>.< I lost it~

I almost gave one punch to knock his nose out of place ... but i didn't ...

Alright its my fault for playing a fool when perhaps hes damm pissed off already with the remarks others gave him . . . i guess that was the final limit ...

But don't shake the door so hard man ! ! ! The bosses definately will come ! ! ! True enough they heard the damm commotion and sat outside waiting to see show and waiting to give me extras . . . You snapped and i snapped ... i tried reasoning but it doesn't work so ? Almost bare our fangs at each other ... i had to walk away for i know i would really knock you into hospital if i don't ... i know myself too well ... my rage buttons was all activated ... but i'm damm surprised i held back ... i know i can't work with you ... really ... i felt very restricted and underappreciated when you butt into my work sometimes ... its my job so let me handle it ! ! ! Thanks for your advice but its not your field of expertise ... i know you are trying to be helpful but thanks just stay out of my way ... if i need your aid i would ask ... ok i'm deviating away from the topic ... i want to apologise but the rest urges me don't for it would only worsen the matters because ? you know yourself too ... if reasoning would work for you things won't become like this ... you'er recieving information from the rest of the 9 of us to improve but what most of us feels is that there are no changes from you ... personally you don't have to and you're not obliged to but to work together (perhaps only me ) for the next 10 years or so there is a need to do something to make things more effective for all of us ...

I'm sorry ...

Yeah~ thats what happen last night ... I'm just so disappointed with myself haha ... went back asking people if it was right to become angry ... i've somewhat made myself believe that i don't have a right to be mad a others a long time back whatever the outcome is, they are due to my actions ... ... i can't show i'm angry anymore ... i can't ... it would destroy the peace between people ... would negotiating work ... maybe ... past experiences shows that being angry doesn't work at all and its not beneficial to anyone, sometimes negotiating doesn't work too ... best is keep quiet and let the matter rest ^^ thats a conclusion for me .

Extremely Tired But . . . Just Hang On ^^

Today is . . . a rather not normal day . . .

I had to wake up at 4am to do cook house duty . . . >.< but i shall not go into it .

After handing over the duty to Xian Shen i faster pack up and rush to airport . . . because i not enuff cash in wallet so i take train to airport from Chua Chu Kang . . . took me quite a while to get there but luckily i still made it to give Kenny's my best wishes ^^ . . .

He should be landing in London soon . . . probably when i post this up he should have touched down already . . .

Was a rather teary parting . . . I was the video camera man >.< seeing the whole sending off scene made me tear . . . yes i did cry while taking the footage . . .

He was at the departure gate . . . His Granny hugged him . . . said a few words but before she could finish tears start to roll down . . . I think Kenny's heart ache quite a lot . . . We all gave him a hug before he went in . . . i won't go into detail who feels upset the most . . . actually i shouldn't use that word "upset" . . . its just that someone you're close to is going away . . . naturally you feel a sense of loss . . . he must have given it a lot of thinking before he decided to do this . . . thats why i told him . . . hes a very brave guy . . . i'm not sure if i can do that , maybe not .

Nigel has officially become a recruit today . . . but because we had to send Kenny off we couldn't send him to Tekong . . . actually Nigel also want to send Kenny first before he report to camp but thats a bit rush so the idea was call off . . .

So suddenly 2 of my best folks went ahead with their life . . . am i going to just sit and feel loss about it ? >.< Nah~ i feel sad a bit but cannot stay this way forever ^^ while they are doing something for themselves , i too must do something for myself ...

I've been reading a book titled "Choice Theory" by William Glasser ... went around finding his other books but i can't find it ... maybe i go down to Town tomorrow take a look if i manage to wake up early ... i also found out that NTU is offering a 1 day course i think for "Choice Theory" the course fee is about 500++ this coming November . . . i'm thinking weather i should sign up a not . . . i think my intrest really lies in knowing how people think , feel , mm . . . people's emotion ... i want to fix them ... i want to help ... because i don't want to see bad endings ... of course i can't force my will on them ^^ but i always felt that its good to have someone who can listen to you as and when you need ... in the past its hard to get people to listen to my grumbles , troubles . . . no one seems to know what i'm driving at ... i had to find other channels to fix all these myself ... because of this past experience ... i tell myself i must know as much as possible to help make those around me feel better should they feel sad at times ... i'm not very good at it ... but i'll try ^^

What i'm saying here is " I can offer you advice with what i know , i can't make you feel better because there is only one person in this world who can make you feel better and that is yourself "

Good Night Folks

Perhaps the last . . .

Today is Sunday . . . booking into camp soon . . . but somehow today feels a bit heavier than normal days . . . it feels almost the same as that time . . . like a depth within a heart which can never be filled up . . . tears that would never stop rolling of the cheeks . . .

Perhaps its because i got too much off and booking in now makes me feel a bit depressing . . . but i know my feelings well enough . . . because its not going to be the same when i book out of camp next weekend . . . that gathering could very well be the last for many of us . . . no more Saturday coffee talks . . . no more funny games . . . no more lame jokes . . . no more seeing the smiles on each and everyone's face . . .

Like simone said when she took the photo . . . "We've grown up . . . " We have indeed . . .

What does this normally means ? We have to each move forward but not with everybody . . . maybe once in a while in the far future we would gather once again to see how each and eveyrone of us are doing . . . but between now and then the frequency would be less or close to none . . .

Its painful to lose someone you love but missing friends is no easy task either ^^ Equally heart wrenching . . . equally painful . . . perhaps even lonlier because the only solace we can find when love abandon you would be the one whom you call friend . . .

Don't forget . . . each other . . . folks . . . :)

Wenhao ^^

A night to treasure

I try not to make this an emotional entry >.<

But for those who doesn't know ! Kenny is going to UK~ for 4 years T_T There goes a good friend to many of us and best friend to those special ones . . .

A gathering was held . . . many things to talk about . . . some shed tears quietly within their hearts for who would want to see someone so dear leave ? Though everyone's paths are different , i know many would wish he could stay. Hes a very fun person to be with . . . easy going . . . very "steady" too !

I have to type this in advance beacause i may not make it for your flight . . . T_T i try to go ^^ not to see you off forever but i hope you will make the best of everything when you are there . . . Once a while update us on how you are doing there . . . Who knows some of us may pop by London to visit you ^^

I hope you have a safe journey and come back when you are free . . . i still owe you 3 treats :P . . . Maybe by then i strike lottery already ^^ but really . . .you have to take care of yourself . . . get a blondie back ^^

WooO~~ So kenny is going away for quite a while . . . Nigel is going to army . . . with the rest of the peeps starting on their path . . . the "FRIENDS" seems to be growing apart . . . but i don't think so . . . after so long we all still stay as friends means its for eternity . . . its a bit sad . . . i do feel a bit of ache ~ but this is just the begining for everyone . . . ^^

I got gathering photos :P uploading later and some VIDEOS of us doing some err REALLY EMBARASSING STUFF . . . thinking of uploading it BUT NO . . . SIMONE DON'T YOU DARE DO IT ! ! ! Please don't >.< Got Nigel doing belly dance . . . Me DOING striptease ( WTF OMFG >.< i tell you this is the most MOST embarassed moment in my life but for friendship I DO IT )~ many many MANY more >.< BUT SORRY i cannot show you all . . . REALLY :p

^^ So So ?

^^ I got only these few pictures :P No choice because i'm not allowed to bring my own so i had to get these pictures from the photographer ^^

Pretty good to have a role in this Urban Operation Show ^^ Though the training we had to go through isn't so simple but well i guess everybody who participated in it feels good . . . why ? Because not everyone gets to have this chance ^^

At least the kids and families appreciate our effort and even when its raining during certain times they brave the rain to take pictures with us too ^^ Feel very honoured ^^ At least i'm making use of my life LOL . . .

URBAN OPERATION ! ! ! !

