Blue Jazz ...

^^ No big parties no big event ^^

I prefer something light ^^

Not bad though ... blue jazz .... good place to chill ... live band ... can drink all you like ... nope ^^ i didn't got for alcohol but puiyee did get her beer lol ... i had something called ... chimichunga ??? lol can't remember but its nicee!!

Think it has been ages since i last had a decent chat with anyone ... so its rather nice ^^

We talk a lot ... lol ... just like old times ... and she give me that shocking face when i told her its my birthday lol ... too busy to remember ^^ thats what happens when you get too busy with work and studies ... hope she gets what she wanted ^^

I'm not really bothered if no one remember my birthday ...to be honest i can't remember everyone's birthday ... i can only remember some ... ... to be remembered is sufficient for me ... for either the bad or the good ... eventually i would just become a memory to others ... birth date won't matter by then ... its about just being remembered by someone ...

"Oh ! The folks in camp !!! don't come and "TAU POK" me ... i will definately kick you in the face ... plus countless guard duties !!! orders from SGT Aw ~ "

MM . . . . nothing much to say LOL ... Sleep~

I'm not the same anymore ^^

Hey i'm back from outfield ^^ :P after 5 days without shower i'm finally freed from that exercise ... a week of rest has been granted before i depart to another small island for another week without shower T_T ... leaving that aside ... let me share something with you people ^^ ...

I've a guy who is under my charge ... hes those with fragile feelings ... i think because hes too pampered by his parents ... i'm not sure about that ... the incident was that i tasked him to get the rest to take over sentry duties and he came back sulking claiming that the guys shouted at him ... it was like 9 pm in the night ... without light ... and i stink like shit because of all the outfield thing ... naturally i'm rather pissed off with the guys who shouted at him ... he ran off sat at one corner and start to become " emo~ " just like those horror flick movie you see where the ghost kid would sit in one corner of the room ... he did that at the drain ... end up when the whole thing was settled ... minor issue actually ... its not over !!! he then said that he feel useless within the team ... i never tasked him duties ... he made it sound like i'm responsible for his feelings !!! i almost wanted to punish him earlier on for almost getting Matthew into trouble but i let it slide and now !!! I was like OMG LOR ... i never face him directly i just stood there and spoke ... " you hold certain appointments within the ranks and you are given certain jobs , i can't possibly assign you other people job ... i have to follow the code ... allowing you to rest is part of the code " ... he sulk -_- my boss heard it ... and he repeated what i said to him again ... and he said he want to feel important -_- i was damm amazed by him la~ my boss then made him his runner and tell him to get some sleep ... finally case close ...I never tired to pacify this guy who is under me because firstly i want him to understand that i'm not there to make him feel like hes godly or whatever ... hes responsible for that ... and also not everyone in the society is kind enough to even bother about him ... my role is to make sure he goes home safely ... feelings are beyond my control ... of course i never tell him that ... i think if i preach on he might just cry there -_- i can be very nice to him and soothe him but it will be very difficult for me to get work done like this ... thats why i never do it ... i just explain and scold ...


Then the other peeps started to say SGT AW you never give him fatherly love la~

Theres something i want to say here is ... self worth doesn't comes from other people's acknowledgement ... there are times when no one will acknowledge you then what happens ? You fail ? NO ... THATS A BIG NO ... each and everyone of us are responsible for ourselves ... its very unfair to depend on others to make ourself feel better ... do you guys think its a right thing to do ? How we feel are affected largely by how we think about ourselves ... we live only once and theres no reason to think so lowly about ourselves ... each and everyone is special and unique ... everyone is capable of something someone else isn't capable of ... diligence will pay off in due time ... believe in that ^^

mm . . . Might be a bit too late for this but HAPPY BELATED LOVEY LOVEY Valentine Day to all couples ^^ and also the singles ^^

What would i say ?

Thought i could beat the stomach flu by myself ... eventually i still went to see the doctor LOL ... need medication to remove virus ... otherwise the toliet will be my next best friend T_T but oh well ... i'm partly to blame for this so >.< time to move on ...


