Bitter Sweet T_T

“We once loved when we were 15. Even though that time seemed to be so faraway now, we used to exist in that time. Then, we were there. We spent our time together. Do you still remember?”

The words you were just about to say
Fell softly onto my fingertips
You don't have to say anything
I'll clasp your hand tightly and warm it up
Because words are words, I can't express half of the feelings in my heart
It's so wrenching and irritating as the sunset engulfs the both of us
My heart aches from all the feelings welling up inside of me
If you were to become a traveler
Would i be able to wait for you as i do now ?
As the seasons change
Even if our memories were to fade
I wouldn't be able to love someone with all of my heart like this
I want to protect the precious you
The two of us are never alone
My heart feels so fragile
And i want you to touch it
It's so wrenching and irritating that i can't go home . I want to keep waking like this
I feel the words from your heart on my finger tips .

Watched it on YouTube . . . very touching . . . Thats the ending songs lyrics . . . ouch~

You folks were "there" once too . . . Why not take some time to recollect your memories ^^

Oh well ^^

Accidently deleted some system file and i had to clean up my D drive ... lost most of the pictures ... songs ...lots of them !But oh well just forget it ^^ No point thinking about whats gone ...

Recently i watched a drama ... Ouch~ romance ... and it just gives you that first love feeling ... its so sweet yet bitter and sad at times ... i'm almost reaching the end ... i wonder what the ending is like ...

Really sweet ^^ makes me think a lot ... makes my heart ache a lot too ... i was like " If only "

I'm still a kid within i guess ... yearning for something :)

Maybe those kind of romance can only occur in shows ... maybe its not even possible ...
Ah Love~ ... its wonderful isn't it ...

Sis will be moving to her hostel soon . . . . guess Mom and Dad would feel that our home becomes a little too quiet in the night i guess . . . . hope they don't feel so lonely . . . well at least they got each other ^^

No more Anime T_T

Liew . . . they clamping on those who downloads Fans Subbed Anime T_T . . .

Quite sad . . . very sad actually . . . Anime is like . . . the best entertainment for me when i'm bored T_T . . . i don't play games now . . . watching anime is my past time . . . because its light hearted . . . funny . . . heart warming . . . most importantly its nicely drawn and they always come with beautifuly played soundtracks . . . those anime on the shelves in stores are release years back in Japan and the rate they release here takes donkey years . . . some series are banned from being released just because they are a bit graphical in some episode . . . if one day in the near future i have the financial capability i will definately stay in Japan for good . . . Dramas don't have them . . . I don't see much JDrama around anymore . . .

I use to watch JDrama a lot . . . until suddenly the drama seems to stop flying in . . . not much variety . . . sigh~

I'm going to miss this hobby so very much ~

Don't feel like getting the PS3 yet . . . but maybe i'll get it soon . . . I hate this . . . maybe i go join J J for canoeing . . . ARGH~

AGAIN ! -_-

Morale very low !!! . . . Weiyang passed TP . . . Zhiyang Pass TP . . . Kenny got his lisence years ago . . . Hengky got it even earlier . . . Ting passed long time ago~ . . . Waaaa~~~~

And i had to fail my 2nd attempt few months back . . . they all kept urging me to take the test again otherwise it would waste all the money i've dumped inside . . . i actually wanted to wait till i orded then continue but . . . seems like a waste of money to keep extending my student course . . . this is really bothering me~ very very much . . . is driving that hard ? It wasn't~ its just those safety aspect which cost me to flunk it . . . WHY~ i'm begining to feel that i'm not suited for driving . . . just don't feel like stepping out to book everything again . . . but i want to accquire it . . . i want that lisence ! then i can move on to other stuff . . .

