New Year

New year coming loh !!! 2008 ^^

More money ...
No extras ...
No duty on Chinese New Year and weekends >.< ...
Clear SOC ...
Disruption for studies approved ...
Perfect the skill in making Tamago ...
Start investment ...
Repair my knee ... gone case for this one ... my knee beyond repair i think
MMM ....

WIN THE TOTO ON CNY !!!

Hope money drop from sky then i can get car :P nah~ i'll be trying for bike this year ^^ car ... -_- the maintainance fee is horrible ... can buy but no money to maintain also no point ... bike ftw !!! Mr Png always say bike is like body armor for metal lol ...

Mm... got to run !!!

Experiment ^^

Few weeks back . . . i tried making my own Pasta sauce . . .

Bought the wrong ingredients . . . and i made tomato soup . . . T_T

Should have bought tomato PASTE . . . and not Puree . . . I have not learned how to use tomato puree . . . but it certainly taste tomatoish~ lol~

Most of the time i just buy of those premade sauce in jars and dump them onto the pasta ... seems like making instant noodles . . . so i decided i had enough of those jar stuff. I tried combining cream of mushroom (chicken flavour)2000++mg sodium content with milk and simmer it for 10 minutes ... WOA i get creamy mushroom sauce !!! So if you use one can of that !!! it should be for 2 person servings ... if i did not remember wrongly a human intake of sodium is about 2000++mg sodium too ... must stay healthy ^^

I also bought some chicken breast meat ... didn't have mch time to marinate so i just cook it with olive oil ... i cut them into very thin pieces ... but i left one big chunk on purpose ... i flip it over and over over medium flame and the meat came out very TENDER !!!

TO make my sauce more mushroomy ... i bought more mushroom LOL !!! actually i wanted to use shitake but i just try button mushroom ... those canned mushroom got a funny taste to it ... i've yet to find a way to get rid of it ... next time i will slice it very thin so that it blends with the pasta ^^

While simmering the sauce i dump the chicken slices in ... to get the taste ... haha it turn out very well but i think i should add some water or maybe milk to it because the sauce not enough for the pasta !!!

Basically it taste much much better than the sauce i always bought off the shelf.

^^ I haven't tried putting cheese ... but i think its not required lol ... shall perfect this ^^ then i can cook for mm... if i have a wife next time but for now ! i cook for myself ... Sis don't eat pasta but she alway goes WAA when i dish out the stuff on the table ... she doesn't know that sometimes i don't even dare to eat what i cook LOL ... she likes to make cookies though ... she made a lot yesterday for x`mas gift and i must say shes good with the cookies ... taste like those from subway ... but shes not very good with chocolate chunks ... i alwayws tell her its TOO SWEET then i give her that " being forced look " when i eat ... but you know the brother always eat whatever the sister cook ... i always finish what she make without her knowing , she probably though someone else in the family ate it haha ... afterall she put in the effort so theres no way i should deny it ^^

But i had enough of chocolate lol :P back to my pasta ... next up ! i should try beefball pasta sauce ... i'm going to make the beefball myself !!! :P Maybe next time i take the pictures lol~

Alright MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE ... HAPPY NEW YEAR ^^ HOPE your wishes all come true in the coming new year and ... MANY MANY more good thing to come your way ...

My goal ! MORE anime ! ! ! and ... learn more about being myself ... so that i will be ready for mm... perhaps a relationship ... MAYBE only ~ ^^ Peace~

>.< Merry Merry Christmas ^^

Yay~ Monday off day ... can rest a bit longer . . .

Quite worned out after few events in camp . . . I ran the company event for 2 days straight . . . because i volunteer to cover JJ's duty as he wanted to take leave ^^ ... for the two days i'm basically the boss !!! The bosses were away on course or some important matters so they pratically just tell me what has to be done and i run the show with the rest of the sergents ^^ Its quite fufilling though i hate it at some point of time when instructions were messed up midway . . . but overall its good experience !!! ...

