What a day

>.< I don't know to cry or laugh . . . .

People pass basic theory in one try and i fail the SECOND TIME . . .

Never study . . . i forgot about the test today . . . so read a bit in school hopping i would pass but when i click SUBMIT . . . FAILED appear on my screen . . .

My 3rd try will be my last and THIS TIME ROUND i must remember to study for it . . .

The test not very difficult if you studied for it . . . Just feel so useless suddenly . . . I don't like the feeling of failing anything . . . Simply hate it . . .

Never mind ^^ just study before the next test ahah

Fluny ^^ Rainy ^^ Lovely >.<

Should be sleeping at this time ^^ Its raining heavily . . . very cold ^^
I was watching "Aishteru Ze Baby" when i suddenly remembered i got a "BASIC DRIVING THEORY TEST TOMORROW" Bad thing is i have not studied yet . . . going to fail second time i guess >.< But well anyway i just go down and try my luck ^^. Maybe i get lucky and pass ?

Who knows ^^ . . . at most i reapply for the test . . . but maybe not so soon , just too busy and not in the mood to study for that.

Oh mm . . . Life good ? Yes pretty good >.<>.< Bad . . .

Love watching anime ^^ go download "Aishteru Za Baby" VERY NICE . . . every episode make me smile a lot ^^ i'm not the kind who smile so easily by the way . . . sometimes people laugh or smile over something which i don't even consider funny . . . anyway the show is soo good that it makes me feel so happy after watching it . Watching Anime ^^ thats my hobby . . . Please ! Do not link it to HENTAI -_- I know Esther and Sherri would say that for sure . . .

School is normal for me . . . Nothing much to comment about that

Time to learn how to make BENTO ! Haha cook cook cook >.< can't be bothered about other things . . . Shanyu and Aishah call me SHIM you know whats SHIM ? Its a combination of SHE AND HIM = SHIM . . . So half guy half girl . . . so what is me ?

I can only say i love to dream a lot . . . i got my own safe world where everything is so comforting and peaceful . . . so much different from reality ^^

Hope i pass tomolo basic ^^ Need a lot of luck

Sunday . . .

Chatting with Kate for a while . . . after which i start to do my report for Process Optimization . . . which really takes up a big portion of my brain . . ( rusty after 4 months of attachment ) gave up on the calculation part and seek help from Liyana . . .

Dad called . . . Grandpa in hospital . . . was telling Kate i'll be visiting my Grandparents house later in the afternoon. . . . but suddenly this happen . . .

Sigh . . . . Anyway i have to go now . . . hes having an operation i think . . . heard that his intestine was all tied up . . . -_- hes old already . . . wheel chair bound and this must happen to him . . .

Ok another week is gone . . . Bye folks my parents rushing me.

He finished it . . . .and moved on to Carrot Cake >.< He sure can eat a lot *stunned* 

The rest of us in shock while he finishes his cockles with great speed 

Kenny is really enjoying himself 

Bloody isn't it . . . .  

Kenny and his plate of Cockles 

Ill Heart

Mm . . . Been rather tired lately . . . or rather very tired . Not enough sleep i guess . . . Even while playing game i could just fell asleep on my keyboard toady . . .

A nice day when i met up with Ken , Guan , Nigel ,Allan and Zy for a chat >.< seems everyone is fine . . . well i guess .

Oh i'm so tired . . . Just recieved an e-mail from Angel ^^ Shes back from her cruise finally.

Rain

So heres a run through to my 2nd week in school .

Busy ? Not really , but its getting really difficult to stay awake in class sometimes .

Class schedules in a real mess . No idea what i am learning . Basically I'm still drifting around .

So it rained today for a while in the evening . . . after a session with Kenny , Ee Mei , Yiting. We had chicken rice for dinner and had a long talk.

So while on the bus home with EeMei a Granny who looks very fragile was urged to be sitted down by the bus driver for fear she might fall down .After some attempt she sat down . So i help get her bag of stuff to her place but she told me to leave it there. After EeMei alighted i continue my journey home. As i reach my destination i look at the granny and ask if she alighting at my stop too . She said no and shes going to alight at the next stop which is a bit far from my home . But doesn't seems to have anyone around to help her with her bag so i just offered to drop at the same bus stop with her . I tried to stand by her so i could give her some support. I'm just too scared to hold her . Too afriad that i may hurt her . So eventually she got down safely and say thank UNCLE ! ^^ Ok i'm happy i help her but feeling a bit funny because i have grown older with age . . . so i become UNCLE already . . . that sounds so old.

Oh well sorting out my assignment to be completed by this week . Hope that the PulaUbin trip this saturday can be fufilled . . . ^^ . Another week is going by . . . soon . . . very soon . . .

School

Almost 1 week in school . . . So was it good ? Yup it was good .

Appointed as Reps for almost every modules i take . . . Oh well i'll get used to it again. Seems to be having poor memories nowadays . . . tend to forget things easily . Maybe i used up too much of my brain cells to store memories which i sould discard away.

So did i made new friends ?

I don't know how to answer that . . . basically i talk to everyone now and then .