This is such a big . . . major roadblock in my life . . . just felt i can't move on to my other goals without clearing this . . . i know i can shrug this off and focus on other things at the same time but i'm the kind that wants to accomplish things first before moving on to another . . . partly its also because i don't have much time to come out for test . . . . argh~ so much for being in the most active battalion~ screwed up schedule . . . now everything is in a mess . . . i want my civilian life back T_T . . . anyway i'm dragging myself out to settle the test date again . . . i hate this . . . the feeling is bad . . . BUT~ i must settle this within the 3rd attempt . . . I will~ (Hopefully) T_T . . . Mum keep telling me because i never pray before i go for test thats why i fail lol~ . . .

Oh well ^^ . . . My sister is going to stay at the dorm at NTU this coming august onwards i think . . . her semester is begining soon ^^ My Mom and Dad will be left in the house with me in camp most of the time . . . part of growing up i guess . . . OH WELL i better move my ass to get the test date settle then go for a run . . . then gym~ must stay fit despite all the low morale i get from driving . . . . if not my men will look down on their sergent who gets defeated so easily . . .

Time to go ~ . . . .

I've returned . . . a stronger soul

^^ Hello~ i'm back . . . .

How was it !?!

Let me give brief run through of what i did . . .

Compass Course . . . Guided Navex . . . Checkpoint Manning . . . Exercise Nomad . . . Enemy Role

Of all these . . . Nomad was the worst for me . . . I almost break down during that exercise . . . Our mission was to find 4 check points 1 mid point 1 end point within 3 days . . . The terrain was F**KED up . . . many times i just want to stop walking but i can't . . . my team was lost several times . . . During one night the rain was so bad that i had to stay awake for 6 hours and try to keep myself warm . . . because i never bring my raincoat along with me . . . wet and cold . . . i kept shivering . . . i keep praying that i could last through the night . . . i told myself i need to get the hell out of there . . . i almost break when my team leader had no clue where to go . . . he told me to take the lead then . . . left with no options as hes too tired . . . i took the lead . . . not knowing where i'm heading . . . i just follow with my gut feeling . . . ^^ luckily we found the check point :P

Everything there was upsized . . . cicada as big as my fist . . . green scorpion~ you name it . . . the jungle has it . . .

Even those unseen . . . some men happen to be soo unlucky to see those spirit and they had to be extracted . . .

Most of us heard prayers in the jungle . . . prayers sung by whom ? we got no clue but THERE IS NO WAY WE SHOULD BE HEARING THAT . . . i hear it too . . . and i was quite shocked . . .

There is a saying that none should sleep across a ridge line as its a passage for the departed . . . those who disobeyed will get "disturbed" by those spirits . . . i'm not sure how true this is but none of us dare to try . . . respect the forest or it will eat you alive . . .

I drank quite a bit of river water too . . . haha its pretty cooling but water back here taste better .

I'm glad i'm back . . . really . . . Singapore is a very comfortable place to be in . . . out in Brunei . . . i don't feel so good . . . i only want to return here . . . but this trip has pushed my limits to another level . . .

Time to relax :P

I miss the hugs~

Finished watching another anime . . . .

WAAA . . . male lead and female lead HUG EACH OTHER after being reunited . . . female lead thought that male lead had died . . . 1 month later they reunited . . . .Roar~~I ALSO WANT ! ! !

Hugging . . . what a nice sensation . . . with someone you love . . . someone you want to protect . . . its nice . . . definately . . . . make you feel all snuggly . . . go get a hug from you darlingssss . . .


I'm flying on June 9th 7.30 am flight but i'm checking in like 4.30am ? LOL Rules~ T_T but anyway . . . TAKE CARE ! ! ! Just some weather reports from over there . . . it rains almost everyday from 3pm to 8pm . . . WHAT THE HELL ~ i can't imagine that . . . especially when I NEED TO NAVIGATE . . . Rain = low morale , slower pace , compass may get vapours ( it better don't happen otherwise i'm stuck inside ) , BOOTS GET REALLY SOAKED UP . . . ARGH

Don't rain . . .

I'll be back . . . ^^

Maid ? Nurse ?

LOL ! Saw zhiyang with that cute maid ? ^^

I'm not brave enough to ask for a photo taken with other maids~ lol though i wanted to . . .