The year is coming to an end soon ... I'm going to turn 22 ~ and finally i can say that ord is near ... think i might cry when i say goodbye to those peeps in camp as i'm going to leave earlier than them for studies ... you may think why the hell am i crying when i often grumble about NS ... its true when people say army is tough and complaints are never enough but theres this bond between men in there ... when you fell down into rivers , drains ... or get into deep troubles ... theres always someone whose wearing the same uniform as you pulling you out of that problem ... outside there who would even lend you a helping hand so easily ... no matter how tired everyone is ... chances are a buddy will come along and pull you with him ... thats our journey ... thats how i feel ...

So~ ... New Year Resolution !!! Hope i won't get any extras ... haha !!! I've still maintained the zero extra record since enlistment and i want it to remain that way !!! ...

Btw~ Ning !!! Please blog ~~~~~~~

Its . . . madness~

Wake up brush teeth . . . change . . . take 1 hour ++ journey to some place for some lecture which i think even primary school kids can understand it within 2 days . . .

Sit there from 8 am to 5.50 pm~ really . . . i doze off . . . not because i don't bother about it . . . but the notes were simply printed out and so simplified . . . yet the presenter just read from the slides again . . . in my point of view its a waste of time . . . precious time which could gain better benefits else where . . . simply wastage of time . . .

Then~ travelling back is hell~ . . . waiting for train with those working people . . . they just squeeze and squeeze . . . like i'm a hamburger -_- sometimes i just stand there and let them go in first . . . either way i don't know what they rushing for ~ . . .

Must do my NS disruption soon . . . letter came from NTU to do medical checkup . . . for a while i realise that i'm going to finish serving my NS in a moment . . . have i learn anything ? I think i did . . . a lot a lot . . . in some ways . . . and i've come to know myself better ^^

Looking at my sis bank account growing bigger and bigger . . . i can't help but tell myself . . . i better catch up with her so Mom and Dad can just start a cookie shop business and enjoy their time ^^

Still~ its nice to enjo every moment now ^^

More pictures ^^

So what are you wishing for yiting ^^
I think we're short of a few people here but never mind , say CHEESE ! ! !
READY ~GO ~~~ I keep losing this game LOL~
Oh and heres mmm . . . . Shuning~>.< ^^

(I know Simone must be smiling when she read this caption~)
Look at our one and only Ck~ . . . . Attached with Jasmine ^^ They make a great couple~

>.< What Should I DOOOOO ? ? ?

Guys and Yiting ^^
Simone And Me~
Ah ning~ and Me with balloons~
Group Photo~ Once more ^^
Waa thats the roses Yiting recieved from Edmund ^^ Nice Right~

Mm . . . . i need to find a place where i can host all my pictures ~~~

where where where . . .

Blogger has a 1GB limit . . . . . . . . . .

-_- . . .

Can't upload the Pictures from Ting's Birthday~ . . .

Heres some for preview

Waaa Long Long ^^

Long Long no write blog . . .

Eh~. . . . Nothing to write . . . ?

Camp Stuff ?

Hahaha Nah~ . . . MM . . . .

Maybe if i get my camera back i will get photos tomorrow den see if i can post them up a ^^

DInner with Ah Ning ^^ ~ wootz~

ELATED . . . IMPRESSED ~ OMG ! ! !

TODAY ! went to East Coast Park to do our 10km combat skill badge run . . .

Timing to meet - 65 mins to complete the whole thing~ . . . .

I finish it with 55 minutes . . . woohoo ! ! ! first ever in my life i ran non stop and its even faster than my previous 6km run which takes me about 40 minutes -_- ..

Since i cleared the 32km Road March , River Crossing , Live Range , almost all the normal normal stuff . . . SO ! I GET MY combat skill badge ! ! ! ! wahaha ^^

Luckily i don't have to do those things again . . . because if you fail you must retake them >.<

Not easy~ especially the road march . . .

Say Say SAY ! ~ Bit of crap happen within the Commanders Corp~ Kinda messy with bad feelings towards each other . . . BUT ALL will be fine ^^ As long as clarity is maintained then we won't take things the wrong way right Zheng Quan ? I know you reading wahahah . . .