Oh guess what , the Password i lost for my Driving Center account was actually defaulted by the Center themself . So i do not have to pay anything ^^ it was their mistake . All i had to do was to key in a new password and everything is good to go .

So what do i do other than school ?

I watch Anime ^^ My favourite . . . Currently watching Suzuka and Bleach . . . Still in progress of downloading some of them. On some weekdays i would be swimming at Yio Chu Kang Complex . Weekends would be with friends hanging out at our usual place chatting . Sunday would be visiting my Grandmother's house when i had the time .

So thats life for the last few weeks and of course the next 4 months .

Am i in need of anything in life ?

Well i have all the things i need in life to keep me busy and happy. So my NEEDS are met.

Any WANTS ?

There is ^^ I want a companion to experience my life journey and also to experience hers. Maybe when the right time comes the right person comes along . Nobody can force someone to become their companion if they refuse to ^^thats life . . .

There must be balance in everything

Buddy Buddy ^^ Kenny and Me 

At Ikea ^^ Kenny and EeMei 

PuiYee and Dear Simone 

Ee Mei and PuiYee 

Heres another one ! ^^ Meet Kate folks  

Heres a picture of Kate ^^ Angel ^^ 

I lost my pin number

Went for a badminton sessiong with Hengky , Zhiyang and Weiyang at YCK Community Center ^^ We played for 2 hours before we had lunch at a nearby market. After which we went to the Driving Center to book Basic Theory Test . . . . And it occured to me after i left the place "I FORGOT MY PASSWORD" Because i signed up once before and i already had an account with them . . . guess i had to go down again this wednesday to reset the password which cost $10.50 to do so -_- They just implement this rule . . . .

So i tried to input as many password which i can think of but non of them fit in ^^ I realise when i change this password i actually ask Jerelyn before. The password was about us . . . something very significant . . . argh but i already input everything . . . nothing works. So i started digging into every files i kept on my deskstop but i found no clue. Instead i found an unposted blog article.

I am always afriad of something.......that something is not being able to sleep when you want to.....i don't know when it began but this fear is consuming me fast.....however as time pass i can't be bothered with it because it exhaust so much of my mind.....so i just lie down and close my eyes to rest.......
I've been wondering if i don't have Jerelyn with me what would i become. Shes more than just a girlfriend to me.....to me she meant so much more than anyone else....even important than my mum and dad who don't really spend much time with me and my sister. I enjoy being with her and listening to her stories though i don't have much to share at times....even my favourite hobby is gone....ps2 broken.....the sister whom i quarrel with almost everyday also had a boyfriend to accompany her.....now my house is empty everyday....except in the evening when everyone returns to eat.How sad.....if i had not met her maybe i would just rot my life away.....at the very least i found some meaning in life, some reason for me to continue to believe in hope.....

Just recently me and babylyn talk about after poly who would remember us and we started naming those whom we would remember and miss.....she came up with an idea to get everyone in the class to write down who they would miss and let the person know....sounds crazy and embarassed to do it but well i wonder if it could happen...since the semester is nearing an end it should be a good idea to do it as soon we will be going for attachment soon and by the time we return to school we would be in different classes.......

Would anyone remember you during the poly life ? Would the memories shared be remained in each and everyone's mind ? Time flies......in fact it doesn't flies~ it just passed by you without you noticing it.......only when u realise that the time you had with one another is running out would that warm heart of yours start to feel.......memories would come flooding into your mind as tears filled graduation ceremony draws near......i don't know how much tears will be shed or how much smile would reach one another....i only know one thing....we did not come to this planet alone as the moment we are born someone is already by our side.....as you grow you seek that comfort you once had....love....companionship......friends......when you are an infant you had many little friends lying beside you too in the babies ward......^.^

I had no idea why those thoughts just came to my mind.....i just ype them out....^.^

Everyone tell me i should move on and forget her since she doesn't love me anymore. But does anyone know her place within me is not just purely a girlfriend during the 1 yr 5 mths time i had with her ? . . . I can feel a tingle of pain when i read that post i blog so many months ago . . .it still hurts and yes it hurts a lot. Now what would i become and where is my hope.

You were that shinning star that disappear from my sky . . . now everything is pitch black

Ohhh ! another bite ^^ 

I'm stacking up the PLATES ^^ It was nice ^^ 

Heres the food ! 

With this 2 ladies here ^^ Esther and Sherri . . . old friend for err coming 8 years ? 

Thats me at my favourite Sakae Sushi ^^ 

Why . . .

Why ?

Clueless , Speechless , I'm begining to wonder whats the use of knowing so much . . . in the end they only make yourself more miserable.

A person you knew has no reason to trust and not to trust . . . just like a piece of whiteboard with nothing on it . . . you determine whats written on that person's board . . . Kate you are right about this .

My words doesn't make sense anymore i guess ^^ .

There is no point in knowing what to do and not being able to do it. Trying ? what does it mean ? I guess it means you just try and try . . . not having the drive to really want to achieve something . . . trying still lack of something inside . . . its not forceful enough to accomplish anything.

What am i talking ? Day sickness i guess or rather because of you angel ?

there can be trust but not love , there cannot be love without trust

Thank you kate~