Not bad ambience but mm . . . a bit off for the whole feeling . . . i don't really feel the theme of the cafe . . . ^^ but some of the waitress quite cute LOL . . . Even Nigel would agree with me . . . he also another one no balls to take photo with the girls LOL . . . Same for me T_T . . .

If you have a fair bit of cash to spare you can make a trip there . . . i spend about $30~ for pasta and coffee . . . quite alright ^^ . . . but Geylang's beef HorFun would be suffice lol !

Previously i ate with Cong at Edo . . . lol 80 BUCKS~ . . . but ITS GOOD !

I think theres another theme pub . . . Hospital kind~ . . . WOOHOO . . . MUST TRY .

Maybe when i return from Brunei lol . . .

Chijmes ^^

PICTURES ^^

FINALLY . . . . Sort of a mini gathering for everyone . . . special thanks to Ting and Edmund for making this happen . . .

Look ! Theres Weiyang and Hengky ^^

Yiting slim down alot . . . eat more ^^

Woo Hoo

hey hey Hey !

You all doing fine ? Sleeping well ? Eating well ? I hope those who read or HAPPEN to pass by my blog is happy ^^

For no reason i'm so happy recently . . . i talk so much more since last few weeks . . . i become more crappy and cooking up stupid jokes . . . Not that i met a girl . . . just that i found what i used to do . . . talking . . . even those in camp find me a bit noisy lately lol . . .

But nevermind about it ^^ Life is about . . . making decision and many many more but most importantly try to stay happy . . . avoid conflict with people ^^

Love the new section ? "Memories " ? Just dig up some old pictures every now and then to post there into a slide show . . . if i don't change frequently please bear with me because i don't have much time to upload photos that often . . . if you don't like it tell me lohz~ i take your pictures down ahah . . . i don't care anyway :P if i have your pictures MEANS I GOT THE RIGHT :p Haha they are very fond memories . . . think back and smile ^^ aren't you starting to miss it ?

I'm flying on the 9th but the time of flight hasn't been comfirmed . . . its either 2 am or 7 am.

I will return like on June 27 ? LOL

I will return . . . i will share more ^^ so you guys know more . . . Jungle , Camo Cream , MOSQUITO BITE . . . HERE I COME . . .

Fluny attends a BBQ

Woa ! ^^ i just did a one parenting visiting for one of my men lol . . . and it was WOW . . . i felt like his guardian together with my friend . . . we had and obligation to bring him back from brunei safe and sound ^^ why ? Because both the parent put so much trust in me . . . I will guide them out from the forest in 2 days time . . . not 4 but TWO ! Though my navigation skills still suck for the night but in Brunei we only do daytime navex . . .WOOT , anyway i don't plan to feed the insects there by staying for too long . . . at least now my main concern is to make sure they come back in one piece

In the evening i rush to meet my FOLKS some haven see each other for 5 years but all turn out to be well . . . pretty and handsome . . .

Heres some of the stuff they said lol

Simone and Kenny said : "We've known each other for coming 9 years but we are only friends for 2 years " .

Weiyang : "I WANT TO GET A GIRLFRIEND"( Note this )

Puiyee : "Argh Weiyang and Hengky so good looking ! "

Nigel : " OMG ! I'm the only one who hasn't enter army "

Then theres the usual charming and beautiful looking Christina sitting there talking to everyone . . . BUT ! before i get a chance to talk she left lol . . . Kenny was very happy to get a photo shoot with her too . . .

It was good . . . the gathering achieve the purpose i wanted . . . to bring them together . . . though not all are present but it was good enough . . .

Esther seems to disappear into thin air . . . if your're reading this PLEASE ! reply something . . .

Kate have you recieve my mail ?

I'm flying off the week after this ^^ . . .

"If you're lost just try to search around you . . . you're not alone . . . there always people willing to aid you . . . the thing you're searching for won't be lost that easily . . . be strong . . . don't give up girl . . . carry on smiling . . . just don't give up" ^^

Bad day BAD LUCK ?

