WOOO . . . i'm bad a wrapping gifts . . .

MAN~ it took me a lot of work to wrap something so simple . . . but ok la ^^ its the effort . . . hope that somebody like it . . . nothing much ^^ just a gift :P

SO~ Mum . . . was pretty surprise to see me home so early lol . . . so we talk for a while . . . seems qutie happy when i joke around with her . . .guess she kinda miss my pressence :P

Want to hear my story ? ? ?

I often stick around my mother when i was young . . . she was a seamstress back then ... working hard at home, while i was at tution. When i return from school there is always a meal prepared at home . . . her cooking was very good . . . i would finish what ever she cook . . . She would bring me to the wet market on somedays and i love it ^^ because i get to eat out with her and sis ^^ a small gathering for the little kids i guess . When i fall sick . . . she knew i hate medicine so sometimes she would buy me toy gun or remote cars to tempt me into taking the medication . . . Do you know . . . though my Mum isn't very educated . . . she still coach me those basic long division when i was in lower primary school . . . i would sit at the dinning table solving questions she gave me while she continue to prepare dinner . . . not long after Dad got her to help him out and i don't get to spend time with her anymore . . . wihout her around i would often cry myself to sleep because i would run to her room with my sister to sleep with her when i was young . . . Haha . . . thats my childhood . . . theres also my Grandmother , the maids who took care of me . . . if you ask me if i feel sad about not having enough childhood time with my mum . . . i would say not really . . . it may be a bit pity that i can only spend a short time with her when i was young but it can't be help right ^^ so shouldn't i start to treasure the moment now rather than feeling sorry about the past ? ? ?

I think we all should treasure the time with our parents ^^ My folks at home may not be the elites of the society in terms of status but i can tell you one thing . . . they are better than some of them in providing the best for their child . . . i'll probably break those a*sEho*l who dare to make fun of my parents . . . I'm sure you folks would give everything to protect them from harm like how they protect you ^^

Christmas coming ^^ Whats your wish going to be ? ? ?
Let me win New Year TOTO wahahah~

Don't shout at AW ! ! ! lol

Funny title to begin with :P remember i got into a heated quarrel with one of the folks in my bunk ? Thats what he wrote in his notebook " Don't shout at Aw ". The rest of the guys got hold of this they start to poke fun at me lol . . . but oh well ^^ i'll leave it as it is . . .

Recently people whom i talk to in a long time OFTEN ask me this question " Have you got yourself a girlfriend ? " . . .

I'm pretty happy being me now . . . i do want someone to share my happiness at times but all this really takes time . Some things just can't be rush or its just not meant to be . . . i'm not reprimanding those who have asked me . . . just saying how i felt about this issue . . . I still think i'm not very mature in handling all this i guess . . . i have a lot more to learn about life and how to love someone . . . when the right person turns up and its at the right moment . . . then i'll be attached i guess ^^ If its meant to be . . . it will be . . . don't you think so ah ning~

Mm . . . lots of things to do this weekend . . . go down post office to get my liscence . . . buy this buy that . . . check ticket to hong kong . . . . Japan's trip ticket overpriced~ !@#!@#!@#!@ so not going there . . .

I'm not sure if all these will help you but i hope you give it some thought . .
Couples often have things they dislike about each other and its all about accepting it and adapting to changes . . .

There are definately some issues which are very difficult to iron it out . . . but honestly when you sit down and give it a thought . . . don't you realise that often some issues came from ourselves instead of our partner ? Its often what we seek and those they can't give that results in resentment towards the relationship . . .

I'm not sure if he has really accepted who you really are or was he trying to change you into someone you don't wish to be . . . if you feel insecure about his commitment . . . its more likely to be the past you knew and probably your own past experiences . . . i've often tell people to put down their past baggages and move forward . . . start everything a new and take this new relationship as a fresh start without any judgements . . .

Once the "honeymoon" period ends . . . it often spells trouble . . . lovey dovey feelings won't bind 2 person together forever . . . its something else . . . i'm sure those who are married for years will tell you the same thing . . . being together and starting to live together as a couple is not easy . . . your partner is just like a book . . . but this book has unlimited amount of pages . . . everday they will change . . .

Do you really think this will work out in the long run ?
Are you happy with your current situation ?

Just a night ago . . . My commanding officer ask us a question " What would a dying person give to live just another day " Weijie answer " Everything "

You know his answer made me think a bit deeper . . . a person would give up eveyrthing just to live another day . . . i feel that its because saying goodbye to someone you love is hard . . . even one more day you won't find it sufficient . . . humans neglected the fact that one day life will end . . .