I've learn something more about human relationship . . . i revisited some of the books i've finished reading and did some thinking . . . and finally ^^ i absorbed some of the key points that are essential for a happy relationship . . . I really enjoy studying all this ^^ though i don't know if others find it a waste of time to study all this . . .

Ok . . .heres something from me . . .

If you put more effort in building a better present relationship with your love ones don't you think it has a better chance in becoming a better future for the both of you . . .

OLD PICTURES ! ! !

Whats up ! ! !

Busy in camp ? Most big events are ending so ! ! ! Next big thing is next April . . . and then comes ORD LOH ! ! ! I know i'm miles away still but if i keep moving forward ( not that i've got a choice )it will come one day ^^ Just be more patient . . .

U know~ we're all growing up right~ and sometimes we worry about things . . . like not having a good job . . . am i able to support a family . . . would i get a degree . . . would i be able to live a life like now . . . I've talk to many and somehow i feel . . . is it necessary to worry so much about all this ?

Worrying about the future because you want to have a better life is good . . . it will make you want to do better . . . but sometimes humans don't just stop worrying . . . it gets deeper and deeper . . . where does it end ? People start to feel demoralise and afriad that their future is "doomed" . . . affecting their drive at the present . . .

People ! Do you know ~ i also worry about all this . . . but then i choose not to brood over all this so much . . . i can only say that i will do my very best at what i am doing . . . thats all i can do , theres nothing i can do about whats going to happen in the future . . . after all you won't know whats going to happen anyway.

Don't let it affect you . . . my "boss" say my bed going to collapse because i slack around too much . . . he said it after reprimanding us for not assisting each other . . . it was meant to cheer up everyone by using me as a joke but it does hit me . . . sort of saying i'm lazy and not doing anything . . . deep down it kind of hurt because i trained the men to the best i can and i do what i have to do first before i lie on bed and start to read . . . feeling shitty because i took it the wrong way, i decided to go around spreading this to my men lol ! I made a joke out of it and everyone come make more funny shit remarks ~ there ^^ you got another livelier day . . . everyone laughs at it and its another pleasant day . . .

Sometimes when i look at my family members . . . i feel that i'm not as hardworking as them . . . it feels like a let down . . . so i keep telling myself i must do what i can to keep things positive and don't sink into those bad thoughts which can cripple even the most capable person on earth . . .

Everyone is capable of something . . . you may not be good with this but you can be good in another areas . . . don't be sad about it . . . focus on your good points and eventually you will shine ^^ . No one is lousy . . . no one . . .

I have men who can't perform better than others but i make sure he can be at his best when hes executing that task . . . then i would give him that big grin and say " SEE ! ! ! YOU CAN DO IT RIGHT , IF YOU CANNOT THEN I MAKE YOU DO 10 MORE TIMES " They will go " Sgt Sgt . . . i comfirm can ! " I once competed with all of them digging holes in the field . . . because of my mm . . LoanShark built , i'm definately a better digger than them . . . BUT i tell them they can do it if they put their mind to it . . . though they don't achieve the same result as me . . . they achieve the best they could ^^ i still applaud them for taking up my challange . . . for i know its not right to void their effort just because of their end result . . .

Enough said . . . i must go do some other things ^^ btw i made creamy mushroom pasta with HAM . . . wahahahaha ! ! ! ! Excellent la~ ^^Next time i try making lasagne WOOT !

LIFE IS GOOD . . . EVERY MOMENT . . . EVERY BIT OF IT . . . ITS GOOD ! ! !

WOOO . . . i'm bad a wrapping gifts . . .

MAN~ it took me a lot of work to wrap something so simple . . . but ok la ^^ its the effort . . . hope that somebody like it . . . nothing much ^^ just a gift :P

SO~ Mum . . . was pretty surprise to see me home so early lol . . . so we talk for a while . . . seems qutie happy when i joke around with her . . .guess she kinda miss my pressence :P

Want to hear my story ? ? ?