Just finish 2 day 1 night motar live fring . . . shagged out . . . sunburned all over the face . . .

T_T Mosquito bites everywhere till i can sleep during the night when we are doing live range . . .

Prior to this live firing i have just completed a 32km road march -_- river crossing . . . Live range . . . .ALL THIS in 7 days . . .

So so tired . . . suppose to attend a chalet for commanders but i never go because i just want to relax by myself . . . away from military stuff . . .

After my live firing i went for late supper wth caleb at MacDonald~ i left my handphone on the tray and by the time i went back to take it . . . it was gone . . . Cong came to drive me home . . . and we went to get roti prata . . . when i reach home . . . i go the roti prata BUT the curry was left behind in his car . . . . what a bad day . . . .

THIS IS MY 3RD PHONE during NS time . . . just too careless . . . so tired to really feel angry at myself about it . . . . oh well . . . i need a lot of rest . . . even when i'm doing things i like i can fall asleep . . . even when i'm standing i can fall asleep . . . 2 more weeks and i'm gone . . .

June 10 ^^ Brunei~

I miss you~

Maturity ?

I don't think i really mature enough to ask this question but anyway i just ask lol . . .

Maturity comes with ?

Angel told me . . . Yes, maturity isnt really about an age, its about experience and reflections and lessons....its listening to the voice inside, and following the path u know is right for you.

Nigel told me . . . that's why children sometimes can be more mature than adults.

Matthew told me . . . of course its life experience . . .

Ever give a thought about it ? Well ? ^^


Those in my camps always say i grumble a lot ahah . . thats because i told them i'm like that . . . i say this and i do that . . . i grumble that i hate doing certain things i still do it . . . partly because i got no choice but at the same time i know others are with me . . .

Nigel would say "Nah you're not going to do it . . . you're just saying because you're angry "

Haha . . i'm like that . . . i may be comforting you telling you how bright tomorrow is yet at the same time i can be telling you why the freaking commander take my off days away for some thing that doesn't even pay me well LOL . . .

Please don't BURN my off days T_T

Angel ? You're reading this aren't you ? ^^

MORE PICTURES

VOLA ! SGT wenhao and SGT J J Lee Thats US ! ^^ 120mm mortar platoon though got some missing folks
Commander's punishment for failing the competition lol i actualyl had to drink that ^^

My Officer giving RO ?

Pictures Pictures

ATEC Commanders
I'm the boss for this group ^^
Messing around
What ?

Don't make me do it . . .

Sgt Aw ! ! ! Err Cpl Aw . . . can i go toliet ?

Because our promotion has not been finalise yet so our men call us Corporal~ . . .

Today was pretty bad . . . the guys had to do universal cleaning which means a very through one . . . if the commander can spot dust patches means the men are going to get punished . . .

I was once a recruit . . . trainee . . . being punished for even the slightest mistake . . . i know how it feels to be treated like shit . . . and now i had to treat them like shit . . .

I was to inspect their bunks today before they book out . . . the seniors wanted us to show them who is in command and this is the best time to . . .

I wanted to take my men as my friends but . . . i think the line is drawn . . . either they respect me or don't and i doubt close friendship will blossom because only commander and men exist from now on . . .

It wasn't what i want . . . i raise my voice at them . . . i flung their dustbin and they look at me . . . i look at them . . . somehow i felt they are trying to tell me . . . Corporal Aw . . . why you treat us like dirt now . . . when Hong Tak look at me . . . i just couldn't tell him . . . this isn't my way of making things work . . . i just had to do my job . . . because i train with them for the last course so they know i'm one of the easiest spec to approach . . . i'm easy going . . . minor issues i don't care because we are all humans . . . we make mistakes and there shouldn't be a reason to make things so big . . . after the bunk shit . . . i told Hong Tak the way to clean certain areas so they don't get repirmanded by other specs . . . i know how they feel . . . because i've been through worse treatment . . . oh well i guess its going to be a bit bumpy ahah ^^

MOVE IT NOW OR NEVER

Wahaha . . . i think my blog no more readers liao . . . about time to close this down . . . TAG BOARD SO EMPTY . . .