Just feel like writing this ...
Its like ... many years have pass
But in actual fact its just merely a few years
Yet you know whats the scary part ?
Its as if i've never met you before at all ...
The memories are fading ... the mind treat it as if you where just a dream and when the next sun rises you will disappear ... dreams weren't meant to be permanent ...

I'll probably find it difficult to converse with you directly if we were to meet ...
It seems silly to say all this but thats what i realise ...

The deep wound cause by your absence will never be healed completely
Even with myself knowing it would only bring greater pain with you around
Its not a fault cause by you ... its a pain my heart chooses to relive everytime
But eventually time heals all wound leaving behind a scar as a form of remembrance

You were my dream ...
Sometimes when i sleep at night ...
I wish i could dream a dream again...


^^ Nice~ Something emo lol ~ ~
Happy Chinese New Year Folks~ ^^

Mm . . . .M.. .. .

Sometimes i just can't be bothered with the title for my entries so i just go mmm... mmm ...

I was out with allan shopping for PS3 ... guess what ... the consoles are out of stock !!! -_- allan was so anxious to get his rockband set as well ... but nevermind we try looking somewhere when we are free >.<

Bla~ Bla~

Simone leaving for london ... to meet Kenny ^^ too bad when he return during april i'm not in Singapore .... argh~~ nevermind ^^

Theres plenty of opportunities ^^

Happy Chinese New Year People ^^

Where are you !!!! Don't know why suddenly can start to miss you for no reason ... maybe its starting to feel a bit lonely ... just maybe

>.< Ugu~uu~~

I think it has been quite a while since i fall sick ... judging by the mild fever , nauseating feeling , dizziness symptons .... i believe i've been hit by stomach flu~

Haha i wonder how i get it .... its a viral infection ... >.< ... Either way i just have to rest enough ahaha ^^ if i still get that bitter taste in the mouth i'll probably visit the doctor ^^ ...

Now Sis came back ... i believe i got it from her !!! shes ok orledi~ @!@#@!# now its my turn ...

Must be the food she ask me to finish it up for her .... argh~H~H~H~

Never mind ... it won't kill me ... just hate that weak achy feeling all over my body >.<

I wanted to blog something else but too tired to continue .. i'll sleep for now

Blank ~ ?

Just feel like writing something ... something emotional ... but i've no idea what to write ...

I'm doing the usual stuff ... anime , games , running , skipping , movies , swimming , pushups , cooking , sleeping , hanging out with the folks .... but still if feels like something is lacking in my life ... girlfriend ? don't think so ... that isn't a priority yet ... still need to get myself into better shape before i embark into that >.< ... just can't figure it out ...

Had a dream last night ... a very wonderful dream ... don't laugh please ... i've no idea how it began but the dream began with a lady holding my arm ... shes wearing a green dress and has long wavy hair ... but i didn't see her face ... she just walk besides me and we're on the way to this wedding gown fashion show ... we're like deciding what to get .... then i woke up ...

Hahah i was smiling when i woke up lol ... just a pity i didn't manage to catch a glimpse of her face ... maybe its meant to be that way ... but i feel like 28 years old in that dream ... i wonder ... what would happen when i've turn 28 ... its not a very distant thing ... i'm turning 22 soon ...

I've only one wish ... that i don't have to feel .. .. ... ...

The last stretch ....

Finally .... or should i say .... its going to be over real soon .

We've handed over the ops duty 2 days back ^^ luckily nothing happen, which is a blessing for everyone. For that ops duty ... "No News equates to Good News"

I shall not bore you about the duties we carry out there ...

After handing over the duties our big big boss planned a retreat at loyang chalet for us commanders ... we dread going there seriously because the men gets to enjoy their long weekend and here we have to attend this retreat ... but when we reach there for the 2 days 2 nights activity ... i think it wasn't so bad afterall ...

