i call it the "think too much syndrome"
But i guess this paper i did not fare badly . . . so i went to enquire my previous matlab exam which contributes 30% to this module as well and GUESS WHAT i score 100 for it so I'M GETTING THE 30% for sure :P First time i get full marks in my tertiary education . Quite happy about that ^^ . Hopping for the best.
So last paper to go . . . didn't sleep much . . . was studying and chatting with Felicia online until she went to sleep first and then Shanyu called and we discuss past year exam till 3.30am and so she went to sleep . . .
THEN ? I stop studying and watch anime ^^ final episode of Hantsuki . . . very good ending ^^ A very short anime which has 6 episode in total about romance . . . A girl whose heart might fail any time and a boy who has a bright future . . . still they choose to give up everything and choose to be with each other . . . so end up i slept for 1 hour . . . woke up at 7 am and prepare for school ^^ . . .
Tired . . . .
If love can overcome obstacles then i guess its something worthy to treasure . . . somehow love which cannot withstand obstacles shouldn't be called love in the first place . . . it should be called infatuation . . . because it fades
Monday, February 27, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Ding Ding
Last 2 papers . . . i will be sitting for a LIFE OR DEATH exam tomorrow . . . advance instrumentation and control . . . module credit 6 . . . . must score for this paper to save myself from drowning . . . i'm still studying . . . its a paper which cannot be predicted . . so its quite exciting actually . . .
Pretty clueless what i should do after exam . . . take my driving lisence ? or work . . or not do anything and just wait to get enlist into the army . . . having to wake up and not having to go to school anymore is quite scary . . . been attending school since age 5 till 20 . . . suddenly i stop going to school . . . seems a bit out of place .
I wonder . . . i wonder . . . where would i really be in 5 years time . . . having to lead a life without solid plans for the future is definately a no . . . somehow it gives me the creeps. Guess i must try to do some planning for this long holiday . . .
Who knows . . . i might just take up a business degree and set up my own cookie shop . . . ^^ or a restaurant with cousin . . . ^^
Nothing much to say but all the best to those who are going to step into society . . . it has been rather fun being a teenager don't you think so ? Dread becoming an adult . . . more and more responsibilities weighing on you . . . no more carefree life where i can sit and stare at the oceans or look at the sparrows flying around . . .
Mmmmm . .. . . . . .study study
Pretty clueless what i should do after exam . . . take my driving lisence ? or work . . or not do anything and just wait to get enlist into the army . . . having to wake up and not having to go to school anymore is quite scary . . . been attending school since age 5 till 20 . . . suddenly i stop going to school . . . seems a bit out of place .
I wonder . . . i wonder . . . where would i really be in 5 years time . . . having to lead a life without solid plans for the future is definately a no . . . somehow it gives me the creeps. Guess i must try to do some planning for this long holiday . . .
Who knows . . . i might just take up a business degree and set up my own cookie shop . . . ^^ or a restaurant with cousin . . . ^^
Nothing much to say but all the best to those who are going to step into society . . . it has been rather fun being a teenager don't you think so ? Dread becoming an adult . . . more and more responsibilities weighing on you . . . no more carefree life where i can sit and stare at the oceans or look at the sparrows flying around . . .
Mmmmm . .. . . . . .study study
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Mm . . .
Removed post ^^ . . . doesn't look nice on the blog . . . so much for the exam yesterday . . .
I don't know why i slept at 2 am and woke up at 5 am . . . then i can't get to sleep . . . first time .
So whats the big news lately ? . . . The polytechnic video saga . . . its in the news lately i'm sure it caught a lot of people's attention . . .
Sharon saw the guy outside school i think . . . if she did not mistaken him that is . . .
I wonder when is the matter going to be over . . . shouldn't people be worried more about epidemic rather than those . . .
There has been a vaccine develope for the bird flu from what i read . . . and i think its still undergoing further test to get approval . . . which means tons of people are going to be saved . . . somehow people don't really give a hoot about all this world issues . . . but its good to know somehow . . . at least thats how i feel . . . since bird flu comes from birds mostly . . . meaning migratory birds will be affected . . . the whole world is affected ^^ . . . currently France has its detected the H5N1 virus in a second dead wild duck . . . i use to think the virus only occur around in Asia . . . but i'm wrong . . .