Got Mr Lim's photo also so quiet . . . maybe i should put Kenny's new outlook . . . or perhaps i can get J J's topless photo here . . . I don't mean the star JJ . . . i mean my friend J J . . .

I've taken my men finally for course ^^ lol . . . damm funny when i tell this guy . . . YOU WALK SOMEMORE ! ! ! I TAKE YOUR RIFLE MUZZLE AWAY . . . lol immediately he quicken his pace and get the job done properly . . . just a scare tactic i use haha pretty harmless yet they know my intention ^^ unlike some others who would blast at them for no reason and make those men grow to fear and disrepect them . . .

They are qutie afriad when i go looking for them . . . LOL normally not very good things will happen when your commander comes looking for you . . . haha

Fun ^^ its going to be TOUGH and FUN . . .

Ok . . . maybe i should not be writing anymore ahah ^^ i'll see about it :P Now they rushing me to come out ^^ cya peeps

Geylang Trip Part 2

Nigel : SEE WHAT SEE ! ! !

Allan : DO YOU WANT SOME ! ! !
Nigel : LET ME OPEN THE DURIAN ! ! ! THIS IS MOI VIRGIN DURIAN :p
Nigel : Haha see so easy~
Nigel : Another secret compartment ?

WAA ! ! ! Big Gold~

Geylang Trip~ Part 1

THE BEEF HOR FUN ! ! ! WOOT ! ! ! SPICY ! ! !
We ordered a some other Dim Sum to go along with the Hor Fun~
Quite warm man~
SEA OF DURIANS
Zhiyang open the first durian for us while the rest look in awe~ . . . fleshy~ the fruit very sweet

Do you dare to dream big ?

Oh boy~ today no water from 9 am to 6 pm . . . forgot about it . . . turn tap on to brush teeth . . . NO WATER . . . luckily my sis filled up a few buckets of water for today uses . . . phew~

See the title ! Do you dare to dream big > AND make it happen ? I think i'm born for some reasons . . . but there is something i want to do . . . i want to do something big . . . something so influential that for the coming billions of generation , people will remember who is WENHAO . . .

But what big thing ? I just don't want to forgotten after i report to God . . . after all we are here for a reason . . . ^^

Maybe i start a company lending money to people ^^ then i PERSONALLY be the collector as well . . . i look like loanshark !@#!@#!@# Even Mr " Zhu Ying " say i look like those Encik~ I hope you become Zhu Ying also Mr Teo @#!@#!@

So what do you dream ? Or you just want to carry on living without dreams ?

I think when we are small we dream more . . . but as we grow we stop dreaming . . . it might be because of society ? It doesn't cost much to dream . . . i dream . . . i deam of setting up a Theme Cafe . . . that changes theme every few months ^^

So whats your dream for this lifetime ?

YOU KNOW WHAT ! I SAW AN ANGEL TODAY ! ! !

PLEASE WATCH 200 POUND BEAUTY . . .

Got boyfriend bring boyfriend . . . got girlfriend bring girlfriend . . . if you're not attached like me BRING lots of friends . . . go buy the tickets now . . .

Must watch ! ! ! " 200 pound beauty " a very nice movie ^^

Even Nigel agree . . . go catch it ! ! !

Suppose to watch The Hills Have Eyes 2 but Nigel underage lol ! so i ask him watch this instead . . .

I thought pretty was enough to describe . . . but shes very cute ! ! !

Some touching scene . . .

Get going ! ! ! DON'T WAIT ! ! !

We've grown ^^

CK's going to be enlisted . . . Ken had already ORDED sometime back . . . some still mugging with exams . . . N playing around . . . Allan enlisting soon . . . Guan going to ORD soon . .