You love him don't you . . . tell him again . . . its alright to feel sad . . . but don't just stop there . . . the one who can make you feel better yourself . . . do what you have to do . . . i'm sure you will be happier in time to come . . . take control and do something ^^ write a note or letter . . . sms . . . anything is fine as long as you don't just stop there . . .

There wno't be any effect if there aren't any changes ^^ right people ? :) Jia You~

I'll be around still . . . so don't worry ok ^^ I'm the safety net ~

What a nice rainy day . . .

Feeling so happy for the past few days . . . ^^

Maybe because i get to rest a bit longer since the previous week was so hectic ^^

I finish watching "Hot Man" ^^ A MUST WATCH J DRAMA . . . Go get it ^^ A very heart warming show about family ^^ . . .

Oh~ i drove home yesterday using Cong's car . . . ahaha for the first time after so long . . . its my turn to drive him around . . . went up expressway . . . try parking in the lots outside . . . parking seems easier outside LOL . . . went up to Seng Kang . . . Yishun . . . Thomson~ but because i drove during 2 am ? I don't see much cars around . . .

It was great ^^ Rainy day~ . . .

I feel even happier when i still get to talk so long with you . . . that was a nice converstation ^^

^^ Sand Smoke . . . Shares . . .

Its quite a waste of my time to book into camp ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY to witness mortar impact on ground . . . We were given the orders to return to witness the SANDY event -_- basically i would classify that as wasting of resources . . .

Oh well . . . I'm tired but best not to rest too much at home . . . must relax and enjoy the time being at home . . . no one to disturb you . . . its just so peaceful . . .

The rigger's course . . . ( more like curse ) is over ! ! ! we are qualified as SHOP FINAL ( i have absolutely no idea why we're labeled as "SHOP FINAL" what the heck does it mean ? Final Shopping ? ) . . . that is to lead a team of men to RIG vehicles . . . ammo boxes and mortars . . .

My mailbox are flooded with annual reports from companies for shareholders -_- my Mom and Dad are buying shares . . . YET they tell me :" No la we see see only " . . . They don't want to teach me . . . BUT NEVERMIND !! i got someone else to teach me ^^

Ah~ whats next . . . OH ! i lost weight man ! normally the weighing machine at my home give me a horrible digit but surprisingly i lost weight . . . GOOD ! but i did too much running till my knees couldn't take it . . . LOL next week its back to running again . . . since i've stop for a week already . . .

EH~ Ok i must go out to enjoy my peace time already . . . sleep tight folks

YOU KNOW WHAT ! ! !

For my 3rd attempt at TP . . .

I FINALLY MADE IT WITH 16 pts ! ! !

SEEMS A LOT ! ! ! but 6 points are made inside circuit >.< almost bang kerb BUT PHEW~ 10 points outside mostly on blindspot . . . other than that WAHAHA ...

Damm funny ~

1st TP - 24 pts . . . shld have passed that time but becoz of stupid poles
2nd TP - 44 pts . . . i speed too fast , brake too hard , landed on marking twice . . . so i don't bother and just drive "anyhow" ~
3rd TP - 16 pts . . . WAHAHA i drive like turtle and i PASS . . .

Must move on to bike soon . . .

Initially i thought i cannot make it because i had quite a deep cut on my hand and its quite painful when i spread my palm to hold something , a small area of my skin was ripped off by the elevating gears of the mortar tube . . . ( yeah , i was trying to show my men that they can turn it very fast so . . . i was careless and "OUCH" )

Next week very busy~
I need to do live firing on 2 days . . . attend Rigger Course . . . Rigger course very tough ! We must prepare the mortar loads which will be heliborne into other areas . . . now must attend that course . . . Friday is the actual heli-lift . . . hope i don't get blown away by the down wash from the helicopter should i be chosen as the hook up man . . .

Not enough sleep lately . . . for the first time i've been too busy to sleep . . . so yesterday night when i came home i just dropped my bag , shower and ZzzzZzz all the way ~

LIFE IS good . . . and very messy in camp . . . lots of "wars" raging within and i'm very happy . . . haha howcome i'm happy when people initiate "wars" ? well because it bonds people together . . . to fight for something they believe . . .