Mm . . . . lets see whats the next big thing going to happen . . .
I don't know why i slept at 2 am and woke up at 5 am . . . then i can't get to sleep . . . first time .
So whats the big news lately ? . . . The polytechnic video saga . . . its in the news lately i'm sure it caught a lot of people's attention . . .
Sharon saw the guy outside school i think . . . if she did not mistaken him that is . . .
I wonder when is the matter going to be over . . . shouldn't people be worried more about epidemic rather than those . . .
There has been a vaccine develope for the bird flu from what i read . . . and i think its still undergoing further test to get approval . . . which means tons of people are going to be saved . . . somehow people don't really give a hoot about all this world issues . . . but its good to know somehow . . . at least thats how i feel . . . since bird flu comes from birds mostly . . . meaning migratory birds will be affected . . . the whole world is affected ^^ . . . currently France has its detected the H5N1 virus in a second dead wild duck . . . i use to think the virus only occur around in Asia . . . but i'm wrong . . .
Mm . . . . lets see whats the next big thing going to happen . . .
Monday, February 20, 2006
Oh my Oh my
Oh . . . . Today . . . I finished watching SHUFFLE! finally . . . . Rin finally made up his mind to be with Asa . . . but he broke Kaede's heart terribly T_T but still she did not give up loving him ^^ going to source for more anime . . .
In the afternoon . . .i took a bus down to SSDC to take my advanced theory test . . . PASSED without studying . . . BUT on the way . . . some teenager asked me something.
Guy: UNCLE ! UNCLE !
Me: Huh ?
Guy: UNCLE ! UNCLE !
Me: Ya ?
Guy: GOT 55 CENTS ?
Me: *Smile* Sorry no coins . . .
I really got no coins on me, its not that i don't wish to lend the poor guy some coins to take the bus home . . . . #%^@!#%^@!%#!@% UNCLE ! I think i'm really old~ terrible . . . .really terrible ! Calling me uncle hurt my fragile heart T_T pity me ! i'm still 20 only ! UNCLE ! LOL i'm fooling around here . . . Nah it doesn't hurt . . just made me feel a bit old . . . come to think of it i've grown old somehow . . . maybe in like 5 years time people start calling me Ah Pek ! Gramps ! Old Man !
-_- Yar and this uncle pass his advance driving theory . . . going to book my classes for driving soon . . . what troublesome ways to get a car lisence T_T.
Life been rather good lately . . . watching anime , shopping for groceries to do my cooking . . . . relaxing~ ^^ though i don't go out to town area or beaches to play so that i can feel the fun because to some thats the way "fun" is for them . . .
I prefer the luxury of being able to take my time to do things . . . and enjoy the atmostphere . . . even sitting on the bench doing nothing but stare at the sky is good enough for me . . . because it will be soon enough when i can no longer have the time to enjoy my own companion . . . army . . . work . . . if i get lucky enough i get to University and then work . . . it will be long before i can enjoy the day to the fullest without having to worry for anything . . . without having to think . . . life is short . . . have you really grab the feeling of life ?
The way things are now is serene~ so peaceful~ . . . its like flying through the clouds with slight drizzle . . . the cooling and smooth feelings . . . like how the wind brushes by your skin. . . thats what i'm feeling everyday ^^soothing~ maybe thats how the heart feels when its really calm and happy . . .
But of course i have 3 more exam papers to go before i finally finishes my tertiary education . . . so its going to be a bit stressful then . . .
Thats all ^^ . . . Kate !!! Got my mail ? Still waiting for replies from you ^^
In the afternoon . . .i took a bus down to SSDC to take my advanced theory test . . . PASSED without studying . . . BUT on the way . . . some teenager asked me something.
Guy: UNCLE ! UNCLE !
Me: Huh ?
Guy: UNCLE ! UNCLE !
Me: Ya ?
Guy: GOT 55 CENTS ?
Me: *Smile* Sorry no coins . . .
I really got no coins on me, its not that i don't wish to lend the poor guy some coins to take the bus home . . . . #%^@!#%^@!%#!@% UNCLE ! I think i'm really old~ terrible . . . .really terrible ! Calling me uncle hurt my fragile heart T_T pity me ! i'm still 20 only ! UNCLE ! LOL i'm fooling around here . . . Nah it doesn't hurt . . just made me feel a bit old . . . come to think of it i've grown old somehow . . . maybe in like 5 years time people start calling me Ah Pek ! Gramps ! Old Man !