Me and Desmond setting up the ladder to get the guys up to second level ^^
Me : Heavy hor the ladder ! ! ! Desmond have to run with the ladder everytime we rehearse . . . thumbs up for him ^^

The wind direction change T_T all got choke with smoke when running in to storm the building
Sgt Aw coming liao TIME TO MOVE ! ! !
Sgt Allan : Move Move Move ! ! ! Jing Gang Barbie already secured the top level ! ! !



DID YOU ALL COME TO ARMY OPEN HOUSE ? ? ?



SOME DID . .. SOME DIDN'T ! ! ! T_T Nevermind >.<>

Come Come ^^

I think its quite a long time since i write anything long here -_- sorry sorry >.< because i'm busy with many stuff . . . before i write something here are the date for Army Open House 2007

AUG 30th 31st , SEP 1st 2nd 3rd . . . Its located at Pasir Laba Camp . . . Get to Boon Lay Mrt and take a bus from the interchange there and you can reach . . . if you are going in groups i suggest you take cab because if you share the cab fare among the 4 people it will cost about the same as bus fare . . . I'm not very sure what you can see there ! ! ! but i know from my peers you get to have a go at our Virtual Range where msot of us are trained there before we go for live firing . . . Its going to be fun if you've never been there ^^ Freebies will be given out too ^^ I'll be one of the folks who will put up the Urban Ops show there ^^ Only shown ONCE . . . I REPEAT MYSELF . . . ITS ONLY ONCE PER DAY ! ! ! ( If i remember correctly ) SO COME ! ! ! You probably cannot see my face lol . . . i have to camo my face >.<

Got K9 dog show also ! ! ! Kenny's favourite ^^

Of course my weekend burn >.< so that people can enjoy the show BUT its worth it at the end of the day . . . ^^Enuff said :P

How are you all doing ??? I hope you all still doing well . . . Life is like a melody theres always high and low keys ^^ Everything will be fine eventually . . . speak your heart . . . kiss your girl . . . . hug your boyfriend . . . spend some time with your mom and dad . . . life would be happier and more blissful with all this little little warmth ^^ it all adds up ^^

Take things lightly

Woot. . .

I'm one of the 14 guys performing ^^ so be sure to check it out at Pasir Laba Camp if you have the time to spare . . . apparently i'm acting as section commander . . . nothing much actually . . .

Thought i can become balloon man or candy floss man . . . .but the folks in bunk say if i hand those out to kids they would cry -_- WHAT ! ! ! Think they are too tired of living ahah . . .

LOL . . . i'm not really in the mood to write anything actually because i'm brooding over something >.< HOPPING aganist hope . . . that some shit won't befall on me but HAI~ . . . if it has to be . . . it will be . . .

>.<

Come Come

Theres going to be army open house this coming month end . . . i cannot remember the exact date but i know my weekend will get burn because of that . . .

BUT never mind ! . . . Should i be selected to be one of the 14 guys who is going to do the urban warfare simulation . . . its going to be a good thing ^^ Its going to be a Pasir Laba Camp . . .

I heard quite big event so to you folks out there please come support ! ! !

Urban Specialist ?

I think i should join the army or some CID or something . . . though i grumble a lot lol sometimes i do enjoy the army training LOL . . . Today we do urban ops training for Army Open House . . .

You guys want to see me in action LOL ? ? ? COME TO ARMY OPEN HOUSE 2007 WOOTZ . . .

Quite funny for a mortar commander to do unrban warfare lol . . . . but its for open house ^^ to show case how good the army is wahaha . . .

The folks in camp burn my weekend too much . . . till i have to think positively to stay sane LOL . . . tomorrow morning msut go back again for course . . . oh well ^^ just bite 5 minutes off if the future seems so hard to swallow . . .

EHHH . . . . nothing much to say . . . waiting for sister to come back from her hostel life to tell me more wootzz ^^

Hope you guys stay happy ^^

WOOT ! ! !

I almost screw up the live range lol by missing 3 shots >.< luckily i got all the shots in the night ^^ . . .

You know what they call me in camp now . . . . -_- King Kong~ Law Enforcer . . . i'm the one who brings wrath to the men lol . . . but ok la, i'm also very kind to them ! ! !

Isn't it sad , disappointing , fustrated when the one you love hurts you . . . like when they ignored you emotionally . . .

But do you really think they did it on purpose ? ? ? I can tell you this and you better get this into your head now . . . no one who is deeply in love with you would do that ! ! ! Unless they don't love you then i'm not so sure about it . . . . but ! ! ! Most of the time its because the other party don't know what to do or say . . . . or they don't really speak your "langauge"

Let me get this clear . . . we all want to hear the "right" things from the one we love because its only "right" to hear it from them BUT HEY this is not possible all the time especially when your "Honeymoon" period blows over . . .

But i must stress that its not wrong to want all this . . . there is a proper way to go about achieving the happiness and having your partner speaking "your langauge" . . .

Remember one thing . . . they don't want to hurt you so if you're hurt or disappointed by their remarks let them know ! ! ! . . . BUT NEVER NEVER push the blame to them . . . Because at this point , if you were to push the blame to them its going to get even messy . . . let the other party know how you feel when he/she says that and why . . . nobody wants to be blame for doing something they don't know . . . You are not dictating what their responses is but this simple action gives them more knowledge about you . . . isn't that whats lacking when you feel hurt by their remarks ^^ Isn't that what you felt inside " He/she doesn't understand me at all " . . .

There is no perfect partner in this world who matches you right from the start . . . but humans can be perfect for each other if they open their hearts to one another . . . ^^ Don't shut off from speaking your heart . . . choices of words when you express your feelings are important . . . the wrong use of them could make the other partner feel that you are pushing the whole blame to him when seriously, he/she doesn't know what is going on ! ! ! !

ARGH getting late . . . i"ll touch on other topics ^^ what would be a bett topic when i return ? ? ? SUGGESTION . . . i can't share all this info in camp you know . . . because guys in my camp don't really like to talk about all this . . . so i share here ! ! !

Busy Busy ?

Just turn OPS recently . . . back from some outfield exercise only to be attached out to reservist unit for their ATEC . . .

Burned weekends T_T

But i think that makes me treasure my time more back home . . . rest and relax more ^^

I just miss the time i can do anything freely . . . but nevermind ! ! ! Once i returned from Taiwan after my ATEC which is like April ? I can start to plan MY FREEDOM again lol^^ A bit messed up but nevermind ! If life isn't messy then there won't be joy in putting them in place . . .

Anyway i was on the train today . . . first time in a while lol . . . i always take taxi or Cong's car though . . . so i saw this girl . . . caught my eye the moment she walk pass me . . . because i was in uniform . . . and trying to act gungho even though i didn't get enough sleep for the past few days i choose to stand . . . err i was just trying to say shes really sweet looking den ! a few stops later came another girl ~ sat beside her but this girl did a bit of doll up here and there . . . quite fanciful den i thought to myself . . . who will leave the best impression with guys ? I look around again . . . den i saw quite a few girls who doll up . . . seriously they look very similiar to each other, so much for cakey face . . . though the first girl didn't doll up she left a very simple and nice impression with me ^^. . . she had a great smile too ! ! ! Holy . . . if only i wasn't in uniform . . . probably i would try to sit beside her . . .

But honestly i also no guts to sit beside her . . . if only i have got the guts like kenny who got so much balls to aproach girls . . . must salute him for that ^^

But anyway i'm stucked in ABC . . . "A Bachelor Club" probably for life lol but oh well i'll leave it to cupid to do the job . . . but for now Anime , Books , Army and not forgetting JAPAN comes before first ^^

Got girlfriend no girlfriend also like that . . . but to have a partner who enjoys everything with u is always a blessing which you sholdn't hold yourself back from accepting it ^^

I'll touch on relationship when i return on sunday morning after range . . . lets say the topic would be call . . . "Do you speak the langauge of your lover ^^"

Time to run :P ^^

Knocked Up

Catch Knocked Up if you got the time to spare . . . a comance comedy . . . plus stuff about child birth ? Guess thats about it . . .