ME ? still a bit more to go . . . i slpet a lot these few days , about 16 hours per day ? Haha currently on leave for 2 days ^^

I'm going to spend the next 10 years with those buddies of mine now . . . lol~ HEY i did not sign on -_- NO WAY . . . just that i'm inside a battalion so i will be seeing my men during reservist for the next 10 years to come . . .

HOPE can clear leave like 5 days . . . The battalion's schedule is really stopping me from going to Japan this Sep !@#!@#! Even Matthew wants to come along . . .

Brunei soon ^^ want any gifts ? lol maybe i get some back huh~ lol . . . what could i possibly get from there ? Oil ? Maybe i get some barrels for Ken~ . . . get him to refine it into petrol for his car :P

1 short entry before i book in

Woo . . . i'll take a picture of the golden bayonet and post it up as requested by kenny but not now . . . when i return home on friday perhaps ^^

Saw weiyang online so i got some of his photos !

Here is the picture of Weiyang and Fann ! Weiyang is the guy in white long sleeve . . .

the other two guys his collegue . . . and thats Fann ^^

>.< >.<

Must prepare speech ~~ . . .

Hai troublesome . . .

What to write for "Thank You" speech ? ? ? . . .

Sounds fake when you're not really into it . . .

I just finish my live firing over Good Friday . . . so hows the expereience ? . . . i'm damm afriad to operate the mortar . . . not that its hard to deploy but i'm very afriad that one day when we are doing live firing the round just goes off without exiting the barrel . . . then i'll be shredded into pieces . . . HE killing zone 25m radius . . . i haven't even include the fragmentation zone yet ahah . . . probably the body parts will alll go "missing" if one were to explode right in my face . . . I was "given" the chance to stabilise the baseplate by standing on it and holding the barrel in place while my friend pulls the trigger pull . . . POOM ! a sound so loud that could make you go near deaf if you got no ear plugs on . . . i was looking beneath at my feet . . . and praying hard that the 5 rounds which we are firingthat time will go off smoothly . . . phew . . . and finally someone else has to take my place . . .

For the whole day live firing mission i was the commander for my detachement . . . running up and down guiding vehicle into deployment . . . ensuring my other friends play their roles properly . . . checking the mortar sight alignment so the round won't end up at places where it shouldn't be . . . worst thing of the day . . . it rained . . . and the whole place got so muddy . . . every round we fired mud fly up and smack right into my face . . . one of my friend got mud smack right into his eye and had to see medic to clean it off . . . crappy shi*t . . . and the mosquitosssss there is DARN TERRIBLE . . . i think if i stay still for one minute 10 would fly to my hand and start biting me . . . 20 over would fly to my thighs to bite me . . . my neck . . . basically everyparts of my body is covered with mosquito . . . i have never been to places where the mosquito comes in such great numbers . . . the bites they cause doesn't even heal . . . still swelling a bit . . . T_T . . .

I'm reporting to my new unit soon . . . going to Brunei in a 2 mths time i think . . . maybe less . . . hope i don't miss home and you folks too much . . . i can get pretty homesick sometimes then i will go into those "dying mode" where i go no motivation for everything . . . just want to sleep . . .

I may sound like its fun but . . . its only fun because its over . . . when i'm going through it . . . its hell . . .

Tada . . . ^^

PIctures . . .

Tada ! ! ! Kenny's b`day so here are a few pictures . . . i'll upload more . . . alright ^^ just came back from live firing ^^

Cannot be instructor . . . Awarded "Golden Bayonet" as best trainee so i must go to serve in a battalion T_T . . . as a detachment commander . . . the camp site is located very far and T_T more tough trainings . . .

Anyway have a good week ahead ^^ wait for the pictures :P

BIG SPIDER ! ! !

I was digging up some photos to show you guys but a lot of them are restricted ones T_T but i manage to find a picture on the kind of spider you would face out in field ^^ . . . . -_- imagine everytime u walk something this big will jump onto your face !#!@#!@#! be it daytime or night time . . . it happens quite frequently lol . . .