I'll just stand by the side and see what the outcome is ^^ . . . After all bad people should be topple down ^^

HeeHee ^^

HAPPY ^^

Lots of show to watch ^^

I got "Hot Man" < A jap drama about family > , " Secret " , Tons of anime waiting ^^ and best of all ^^ i'm scouting for PS3 wooHOO ! ! ! wait till their games in the aresenl increases i wil get one and make it sit in my room ^^ :P

Bought some more books to read in camp . . .

And . . . i hope the system in camp will change . . .

10 more months to UNI ^^

Kenny has MSNed me from LONDON ^^ HEs doing great . . . lots of pretty blondie there for him . . . lucky arse . . . one day he might just bring one back . . .

Then i must really get my ass to Japan and bring one back too . . .

>.< I lost it~

I almost gave one punch to knock his nose out of place ... but i didn't ...

Alright its my fault for playing a fool when perhaps hes damm pissed off already with the remarks others gave him . . . i guess that was the final limit ...

But don't shake the door so hard man ! ! ! The bosses definately will come ! ! ! True enough they heard the damm commotion and sat outside waiting to see show and waiting to give me extras . . . You snapped and i snapped ... i tried reasoning but it doesn't work so ? Almost bare our fangs at each other ... i had to walk away for i know i would really knock you into hospital if i don't ... i know myself too well ... my rage buttons was all activated ... but i'm damm surprised i held back ... i know i can't work with you ... really ... i felt very restricted and underappreciated when you butt into my work sometimes ... its my job so let me handle it ! ! ! Thanks for your advice but its not your field of expertise ... i know you are trying to be helpful but thanks just stay out of my way ... if i need your aid i would ask ... ok i'm deviating away from the topic ... i want to apologise but the rest urges me don't for it would only worsen the matters because ? you know yourself too ... if reasoning would work for you things won't become like this ... you'er recieving information from the rest of the 9 of us to improve but what most of us feels is that there are no changes from you ... personally you don't have to and you're not obliged to but to work together (perhaps only me ) for the next 10 years or so there is a need to do something to make things more effective for all of us ...

I'm sorry ...

Yeah~ thats what happen last night ... I'm just so disappointed with myself haha ... went back asking people if it was right to become angry ... i've somewhat made myself believe that i don't have a right to be mad a others a long time back whatever the outcome is, they are due to my actions ... ... i can't show i'm angry anymore ... i can't ... it would destroy the peace between people ... would negotiating work ... maybe ... past experiences shows that being angry doesn't work at all and its not beneficial to anyone, sometimes negotiating doesn't work too ... best is keep quiet and let the matter rest ^^ thats a conclusion for me .

Extremely Tired But . . . Just Hang On ^^

Today is . . . a rather not normal day . . .

I had to wake up at 4am to do cook house duty . . . >.< but i shall not go into it .

After handing over the duty to Xian Shen i faster pack up and rush to airport . . . because i not enuff cash in wallet so i take train to airport from Chua Chu Kang . . . took me quite a while to get there but luckily i still made it to give Kenny's my best wishes ^^ . . .

He should be landing in London soon . . . probably when i post this up he should have touched down already . . .

Was a rather teary parting . . . I was the video camera man >.< seeing the whole sending off scene made me tear . . . yes i did cry while taking the footage . . .

He was at the departure gate . . . His Granny hugged him . . . said a few words but before she could finish tears start to roll down . . . I think Kenny's heart ache quite a lot . . . We all gave him a hug before he went in . . . i won't go into detail who feels upset the most . . . actually i shouldn't use that word "upset" . . . its just that someone you're close to is going away . . . naturally you feel a sense of loss . . . he must have given it a lot of thinking before he decided to do this . . . thats why i told him . . . hes a very brave guy . . . i'm not sure if i can do that , maybe not .

Nigel has officially become a recruit today . . . but because we had to send Kenny off we couldn't send him to Tekong . . . actually Nigel also want to send Kenny first before he report to camp but thats a bit rush so the idea was call off . . .

So suddenly 2 of my best folks went ahead with their life . . . am i going to just sit and feel loss about it ? >.< Nah~ i feel sad a bit but cannot stay this way forever ^^ while they are doing something for themselves , i too must do something for myself ...

