Wednesday, November 30, 2005
What a day
People pass basic theory in one try and i fail the SECOND TIME . . .
Never study . . . i forgot about the test today . . . so read a bit in school hopping i would pass but when i click SUBMIT . . . FAILED appear on my screen . . .
My 3rd try will be my last and THIS TIME ROUND i must remember to study for it . . .
The test not very difficult if you studied for it . . . Just feel so useless suddenly . . . I don't like the feeling of failing anything . . . Simply hate it . . .
Never mind ^^ just study before the next test ahah
Fluny ^^ Rainy ^^ Lovely >.<
I was watching "Aishteru Ze Baby" when i suddenly remembered i got a "BASIC DRIVING THEORY TEST TOMORROW" Bad thing is i have not studied yet . . . going to fail second time i guess >.< But well anyway i just go down and try my luck ^^. Maybe i get lucky and pass ?
Who knows ^^ . . . at most i reapply for the test . . . but maybe not so soon , just too busy and not in the mood to study for that.
Oh mm . . . Life good ? Yes pretty good >.<>.< Bad . . .
Love watching anime ^^ go download "Aishteru Za Baby" VERY NICE . . . every episode make me smile a lot ^^ i'm not the kind who smile so easily by the way . . . sometimes people laugh or smile over something which i don't even consider funny . . . anyway the show is soo good that it makes me feel so happy after watching it . Watching Anime ^^ thats my hobby . . . Please ! Do not link it to HENTAI -_- I know Esther and Sherri would say that for sure . . .
School is normal for me . . . Nothing much to comment about that
Time to learn how to make BENTO ! Haha cook cook cook >.< can't be bothered about other things . . . Shanyu and Aishah call me SHIM you know whats SHIM ? Its a combination of SHE AND HIM = SHIM . . . So half guy half girl . . . so what is me ?
I can only say i love to dream a lot . . . i got my own safe world where everything is so comforting and peaceful . . . so much different from reality ^^
Hope i pass tomolo basic ^^ Need a lot of luck
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Sunday . . .
Dad called . . . Grandpa in hospital . . . was telling Kate i'll be visiting my Grandparents house later in the afternoon. . . . but suddenly this happen . . .
Sigh . . . . Anyway i have to go now . . . hes having an operation i think . . . heard that his intestine was all tied up . . . -_- hes old already . . . wheel chair bound and this must happen to him . . .
Ok another week is gone . . . Bye folks my parents rushing me.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Ill Heart
A nice day when i met up with Ken , Guan , Nigel ,Allan and Zy for a chat >.< seems everyone is fine . . . well i guess .
Oh i'm so tired . . . Just recieved an e-mail from Angel ^^ Shes back from her cruise finally.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Rain
Busy ? Not really , but its getting really difficult to stay awake in class sometimes .
Class schedules in a real mess . No idea what i am learning . Basically I'm still drifting around .
So it rained today for a while in the evening . . . after a session with Kenny , Ee Mei , Yiting. We had chicken rice for dinner and had a long talk.
So while on the bus home with EeMei a Granny who looks very fragile was urged to be sitted down by the bus driver for fear she might fall down .After some attempt she sat down . So i help get her bag of stuff to her place but she told me to leave it there. After EeMei alighted i continue my journey home. As i reach my destination i look at the granny and ask if she alighting at my stop too . She said no and shes going to alight at the next stop which is a bit far from my home . But doesn't seems to have anyone around to help her with her bag so i just offered to drop at the same bus stop with her . I tried to stand by her so i could give her some support. I'm just too scared to hold her . Too afriad that i may hurt her . So eventually she got down safely and say thank UNCLE ! ^^ Ok i'm happy i help her but feeling a bit funny because i have grown older with age . . . so i become UNCLE already . . . that sounds so old.
Oh well sorting out my assignment to be completed by this week . Hope that the PulaUbin trip this saturday can be fufilled . . . ^^ . Another week is going by . . . soon . . . very soon . . .
Thursday, November 10, 2005
School
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Saturday, November 05, 2005
I lost my pin number
I am always afriad of something.......that something is not being able to sleep when you want to.....i don't know when it began but this fear is consuming me fast.....however as time pass i can't be bothered with it because it exhaust so much of my mind.....so i just lie down and close my eyes to rest.......
I've been wondering if i don't have Jerelyn with me what would i become. Shes more than just a girlfriend to me.....to me she meant so much more than anyone else....even important than my mum and dad who don't really spend much time with me and my sister. I enjoy being with her and listening to her stories though i don't have much to share at times....even my favourite hobby is gone....ps2 broken.....the sister whom i quarrel with almost everyday also had a boyfriend to accompany her.....now my house is empty everyday....except in the evening when everyone returns to eat.How sad.....if i had not met her maybe i would just rot my life away.....at the very least i found some meaning in life, some reason for me to continue to believe in hope.....
Just recently me and babylyn talk about after poly who would remember us and we started naming those whom we would remember and miss.....she came up with an idea to get everyone in the class to write down who they would miss and let the person know....sounds crazy and embarassed to do it but well i wonder if it could happen...since the semester is nearing an end it should be a good idea to do it as soon we will be going for attachment soon and by the time we return to school we would be in different classes.......
Would anyone remember you during the poly life ? Would the memories shared be remained in each and everyone's mind ? Time flies......in fact it doesn't flies~ it just passed by you without you noticing it.......only when u realise that the time you had with one another is running out would that warm heart of yours start to feel.......memories would come flooding into your mind as tears filled graduation ceremony draws near......i don't know how much tears will be shed or how much smile would reach one another....i only know one thing....we did not come to this planet alone as the moment we are born someone is already by our side.....as you grow you seek that comfort you once had....love....companionship......friends......when you are an infant you had many little friends lying beside you too in the babies ward......^.^
I had no idea why those thoughts just came to my mind.....i just ype them out....^.^
Everyone tell me i should move on and forget her since she doesn't love me anymore. But does anyone know her place within me is not just purely a girlfriend during the 1 yr 5 mths time i had with her ? . . . I can feel a tingle of pain when i read that post i blog so many months ago . . .it still hurts and yes it hurts a lot. Now what would i become and where is my hope.
You were that shinning star that disappear from my sky . . . now everything is pitch black
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Why . . .
Clueless , Speechless , I'm begining to wonder whats the use of knowing so much . . . in the end they only make yourself more miserable.
A person you knew has no reason to trust and not to trust . . . just like a piece of whiteboard with nothing on it . . . you determine whats written on that person's board . . . Kate you are right about this .
My words doesn't make sense anymore i guess ^^ .
There is no point in knowing what to do and not being able to do it. Trying ? what does it mean ? I guess it means you just try and try . . . not having the drive to really want to achieve something . . . trying still lack of something inside . . . its not forceful enough to accomplish anything.
What am i talking ? Day sickness i guess or rather because of you angel ?
there can be trust but not love , there cannot be love without trust
Thank you kate~