-_- Yar and this uncle pass his advance driving theory . . . going to book my classes for driving soon . . . what troublesome ways to get a car lisence T_T.
Life been rather good lately . . . watching anime , shopping for groceries to do my cooking . . . . relaxing~ ^^ though i don't go out to town area or beaches to play so that i can feel the fun because to some thats the way "fun" is for them . . .
I prefer the luxury of being able to take my time to do things . . . and enjoy the atmostphere . . . even sitting on the bench doing nothing but stare at the sky is good enough for me . . . because it will be soon enough when i can no longer have the time to enjoy my own companion . . . army . . . work . . . if i get lucky enough i get to University and then work . . . it will be long before i can enjoy the day to the fullest without having to worry for anything . . . without having to think . . . life is short . . . have you really grab the feeling of life ?
The way things are now is serene~ so peaceful~ . . . its like flying through the clouds with slight drizzle . . . the cooling and smooth feelings . . . like how the wind brushes by your skin. . . thats what i'm feeling everyday ^^soothing~ maybe thats how the heart feels when its really calm and happy . . .
But of course i have 3 more exam papers to go before i finally finishes my tertiary education . . . so its going to be a bit stressful then . . .
Thats all ^^ . . . Kate !!! Got my mail ? Still waiting for replies from you ^^
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
^^ . . .
So sherri is going to make me brownie . . . Lets look forward to that ^^
I talk to Mom about taking some loan from her if i'm going to a trip to Japan ^^. She thought i was asking her for overseas studies loan and immidiately decline me T_T guess i cannot study overseas but its ok i never really plan to go there either. But after correcting her that i'm talking about going to Japan she said its alright . . . and asked where i wanted to go. . . she even suggested me to go the city area like Tokyo . . . Haha guess i had to really plan where i'm going to visit . . . and maybe this trip i will be dragging Jie Mei along ^^ . . .
I can imagine myself standing at their Anime Shop GRABBING everything WAHAHAHA . . .
Waiting Waiting ^^ . . . . . . . . . . .
So how did valentine go for everyone ? I supoose its good . . . afterall its a day filled with loved i guess :P
Lets explain something about waiting for someone . . . say for example myself . . . people think i'm waiting for jerelyn but in actual fact . . . waiting for what ? waiting for her to come to me ? which i don't think is possible at all . . . the fact that i'm not doing anything means i'm not going to get anything . . . but that doesn't mean doing something will get you something . . . get it ? So i doubt i will use the word waiting on myself . . . Let me put it this way if the chance comes for me to have a relationship with her once again base on the feeling now i know i would allow things to progress . . . but i cannot assure that things will stay the way it is . . . so does that mean i'm giving up ? ^^ Sometimes this is not an easy topic to deal with . . . When the right one just come in front of you . . . you will know somehow . . . so take it that i gave up on her everyone . . . shes just a friend now to me . . . that feeling i had wasn't for the her now it was for the jerelyn back then . . . if she appears then maybe but if not then shes good as gone from my heart . . .
^^ . . . . .JAPAN ^^ Lets hope i meet Ayumi there and get a picture with her HAR HAR Weiyang will come and slaughter me if i get it before he does :P
I talk to Mom about taking some loan from her if i'm going to a trip to Japan ^^. She thought i was asking her for overseas studies loan and immidiately decline me T_T guess i cannot study overseas but its ok i never really plan to go there either. But after correcting her that i'm talking about going to Japan she said its alright . . . and asked where i wanted to go. . . she even suggested me to go the city area like Tokyo . . . Haha guess i had to really plan where i'm going to visit . . . and maybe this trip i will be dragging Jie Mei along ^^ . . .
I can imagine myself standing at their Anime Shop GRABBING everything WAHAHAHA . . .
Waiting Waiting ^^ . . . . . . . . . . .