The fights at the pool .... dragging each and everyone off their beds and throwing them into the pools ... we even have the scouts executor who keeps ripping off underwears ... i've no idea how many pieces of underwear alan ripped off from some of the guys there ... he shows no mercy !!! Johnathan's undies was ripped off when he entered their bunk last few days ... SACRY !!!

Since we're at changi area ... we visited the "bapoks" of the village ... men who undergo sex operations to become women. I must say ... some look very beautiful ... some even sound like a real woman ... one of them chatted up with allan ... and we manage to know abit of their lifestlye ...

Old Changi Hospital .... since majority rented bikes overnight .... we decided to visit that damm place ... we were not properly equipped .... no torchlight .... we only got handphones !!! .... when we reach there we went through the 1st level only to reach a dead end ... the lights from the handphone barely gives us sufficient vision to walk around ... quite a bit of blood stains on the floor ... glasses ... syringes .... we're at the place with 7 storey .... i think its the ward section ... Caleb said that he once went up to 2nd level and was unable to get out ... we didn't not went further in .... theres another group of people with us ... 2 girls 4 guys they went up all the way ... together with "Tall Men" and Johnathan Shen .... While waiting for them .... Allan and Matthew told us they heard grunting noises behind them at the other entrance but when they look around they saw nothing ... I was like !@#@!#@! ~~~ We're not afriad of the dark but the place together with the combination of full moon gives off a very creepy feeling ... We left after the group came back ....they say nothing happen .... maybe you guys want to try going there ... End~

I'm covered with sunburns all over my body .... alright ^^ 1 more month and i'll be gone for the final exercise .... Stage 2 evaluation and a brigade level exercise ...

I'll be getting back my Pink IC soon ^^

Oh My God ~~~~

>.< It has been a while since i last saw any of the guys or the ladies ...

I on duty ... guarding some .... important place ...

Do day shift 12 hours .... night shift also 12 hours ... those dead people roaming around hours .... 10 pm to 10 am !@#!@#!@#!@#

Today i almost puked LOL ... two nights in a row i helped my friend because hes not those who can take night duties well ... waa i slept for only 4 hours during the period of 48 hours !!! When i was standing guard at 6 am i really cannot take it ... luckily i got many sweets with me ...

At some point of time when i can get a rest, i even took a quick nap but .... i cannot lie down ... must sit down and sleep !@#!@#!@!@ its an ORDER !!! To hell with that .... i immediately fell asleep lol ... woke up my left side of the body all became numb .... because the flow of blood was blocked !#@!#!@#

So bored and grouchy during duty ... not enought sleep .... i still got 4 more duties to finish before the main group comes and take over ... i miss my weekends ... i've lost track of time T_T ... So sleepy ...

Body Clock Messed Up~

... 8 pm to 12 noon ... duty ... sleep till 6 ... 8 pm go duty again ...same thing repeats T_T

Now my body clock is so messed up that i couldn't tell if i'm tired or not ...

Just feel so sick~ ... headache ... T_T i try not to nap so much when i come home but its almost 24 hours since i last had a proper rest ... T_T if i sleep now ... i will tune my body to active during silent hours ... >.<

Can't say what i'm doing now but .... its a so call real thing~ even as i am typing now ... people are doing their duty ... ZzzZzzz ZzzzZzzz

Before i forget ... Hao Jie Mei Esther gave me this to try ...

4 cup Japanese rice
4 medium chicken thighs or 2 large chicken breasts
1 onion
2 cups soup stock (dashi)
10 tbsp soy sauce
5 tbsp mirin
5 tbsp sugar
4 eggs

Hope i dun mess this up .... shall try this soon !!!

What would you do ?

Recently i heard the news about "mc king" died ... i saw him few weeks back at mac donald ...

Today Nigel reminded me about it ... then there was this cute baby sitting near us ... suddenly i thought ... life ~ is it so unpredictable ... so much that we won't know whats going to happen the next moment ? It feels frightening when i had that initial thoughts ... but then again i've no power over it so why should i fear it ... if it comes suddenly then i got no choice ... but the depressing part is , am i able to do what i want to do before i leave this world ? Then again , if a date was told to you that on this very day your life will end ... will your actions change ? Will you do anything thats on your mind ? What will you do ?