I often stick around my mother when i was young . . . she was a seamstress back then ... working hard at home, while i was at tution. When i return from school there is always a meal prepared at home . . . her cooking was very good . . . i would finish what ever she cook . . . She would bring me to the wet market on somedays and i love it ^^ because i get to eat out with her and sis ^^ a small gathering for the little kids i guess . When i fall sick . . . she knew i hate medicine so sometimes she would buy me toy gun or remote cars to tempt me into taking the medication . . . Do you know . . . though my Mum isn't very educated . . . she still coach me those basic long division when i was in lower primary school . . . i would sit at the dinning table solving questions she gave me while she continue to prepare dinner . . . not long after Dad got her to help him out and i don't get to spend time with her anymore . . . wihout her around i would often cry myself to sleep because i would run to her room with my sister to sleep with her when i was young . . . Haha . . . thats my childhood . . . theres also my Grandmother , the maids who took care of me . . . if you ask me if i feel sad about not having enough childhood time with my mum . . . i would say not really . . . it may be a bit pity that i can only spend a short time with her when i was young but it can't be help right ^^ so shouldn't i start to treasure the moment now rather than feeling sorry about the past ? ? ?

I think we all should treasure the time with our parents ^^ My folks at home may not be the elites of the society in terms of status but i can tell you one thing . . . they are better than some of them in providing the best for their child . . . i'll probably break those a*sEho*l who dare to make fun of my parents . . . I'm sure you folks would give everything to protect them from harm like how they protect you ^^

Christmas coming ^^ Whats your wish going to be ? ? ?
Let me win New Year TOTO wahahah~

Don't shout at AW ! ! ! lol

Funny title to begin with :P remember i got into a heated quarrel with one of the folks in my bunk ? Thats what he wrote in his notebook " Don't shout at Aw ". The rest of the guys got hold of this they start to poke fun at me lol . . . but oh well ^^ i'll leave it as it is . . .

Recently people whom i talk to in a long time OFTEN ask me this question " Have you got yourself a girlfriend ? " . . .

I'm pretty happy being me now . . . i do want someone to share my happiness at times but all this really takes time . Some things just can't be rush or its just not meant to be . . . i'm not reprimanding those who have asked me . . . just saying how i felt about this issue . . . I still think i'm not very mature in handling all this i guess . . . i have a lot more to learn about life and how to love someone . . . when the right person turns up and its at the right moment . . . then i'll be attached i guess ^^ If its meant to be . . . it will be . . . don't you think so ah ning~

Mm . . . lots of things to do this weekend . . . go down post office to get my liscence . . . buy this buy that . . . check ticket to hong kong . . . . Japan's trip ticket overpriced~ !@#!@#!@#!@ so not going there . . .

I'm not sure if all these will help you but i hope you give it some thought . .
Couples often have things they dislike about each other and its all about accepting it and adapting to changes . . .

There are definately some issues which are very difficult to iron it out . . . but honestly when you sit down and give it a thought . . . don't you realise that often some issues came from ourselves instead of our partner ? Its often what we seek and those they can't give that results in resentment towards the relationship . . .

I'm not sure if he has really accepted who you really are or was he trying to change you into someone you don't wish to be . . . if you feel insecure about his commitment . . . its more likely to be the past you knew and probably your own past experiences . . . i've often tell people to put down their past baggages and move forward . . . start everything a new and take this new relationship as a fresh start without any judgements . . .

Once the "honeymoon" period ends . . . it often spells trouble . . . lovey dovey feelings won't bind 2 person together forever . . . its something else . . . i'm sure those who are married for years will tell you the same thing . . . being together and starting to live together as a couple is not easy . . . your partner is just like a book . . . but this book has unlimited amount of pages . . . everday they will change . . .

Do you really think this will work out in the long run ?
Are you happy with your current situation ?

Just a night ago . . . My commanding officer ask us a question " What would a dying person give to live just another day " Weijie answer " Everything "

You know his answer made me think a bit deeper . . . a person would give up eveyrthing just to live another day . . . i feel that its because saying goodbye to someone you love is hard . . . even one more day you won't find it sufficient . . . humans neglected the fact that one day life will end . . .