So how did valentine go for everyone ? I supoose its good . . . afterall its a day filled with loved i guess :P
Lets explain something about waiting for someone . . . say for example myself . . . people think i'm waiting for jerelyn but in actual fact . . . waiting for what ? waiting for her to come to me ? which i don't think is possible at all . . . the fact that i'm not doing anything means i'm not going to get anything . . . but that doesn't mean doing something will get you something . . . get it ? So i doubt i will use the word waiting on myself . . . Let me put it this way if the chance comes for me to have a relationship with her once again base on the feeling now i know i would allow things to progress . . . but i cannot assure that things will stay the way it is . . . so does that mean i'm giving up ? ^^ Sometimes this is not an easy topic to deal with . . . When the right one just come in front of you . . . you will know somehow . . . so take it that i gave up on her everyone . . . shes just a friend now to me . . . that feeling i had wasn't for the her now it was for the jerelyn back then . . . if she appears then maybe but if not then shes good as gone from my heart . . .
^^ . . . . .JAPAN ^^ Lets hope i meet Ayumi there and get a picture with her HAR HAR Weiyang will come and slaughter me if i get it before he does :P
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Intresting ^^
Last night i went to MIRC to get IP for some lan gamming session . . . but eventually i was too tired for any games so i left my MIRC on. And some folks in NYP channel came to chat up with me. Asking me if i know "So n So" which i don't even know this person at all . So i asked why the big fuss over this person. So then i found out this "So n So" actually film the process of her and the lover doing "something" on the cellphone . And it happen so the cellphone went missing and it landed up in God knows whose hand. So the Adult Rated Video got circulated around. Thats why they come to find out from me if i know the "So n So". So this "so n so" is really in for some trouble.
I must say she is very unlucky . . .
Study Study . . . . What a warm day T_T Feel so sleepy SO much to remember . . . . can't wait to graduate . . . . so i can enjoy life ^^ before i enter army. Till now they have not send me any letter . . . wonder whats taking them so long . . . my heart is so perfect after the checkup which they thought i had LAA enlargement -_- got me pretty worried because they screw up the x-ray report but hey NOTHING IS WRONG WITH MY HEART . . . i bet its even better than those reading my x-ray result . . . and now they take so long to send me a new PES status . . .
^^ The key thing to have a healthy heart is to lead a happy life ^^ You guys must be thinking Wenhao so sad lately how can his heart be healthy HAHAHA . . . to be happy or not really depends on yourself . . . Kate told me before, before you start loving anyone first you have to be happy with yourself . . . if you are not happy even without anyone what makes you think that you would be happy with another person . . . ^^ I know how to trigger the happy feeling within me but then i have yet to learn how to control the sad feeling from over flowing. Life is a learning process . . . its good to be humble and accept your mistakes and learn from them . . . ^^
I still cannot get scarlet OST . . . . headache~ T_T Now i trying to get Mai Otome OST . . . i got it but some of the songs not included -_- . . .
OK must stop now and go study soon . . . . ^^
I must say she is very unlucky . . .
Study Study . . . . What a warm day T_T Feel so sleepy SO much to remember . . . . can't wait to graduate . . . . so i can enjoy life ^^ before i enter army. Till now they have not send me any letter . . . wonder whats taking them so long . . . my heart is so perfect after the checkup which they thought i had LAA enlargement -_- got me pretty worried because they screw up the x-ray report but hey NOTHING IS WRONG WITH MY HEART . . . i bet its even better than those reading my x-ray result . . . and now they take so long to send me a new PES status . . .
^^ The key thing to have a healthy heart is to lead a happy life ^^ You guys must be thinking Wenhao so sad lately how can his heart be healthy HAHAHA . . . to be happy or not really depends on yourself . . . Kate told me before, before you start loving anyone first you have to be happy with yourself . . . if you are not happy even without anyone what makes you think that you would be happy with another person . . . ^^ I know how to trigger the happy feeling within me but then i have yet to learn how to control the sad feeling from over flowing. Life is a learning process . . . its good to be humble and accept your mistakes and learn from them . . . ^^
I still cannot get scarlet OST . . . . headache~ T_T Now i trying to get Mai Otome OST . . . i got it but some of the songs not included -_- . . .
OK must stop now and go study soon . . . . ^^
TRIP AFTER GRADUATION
1st thing . . . get my advance theory after grad . . . ^^ Next get a job asap . . .