More pictures coming up when i came back from my live firing exercise . . . still waiting for kenny to send me the pictures ^^ so hang in there . . .

Hao ^^

Just came back from camp >.< pretty late . . . 11pm . . . now 1 am~

One folk in my bunk just "shotgunned" and hes so lucky to get guard duty this tomorrow but he must accompany his girl for checkup for final confirmation . . . more or less he hit the jackpot man . . . i thought i could be his kid's godfather ^^ but apparently the girl decided to well you know . . . "abo*t*on" . . .

I wonder what will happen to both of them later on . . . did what i could by talking to Mr "shotgunner" hope he resolve all his problem and make sure he reflect on his darn major mistake . . . now there will be one more baby up in God's cradle . . .

Don't ask me why it happen because its damm obvious he didn't use cap . . .

Like i always tell the guys in bunk for training . . . you're asking for trouble when you know whats right and still not do it . . . the same applies for him . . .

So much for that issue . . .

Man ! i clamped my palm accidently today while handling the mortar . . . crapped . . bleed a bit and my palm a bit bruised . . . T_T BUT nvm . . it doesn't kill me lol >.> just a bit painful .

I think i got chance of becoming instructor lol >.< NEXT week course end then i will be posted again ^^

Momentum

Ayumi Hamasaki - Momentum

The days when I loved you were the last miracle to me
The season when everyone longs to be around people
Has come again this year
With warmth and coldness

I remember the day
When we were too young with no knowledge about the world and walking
Laughing together and hanging on each other

What excuse should I make
For this wave of pain?
Even in the night I'm freezing alone in white snow
My love for you is my last courage
I wonder if I'm so stupid
Just waiting for the time passage
Believing that I'll surely be forgiven some day

I hold the rush of feelings
So that it may not spill down
Until the day our hands reach white snow
My love for you is my last courage

Even in the night I'm freezing alone in white snow
Until the day our hands reach white snow
My love for you is the last forever to me
That I could meet you was the first miracle to me

Nice song isn't it ^^

Sick . . . terrible . . .

Argh . . . my whole body aching . . .

Ahah . . . i'm down with cold and fever . . . some dry cough . . . one of the peeps in camp pass it to me . . .

Even when i'm sick i still have to participate in the lesson . . . which includes pushing the 405.5kg weapon for like 3-4km with 5 other guys . . . . . . yes we manhandle the weapon . . .

Now my knees got worned out due to those running . . . my joints are failing because of all those loads i'm carrying . . . i think when i grow old i will be in a very painful state . . .

i think i will get back to sleep . . . ZzzzzzzzZZzzz

WAA when you turn 21 . . .

Stressful isn't it ? 21 . . . more responsibility . . . more junks in your mailbox . . . more items to pay for . . . life isn't going to go easy on you . . .

In army . . . theres this thing called "toliet project" where they put up meaningful sentences behind every cubicle door . . . so i happen to go to this cubicle everytime and the sentence behind the door reads " Your attitude towards life determine life's attitude towards you " make sense doesn't it ?

If you take things negatively . . . things will always without fail look gloomy to you but if you take it the positive way . . . no matter where you walk you won't feel despair over things that may not happen in the way you want . . . SO always always take it positive . . . i was like feeling very negative about my posting but after a few days of trying to snapped out of this shit , i managed to done it . . . i gave myself reasons to take it postively . . . theres always two side to a matter . . . "one good , one bad" which one you choose to carry with you determine how you feel later on . . .

Heres some conversation in bunks ^^ By the way theres only 6 guys including myself in this bunk. One of the sergent sleep in the same bunk as us BUT hes 1 year younger than us . . . quite handsome . . . all the abs and nice body contour BUT hes damm worried about being single . . . his name is Germane by the way

Me : Don't have to worry about not being able to find a mate . . .
Germane : Hai . . .
Me : So what you look for in a girl ?
Germane : Mmm . . . At least must look like a model . . .