Was initially pretty tired to go out but i have to book in Sunday to do guard com so might as well make use of my time outside . . .

Sometimes i wish i can just shut the mouth of some people . . . when theres work to be done just finish it . . . i don't really care if they really starts to hate me or what . . . because they got shitty attitude towards work . . . i don't really like the way things are doing in camp . . . seems like an office environment . . . fakes~ . I'm not in the position to judge but i will just vent it out here . . . I want to go back to my trainees days . . . now theres so much unspoken sh*t going on. . . never ending assults .

Whos true ? Whos faking ? . . . Enough said . . .

Mm . . . . Catch the movie ^^ its really funny . . . M18 by the way and their jokes can be offending if you take it too seriously :P

Thoughts Thoughts Thoughts . . . . Endless

I wanted to write something lol but NO TIME T_T

Leaving home for camp . . .

Heres what Nigel came up with last night . . .

"My heart is aching , you are the only painkiller"

Actually i was thinking "HOWCOME you thought of this lol"

Aching ? i guess everyone has their own "painkillers" for heartache . . . but sometimes you just can't get them . . . i want mine too . . .

But let nature take it course ^^

What to write ? ? ?

Bored . . . Now my unit is on standby >.< 3 months . . . cannot leave country . . . must response to their call and get my ass back to camp within a time limit . . . AND be prepared to move out .

Enuff about the army stuff . . . sometimes it gets sooo mentally tiring inside camp that i just don't wish to say a word . . . i just stare blank into the wall or something and think about other stuff . . .

Just want to sleep . . . for months . . . just want to close my eyes and not do anything . . .

There was a case of some stars committing suicide over some relationship stuff i think ? ? ? The guy took his life -_- silly silly . . . i think he just wants to escape from the over whelming pain he has to go through . . . well its like being left alone with no one caring for you . . . but its not really true . . .

I personally feel the kind of love a lover can give can never be replace by any other form of love.

Though everything is classified as "LOVE" but don't you think its different when its given from different people ? And the depth of it depends on individual . . . how strongly one feels and response to it will never be the same for everyone . . . maybe thats why its hard to understand how someone else feels as its always hard to judge people's feelings by just looking at their expression . . . some people are just bad at expressing themselves but you never know they are bleeding deep inside just because you carelessly cast some remarks that meant no harm . . . thats what i conclude after reading and seeing so much things happening around . . .

When someone you love deeply with all your heart leaves you . . . that vaccancy cannot be replace by another other form of love other than the one from a lover . . . Don't you think its true ?

I should get some cranberry juice soon . . . think i'm blabbering rubbish here lol~ . . .

But really its good to be wanted . . . .

Good luck to you dude~ you waited like years~ don't just sit there and sulk . . . opportunity has arrive . . . get your ass off that chair and start turning the clock . . . .time will move for you . . . i think you have frozen your time for way too long . . . .

Don't let go if you don't want to . . .

Bitter Sweet T_T

“We once loved when we were 15. Even though that time seemed to be so faraway now, we used to exist in that time. Then, we were there. We spent our time together. Do you still remember?”

The words you were just about to say
Fell softly onto my fingertips
You don't have to say anything
I'll clasp your hand tightly and warm it up
Because words are words, I can't express half of the feelings in my heart
It's so wrenching and irritating as the sunset engulfs the both of us
My heart aches from all the feelings welling up inside of me
If you were to become a traveler
Would i be able to wait for you as i do now ?
As the seasons change
Even if our memories were to fade
I wouldn't be able to love someone with all of my heart like this
I want to protect the precious you
The two of us are never alone
My heart feels so fragile
And i want you to touch it
It's so wrenching and irritating that i can't go home . I want to keep waking like this
I feel the words from your heart on my finger tips .

Watched it on YouTube . . . very touching . . . Thats the ending songs lyrics . . . ouch~

You folks were "there" once too . . . Why not take some time to recollect your memories ^^

Oh well ^^

Accidently deleted some system file and i had to clean up my D drive ... lost most of the pictures ... songs ...lots of them !But oh well just forget it ^^ No point thinking about whats gone ...

Recently i watched a drama ... Ouch~ romance ... and it just gives you that first love feeling ... its so sweet yet bitter and sad at times ... i'm almost reaching the end ... i wonder what the ending is like ...

Really sweet ^^ makes me think a lot ... makes my heart ache a lot too ... i was like " If only "

I'm still a kid within i guess ... yearning for something :)

Maybe those kind of romance can only occur in shows ... maybe its not even possible ...
Ah Love~ ... its wonderful isn't it ...

Sis will be moving to her hostel soon . . . . guess Mom and Dad would feel that our home becomes a little too quiet in the night i guess . . . . hope they don't feel so lonely . . . well at least they got each other ^^

No more Anime T_T

Liew . . . they clamping on those who downloads Fans Subbed Anime T_T . . .

Quite sad . . . very sad actually . . . Anime is like . . . the best entertainment for me when i'm bored T_T . . . i don't play games now . . . watching anime is my past time . . . because its light hearted . . . funny . . . heart warming . . . most importantly its nicely drawn and they always come with beautifuly played soundtracks . . . those anime on the shelves in stores are release years back in Japan and the rate they release here takes donkey years . . . some series are banned from being released just because they are a bit graphical in some episode . . . if one day in the near future i have the financial capability i will definately stay in Japan for good . . . Dramas don't have them . . . I don't see much JDrama around anymore . . .

I use to watch JDrama a lot . . . until suddenly the drama seems to stop flying in . . . not much variety . . . sigh~

I'm going to miss this hobby so very much ~

Don't feel like getting the PS3 yet . . . but maybe i'll get it soon . . . I hate this . . . maybe i go join J J for canoeing . . . ARGH~

AGAIN ! -_-

Morale very low !!! . . . Weiyang passed TP . . . Zhiyang Pass TP . . . Kenny got his lisence years ago . . . Hengky got it even earlier . . . Ting passed long time ago~ . . . Waaaa~~~~

And i had to fail my 2nd attempt few months back . . . they all kept urging me to take the test again otherwise it would waste all the money i've dumped inside . . . i actually wanted to wait till i orded then continue but . . . seems like a waste of money to keep extending my student course . . . this is really bothering me~ very very much . . . is driving that hard ? It wasn't~ its just those safety aspect which cost me to flunk it . . . WHY~ i'm begining to feel that i'm not suited for driving . . . just don't feel like stepping out to book everything again . . . but i want to accquire it . . . i want that lisence ! then i can move on to other stuff . . .

This is such a big . . . major roadblock in my life . . . just felt i can't move on to my other goals without clearing this . . . i know i can shrug this off and focus on other things at the same time but i'm the kind that wants to accomplish things first before moving on to another . . . partly its also because i don't have much time to come out for test . . . . argh~ so much for being in the most active battalion~ screwed up schedule . . . now everything is in a mess . . . i want my civilian life back T_T . . . anyway i'm dragging myself out to settle the test date again . . . i hate this . . . the feeling is bad . . . BUT~ i must settle this within the 3rd attempt . . . I will~ (Hopefully) T_T . . . Mum keep telling me because i never pray before i go for test thats why i fail lol~ . . .

Oh well ^^ . . . My sister is going to stay at the dorm at NTU this coming august onwards i think . . . her semester is begining soon ^^ My Mom and Dad will be left in the house with me in camp most of the time . . . part of growing up i guess . . . OH WELL i better move my ass to get the test date settle then go for a run . . . then gym~ must stay fit despite all the low morale i get from driving . . . . if not my men will look down on their sergent who gets defeated so easily . . .

Time to go ~ . . . .

I've returned . . . a stronger soul

^^ Hello~ i'm back . . . .

How was it !?!

Let me give brief run through of what i did . . .

