i'm back from tekong

Just came back from another 6 days no shower place ... stink like cow dung ... i think its even worst this time ... ... ...

I didn't do much during the 6 days there ... except i sleep in the open forest ... couldn't sleep LOL ... tasked with the role of enemy ... i was deployed and i must sit alone and wait till dawn >.< can rest but lol scary ... because i got no shelter ... those big spider lurking around T_T but either way still got to find ways to endure through it ... so count stars and talk to my men lor ahahah at the same time try to think of people i miss ... it helps when you're out alone in the dark chilly forest ... take away all the fear in you ... I do feel afriad when i go for those night navigation ... those extremely dense forest where no sunlight can penetrate through ... when night falls ITS OMG INSIDE ... you vs nature ... i hope it won't be too cold in taiwan's forest ...

Oh one of my men saw spirits again ... and it sounds pretty scary ... then we all began telling ghost stories lol ... stuff like organs from a servicemen was ripped out and arranged properly inside his cupboard ... i told them something i heard ... it goes like this ... there this group of troops walking to their destination and their leader told them should they break contact from each other they should stay calm and not wander off . They were told to stay put and wait for rescue . Then as the sky gets darker one of the guy break contact from the main group. He did as what was intsructed to him ... but he got afriad of being alone in the forest and started seeing things ... he remembered that one of his seniors told him to chant prayers shold he "see" anything and tie a black cloth to cover his eyes... he started to chant prayers he could remembered and hope for the best ... during the march the main group realise this particular guy was missing and started to search for him. The main group could not locate him until dawn came ... they found the guy kneeling in a prayer posture with tree vines imapled through him ... i don't know if its real or not lol but i feel scared when i was told this lol ... it was during one of my outfield sommore T_T ... even as i type now i can feel the chills lol ...

Alright 30 days more to taiwan ^^ see you folks soon :P

Blue Jazz ...

^^ No big parties no big event ^^

I prefer something light ^^

Not bad though ... blue jazz .... good place to chill ... live band ... can drink all you like ... nope ^^ i didn't got for alcohol but puiyee did get her beer lol ... i had something called ... chimichunga ??? lol can't remember but its nicee!!

Think it has been ages since i last had a decent chat with anyone ... so its rather nice ^^

We talk a lot ... lol ... just like old times ... and she give me that shocking face when i told her its my birthday lol ... too busy to remember ^^ thats what happens when you get too busy with work and studies ... hope she gets what she wanted ^^

I'm not really bothered if no one remember my birthday ...to be honest i can't remember everyone's birthday ... i can only remember some ... ... to be remembered is sufficient for me ... for either the bad or the good ... eventually i would just become a memory to others ... birth date won't matter by then ... its about just being remembered by someone ...

"Oh ! The folks in camp !!! don't come and "TAU POK" me ... i will definately kick you in the face ... plus countless guard duties !!! orders from SGT Aw ~ "

MM . . . . nothing much to say LOL ... Sleep~

I'm not the same anymore ^^

Hey i'm back from outfield ^^ :P after 5 days without shower i'm finally freed from that exercise ... a week of rest has been granted before i depart to another small island for another week without shower T_T ... leaving that aside ... let me share something with you people ^^ ...

I've a guy who is under my charge ... hes those with fragile feelings ... i think because hes too pampered by his parents ... i'm not sure about that ... the incident was that i tasked him to get the rest to take over sentry duties and he came back sulking claiming that the guys shouted at him ... it was like 9 pm in the night ... without light ... and i stink like shit because of all the outfield thing ... naturally i'm rather pissed off with the guys who shouted at him ... he ran off sat at one corner and start to become " emo~ " just like those horror flick movie you see where the ghost kid would sit in one corner of the room ... he did that at the drain ... end up when the whole thing was settled ... minor issue actually ... its not over !!! he then said that he feel useless within the team ... i never tasked him duties ... he made it sound like i'm responsible for his feelings !!! i almost wanted to punish him earlier on for almost getting Matthew into trouble but i let it slide and now !!! I was like OMG LOR ... i never face him directly i just stood there and spoke ... " you hold certain appointments within the ranks and you are given certain jobs , i can't possibly assign you other people job ... i have to follow the code ... allowing you to rest is part of the code " ... he sulk -_- my boss heard it ... and he repeated what i said to him again ... and he said he want to feel important -_- i was damm amazed by him la~ my boss then made him his runner and tell him to get some sleep ... finally case close ...I never tired to pacify this guy who is under me because firstly i want him to understand that i'm not there to make him feel like hes godly or whatever ... hes responsible for that ... and also not everyone in the society is kind enough to even bother about him ... my role is to make sure he goes home safely ... feelings are beyond my control ... of course i never tell him that ... i think if i preach on he might just cry there -_- i can be very nice to him and soothe him but it will be very difficult for me to get work done like this ... thats why i never do it ... i just explain and scold ...