WHY ? Because i planning to go Japan if i got the cash~ . . . . not enough now T_T
Worst come to worst loan from Mummy ^^ . . .
Heh ^^ Go alone also never mind but jie mei seems rather keen ahaha so i drag her along when i got the cash ^^ Finally i'm moving . . . i'm not growing from all the sorrow back then its quite a relief when things are finally cleared in my context . . . i've finally freed myself from all this . . .
^^ It was long but Hey i finally got the answer i need to put an end to all this ^^ Puiyee ^^ Finally i got it :P
I'm not stopping down now . . . missed out a lot . . . run run run ^^
WHY ? Because i planning to go Japan if i got the cash~ . . . . not enough now T_T
Worst come to worst loan from Mummy ^^ . . .
Heh ^^ Go alone also never mind but jie mei seems rather keen ahaha so i drag her along when i got the cash ^^ Finally i'm moving . . . i'm not growing from all the sorrow back then its quite a relief when things are finally cleared in my context . . . i've finally freed myself from all this . . .
^^ It was long but Hey i finally got the answer i need to put an end to all this ^^ Puiyee ^^ Finally i got it :P
I'm not stopping down now . . . missed out a lot . . . run run run ^^
TRIP AFTER GRADUATION
1st thing . . . get my advance theory after grad . . . ^^ Next get a job asap . . .
WHY ? Because i planning to go Japan if i got the cash~ . . . . not enough now T_T
Worst come to worst loan from Mummy ^^ . . .
Heh ^^ Go alone also never mind but jie mei seems rather keen ahaha so i drag her along when i got the cash ^^ Finally i'm moving . . . i'm not growing from all the sorrow back then its quite a relief when things are finally cleared in my context . . . i've finally freed myself from all this . . .
^^ It was long but Hey i finally got the answer i need to put an end to all this ^^ Puiyee ^^ Finally i got it :P
I'm not stopping down now . . . missed out a lot . . . run run run ^^
WHY ? Because i planning to go Japan if i got the cash~ . . . . not enough now T_T
Worst come to worst loan from Mummy ^^ . . .
Heh ^^ Go alone also never mind but jie mei seems rather keen ahaha so i drag her along when i got the cash ^^ Finally i'm moving . . . i'm not growing from all the sorrow back then its quite a relief when things are finally cleared in my context . . . i've finally freed myself from all this . . .
^^ It was long but Hey i finally got the answer i need to put an end to all this ^^ Puiyee ^^ Finally i got it :P
I'm not stopping down now . . . missed out a lot . . . run run run ^^
Monday, February 13, 2006
T_T Why~
Memorize so much theory and thought they would appear for the exam today and it turn out the other way . . . . T_T hope i did not screw up this exam too badly . . . guess my odds are still pretty high to maintain the grade ^^ so one less thing to fret~.
Oh should be studying for Process Operation and Optimization soon . . . . i only got one day to do so unfortunately so i guess it might be a bit tough ^^.
Tomorrow is Feburary 14 ^^ Valentine Day . . .
May all the couples out there enjoy themself and create a memorial day ^^ . . . for those who are singles may you find your other half soon ^^ nothing to be sad about . . . its another day where love is officially announced . . . so if you love someone why not let it be known on this day ^^.
Myself ? ^^ Stay tune for that . . . i'm going to wish for a girlfriend who can make me Bento everyday . . . ^^ Pretty attracted to girls who can cook very well . . . somehow i find them rather amazing because in this generation girls don't really cook that well . . . so far i only know of one girl who can cook pretty well ^^ shuning~~ :P the rest . . . mm. . . Esther can bake well i think or did i mistaken something here . . . my sister can bake BUT the cookies too sweet or soft . . . so had to teach her how to do it right . . . OH one more thats HuiYi ^^ My cousing girlfriend another good cook too . . . and of course my cousin. Ahah and the rest ? Well~ some even have difficulty cooking rice . . . so i shall not comment more about it .
Theres this old saying if you want to keep your man faithful to you make sure his stomach is full . . . i'm bad at translating this but i guess boyfriend and husband would definately find thier other half very charming when they can cook . . . at least it applies to me ahah .