Compass Course . . . Guided Navex . . . Checkpoint Manning . . . Exercise Nomad . . . Enemy Role

Of all these . . . Nomad was the worst for me . . . I almost break down during that exercise . . . Our mission was to find 4 check points 1 mid point 1 end point within 3 days . . . The terrain was F**KED up . . . many times i just want to stop walking but i can't . . . my team was lost several times . . . During one night the rain was so bad that i had to stay awake for 6 hours and try to keep myself warm . . . because i never bring my raincoat along with me . . . wet and cold . . . i kept shivering . . . i keep praying that i could last through the night . . . i told myself i need to get the hell out of there . . . i almost break when my team leader had no clue where to go . . . he told me to take the lead then . . . left with no options as hes too tired . . . i took the lead . . . not knowing where i'm heading . . . i just follow with my gut feeling . . . ^^ luckily we found the check point :P

Everything there was upsized . . . cicada as big as my fist . . . green scorpion~ you name it . . . the jungle has it . . .

Even those unseen . . . some men happen to be soo unlucky to see those spirit and they had to be extracted . . .

Most of us heard prayers in the jungle . . . prayers sung by whom ? we got no clue but THERE IS NO WAY WE SHOULD BE HEARING THAT . . . i hear it too . . . and i was quite shocked . . .

There is a saying that none should sleep across a ridge line as its a passage for the departed . . . those who disobeyed will get "disturbed" by those spirits . . . i'm not sure how true this is but none of us dare to try . . . respect the forest or it will eat you alive . . .

I drank quite a bit of river water too . . . haha its pretty cooling but water back here taste better .

I'm glad i'm back . . . really . . . Singapore is a very comfortable place to be in . . . out in Brunei . . . i don't feel so good . . . i only want to return here . . . but this trip has pushed my limits to another level . . .

Time to relax :P

I miss the hugs~

Finished watching another anime . . . .

WAAA . . . male lead and female lead HUG EACH OTHER after being reunited . . . female lead thought that male lead had died . . . 1 month later they reunited . . . .Roar~~I ALSO WANT ! ! !

Hugging . . . what a nice sensation . . . with someone you love . . . someone you want to protect . . . its nice . . . definately . . . . make you feel all snuggly . . . go get a hug from you darlingssss . . .


I'm flying on June 9th 7.30 am flight but i'm checking in like 4.30am ? LOL Rules~ T_T but anyway . . . TAKE CARE ! ! ! Just some weather reports from over there . . . it rains almost everyday from 3pm to 8pm . . . WHAT THE HELL ~ i can't imagine that . . . especially when I NEED TO NAVIGATE . . . Rain = low morale , slower pace , compass may get vapours ( it better don't happen otherwise i'm stuck inside ) , BOOTS GET REALLY SOAKED UP . . . ARGH

Don't rain . . .

I'll be back . . . ^^

Maid ? Nurse ?

LOL ! Saw zhiyang with that cute maid ? ^^

I'm not brave enough to ask for a photo taken with other maids~ lol though i wanted to . . .

Not bad ambience but mm . . . a bit off for the whole feeling . . . i don't really feel the theme of the cafe . . . ^^ but some of the waitress quite cute LOL . . . Even Nigel would agree with me . . . he also another one no balls to take photo with the girls LOL . . . Same for me T_T . . .

If you have a fair bit of cash to spare you can make a trip there . . . i spend about $30~ for pasta and coffee . . . quite alright ^^ . . . but Geylang's beef HorFun would be suffice lol !

Previously i ate with Cong at Edo . . . lol 80 BUCKS~ . . . but ITS GOOD !

I think theres another theme pub . . . Hospital kind~ . . . WOOHOO . . . MUST TRY .

Maybe when i return from Brunei lol . . .

Chijmes ^^

PICTURES ^^

FINALLY . . . . Sort of a mini gathering for everyone . . . special thanks to Ting and Edmund for making this happen . . .

Look ! Theres Weiyang and Hengky ^^

Yiting slim down alot . . . eat more ^^

Woo Hoo

hey hey Hey !

You all doing fine ? Sleeping well ? Eating well ? I hope those who read or HAPPEN to pass by my blog is happy ^^

For no reason i'm so happy recently . . . i talk so much more since last few weeks . . . i become more crappy and cooking up stupid jokes . . . Not that i met a girl . . . just that i found what i used to do . . . talking . . . even those in camp find me a bit noisy lately lol . . .

But nevermind about it ^^ Life is about . . . making decision and many many more but most importantly try to stay happy . . . avoid conflict with people ^^

Love the new section ? "Memories " ? Just dig up some old pictures every now and then to post there into a slide show . . . if i don't change frequently please bear with me because i don't have much time to upload photos that often . . . if you don't like it tell me lohz~ i take your pictures down ahah . . . i don't care anyway :P if i have your pictures MEANS I GOT THE RIGHT :p Haha they are very fond memories . . . think back and smile ^^ aren't you starting to miss it ?

I'm flying on the 9th but the time of flight hasn't been comfirmed . . . its either 2 am or 7 am.

I will return like on June 27 ? LOL

I will return . . . i will share more ^^ so you guys know more . . . Jungle , Camo Cream , MOSQUITO BITE . . . HERE I COME . . .

Fluny attends a BBQ

Woa ! ^^ i just did a one parenting visiting for one of my men lol . . . and it was WOW . . . i felt like his guardian together with my friend . . . we had and obligation to bring him back from brunei safe and sound ^^ why ? Because both the parent put so much trust in me . . . I will guide them out from the forest in 2 days time . . . not 4 but TWO ! Though my navigation skills still suck for the night but in Brunei we only do daytime navex . . .WOOT , anyway i don't plan to feed the insects there by staying for too long . . . at least now my main concern is to make sure they come back in one piece

In the evening i rush to meet my FOLKS some haven see each other for 5 years but all turn out to be well . . . pretty and handsome . . .

Heres some of the stuff they said lol

Simone and Kenny said : "We've known each other for coming 9 years but we are only friends for 2 years " .

Weiyang : "I WANT TO GET A GIRLFRIEND"( Note this )

Puiyee : "Argh Weiyang and Hengky so good looking ! "

Nigel : " OMG ! I'm the only one who hasn't enter army "

Then theres the usual charming and beautiful looking Christina sitting there talking to everyone . . . BUT ! before i get a chance to talk she left lol . . . Kenny was very happy to get a photo shoot with her too . . .

It was good . . . the gathering achieve the purpose i wanted . . . to bring them together . . . though not all are present but it was good enough . . .

Esther seems to disappear into thin air . . . if your're reading this PLEASE ! reply something . . .

Kate have you recieve my mail ?

I'm flying off the week after this ^^ . . .

"If you're lost just try to search around you . . . you're not alone . . . there always people willing to aid you . . . the thing you're searching for won't be lost that easily . . . be strong . . . don't give up girl . . . carry on smiling . . . just don't give up" ^^

Bad day BAD LUCK ?

Just finish 2 day 1 night motar live fring . . . shagged out . . . sunburned all over the face . . .

T_T Mosquito bites everywhere till i can sleep during the night when we are doing live range . . .

Prior to this live firing i have just completed a 32km road march -_- river crossing . . . Live range . . . .ALL THIS in 7 days . . .

So so tired . . . suppose to attend a chalet for commanders but i never go because i just want to relax by myself . . . away from military stuff . . .

After my live firing i went for late supper wth caleb at MacDonald~ i left my handphone on the tray and by the time i went back to take it . . . it was gone . . . Cong came to drive me home . . . and we went to get roti prata . . . when i reach home . . . i go the roti prata BUT the curry was left behind in his car . . . . what a bad day . . . .

THIS IS MY 3RD PHONE during NS time . . . just too careless . . . so tired to really feel angry at myself about it . . . . oh well . . . i need a lot of rest . . . even when i'm doing things i like i can fall asleep . . . even when i'm standing i can fall asleep . . . 2 more weeks and i'm gone . . .

June 10 ^^ Brunei~

I miss you~

Maturity ?

I don't think i really mature enough to ask this question but anyway i just ask lol . . .

Maturity comes with ?