You love him don't you . . . tell him again . . . its alright to feel sad . . . but don't just stop there . . . the one who can make you feel better yourself . . . do what you have to do . . . i'm sure you will be happier in time to come . . . take control and do something ^^ write a note or letter . . . sms . . . anything is fine as long as you don't just stop there . . .

There wno't be any effect if there aren't any changes ^^ right people ? :) Jia You~

I'll be around still . . . so don't worry ok ^^ I'm the safety net ~

What a nice rainy day . . .

Feeling so happy for the past few days . . . ^^

Maybe because i get to rest a bit longer since the previous week was so hectic ^^

I finish watching "Hot Man" ^^ A MUST WATCH J DRAMA . . . Go get it ^^ A very heart warming show about family ^^ . . .

Oh~ i drove home yesterday using Cong's car . . . ahaha for the first time after so long . . . its my turn to drive him around . . . went up expressway . . . try parking in the lots outside . . . parking seems easier outside LOL . . . went up to Seng Kang . . . Yishun . . . Thomson~ but because i drove during 2 am ? I don't see much cars around . . .

It was great ^^ Rainy day~ . . .

I feel even happier when i still get to talk so long with you . . . that was a nice converstation ^^

^^ Sand Smoke . . . Shares . . .

Its quite a waste of my time to book into camp ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY to witness mortar impact on ground . . . We were given the orders to return to witness the SANDY event -_- basically i would classify that as wasting of resources . . .

Oh well . . . I'm tired but best not to rest too much at home . . . must relax and enjoy the time being at home . . . no one to disturb you . . . its just so peaceful . . .

The rigger's course . . . ( more like curse ) is over ! ! ! we are qualified as SHOP FINAL ( i have absolutely no idea why we're labeled as "SHOP FINAL" what the heck does it mean ? Final Shopping ? ) . . . that is to lead a team of men to RIG vehicles . . . ammo boxes and mortars . . .

My mailbox are flooded with annual reports from companies for shareholders -_- my Mom and Dad are buying shares . . . YET they tell me :" No la we see see only " . . . They don't want to teach me . . . BUT NEVERMIND !! i got someone else to teach me ^^

Ah~ whats next . . . OH ! i lost weight man ! normally the weighing machine at my home give me a horrible digit but surprisingly i lost weight . . . GOOD ! but i did too much running till my knees couldn't take it . . . LOL next week its back to running again . . . since i've stop for a week already . . .

EH~ Ok i must go out to enjoy my peace time already . . . sleep tight folks

YOU KNOW WHAT ! ! !

For my 3rd attempt at TP . . .

I FINALLY MADE IT WITH 16 pts ! ! !

SEEMS A LOT ! ! ! but 6 points are made inside circuit >.< almost bang kerb BUT PHEW~ 10 points outside mostly on blindspot . . . other than that WAHAHA ...

Damm funny ~

1st TP - 24 pts . . . shld have passed that time but becoz of stupid poles
2nd TP - 44 pts . . . i speed too fast , brake too hard , landed on marking twice . . . so i don't bother and just drive "anyhow" ~
3rd TP - 16 pts . . . WAHAHA i drive like turtle and i PASS . . .

Must move on to bike soon . . .

Initially i thought i cannot make it because i had quite a deep cut on my hand and its quite painful when i spread my palm to hold something , a small area of my skin was ripped off by the elevating gears of the mortar tube . . . ( yeah , i was trying to show my men that they can turn it very fast so . . . i was careless and "OUCH" )

Next week very busy~
I need to do live firing on 2 days . . . attend Rigger Course . . . Rigger course very tough ! We must prepare the mortar loads which will be heliborne into other areas . . . now must attend that course . . . Friday is the actual heli-lift . . . hope i don't get blown away by the down wash from the helicopter should i be chosen as the hook up man . . .

Not enough sleep lately . . . for the first time i've been too busy to sleep . . . so yesterday night when i came home i just dropped my bag , shower and ZzzzZzz all the way ~

LIFE IS good . . . and very messy in camp . . . lots of "wars" raging within and i'm very happy . . . haha howcome i'm happy when people initiate "wars" ? well because it bonds people together . . . to fight for something they believe . . .

