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Something is pretty wrong with my blogger ... but oh well ...

Pretty busy ! ... Stayed at Gleneagles hospital overnight to be nightwatch for Grandma because apparently only the maid and me quite free to do so ... everyone was afriad the cancer had return but the CT scan showed every part of her is healthy , her heart specialist also say her heart is in very healthy condition . Overall to say she is healthy ... the fact she cannot walk and weaken so much is because of age and the rate of nutrient loss is too fast . So she will be returning today and tomorrow i will be going over to see her . Because she has always been walking a lot thats why only now her muscle mass starts to decrease at such an alarming rate ... Trust me if you don't exercise and take ur fitness now for granted i bet that you won't be able to walk very well at age 60 onwards . Not to mention other shitty old aged illness that comes along with age . Grandma eat very lightly and at age 80++ going to hit 90 soon the blood vessels are 68% clogged . To think her diet from young till now was vegetables and fish ... and she exercise a lot ... it can still be clogged ~ . The doctor says u can eat right exercise right ... but the vessels will be clogged over the years no matter what ... not eating right will just speed up the clogging process .

Quite true ... Its like a pipe line ... over months and years the pipe surface will be deposited with bacteria cells which will grow .... algae and stuff ... the difference is ... its easier to clean a pipe than blood vessles ... She has to take special protein supplement and other nutrients drink . Maybe will be installing some exercising machine for her at home too .

... i couldn't stand watching the nurse draw blood from her ... the agony shown on her face was quite painful to me ... i had to walk away ... just to wipe those tears away ... and when she can't get to sleep i will just go next to her and hold her hands ... she will frown at me and say " hao~ your hands very cold " , I just told her to get some sleep even though its at 3 am~ ... time doesn't seems to matter much now ...

If you ask me does she have any regrets ? I will say she has none ... and shes still worried if i had eaten or not ...

If you ask me ... do i have any regrets ? I will tell you i have a very big one ... that is not recording more videos of her ...