Angel told me . . . Yes, maturity isnt really about an age, its about experience and reflections and lessons....its listening to the voice inside, and following the path u know is right for you.

Nigel told me . . . that's why children sometimes can be more mature than adults.

Matthew told me . . . of course its life experience . . .

Ever give a thought about it ? Well ? ^^


Those in my camps always say i grumble a lot ahah . . thats because i told them i'm like that . . . i say this and i do that . . . i grumble that i hate doing certain things i still do it . . . partly because i got no choice but at the same time i know others are with me . . .

Nigel would say "Nah you're not going to do it . . . you're just saying because you're angry "

Haha . . i'm like that . . . i may be comforting you telling you how bright tomorrow is yet at the same time i can be telling you why the freaking commander take my off days away for some thing that doesn't even pay me well LOL . . .

Please don't BURN my off days T_T

Angel ? You're reading this aren't you ? ^^

MORE PICTURES

VOLA ! SGT wenhao and SGT J J Lee Thats US ! ^^ 120mm mortar platoon though got some missing folks
Commander's punishment for failing the competition lol i actualyl had to drink that ^^

My Officer giving RO ?

Pictures Pictures

ATEC Commanders
I'm the boss for this group ^^
Messing around
What ?

Don't make me do it . . .

Sgt Aw ! ! ! Err Cpl Aw . . . can i go toliet ?

Because our promotion has not been finalise yet so our men call us Corporal~ . . .

Today was pretty bad . . . the guys had to do universal cleaning which means a very through one . . . if the commander can spot dust patches means the men are going to get punished . . .

I was once a recruit . . . trainee . . . being punished for even the slightest mistake . . . i know how it feels to be treated like shit . . . and now i had to treat them like shit . . .

I was to inspect their bunks today before they book out . . . the seniors wanted us to show them who is in command and this is the best time to . . .

I wanted to take my men as my friends but . . . i think the line is drawn . . . either they respect me or don't and i doubt close friendship will blossom because only commander and men exist from now on . . .

It wasn't what i want . . . i raise my voice at them . . . i flung their dustbin and they look at me . . . i look at them . . . somehow i felt they are trying to tell me . . . Corporal Aw . . . why you treat us like dirt now . . . when Hong Tak look at me . . . i just couldn't tell him . . . this isn't my way of making things work . . . i just had to do my job . . . because i train with them for the last course so they know i'm one of the easiest spec to approach . . . i'm easy going . . . minor issues i don't care because we are all humans . . . we make mistakes and there shouldn't be a reason to make things so big . . . after the bunk shit . . . i told Hong Tak the way to clean certain areas so they don't get repirmanded by other specs . . . i know how they feel . . . because i've been through worse treatment . . . oh well i guess its going to be a bit bumpy ahah ^^

MOVE IT NOW OR NEVER

Wahaha . . . i think my blog no more readers liao . . . about time to close this down . . . TAG BOARD SO EMPTY . . .

Got Mr Lim's photo also so quiet . . . maybe i should put Kenny's new outlook . . . or perhaps i can get J J's topless photo here . . . I don't mean the star JJ . . . i mean my friend J J . . .

I've taken my men finally for course ^^ lol . . . damm funny when i tell this guy . . . YOU WALK SOMEMORE ! ! ! I TAKE YOUR RIFLE MUZZLE AWAY . . . lol immediately he quicken his pace and get the job done properly . . . just a scare tactic i use haha pretty harmless yet they know my intention ^^ unlike some others who would blast at them for no reason and make those men grow to fear and disrepect them . . .

They are qutie afriad when i go looking for them . . . LOL normally not very good things will happen when your commander comes looking for you . . . haha

Fun ^^ its going to be TOUGH and FUN . . .

Ok . . . maybe i should not be writing anymore ahah ^^ i'll see about it :P Now they rushing me to come out ^^ cya peeps

Geylang Trip Part 2

Nigel : SEE WHAT SEE ! ! !

Allan : DO YOU WANT SOME ! ! !
Nigel : LET ME OPEN THE DURIAN ! ! ! THIS IS MOI VIRGIN DURIAN :p
Nigel : Haha see so easy~
Nigel : Another secret compartment ?

WAA ! ! ! Big Gold~

Geylang Trip~ Part 1

THE BEEF HOR FUN ! ! ! WOOT ! ! ! SPICY ! ! !
We ordered a some other Dim Sum to go along with the Hor Fun~
Quite warm man~
SEA OF DURIANS
Zhiyang open the first durian for us while the rest look in awe~ . . . fleshy~ the fruit very sweet

Do you dare to dream big ?

Oh boy~ today no water from 9 am to 6 pm . . . forgot about it . . . turn tap on to brush teeth . . . NO WATER . . . luckily my sis filled up a few buckets of water for today uses . . . phew~

See the title ! Do you dare to dream big > AND make it happen ? I think i'm born for some reasons . . . but there is something i want to do . . . i want to do something big . . . something so influential that for the coming billions of generation , people will remember who is WENHAO . . .

But what big thing ? I just don't want to forgotten after i report to God . . . after all we are here for a reason . . . ^^

Maybe i start a company lending money to people ^^ then i PERSONALLY be the collector as well . . . i look like loanshark !@#!@#!@# Even Mr " Zhu Ying " say i look like those Encik~ I hope you become Zhu Ying also Mr Teo @#!@#!@

So what do you dream ? Or you just want to carry on living without dreams ?

I think when we are small we dream more . . . but as we grow we stop dreaming . . . it might be because of society ? It doesn't cost much to dream . . . i dream . . . i deam of setting up a Theme Cafe . . . that changes theme every few months ^^

So whats your dream for this lifetime ?

YOU KNOW WHAT ! I SAW AN ANGEL TODAY ! ! !

PLEASE WATCH 200 POUND BEAUTY . . .

Got boyfriend bring boyfriend . . . got girlfriend bring girlfriend . . . if you're not attached like me BRING lots of friends . . . go buy the tickets now . . .

Must watch ! ! ! " 200 pound beauty " a very nice movie ^^

Even Nigel agree . . . go catch it ! ! !

Suppose to watch The Hills Have Eyes 2 but Nigel underage lol ! so i ask him watch this instead . . .

I thought pretty was enough to describe . . . but shes very cute ! ! !

Some touching scene . . .

Get going ! ! ! DON'T WAIT ! ! !

We've grown ^^

CK's going to be enlisted . . . Ken had already ORDED sometime back . . . some still mugging with exams . . . N playing around . . . Allan enlisting soon . . . Guan going to ORD soon . .

ME ? still a bit more to go . . . i slpet a lot these few days , about 16 hours per day ? Haha currently on leave for 2 days ^^

I'm going to spend the next 10 years with those buddies of mine now . . . lol~ HEY i did not sign on -_- NO WAY . . . just that i'm inside a battalion so i will be seeing my men during reservist for the next 10 years to come . . .

HOPE can clear leave like 5 days . . . The battalion's schedule is really stopping me from going to Japan this Sep !@#!@#! Even Matthew wants to come along . . .

Brunei soon ^^ want any gifts ? lol maybe i get some back huh~ lol . . . what could i possibly get from there ? Oil ? Maybe i get some barrels for Ken~ . . . get him to refine it into petrol for his car :P

1 short entry before i book in

Woo . . . i'll take a picture of the golden bayonet and post it up as requested by kenny but not now . . . when i return home on friday perhaps ^^

Saw weiyang online so i got some of his photos !

Here is the picture of Weiyang and Fann ! Weiyang is the guy in white long sleeve . . .

the other two guys his collegue . . . and thats Fann ^^

>.< >.<

Must prepare speech ~~ . . .

Hai troublesome . . .

What to write for "Thank You" speech ? ? ? . . .

Sounds fake when you're not really into it . . .