I'll just stand by the side and see what the outcome is ^^ . . . After all bad people should be topple down ^^

HeeHee ^^

HAPPY ^^

Lots of show to watch ^^

I got "Hot Man" < A jap drama about family > , " Secret " , Tons of anime waiting ^^ and best of all ^^ i'm scouting for PS3 wooHOO ! ! ! wait till their games in the aresenl increases i wil get one and make it sit in my room ^^ :P

Bought some more books to read in camp . . .

And . . . i hope the system in camp will change . . .

10 more months to UNI ^^

Kenny has MSNed me from LONDON ^^ HEs doing great . . . lots of pretty blondie there for him . . . lucky arse . . . one day he might just bring one back . . .

Then i must really get my ass to Japan and bring one back too . . .

>.< I lost it~

I almost gave one punch to knock his nose out of place ... but i didn't ...

Alright its my fault for playing a fool when perhaps hes damm pissed off already with the remarks others gave him . . . i guess that was the final limit ...

But don't shake the door so hard man ! ! ! The bosses definately will come ! ! ! True enough they heard the damm commotion and sat outside waiting to see show and waiting to give me extras . . . You snapped and i snapped ... i tried reasoning but it doesn't work so ? Almost bare our fangs at each other ... i had to walk away for i know i would really knock you into hospital if i don't ... i know myself too well ... my rage buttons was all activated ... but i'm damm surprised i held back ... i know i can't work with you ... really ... i felt very restricted and underappreciated when you butt into my work sometimes ... its my job so let me handle it ! ! ! Thanks for your advice but its not your field of expertise ... i know you are trying to be helpful but thanks just stay out of my way ... if i need your aid i would ask ... ok i'm deviating away from the topic ... i want to apologise but the rest urges me don't for it would only worsen the matters because ? you know yourself too ... if reasoning would work for you things won't become like this ... you'er recieving information from the rest of the 9 of us to improve but what most of us feels is that there are no changes from you ... personally you don't have to and you're not obliged to but to work together (perhaps only me ) for the next 10 years or so there is a need to do something to make things more effective for all of us ...

I'm sorry ...

Yeah~ thats what happen last night ... I'm just so disappointed with myself haha ... went back asking people if it was right to become angry ... i've somewhat made myself believe that i don't have a right to be mad a others a long time back whatever the outcome is, they are due to my actions ... ... i can't show i'm angry anymore ... i can't ... it would destroy the peace between people ... would negotiating work ... maybe ... past experiences shows that being angry doesn't work at all and its not beneficial to anyone, sometimes negotiating doesn't work too ... best is keep quiet and let the matter rest ^^ thats a conclusion for me .

Extremely Tired But . . . Just Hang On ^^

Today is . . . a rather not normal day . . .

I had to wake up at 4am to do cook house duty . . . >.< but i shall not go into it .

After handing over the duty to Xian Shen i faster pack up and rush to airport . . . because i not enuff cash in wallet so i take train to airport from Chua Chu Kang . . . took me quite a while to get there but luckily i still made it to give Kenny's my best wishes ^^ . . .

He should be landing in London soon . . . probably when i post this up he should have touched down already . . .

Was a rather teary parting . . . I was the video camera man >.< seeing the whole sending off scene made me tear . . . yes i did cry while taking the footage . . .

He was at the departure gate . . . His Granny hugged him . . . said a few words but before she could finish tears start to roll down . . . I think Kenny's heart ache quite a lot . . . We all gave him a hug before he went in . . . i won't go into detail who feels upset the most . . . actually i shouldn't use that word "upset" . . . its just that someone you're close to is going away . . . naturally you feel a sense of loss . . . he must have given it a lot of thinking before he decided to do this . . . thats why i told him . . . hes a very brave guy . . . i'm not sure if i can do that , maybe not .

Nigel has officially become a recruit today . . . but because we had to send Kenny off we couldn't send him to Tekong . . . actually Nigel also want to send Kenny first before he report to camp but thats a bit rush so the idea was call off . . .

