I want a change ...(edited)

Studying has become an addiction. Never mind if i don't do well in quizzess or exams though the feeling sucks, but for me its only going to last a while and i will get over it. Because deep down i've already did my best and if its not sufficient to get what i want. I just have to do even better. I enjoy the studying process now and i love it.

I may not know a damm thing but if i am willing to take a step forward and ask questions to clarify my doubts, at the end of the day i will learn something. I've been studying late into the night with friends and also finishing my work together with them. Its a new begining for me as i used to be someone who study alone. Knowing that i had to make changes or i risk not having what i want . I decided to get out of my usual routine to give it a shot. Its not the final grades that matter. I just don't want to sit for a paper and write nothing . I will write something ... it may not be right sometimes but as long as i understand what i am writing , i am confident i will not get zero. I want to finish this degree ... honours or no honours ...~ never mind ~ Its the process of getting it that makes the whole journey worth while.

I tell myself that no matter what happens i must be able to accept failure. I am lucky to have a comfortable life without having to go through what those less fortunate people has to , but because of this i am always weaker when it comes to certain issues . I feel that those who went through the tough part in life are the ones who are able to pick themselves up and emerge stronger

Until we fall ... we won't know how strong and how capable we are ... how a person become stronger has somewhat link with the amount of failure he/she had went through. Failure isn't there to stop you , it is there to teach you a lesson which you must be able to accept and make the correct changes. It is a reminder that we are not perfect as humans and we must not give up in trying to reach what we want.

Sometimes i also feel sad becuase i did badly ... but then ^^ i have limited time on earth so ... i can choose to pity myself over it or do something about it ... so i choose to do something about it ^^ . So why complain ? when you can do something about it ... and why complain when you can't do anything about it ? Just shrugged it off :P

http://download.srv.cs.cmu.edu/~pausch/ check this link out about "The Last Lecture"
I find it very good ... and it IS very good ... Its about computer science professor Randy Pausch at Carnegie Mellon University delivering a last lecture called “Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams.” And if you want to know why its titled as'The Last Lecture" .. go check out ^^ you won't be disappointed ^^