I just finish my live firing over Good Friday . . . so hows the expereience ? . . . i'm damm afriad to operate the mortar . . . not that its hard to deploy but i'm very afriad that one day when we are doing live firing the round just goes off without exiting the barrel . . . then i'll be shredded into pieces . . . HE killing zone 25m radius . . . i haven't even include the fragmentation zone yet ahah . . . probably the body parts will alll go "missing" if one were to explode right in my face . . . I was "given" the chance to stabilise the baseplate by standing on it and holding the barrel in place while my friend pulls the trigger pull . . . POOM ! a sound so loud that could make you go near deaf if you got no ear plugs on . . . i was looking beneath at my feet . . . and praying hard that the 5 rounds which we are firingthat time will go off smoothly . . . phew . . . and finally someone else has to take my place . . .

For the whole day live firing mission i was the commander for my detachement . . . running up and down guiding vehicle into deployment . . . ensuring my other friends play their roles properly . . . checking the mortar sight alignment so the round won't end up at places where it shouldn't be . . . worst thing of the day . . . it rained . . . and the whole place got so muddy . . . every round we fired mud fly up and smack right into my face . . . one of my friend got mud smack right into his eye and had to see medic to clean it off . . . crappy shi*t . . . and the mosquitosssss there is DARN TERRIBLE . . . i think if i stay still for one minute 10 would fly to my hand and start biting me . . . 20 over would fly to my thighs to bite me . . . my neck . . . basically everyparts of my body is covered with mosquito . . . i have never been to places where the mosquito comes in such great numbers . . . the bites they cause doesn't even heal . . . still swelling a bit . . . T_T . . .

I'm reporting to my new unit soon . . . going to Brunei in a 2 mths time i think . . . maybe less . . . hope i don't miss home and you folks too much . . . i can get pretty homesick sometimes then i will go into those "dying mode" where i go no motivation for everything . . . just want to sleep . . .

I may sound like its fun but . . . its only fun because its over . . . when i'm going through it . . . its hell . . .

Tada . . . ^^

PIctures . . .

Tada ! ! ! Kenny's b`day so here are a few pictures . . . i'll upload more . . . alright ^^ just came back from live firing ^^

Cannot be instructor . . . Awarded "Golden Bayonet" as best trainee so i must go to serve in a battalion T_T . . . as a detachment commander . . . the camp site is located very far and T_T more tough trainings . . .

Anyway have a good week ahead ^^ wait for the pictures :P

BIG SPIDER ! ! !

I was digging up some photos to show you guys but a lot of them are restricted ones T_T but i manage to find a picture on the kind of spider you would face out in field ^^ . . . . -_- imagine everytime u walk something this big will jump onto your face !#!@#!@#! be it daytime or night time . . . it happens quite frequently lol . . .

More pictures coming up when i came back from my live firing exercise . . . still waiting for kenny to send me the pictures ^^ so hang in there . . .

Hao ^^

Just came back from camp >.< pretty late . . . 11pm . . . now 1 am~

One folk in my bunk just "shotgunned" and hes so lucky to get guard duty this tomorrow but he must accompany his girl for checkup for final confirmation . . . more or less he hit the jackpot man . . . i thought i could be his kid's godfather ^^ but apparently the girl decided to well you know . . . "abo*t*on" . . .

I wonder what will happen to both of them later on . . . did what i could by talking to Mr "shotgunner" hope he resolve all his problem and make sure he reflect on his darn major mistake . . . now there will be one more baby up in God's cradle . . .

Don't ask me why it happen because its damm obvious he didn't use cap . . .

Like i always tell the guys in bunk for training . . . you're asking for trouble when you know whats right and still not do it . . . the same applies for him . . .

So much for that issue . . .

Man ! i clamped my palm accidently today while handling the mortar . . . crapped . . bleed a bit and my palm a bit bruised . . . T_T BUT nvm . . it doesn't kill me lol >.> just a bit painful .

I think i got chance of becoming instructor lol >.< NEXT week course end then i will be posted again ^^

Momentum

Ayumi Hamasaki - Momentum

The days when I loved you were the last miracle to me
The season when everyone longs to be around people
Has come again this year
With warmth and coldness

I remember the day
When we were too young with no knowledge about the world and walking
Laughing together and hanging on each other

What excuse should I make
For this wave of pain?
Even in the night I'm freezing alone in white snow
My love for you is my last courage
I wonder if I'm so stupid
Just waiting for the time passage
Believing that I'll surely be forgiven some day

I hold the rush of feelings
So that it may not spill down
Until the day our hands reach white snow
My love for you is my last courage

Even in the night I'm freezing alone in white snow
Until the day our hands reach white snow
My love for you is the last forever to me
That I could meet you was the first miracle to me

Nice song isn't it ^^

Sick . . . terrible . . .

Argh . . . my whole body aching . . .

Ahah . . . i'm down with cold and fever . . . some dry cough . . . one of the peeps in camp pass it to me . . .

Even when i'm sick i still have to participate in the lesson . . . which includes pushing the 405.5kg weapon for like 3-4km with 5 other guys . . . . . . yes we manhandle the weapon . . .

Now my knees got worned out due to those running . . . my joints are failing because of all those loads i'm carrying . . . i think when i grow old i will be in a very painful state . . .

i think i will get back to sleep . . . ZzzzzzzzZZzzz

WAA when you turn 21 . . .

Stressful isn't it ? 21 . . . more responsibility . . . more junks in your mailbox . . . more items to pay for . . . life isn't going to go easy on you . . .

In army . . . theres this thing called "toliet project" where they put up meaningful sentences behind every cubicle door . . . so i happen to go to this cubicle everytime and the sentence behind the door reads " Your attitude towards life determine life's attitude towards you " make sense doesn't it ?

If you take things negatively . . . things will always without fail look gloomy to you but if you take it the positive way . . . no matter where you walk you won't feel despair over things that may not happen in the way you want . . . SO always always take it positive . . . i was like feeling very negative about my posting but after a few days of trying to snapped out of this shit , i managed to done it . . . i gave myself reasons to take it postively . . . theres always two side to a matter . . . "one good , one bad" which one you choose to carry with you determine how you feel later on . . .

Heres some conversation in bunks ^^ By the way theres only 6 guys including myself in this bunk. One of the sergent sleep in the same bunk as us BUT hes 1 year younger than us . . . quite handsome . . . all the abs and nice body contour BUT hes damm worried about being single . . . his name is Germane by the way

Me : Don't have to worry about not being able to find a mate . . .
Germane : Hai . . .
Me : So what you look for in a girl ?
Germane : Mmm . . . At least must look like a model . . .

After some chats . . . found out he go for looks in a lady . . . then i tell him . . .

Me : ! ! ! A nice girl will be the one who will really stick by you . . . why put looks as priority . . .
The rest of the guys in the bunk all say : Germane you still young la . . . go out and have fun

ZhengQuan : We intro you to those "KTV" got the kind you looking for . . .

Germane : I want to keep my first time for my girlfriend . . .

Hahah hes still quite conservative but well maybe because hes from JC and previously from an all boys school environment . . . so he only had 2 years to interact with girls during JC . . . maybe one day he would find the real girl hes looking for . . . apparently he found this hot babe during clubbing last week i think and he went up and ask for the number . . . this hot babe gave him his number and agreed to hang out with him . . . i wonder how his date turn out yesterday ahah ^^ maybe all will turn well for him . . .

Sometimes its all really about fate isn't it . . . but its just only a saying i guess . . . after all , our actions determine the outcome in whichever path we undertake during our life . . . so make your decision wisely ^^ . . . if in doubt ASK ! It never hurts to gather some suggestion when you want to do something . . .

Tired tired . . . headache . . .

Just came home not long ago from Guard Duty . . . time to relax ^^ should be catching on some sleep since i did not slept well last night because of those "turn up" being chase by dogs while walking to duty point ect ect ect . . . . . .

I just found out recently one of my friend actually spent 1 whole month in Japan for holiday~ . . . so i try to seek more information from him . . .