So suddenly 2 of my best folks went ahead with their life . . . am i going to just sit and feel loss about it ? >.< Nah~ i feel sad a bit but cannot stay this way forever ^^ while they are doing something for themselves , i too must do something for myself ...

I've been reading a book titled "Choice Theory" by William Glasser ... went around finding his other books but i can't find it ... maybe i go down to Town tomorrow take a look if i manage to wake up early ... i also found out that NTU is offering a 1 day course i think for "Choice Theory" the course fee is about 500++ this coming November . . . i'm thinking weather i should sign up a not . . . i think my intrest really lies in knowing how people think , feel , mm . . . people's emotion ... i want to fix them ... i want to help ... because i don't want to see bad endings ... of course i can't force my will on them ^^ but i always felt that its good to have someone who can listen to you as and when you need ... in the past its hard to get people to listen to my grumbles , troubles . . . no one seems to know what i'm driving at ... i had to find other channels to fix all these myself ... because of this past experience ... i tell myself i must know as much as possible to help make those around me feel better should they feel sad at times ... i'm not very good at it ... but i'll try ^^

What i'm saying here is " I can offer you advice with what i know , i can't make you feel better because there is only one person in this world who can make you feel better and that is yourself "

Good Night Folks

Perhaps the last . . .

Today is Sunday . . . booking into camp soon . . . but somehow today feels a bit heavier than normal days . . . it feels almost the same as that time . . . like a depth within a heart which can never be filled up . . . tears that would never stop rolling of the cheeks . . .

Perhaps its because i got too much off and booking in now makes me feel a bit depressing . . . but i know my feelings well enough . . . because its not going to be the same when i book out of camp next weekend . . . that gathering could very well be the last for many of us . . . no more Saturday coffee talks . . . no more funny games . . . no more lame jokes . . . no more seeing the smiles on each and everyone's face . . .

Like simone said when she took the photo . . . "We've grown up . . . " We have indeed . . .

What does this normally means ? We have to each move forward but not with everybody . . . maybe once in a while in the far future we would gather once again to see how each and eveyrone of us are doing . . . but between now and then the frequency would be less or close to none . . .

Its painful to lose someone you love but missing friends is no easy task either ^^ Equally heart wrenching . . . equally painful . . . perhaps even lonlier because the only solace we can find when love abandon you would be the one whom you call friend . . .

Don't forget . . . each other . . . folks . . . :)

Wenhao ^^

A night to treasure

I try not to make this an emotional entry >.<

But for those who doesn't know ! Kenny is going to UK~ for 4 years T_T There goes a good friend to many of us and best friend to those special ones . . .

A gathering was held . . . many things to talk about . . . some shed tears quietly within their hearts for who would want to see someone so dear leave ? Though everyone's paths are different , i know many would wish he could stay. Hes a very fun person to be with . . . easy going . . . very "steady" too !

I have to type this in advance beacause i may not make it for your flight . . . T_T i try to go ^^ not to see you off forever but i hope you will make the best of everything when you are there . . . Once a while update us on how you are doing there . . . Who knows some of us may pop by London to visit you ^^

I hope you have a safe journey and come back when you are free . . . i still owe you 3 treats :P . . . Maybe by then i strike lottery already ^^ but really . . .you have to take care of yourself . . . get a blondie back ^^

WooO~~ So kenny is going away for quite a while . . . Nigel is going to army . . . with the rest of the peeps starting on their path . . . the "FRIENDS" seems to be growing apart . . . but i don't think so . . . after so long we all still stay as friends means its for eternity . . . its a bit sad . . . i do feel a bit of ache ~ but this is just the begining for everyone . . . ^^

I got gathering photos :P uploading later and some VIDEOS of us doing some err REALLY EMBARASSING STUFF . . . thinking of uploading it BUT NO . . . SIMONE DON'T YOU DARE DO IT ! ! ! Please don't >.< Got Nigel doing belly dance . . . Me DOING striptease ( WTF OMFG >.< i tell you this is the most MOST embarassed moment in my life but for friendship I DO IT )~ many many MANY more >.< BUT SORRY i cannot show you all . . . REALLY :p