I've been reading a book titled "Choice Theory" by William Glasser ... went around finding his other books but i can't find it ... maybe i go down to Town tomorrow take a look if i manage to wake up early ... i also found out that NTU is offering a 1 day course i think for "Choice Theory" the course fee is about 500++ this coming November . . . i'm thinking weather i should sign up a not . . . i think my intrest really lies in knowing how people think , feel , mm . . . people's emotion ... i want to fix them ... i want to help ... because i don't want to see bad endings ... of course i can't force my will on them ^^ but i always felt that its good to have someone who can listen to you as and when you need ... in the past its hard to get people to listen to my grumbles , troubles . . . no one seems to know what i'm driving at ... i had to find other channels to fix all these myself ... because of this past experience ... i tell myself i must know as much as possible to help make those around me feel better should they feel sad at times ... i'm not very good at it ... but i'll try ^^

What i'm saying here is " I can offer you advice with what i know , i can't make you feel better because there is only one person in this world who can make you feel better and that is yourself "

Good Night Folks

Perhaps the last . . .

Today is Sunday . . . booking into camp soon . . . but somehow today feels a bit heavier than normal days . . . it feels almost the same as that time . . . like a depth within a heart which can never be filled up . . . tears that would never stop rolling of the cheeks . . .

Perhaps its because i got too much off and booking in now makes me feel a bit depressing . . . but i know my feelings well enough . . . because its not going to be the same when i book out of camp next weekend . . . that gathering could very well be the last for many of us . . . no more Saturday coffee talks . . . no more funny games . . . no more lame jokes . . . no more seeing the smiles on each and everyone's face . . .

Like simone said when she took the photo . . . "We've grown up . . . " We have indeed . . .

What does this normally means ? We have to each move forward but not with everybody . . . maybe once in a while in the far future we would gather once again to see how each and eveyrone of us are doing . . . but between now and then the frequency would be less or close to none . . .

Its painful to lose someone you love but missing friends is no easy task either ^^ Equally heart wrenching . . . equally painful . . . perhaps even lonlier because the only solace we can find when love abandon you would be the one whom you call friend . . .

Don't forget . . . each other . . . folks . . . :)

Wenhao ^^

A night to treasure

I try not to make this an emotional entry >.<

But for those who doesn't know ! Kenny is going to UK~ for 4 years T_T There goes a good friend to many of us and best friend to those special ones . . .

A gathering was held . . . many things to talk about . . . some shed tears quietly within their hearts for who would want to see someone so dear leave ? Though everyone's paths are different , i know many would wish he could stay. Hes a very fun person to be with . . . easy going . . . very "steady" too !

I have to type this in advance beacause i may not make it for your flight . . . T_T i try to go ^^ not to see you off forever but i hope you will make the best of everything when you are there . . . Once a while update us on how you are doing there . . . Who knows some of us may pop by London to visit you ^^

I hope you have a safe journey and come back when you are free . . . i still owe you 3 treats :P . . . Maybe by then i strike lottery already ^^ but really . . .you have to take care of yourself . . . get a blondie back ^^

WooO~~ So kenny is going away for quite a while . . . Nigel is going to army . . . with the rest of the peeps starting on their path . . . the "FRIENDS" seems to be growing apart . . . but i don't think so . . . after so long we all still stay as friends means its for eternity . . . its a bit sad . . . i do feel a bit of ache ~ but this is just the begining for everyone . . . ^^

I got gathering photos :P uploading later and some VIDEOS of us doing some err REALLY EMBARASSING STUFF . . . thinking of uploading it BUT NO . . . SIMONE DON'T YOU DARE DO IT ! ! ! Please don't >.< Got Nigel doing belly dance . . . Me DOING striptease ( WTF OMFG >.< i tell you this is the most MOST embarassed moment in my life but for friendship I DO IT )~ many many MANY more >.< BUT SORRY i cannot show you all . . . REALLY :p

^^ So So ?

^^ I got only these few pictures :P No choice because i'm not allowed to bring my own so i had to get these pictures from the photographer ^^

Pretty good to have a role in this Urban Operation Show ^^ Though the training we had to go through isn't so simple but well i guess everybody who participated in it feels good . . . why ? Because not everyone gets to have this chance ^^

At least the kids and families appreciate our effort and even when its raining during certain times they brave the rain to take pictures with us too ^^ Feel very honoured ^^ At least i'm making use of my life LOL . . .

URBAN OPERATION ! ! ! !

Me and Desmond setting up the ladder to get the guys up to second level ^^
Me : Heavy hor the ladder ! ! ! Desmond have to run with the ladder everytime we rehearse . . . thumbs up for him ^^

The wind direction change T_T all got choke with smoke when running in to storm the building
Sgt Aw coming liao TIME TO MOVE ! ! !
Sgt Allan : Move Move Move ! ! ! Jing Gang Barbie already secured the top level ! ! !