Then the other peeps started to say SGT AW you never give him fatherly love la~

Theres something i want to say here is ... self worth doesn't comes from other people's acknowledgement ... there are times when no one will acknowledge you then what happens ? You fail ? NO ... THATS A BIG NO ... each and everyone of us are responsible for ourselves ... its very unfair to depend on others to make ourself feel better ... do you guys think its a right thing to do ? How we feel are affected largely by how we think about ourselves ... we live only once and theres no reason to think so lowly about ourselves ... each and everyone is special and unique ... everyone is capable of something someone else isn't capable of ... diligence will pay off in due time ... believe in that ^^

mm . . . Might be a bit too late for this but HAPPY BELATED LOVEY LOVEY Valentine Day to all couples ^^ and also the singles ^^

What would i say ?

Thought i could beat the stomach flu by myself ... eventually i still went to see the doctor LOL ... need medication to remove virus ... otherwise the toliet will be my next best friend T_T but oh well ... i'm partly to blame for this so >.< time to move on ...


Just feel like writing this ...
Its like ... many years have pass
But in actual fact its just merely a few years
Yet you know whats the scary part ?
Its as if i've never met you before at all ...
The memories are fading ... the mind treat it as if you where just a dream and when the next sun rises you will disappear ... dreams weren't meant to be permanent ...

I'll probably find it difficult to converse with you directly if we were to meet ...
It seems silly to say all this but thats what i realise ...

The deep wound cause by your absence will never be healed completely
Even with myself knowing it would only bring greater pain with you around
Its not a fault cause by you ... its a pain my heart chooses to relive everytime
But eventually time heals all wound leaving behind a scar as a form of remembrance

You were my dream ...
Sometimes when i sleep at night ...
I wish i could dream a dream again...


^^ Nice~ Something emo lol ~ ~
Happy Chinese New Year Folks~ ^^

Mm . . . .M.. .. .

Sometimes i just can't be bothered with the title for my entries so i just go mmm... mmm ...

I was out with allan shopping for PS3 ... guess what ... the consoles are out of stock !!! -_- allan was so anxious to get his rockband set as well ... but nevermind we try looking somewhere when we are free >.<

Bla~ Bla~

Simone leaving for london ... to meet Kenny ^^ too bad when he return during april i'm not in Singapore .... argh~~ nevermind ^^

Theres plenty of opportunities ^^

Happy Chinese New Year People ^^

Where are you !!!! Don't know why suddenly can start to miss you for no reason ... maybe its starting to feel a bit lonely ... just maybe

>.< Ugu~uu~~

I think it has been quite a while since i fall sick ... judging by the mild fever , nauseating feeling , dizziness symptons .... i believe i've been hit by stomach flu~

Haha i wonder how i get it .... its a viral infection ... >.< ... Either way i just have to rest enough ahaha ^^ if i still get that bitter taste in the mouth i'll probably visit the doctor ^^ ...

Now Sis came back ... i believe i got it from her !!! shes ok orledi~ @!@#@!# now its my turn ...

Must be the food she ask me to finish it up for her .... argh~H~H~H~

Never mind ... it won't kill me ... just hate that weak achy feeling all over my body >.<

I wanted to blog something else but too tired to continue .. i'll sleep for now