So thats all i guess ^^ My mum is a great cook but unfortunately she stop being a housewife so i don't get to eat what she cook anymore . . . Jerelyn's Mum is also a great cook . . . when i was with her i always always had dinner there . . . Mmmm. . . I use to have a maid who can cook very well too but thats long ago ^^
Have a nice day everyone ^^
Oh should be studying for Process Operation and Optimization soon . . . . i only got one day to do so unfortunately so i guess it might be a bit tough ^^.
Tomorrow is Feburary 14 ^^ Valentine Day . . .
May all the couples out there enjoy themself and create a memorial day ^^ . . . for those who are singles may you find your other half soon ^^ nothing to be sad about . . . its another day where love is officially announced . . . so if you love someone why not let it be known on this day ^^.
Myself ? ^^ Stay tune for that . . . i'm going to wish for a girlfriend who can make me Bento everyday . . . ^^ Pretty attracted to girls who can cook very well . . . somehow i find them rather amazing because in this generation girls don't really cook that well . . . so far i only know of one girl who can cook pretty well ^^ shuning~~ :P the rest . . . mm. . . Esther can bake well i think or did i mistaken something here . . . my sister can bake BUT the cookies too sweet or soft . . . so had to teach her how to do it right . . . OH one more thats HuiYi ^^ My cousing girlfriend another good cook too . . . and of course my cousin. Ahah and the rest ? Well~ some even have difficulty cooking rice . . . so i shall not comment more about it .
Theres this old saying if you want to keep your man faithful to you make sure his stomach is full . . . i'm bad at translating this but i guess boyfriend and husband would definately find thier other half very charming when they can cook . . . at least it applies to me ahah .
So thats all i guess ^^ My mum is a great cook but unfortunately she stop being a housewife so i don't get to eat what she cook anymore . . . Jerelyn's Mum is also a great cook . . . when i was with her i always always had dinner there . . . Mmmm. . . I use to have a maid who can cook very well too but thats long ago ^^
Have a nice day everyone ^^
Friday, February 10, 2006
Fluny
You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no
I never not me not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the floors between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I
I got the song from Shanyu ^^ . . . Nice :P
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no
I never not me not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the floors between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I
I got the song from Shanyu ^^ . . . Nice :P
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
What a day~
Today is the first time in my life i've ever step into a betting center . . . the first time i ever buy lottery ticket . . . my Mum is going to be so surprise. Its very funny how people say i look so much like a triad boss or gangster yet i don't know all these things ! . . . What i'm saying is i'm a good citizen despite my looks . . . yes i know you guys are probably laughing your ass off right now, wenhao ? good citizen ? HAR ! its like how Nigel always says hes the most suave looking guy around . . .
I bought TOTO for Shixiang and also myself . . . i really had not clue how to buy them and i'm not sure how it works . I only know the prize money is 10 million so i guess i should try out my luck.
So after consulting my cousin and checking with Esther how to buy them . . . i finally step into the place where tons of hopeful people thrive . . . Yes they are people who feels that they might have a chance to win the 10 million prize money . . . i'm included as well . . .
Its a bit funny though . . . with so many people looking at me . . . i'm like a noob~. I'm not a gambler . . . just buying them because people are talking about it . . . Haha who knows that i might just strike the jackpot . . . well its purely luck i guess . . . i don't like to donate money to betting centers ^^ but just this once :P
I bought TOTO for Shixiang and also myself . . . i really had not clue how to buy them and i'm not sure how it works . I only know the prize money is 10 million so i guess i should try out my luck.
So after consulting my cousin and checking with Esther how to buy them . . . i finally step into the place where tons of hopeful people thrive . . . Yes they are people who feels that they might have a chance to win the 10 million prize money . . . i'm included as well . . .
Its a bit funny though . . . with so many people looking at me . . . i'm like a noob~. I'm not a gambler . . . just buying them because people are talking about it . . . Haha who knows that i might just strike the jackpot . . . well its purely luck i guess . . . i don't like to donate money to betting centers ^^ but just this once :P
Time to close the chapter . . .
Down to 3 weeks and i will finish my studies in Nanyang Polytechinc. Is my education life over ? Or i would get a chance to get a degree in the local university . . . i'm not very certain at all. Yet i don't feel afriad anymore . . . when i graduated from primary school i was afriad of the life in secondary school and its the same for secondary school to tertiary school. I don't feel much change at all in the atmostphere . . . perhaps some sadness from those folks in school.