DID YOU ALL COME TO ARMY OPEN HOUSE ? ? ?



SOME DID . .. SOME DIDN'T ! ! ! T_T Nevermind >.<>

Come Come ^^

I think its quite a long time since i write anything long here -_- sorry sorry >.< because i'm busy with many stuff . . . before i write something here are the date for Army Open House 2007

AUG 30th 31st , SEP 1st 2nd 3rd . . . Its located at Pasir Laba Camp . . . Get to Boon Lay Mrt and take a bus from the interchange there and you can reach . . . if you are going in groups i suggest you take cab because if you share the cab fare among the 4 people it will cost about the same as bus fare . . . I'm not very sure what you can see there ! ! ! but i know from my peers you get to have a go at our Virtual Range where msot of us are trained there before we go for live firing . . . Its going to be fun if you've never been there ^^ Freebies will be given out too ^^ I'll be one of the folks who will put up the Urban Ops show there ^^ Only shown ONCE . . . I REPEAT MYSELF . . . ITS ONLY ONCE PER DAY ! ! ! ( If i remember correctly ) SO COME ! ! ! You probably cannot see my face lol . . . i have to camo my face >.<

Got K9 dog show also ! ! ! Kenny's favourite ^^

Of course my weekend burn >.< so that people can enjoy the show BUT its worth it at the end of the day . . . ^^Enuff said :P

How are you all doing ??? I hope you all still doing well . . . Life is like a melody theres always high and low keys ^^ Everything will be fine eventually . . . speak your heart . . . kiss your girl . . . . hug your boyfriend . . . spend some time with your mom and dad . . . life would be happier and more blissful with all this little little warmth ^^ it all adds up ^^

Take things lightly

Woot. . .

I'm one of the 14 guys performing ^^ so be sure to check it out at Pasir Laba Camp if you have the time to spare . . . apparently i'm acting as section commander . . . nothing much actually . . .

Thought i can become balloon man or candy floss man . . . .but the folks in bunk say if i hand those out to kids they would cry -_- WHAT ! ! ! Think they are too tired of living ahah . . .

LOL . . . i'm not really in the mood to write anything actually because i'm brooding over something >.< HOPPING aganist hope . . . that some shit won't befall on me but HAI~ . . . if it has to be . . . it will be . . .

>.<

Come Come

Theres going to be army open house this coming month end . . . i cannot remember the exact date but i know my weekend will get burn because of that . . .

BUT never mind ! . . . Should i be selected to be one of the 14 guys who is going to do the urban warfare simulation . . . its going to be a good thing ^^ Its going to be a Pasir Laba Camp . . .

I heard quite big event so to you folks out there please come support ! ! !

Urban Specialist ?

I think i should join the army or some CID or something . . . though i grumble a lot lol sometimes i do enjoy the army training LOL . . . Today we do urban ops training for Army Open House . . .

You guys want to see me in action LOL ? ? ? COME TO ARMY OPEN HOUSE 2007 WOOTZ . . .

Quite funny for a mortar commander to do unrban warfare lol . . . . but its for open house ^^ to show case how good the army is wahaha . . .

The folks in camp burn my weekend too much . . . till i have to think positively to stay sane LOL . . . tomorrow morning msut go back again for course . . . oh well ^^ just bite 5 minutes off if the future seems so hard to swallow . . .

EHHH . . . . nothing much to say . . . waiting for sister to come back from her hostel life to tell me more wootzz ^^

Hope you guys stay happy ^^

WOOT ! ! !

I almost screw up the live range lol by missing 3 shots >.< luckily i got all the shots in the night ^^ . . .

You know what they call me in camp now . . . . -_- King Kong~ Law Enforcer . . . i'm the one who brings wrath to the men lol . . . but ok la, i'm also very kind to them ! ! !

Isn't it sad , disappointing , fustrated when the one you love hurts you . . . like when they ignored you emotionally . . .

But do you really think they did it on purpose ? ? ? I can tell you this and you better get this into your head now . . . no one who is deeply in love with you would do that ! ! ! Unless they don't love you then i'm not so sure about it . . . . but ! ! ! Most of the time its because the other party don't know what to do or say . . . . or they don't really speak your "langauge"

Let me get this clear . . . we all want to hear the "right" things from the one we love because its only "right" to hear it from them BUT HEY this is not possible all the time especially when your "Honeymoon" period blows over . . .