Me : WAA "J J" not ex meh you stay so long ?
J J : Alright only la . . . you don't have to stay in hotel mah . . . you can get SGD30 /Day lodging there
J J : One more thing to note, the air fare also quite cheap . . . try to go for transit flight or ANA .
Me: Oh . . . .then how you communicate there ?
J J : Apparently every train station in Japan has those tourist phamplet printed in English and also a information counter for tourist . Its easy to get around actually . . .

J J : AND ~~~ THE FOOD THERE IS GOOD . . . you don't get to eat "lousy" food there . . . no matter where you go the food is good unlike here for example you eat prata at this place , you find the food bad and some other place which taste better .

Me : WAHAHAHA serious !
Zhen Quan and Matthew overheard out conversation then they both join in . . . . WAHAHAHA

Matthew is another guy who travel quite frequently lol . . . so !!!!! AFTER we go "unit" we decided to go Japan for a while . . . wahaha travel mates . . . at least i won't get lost there . . .

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Yiting came over with Edmund . . .she drove to my house and hand me my b`day pressy~ waa thank you so much ^^ its was great seeing you again ^^ . . .

Haven seen some folks lately . . . was suppose to have lunch at vivo with Aishah and Shanyu . . . at err Fig and Olive ? ? ? Hope i get it right ahah but was canceled due to some unforseen circumstances but nevermind ^^ theres always a time for it . . . wedding preperation comes first :P

OK ENOUGH SAID . . . i didn't write much about what i do in camp because its just the same old thing again ahaha . . . i'll write more about other stuff i've question my friends ^^ ubt thats for next entry ahaha ...ZzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZzzzzzzzzzz

Back for a short while gone again . . .

Err . . .

Past few days was damm horrible . . .

Low morale . . . got into this ultra depressive state . . . because the new place is . . . .

Really not much to do . . . lectures lectures lectures . . . . and we have like 4 -5 hours free time in the night ! ! ! Nothing to do seriously . . . Talk ? Sleep ? Eat ? PsP ? Just damm bored . . .

More or less i will be sent to 5 Sir . . . fate sealed . . . no more arguments ^^

I'll just face it ahah . . . after all . . . i have no choice . . .

Sometimes its good that i've been through all this . . . really does change me into a new person . .

No arguments . . . i just listen and execute . . . straightforward huh ^^ i've got a great deal of patience now . . . haha . . . i'm trained to wait for hours sometime . . . then told we don't have to wait anymore . . . i would just give a big "SIGH" "there goes the few hours of my life" and get on with what i have to do next . . .

I've this strong urge to fly to japan now . . . . . . probably after ORD . . . the sakura season is coming ! ! ! APRIL ! ! ! maybe fi you guys are free and have the cash to spare . . . you should go there ^^ i'm definately going man . . . . wait till my hair grow long enough T_T hahaa . . .

Oh well ^^ . . . going back to camp again ahah . . . just 4 hours out of camp for a breather ^^

Seriously hope i'll snapped out of this shitty feeling . . . argh~~

"I think i know why i miss you . . . and its just going to stay this way forever ^^ nevermind even if our path doesn't cross anymore . . . it will just be a warm feeling thats going to keep me going"

? ? ?

Probably i will lead 4 men under my me . . . for the rest of my NS life . . .

I'm classified as combat-support unit . . . mortar detachment . . .

I'm the one who will shoot at enemies without looking at them . . . and the enemies will have to run from me . . . for i rain hell on them . . .

T_T but man~ its cool to be under artillery trained . . . but i will be posted . . . i think not as an instructor but as a sergent to a active combat unit at bukit panjang . . . actually i wasn't so worried about the distance and the men there . . i'm more concern weather i have time to come out and take my driving test . . . i'll have to make a trip to brunei from what i heard from on of the higher ups in that combat unit during june for 2 weeks ? i've been holding the test back for quite a while . . . hope i get the lisence the next test lol . . .

Ah mann~~~~ just hope i get to stay back as instructor

Enough grumbling . . .

T_T

Sigh Sigh Sigh

Nights off . . . so i came home to rest for a while . . .

Got posted to Arty Institution . . . but i'm trained as a mortar spec . . .

Bad news . . . after this 6 weeks of training will be posted to 5 SIR i think . . .

I DUNAWN ! ! ! Its damm far lohz . . . at Bukit Panjang . . . HAI ! ! ! I DUNWAN TO SPEND THE REST OF MY NS LIFE THERE . . . .

Still got hope . . . out of the 13 CPLs 4 will be chosen as Instructor . . .

I got like 30% chance to get it . . . base on your knowledge and of course your attitude . . .

I hope i can become instructor here . . . its like so far to travel to bukit panjang everytime you book out . . . Khatib is so much nearer to my house . . .

Sigh . . . Quite low morale . . . depress . . . arghhhh damm sad . . . . i wonder if i can shake out of this feeling . . . hai . . . can only hope . . . but i'll do what i can to bring up my chances . . . to stay as instructor . . .

I'M CPL AW W H

^^ Passed ! ! ! I've cleared the 28km road march which starts from Thursday 10pm till Friday 5 am plus about 1 hour graduation in Full Battle Order attire immediately after the march . . .

The march was long and tiring . . . i almost want to opt out after 20km . . . because of the terrain we were marching on . . . slopes !!!!!!!!!!!! quite a few opt out of the march during the 24th km . . . . while the rest push on for their final achievement in BSLC . . . i'm glad i did it . . . and only God knows how i did it . . .

I basically don't feel like talking throughout the march . . . my foot is covered with blisters even though i wore two socks . . . coupled with gortex boots . . . my waist was bruised because the load was resting on my waist most of the time . . . during rest points when some of my friends took off their boots we could see smoke . . . yes smoke from their boots LOL . . . even we are emmitting smoke from our body . . . we were very warm and our shirts are soaked wet with our own perspiration . . . one of my bunk mates even got his own boot lace YES BOOT LACES wet with his own perspiration . . . its not easy . . . i haven't caught a good sleep since then till now which is like 9 pm ?

Whats the highlight of the march ? I was the front scout throughtout the march with my GUARDS sergent . . . lol basically we can call this 28km march a "Fast March" there is a big difference between a normal march and a fast one . . . fast march is as if you are running but because of the load you carry you cannot really run but walk very briskly . . .

During the march we pass by NTU hostel . . . a group of very beautiful ladies boarded a cab and went pass us . . . they wave at my platoon mates lol ^^ it did give them some moral boosting . . . some even say jokingly that if they wave again . . . he would dash into the cab ahah ^^

Road marches is a task that requires you to overcome all physical pains and focus on your mental endurance . . . the moment i stop walking all the pain will set it . . . the moment i step on a rocky surface my blister will hurt like hell . . .

I'll continue later . . .

I caught a cold . . . a real bad one . . . now i'm going to see a doctor ^^

Blink ^^

Just went to watch the Jack Neo's movie . . . i think its alright if you're looking for some laugh ^^

Turning 21 ! ! ! This Thursday . . . i'll be doing my final 28KM road march in SISPEC . . . the guys will probably come " take care " of me . . .

Will i celebrate ? Probably not . . . i mean well , what do you mean by birthday celebration . . . get a cake ? people ? buffet ? put them together and you make a wish . . . thats birthday ? i don't see the meaning behind it actually . . . birthday is like a day where it marks a brand new year on earth . . . maybe not . . . ahah i'm not sure . . . i don't have that "Happy Birthday Mood " . . .

I just live day to day . . . and the DAYS are passing by much faster than i thought T_T i'm aging man~ maybe next time when i'm attached or married or what so ever status . . . celebrating birthday wouldn't be such a bad idea . . . and of course not during NS time . . .

Maybe i'll just make a wish this time . . . maybe no cakes in front of me . . . i'll probably have whole meal bread and a hard boil egg as my "cakes" thats what you have for breakfast in camp sometimes . . . noodles might be good ^^ haha

Wish ? Simple . . . i'll keep wishing every year for the same thing till it occur . . .