I ask myself if i would remember what happen all these 3 years ? I know i would remember them . . . because they are something worth remembering for life . . .
Maybe some of you notice i had remove the link to "Memories". That blog where i started because of "her" has been taken off . . . i felt its time to remove it . . . i notice i cannot remember what happen back then very well anymore . . . i was chatting with Sharon . . . and i had trouble recollecting what i had with "her" somehow i knew i'm starting to forget "her". I don't hate "her" . . . and i've got no reasons to forget "her" . . . somehow it just happen on its own . . .
Sharon ask me this question : If one day you can get back with her , would you ?
Me : "What do you think ?" I don't have to spell out and its clear to everyone.
Its funny that even now my heart still races when i see "her" . . . but very soon i might forget this feeling too . . . it has been long since the day it end . . . about 10 months already . . . i'm somewhat tired of replaying the memories i had with her in my head .
My buddies never mention her . . . my parents never mention "her" . . . my grandma stop mentioning her . . . everyone seems to forget . . . I'm lying . . . they do remember . . . but they never brought it up anymore . . . i'm the only one who is bringing it up again and again and again . . . its so hard to put down . . . its just so painful to do so . . . sometimes when i start to talk about her . . . i had to stop myself . . . because i've been bringing her up too often . . .
I can remember that one lady tagged that i should stop being a jerk and let her leave if i don't love her . . . truth is i do love her and not doing anything doesn't mean i stop loving her . . .
Was it love from the begining ? . . . . Love is such a fragile thing . . . yet it is still so beautiful . . . i still love you . . . but you stop loving me a long time ago . . .
I'll leave it as it is . . .
So how was the test today ^^ Pretty good ! But maybe a bit of small error but all should be well.
Let me post some of my little cousin picctures ^^
I ask myself if i would remember what happen all these 3 years ? I know i would remember them . . . because they are something worth remembering for life . . .
Maybe some of you notice i had remove the link to "Memories". That blog where i started because of "her" has been taken off . . . i felt its time to remove it . . . i notice i cannot remember what happen back then very well anymore . . . i was chatting with Sharon . . . and i had trouble recollecting what i had with "her" somehow i knew i'm starting to forget "her". I don't hate "her" . . . and i've got no reasons to forget "her" . . . somehow it just happen on its own . . .
Sharon ask me this question : If one day you can get back with her , would you ?
Me : "What do you think ?" I don't have to spell out and its clear to everyone.
Its funny that even now my heart still races when i see "her" . . . but very soon i might forget this feeling too . . . it has been long since the day it end . . . about 10 months already . . . i'm somewhat tired of replaying the memories i had with her in my head .
My buddies never mention her . . . my parents never mention "her" . . . my grandma stop mentioning her . . . everyone seems to forget . . . I'm lying . . . they do remember . . . but they never brought it up anymore . . . i'm the only one who is bringing it up again and again and again . . . its so hard to put down . . . its just so painful to do so . . . sometimes when i start to talk about her . . . i had to stop myself . . . because i've been bringing her up too often . . .
I can remember that one lady tagged that i should stop being a jerk and let her leave if i don't love her . . . truth is i do love her and not doing anything doesn't mean i stop loving her . . .
Was it love from the begining ? . . . . Love is such a fragile thing . . . yet it is still so beautiful . . . i still love you . . . but you stop loving me a long time ago . . .
I'll leave it as it is . . .
So how was the test today ^^ Pretty good ! But maybe a bit of small error but all should be well.
Let me post some of my little cousin picctures ^^
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Is it ok ?
Wonder whats wrong with my blog . . . . several entries mysteriously disappear lol . . . anyway just testing this out . . .
Went to Fish and Co with Sherri , Esther , Kenny ^^ Next Visit might be Sun & Moon or Sun with Moon . . . forgot the name . . . looks very nice to me . . . BUT i want to visit sakae . . . to see if unagi is out . . .
Oh . . . . what else . . . Mum has been asking me if i want to learn driving a not . . . i am learning . . . . . . ^^ I'm hopping they buy me a car ^^ . . . . wonder whats with the urgency . . . Hehe
What else . . . nothing ? ^^ hope tomorrow test is ok :P
Take care folks . . .