But i must stress that its not wrong to want all this . . . there is a proper way to go about achieving the happiness and having your partner speaking "your langauge" . . .

Remember one thing . . . they don't want to hurt you so if you're hurt or disappointed by their remarks let them know ! ! ! . . . BUT NEVER NEVER push the blame to them . . . Because at this point , if you were to push the blame to them its going to get even messy . . . let the other party know how you feel when he/she says that and why . . . nobody wants to be blame for doing something they don't know . . . You are not dictating what their responses is but this simple action gives them more knowledge about you . . . isn't that whats lacking when you feel hurt by their remarks ^^ Isn't that what you felt inside " He/she doesn't understand me at all " . . .

There is no perfect partner in this world who matches you right from the start . . . but humans can be perfect for each other if they open their hearts to one another . . . ^^ Don't shut off from speaking your heart . . . choices of words when you express your feelings are important . . . the wrong use of them could make the other partner feel that you are pushing the whole blame to him when seriously, he/she doesn't know what is going on ! ! ! !

ARGH getting late . . . i"ll touch on other topics ^^ what would be a bett topic when i return ? ? ? SUGGESTION . . . i can't share all this info in camp you know . . . because guys in my camp don't really like to talk about all this . . . so i share here ! ! !

Busy Busy ?

Just turn OPS recently . . . back from some outfield exercise only to be attached out to reservist unit for their ATEC . . .

Burned weekends T_T

But i think that makes me treasure my time more back home . . . rest and relax more ^^

I just miss the time i can do anything freely . . . but nevermind ! ! ! Once i returned from Taiwan after my ATEC which is like April ? I can start to plan MY FREEDOM again lol^^ A bit messed up but nevermind ! If life isn't messy then there won't be joy in putting them in place . . .

Anyway i was on the train today . . . first time in a while lol . . . i always take taxi or Cong's car though . . . so i saw this girl . . . caught my eye the moment she walk pass me . . . because i was in uniform . . . and trying to act gungho even though i didn't get enough sleep for the past few days i choose to stand . . . err i was just trying to say shes really sweet looking den ! a few stops later came another girl ~ sat beside her but this girl did a bit of doll up here and there . . . quite fanciful den i thought to myself . . . who will leave the best impression with guys ? I look around again . . . den i saw quite a few girls who doll up . . . seriously they look very similiar to each other, so much for cakey face . . . though the first girl didn't doll up she left a very simple and nice impression with me ^^. . . she had a great smile too ! ! ! Holy . . . if only i wasn't in uniform . . . probably i would try to sit beside her . . .

But honestly i also no guts to sit beside her . . . if only i have got the guts like kenny who got so much balls to aproach girls . . . must salute him for that ^^

But anyway i'm stucked in ABC . . . "A Bachelor Club" probably for life lol but oh well i'll leave it to cupid to do the job . . . but for now Anime , Books , Army and not forgetting JAPAN comes before first ^^

Got girlfriend no girlfriend also like that . . . but to have a partner who enjoys everything with u is always a blessing which you sholdn't hold yourself back from accepting it ^^

I'll touch on relationship when i return on sunday morning after range . . . lets say the topic would be call . . . "Do you speak the langauge of your lover ^^"

Time to run :P ^^

Knocked Up

Catch Knocked Up if you got the time to spare . . . a comance comedy . . . plus stuff about child birth ? Guess thats about it . . .

Was initially pretty tired to go out but i have to book in Sunday to do guard com so might as well make use of my time outside . . .

Sometimes i wish i can just shut the mouth of some people . . . when theres work to be done just finish it . . . i don't really care if they really starts to hate me or what . . . because they got shitty attitude towards work . . . i don't really like the way things are doing in camp . . . seems like an office environment . . . fakes~ . I'm not in the position to judge but i will just vent it out here . . . I want to go back to my trainees days . . . now theres so much unspoken sh*t going on. . . never ending assults .

Whos true ? Whos faking ? . . . Enough said . . .

Mm . . . . Catch the movie ^^ its really funny . . . M18 by the way and their jokes can be offending if you take it too seriously :P

Thoughts Thoughts Thoughts . . . . Endless

I wanted to write something lol but NO TIME T_T

Leaving home for camp . . .

Heres what Nigel came up with last night . . .

"My heart is aching , you are the only painkiller"

Actually i was thinking "HOWCOME you thought of this lol"

Aching ? i guess everyone has their own "painkillers" for heartache . . . but sometimes you just can't get them . . . i want mine too . . .

But let nature take it course ^^