It isn't really a birthday wish . . . its actually my wish for what i want in this lifetime . . . so it comes in a package of " Setting up own family , Carssssss , house big enough for everybody , happy old age retirement with many grand children , not having to worry about day to day living "

^^ Its that simple isn't it . . . the house and car is definately not a problem . . . :P the family part is ahah . . . if cupid doesn't knock on my door i guess i can become a monk lol . . . like how esther always say~ . . . "Be a monk wenhao , good for you" !@#!@#!@

Guess i have to agree with my Instructor . . . " wenhao , what you lack is confidence in yourself "

^^ But well :P Maybe there isn't any drive in me anymore . . . ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZzzzzZzzzzzzzz

I'm tired . . . time to sleep

Hahah i gave away 140 bucks this year ^^

Woo hoo my sister playing for me ^^
My Lovely Grandmother ^^
This Is A Lively Chinese New Year ^^

Just came home after "giving" away $140 bucks lol but well i don't feel the pinch . . . maybe i'm happy with the atmostphere :P

My lucky star today was my sister ahaha she helped me won $70 ++ BUT after she left for home i started to "give" money back . . . Cousin Cong keep asking me to raise the stake lol BUT WTF it backfired 3 times and my winnings are gone . . . i had to "refill" from my own wallet . . . i'll return the next year ahah

At one point during the day i suddenly thought of " you ALL know who " . . . quite miss the time where i get Cousin to fetch her to my family side . . . she would smile and greet everybody . . . of course shes my lucky star ^^ she would sit there quietly watch me play then i would ask her to give the cards a gentle touch ^^ then TADA . . . money starts rolling in :P those where the days.

Well . . . take care of yourself . . . hope you have a good piggy year with your beau . . .

Hope the posting i get this coming friday is good >.<>.<

Happy Chinese New Year Folks . . . hope you guys win big big

Back and Glad ^^

I'm back for the holiday ^^ HOO YA ! ! !

Heres a short review on the assessment exercise . . .

Wanderer : Day check point found 3/4 Night Check point 0/2 with Full Battle Order

Basically we screwed up the night one because the check point CANNOT BE FOUND even when we scout the area for 2 hours . . . it wasn't so bad for the day as we found 3 out of 4 check points ^^
Grand Slam : GOOD . . .

Wait till i get the picture to show you folks ^^i was my section harbouring commander and had to set up my side of the base . . . it took us a while to get things up and after setting up my job was done, then its time for mission. I was the enemy most of the time while my section mates assault me . . . because my assessment was done long ago so during this exercise others were given a chance to lead the section and the sergents will see what they are capable of ^^ but because every mission only 7 men will leave the harbouring base the rest will stay and help in manning the base. When they return from mission a fresh new 7 men will be picked for the new mission , but the only one who will be assess on will be the section commander so i was sent out as one of the men under a section commander as the rest was very tired from the previous mission. After one mission under the lead of my section mate . . . i was shagged out lol then people will scold you " SHAGGED CANNOT THINK PROPERLY AH ? "When i wear helmet half my common sense is gone and i basically become a walking zombie who . . . :P but it was fun . . . it is tough but we learn how to enjoy all this tough moments.

So the field assessment pass very fast and i was extracted after the night ambush mission to prepare for the OfficerCadet School interview the next day. Quite shocked that i was selected out of the rest for this interview . . . i'm happy yet i was afriad because its not easy to pass the interview . I sat for the interview already . . . vetted by some high ranking officers and warrant officers . . . i was a bit nervous . . . i'm not sure if they are impressed with me but well ^^ if i'm able to get in i'll have to be prepared to suffer more T_T heard from Dickson that Jungle Confidence Course is back for the cadets so if i'm so lucky as to enter the Officer's Corps i will have to go through that course . . . but i hope i don't go in ^^ scared . . . scared i can't survive ahah . . .

After OCS interview, i was short listed for 7 SIB Sniper selection but when i went there and listen to the talk i withdraw myself out ^^ because ^^ the 7 SIB is under GUARDS so after the Sniper Course i would have to undergo GUARDS conversion course T_T because i'm a bit tired of out field training so i decided that i'm not intrested so i withdraw ^^

Finally i'm going to graduate as Coporal after next week ^^ . . .10 weeks is over le ^^

I'm very happy to go through SISPEC . . . its tough but it really makes u stronger . Everyone will tell you its tough but when you look at all the hardship you went through its sweet in the end. I enjoy those moments where we leave camp very early and come back the next day morning . . . its tiring and tough but when everything ends , we would sit down and clean arms then when you turn and look around you , you see your friends shagged out face with messed up camo cream laughing at you . This moment . . . this memory . . . money can't buy them , although i injured myself a few times i never regretted coming in . . . yes i do complain about the comfort level here but deep down i know i achieve somethings some people might not achieve.

Hey Nigel ! ! ! Go for SISPEC . . . you won't regret it . . .

So bascially i'm doing well ^^ but a lot of aches here and there ahah ^^

Back and going soon . . .

~>.<~ extremely tired . . . just finish my section live firing at 3 am and i just book out at 7 am . . . but i have to report back to camp at 8 pm . . . not much free time today . . .

Basically my saturday was burned for that T_T but well 1 more week to go and i'll have a short break . . .

Finally ! ! ! Heres a quick review of what i did for the week . . .
Standard Obstacles Course ^^ i cleared : 9 mins 09 seconds
I feel very happy about that because ! ! ! ! i always stuck at the low rope and i can't climb up the rope with one try SO my timing for the course always hit 11 mins which is a fail ~ . . .

By the way for Basic Section Leadership course the passing timing is 10 mins 30 seconds and for Advance Section Leadership course the passing timing is 9 mins 30 seconds .

All the physicall fitness tests are over and i'm clear from them while those who haven't clear those have to keep taking the test till they pass . . .

Lastly i will be gone for a whole week . . . YES ITS exercise " Grand SLAM " out field . . . sleeping in the field . . . . and the exercise is coupled with " Wanderer " where a few people in a small team find check points all over the place . . . its a FINAL navigation test where you wander around and get lost >.< . . . So what awaits after all this is a short break ^^ because of Chinese New Year . . . YAY

I'll give a final review soon about my 3 months of training . . . after which i will be posted out ( Hopefully ) and more new stuff to come ^^

Ouch~

^^ Home sweet home after field training >.<

This time i did not roll onto the road ! ! ! but ! ! ! . . . . this is how the story begin

I was tasked as the sub machine gunner . . . the weapon is damm heavy plus the other stuff i carry with me . . . me together with 6 of my other section mates form a detail as fighting patrol at certain place . . . remember all this are mock battles . . . no one is injured in this exercise except me LOL . . . cause i blur blur when i wear helmet . . .

So we have to engage enemy when we see them . . . then as we approach to an enemy site . . . the first 3 person walking in front of me did not see a hole in front but ! ! ! they did not fell into it . . . when its my turn to dash out . . . BOINK ! my left foot went into the HOLE ! ! ! my weapon dropped , helmet drop . . . fall flat on mimosa plants which is damm thorny . . .worst still i twisted my ankle . . . but still i have to carry on with the mission otherwise the whole assessment thing would be screwd up . . . lol >.< after mission cleared a new task was given. . .

I was tasked as the section commander to lay ambush on enemy at certain location and many weapon system gunners for me to deploy . . . very tiring when i have to deploy them at the ambush site . . . made a mistake by deploying my men too near to the killing zone where the enemy are suppose to come . . . but overall its still ok >.< thats an assessment for me so luckily all the booby traps i set trigger off and we get to return back first for a shower :P

^^ Damm fun at times but ! ! ! the palces i went this time is full of spiders as big as your palm ! ! ! you know those normal spider webs where u jsut sweep off with your hands ? The spider webs created by these huge spiders doesn't get damaged so easily . . . we got caterpillars running into our pocket notebooks lol . . . and on of my section mate fell down into a pool of oiy muddy water T_T when we saw that . . . all of us "SIAM" that area and find a drier place to conceal ourself >.<