Went to Fish and Co with Sherri , Esther , Kenny ^^ Next Visit might be Sun & Moon or Sun with Moon . . . forgot the name . . . looks very nice to me . . . BUT i want to visit sakae . . . to see if unagi is out . . .
Oh . . . . what else . . . Mum has been asking me if i want to learn driving a not . . . i am learning . . . . . . ^^ I'm hopping they buy me a car ^^ . . . . wonder whats with the urgency . . . Hehe
What else . . . nothing ? ^^ hope tomorrow test is ok :P
Take care folks . . .
Saturday, February 04, 2006
If you're sad don't keep it to yourself . . .
While having lunch few days back in school . . . a conversation started . . .
" i did tried suicide before " " i did think about it "
Its not me who said that . . . but lets not bother about who said it . . . one school mate of mine actually drank insecticide before . . . lucky he was still here chatting with me . . . reason ? Stress . . . Sadness . . . Depression . . .
Oh i remember how it began . . . one of them was saying that herself has a bit of depression . . . so i asked her did you thought of killing yourself ? Well thats a sign of depression if you ever think about it . . . So another one mention he drank insecticide before to himself . . . the conversation was short as we skip to another topic . . . taking your own life away by yourself . . . i never thought they would think of it . . . in my eyes they were leading good life . . . perhaps i don't know the downside in their life . . . so i told one of them if your sad just let it out . . . i myself experience extreme emotional pain before . . . and i thought dying is the easiest way out . . . it remove all void in your heart . . it stop your tears . . . time will stop for you , your time that is . But it doesn't change anything . . . you will be pushed back behind other memories in other people as time passes . . . be it BGR problem , Financial problem , Health Problem , Family Woes ect ect ect . . .
To stop living is to give up hope totally . . . because when life end there is nothing which can be done to alter the future . . . because each and everyone of us has the ability to impact the future . I still remember the teenager who killed himself because the girl broke up with him . . . i do feel sad for him . . . but i wish he could have hang on a bit longer and see what the future holds for him . . . who knows what is going to happen 10 years down the road ^^ So if you're feeling low find someone to talk to . . . perhaps someone could even help you to clear up your troubles . . . there is always a solution which is far better than giving up living . . .
Being alive is hope itself ^^ Understand ?
By the way . . . Movie : Fun With Dick And Jane not really very humorous . . . maybe i'm too dense to understand the joke . . .
Goodnight folks >.<
" i did tried suicide before " " i did think about it "
Its not me who said that . . . but lets not bother about who said it . . . one school mate of mine actually drank insecticide before . . . lucky he was still here chatting with me . . . reason ? Stress . . . Sadness . . . Depression . . .
Oh i remember how it began . . . one of them was saying that herself has a bit of depression . . . so i asked her did you thought of killing yourself ? Well thats a sign of depression if you ever think about it . . . So another one mention he drank insecticide before to himself . . . the conversation was short as we skip to another topic . . . taking your own life away by yourself . . . i never thought they would think of it . . . in my eyes they were leading good life . . . perhaps i don't know the downside in their life . . . so i told one of them if your sad just let it out . . . i myself experience extreme emotional pain before . . . and i thought dying is the easiest way out . . . it remove all void in your heart . . it stop your tears . . . time will stop for you , your time that is . But it doesn't change anything . . . you will be pushed back behind other memories in other people as time passes . . . be it BGR problem , Financial problem , Health Problem , Family Woes ect ect ect . . .
To stop living is to give up hope totally . . . because when life end there is nothing which can be done to alter the future . . . because each and everyone of us has the ability to impact the future . I still remember the teenager who killed himself because the girl broke up with him . . . i do feel sad for him . . . but i wish he could have hang on a bit longer and see what the future holds for him . . . who knows what is going to happen 10 years down the road ^^ So if you're feeling low find someone to talk to . . . perhaps someone could even help you to clear up your troubles . . . there is always a solution which is far better than giving up living . . .
Being alive is hope itself ^^ Understand ?
By the way . . . Movie : Fun With Dick And Jane not really very humorous . . . maybe i'm too dense to understand the joke . . .
Goodnight folks >.<
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