What will i do ? ... In fact ... i will probably give one final hug to those whom i know ... i will want to see them one last time ... thats for me ^^

If a date is set for you ...

What will you do from now on ...

New Year

New year coming loh !!! 2008 ^^

More money ...
No extras ...
No duty on Chinese New Year and weekends >.< ...
Clear SOC ...
Disruption for studies approved ...
Perfect the skill in making Tamago ...
Start investment ...
Repair my knee ... gone case for this one ... my knee beyond repair i think
MMM ....

WIN THE TOTO ON CNY !!!

Hope money drop from sky then i can get car :P nah~ i'll be trying for bike this year ^^ car ... -_- the maintainance fee is horrible ... can buy but no money to maintain also no point ... bike ftw !!! Mr Png always say bike is like body armor for metal lol ...

Mm... got to run !!!

Experiment ^^

Few weeks back . . . i tried making my own Pasta sauce . . .

Bought the wrong ingredients . . . and i made tomato soup . . . T_T

Should have bought tomato PASTE . . . and not Puree . . . I have not learned how to use tomato puree . . . but it certainly taste tomatoish~ lol~

Most of the time i just buy of those premade sauce in jars and dump them onto the pasta ... seems like making instant noodles . . . so i decided i had enough of those jar stuff. I tried combining cream of mushroom (chicken flavour)2000++mg sodium content with milk and simmer it for 10 minutes ... WOA i get creamy mushroom sauce !!! So if you use one can of that !!! it should be for 2 person servings ... if i did not remember wrongly a human intake of sodium is about 2000++mg sodium too ... must stay healthy ^^

I also bought some chicken breast meat ... didn't have mch time to marinate so i just cook it with olive oil ... i cut them into very thin pieces ... but i left one big chunk on purpose ... i flip it over and over over medium flame and the meat came out very TENDER !!!

TO make my sauce more mushroomy ... i bought more mushroom LOL !!! actually i wanted to use shitake but i just try button mushroom ... those canned mushroom got a funny taste to it ... i've yet to find a way to get rid of it ... next time i will slice it very thin so that it blends with the pasta ^^

While simmering the sauce i dump the chicken slices in ... to get the taste ... haha it turn out very well but i think i should add some water or maybe milk to it because the sauce not enough for the pasta !!!

Basically it taste much much better than the sauce i always bought off the shelf.

^^ I haven't tried putting cheese ... but i think its not required lol ... shall perfect this ^^ then i can cook for mm... if i have a wife next time but for now ! i cook for myself ... Sis don't eat pasta but she alway goes WAA when i dish out the stuff on the table ... she doesn't know that sometimes i don't even dare to eat what i cook LOL ... she likes to make cookies though ... she made a lot yesterday for x`mas gift and i must say shes good with the cookies ... taste like those from subway ... but shes not very good with chocolate chunks ... i alwayws tell her its TOO SWEET then i give her that " being forced look " when i eat ... but you know the brother always eat whatever the sister cook ... i always finish what she make without her knowing , she probably though someone else in the family ate it haha ... afterall she put in the effort so theres no way i should deny it ^^

But i had enough of chocolate lol :P back to my pasta ... next up ! i should try beefball pasta sauce ... i'm going to make the beefball myself !!! :P Maybe next time i take the pictures lol~

Alright MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE ... HAPPY NEW YEAR ^^ HOPE your wishes all come true in the coming new year and ... MANY MANY more good thing to come your way ...

My goal ! MORE anime ! ! ! and ... learn more about being myself ... so that i will be ready for mm... perhaps a relationship ... MAYBE only ~ ^^ Peace~

>.< Merry Merry Christmas ^^

Yay~ Monday off day ... can rest a bit longer . . .

Quite worned out after few events in camp . . . I ran the company event for 2 days straight . . . because i volunteer to cover JJ's duty as he wanted to take leave ^^ ... for the two days i'm basically the boss !!! The bosses were away on course or some important matters so they pratically just tell me what has to be done and i run the show with the rest of the sergents ^^ Its quite fufilling though i hate it at some point of time when instructions were messed up midway . . . but overall its good experience !!! ...

The year is coming to an end soon ... I'm going to turn 22 ~ and finally i can say that ord is near ... think i might cry when i say goodbye to those peeps in camp as i'm going to leave earlier than them for studies ... you may think why the hell am i crying when i often grumble about NS ... its true when people say army is tough and complaints are never enough but theres this bond between men in there ... when you fell down into rivers , drains ... or get into deep troubles ... theres always someone whose wearing the same uniform as you pulling you out of that problem ... outside there who would even lend you a helping hand so easily ... no matter how tired everyone is ... chances are a buddy will come along and pull you with him ... thats our journey ... thats how i feel ...

So~ ... New Year Resolution !!! Hope i won't get any extras ... haha !!! I've still maintained the zero extra record since enlistment and i want it to remain that way !!! ...

Btw~ Ning !!! Please blog ~~~~~~~

Its . . . madness~

Wake up brush teeth . . . change . . . take 1 hour ++ journey to some place for some lecture which i think even primary school kids can understand it within 2 days . . .

Sit there from 8 am to 5.50 pm~ really . . . i doze off . . . not because i don't bother about it . . . but the notes were simply printed out and so simplified . . . yet the presenter just read from the slides again . . . in my point of view its a waste of time . . . precious time which could gain better benefits else where . . . simply wastage of time . . .

Then~ travelling back is hell~ . . . waiting for train with those working people . . . they just squeeze and squeeze . . . like i'm a hamburger -_- sometimes i just stand there and let them go in first . . . either way i don't know what they rushing for ~ . . .

Must do my NS disruption soon . . . letter came from NTU to do medical checkup . . . for a while i realise that i'm going to finish serving my NS in a moment . . . have i learn anything ? I think i did . . . a lot a lot . . . in some ways . . . and i've come to know myself better ^^

Looking at my sis bank account growing bigger and bigger . . . i can't help but tell myself . . . i better catch up with her so Mom and Dad can just start a cookie shop business and enjoy their time ^^

Still~ its nice to enjo every moment now ^^

More pictures ^^

So what are you wishing for yiting ^^
I think we're short of a few people here but never mind , say CHEESE ! ! !
READY ~GO ~~~ I keep losing this game LOL~
Oh and heres mmm . . . . Shuning~>.< ^^

(I know Simone must be smiling when she read this caption~)
Look at our one and only Ck~ . . . . Attached with Jasmine ^^ They make a great couple~

>.< What Should I DOOOOO ? ? ?

Guys and Yiting ^^
Simone And Me~
Ah ning~ and Me with balloons~
Group Photo~ Once more ^^
Waa thats the roses Yiting recieved from Edmund ^^ Nice Right~

Mm . . . . i need to find a place where i can host all my pictures ~~~

where where where . . .

Blogger has a 1GB limit . . . . . . . . . .

-_- . . .

Can't upload the Pictures from Ting's Birthday~ . . .

Heres some for preview

Waaa Long Long ^^

Long Long no write blog . . .

Eh~. . . . Nothing to write . . . ?

Camp Stuff ?

Hahaha Nah~ . . . MM . . . .

Maybe if i get my camera back i will get photos tomorrow den see if i can post them up a ^^

DInner with Ah Ning ^^ ~ wootz~

ELATED . . . IMPRESSED ~ OMG ! ! !

TODAY ! went to East Coast Park to do our 10km combat skill badge run . . .

Timing to meet - 65 mins to complete the whole thing~ . . . .

I finish it with 55 minutes . . . woohoo ! ! ! first ever in my life i ran non stop and its even faster than my previous 6km run which takes me about 40 minutes -_- ..

Since i cleared the 32km Road March , River Crossing , Live Range , almost all the normal normal stuff . . . SO ! I GET MY combat skill badge ! ! ! ! wahaha ^^

Luckily i don't have to do those things again . . . because if you fail you must retake them >.<

Not easy~ especially the road march . . .

Say Say SAY ! ~ Bit of crap happen within the Commanders Corp~ Kinda messy with bad feelings towards each other . . . BUT ALL will be fine ^^ As long as clarity is maintained then we won't take things the wrong way right Zheng Quan ? I know you reading wahahah . . .

I've learn something more about human relationship . . . i revisited some of the books i've finished reading and did some thinking . . . and finally ^^ i absorbed some of the key points that are essential for a happy relationship . . . I really enjoy studying all this ^^ though i don't know if others find it a waste of time to study all this . . .

Ok . . .heres something from me . . .

If you put more effort in building a better present relationship with your love ones don't you think it has a better chance in becoming a better future for the both of you . . .

OLD PICTURES ! ! !

Whats up ! ! !

Busy in camp ? Most big events are ending so ! ! ! Next big thing is next April . . . and then comes ORD LOH ! ! ! I know i'm miles away still but if i keep moving forward ( not that i've got a choice )it will come one day ^^ Just be more patient . . .

U know~ we're all growing up right~ and sometimes we worry about things . . . like not having a good job . . . am i able to support a family . . . would i get a degree . . . would i be able to live a life like now . . . I've talk to many and somehow i feel . . . is it necessary to worry so much about all this ?

Worrying about the future because you want to have a better life is good . . . it will make you want to do better . . . but sometimes humans don't just stop worrying . . . it gets deeper and deeper . . . where does it end ? People start to feel demoralise and afriad that their future is "doomed" . . . affecting their drive at the present . . .

People ! Do you know ~ i also worry about all this . . . but then i choose not to brood over all this so much . . . i can only say that i will do my very best at what i am doing . . . thats all i can do , theres nothing i can do about whats going to happen in the future . . . after all you won't know whats going to happen anyway.

Don't let it affect you . . . my "boss" say my bed going to collapse because i slack around too much . . . he said it after reprimanding us for not assisting each other . . . it was meant to cheer up everyone by using me as a joke but it does hit me . . . sort of saying i'm lazy and not doing anything . . . deep down it kind of hurt because i trained the men to the best i can and i do what i have to do first before i lie on bed and start to read . . . feeling shitty because i took it the wrong way, i decided to go around spreading this to my men lol ! I made a joke out of it and everyone come make more funny shit remarks ~ there ^^ you got another livelier day . . . everyone laughs at it and its another pleasant day . . .

Sometimes when i look at my family members . . . i feel that i'm not as hardworking as them . . . it feels like a let down . . . so i keep telling myself i must do what i can to keep things positive and don't sink into those bad thoughts which can cripple even the most capable person on earth . . .

Everyone is capable of something . . . you may not be good with this but you can be good in another areas . . . don't be sad about it . . . focus on your good points and eventually you will shine ^^ . No one is lousy . . . no one . . .

I have men who can't perform better than others but i make sure he can be at his best when hes executing that task . . . then i would give him that big grin and say " SEE ! ! ! YOU CAN DO IT RIGHT , IF YOU CANNOT THEN I MAKE YOU DO 10 MORE TIMES " They will go " Sgt Sgt . . . i comfirm can ! " I once competed with all of them digging holes in the field . . . because of my mm . . LoanShark built , i'm definately a better digger than them . . . BUT i tell them they can do it if they put their mind to it . . . though they don't achieve the same result as me . . . they achieve the best they could ^^ i still applaud them for taking up my challange . . . for i know its not right to void their effort just because of their end result . . .

Enough said . . . i must go do some other things ^^ btw i made creamy mushroom pasta with HAM . . . wahahahaha ! ! ! ! Excellent la~ ^^Next time i try making lasagne WOOT !

LIFE IS GOOD . . . EVERY MOMENT . . . EVERY BIT OF IT . . . ITS GOOD ! ! !