After some chats . . . found out he go for looks in a lady . . . then i tell him . . .

Me : ! ! ! A nice girl will be the one who will really stick by you . . . why put looks as priority . . .
The rest of the guys in the bunk all say : Germane you still young la . . . go out and have fun

ZhengQuan : We intro you to those "KTV" got the kind you looking for . . .

Germane : I want to keep my first time for my girlfriend . . .

Hahah hes still quite conservative but well maybe because hes from JC and previously from an all boys school environment . . . so he only had 2 years to interact with girls during JC . . . maybe one day he would find the real girl hes looking for . . . apparently he found this hot babe during clubbing last week i think and he went up and ask for the number . . . this hot babe gave him his number and agreed to hang out with him . . . i wonder how his date turn out yesterday ahah ^^ maybe all will turn well for him . . .

Sometimes its all really about fate isn't it . . . but its just only a saying i guess . . . after all , our actions determine the outcome in whichever path we undertake during our life . . . so make your decision wisely ^^ . . . if in doubt ASK ! It never hurts to gather some suggestion when you want to do something . . .

Tired tired . . . headache . . .

Just came home not long ago from Guard Duty . . . time to relax ^^ should be catching on some sleep since i did not slept well last night because of those "turn up" being chase by dogs while walking to duty point ect ect ect . . . . . .

I just found out recently one of my friend actually spent 1 whole month in Japan for holiday~ . . . so i try to seek more information from him . . .

Me : WAA "J J" not ex meh you stay so long ?
J J : Alright only la . . . you don't have to stay in hotel mah . . . you can get SGD30 /Day lodging there
J J : One more thing to note, the air fare also quite cheap . . . try to go for transit flight or ANA .
Me: Oh . . . .then how you communicate there ?
J J : Apparently every train station in Japan has those tourist phamplet printed in English and also a information counter for tourist . Its easy to get around actually . . .

J J : AND ~~~ THE FOOD THERE IS GOOD . . . you don't get to eat "lousy" food there . . . no matter where you go the food is good unlike here for example you eat prata at this place , you find the food bad and some other place which taste better .

Me : WAHAHAHA serious !
Zhen Quan and Matthew overheard out conversation then they both join in . . . . WAHAHAHA

Matthew is another guy who travel quite frequently lol . . . so !!!!! AFTER we go "unit" we decided to go Japan for a while . . . wahaha travel mates . . . at least i won't get lost there . . .

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Yiting came over with Edmund . . .she drove to my house and hand me my b`day pressy~ waa thank you so much ^^ its was great seeing you again ^^ . . .

Haven seen some folks lately . . . was suppose to have lunch at vivo with Aishah and Shanyu . . . at err Fig and Olive ? ? ? Hope i get it right ahah but was canceled due to some unforseen circumstances but nevermind ^^ theres always a time for it . . . wedding preperation comes first :P

OK ENOUGH SAID . . . i didn't write much about what i do in camp because its just the same old thing again ahaha . . . i'll write more about other stuff i've question my friends ^^ ubt thats for next entry ahaha ...ZzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZzzzzzzzzzz

Back for a short while gone again . . .

Err . . .

Past few days was damm horrible . . .

Low morale . . . got into this ultra depressive state . . . because the new place is . . . .

Really not much to do . . . lectures lectures lectures . . . . and we have like 4 -5 hours free time in the night ! ! ! Nothing to do seriously . . . Talk ? Sleep ? Eat ? PsP ? Just damm bored . . .

More or less i will be sent to 5 Sir . . . fate sealed . . . no more arguments ^^

I'll just face it ahah . . . after all . . . i have no choice . . .

Sometimes its good that i've been through all this . . . really does change me into a new person . .

No arguments . . . i just listen and execute . . . straightforward huh ^^ i've got a great deal of patience now . . . haha . . . i'm trained to wait for hours sometime . . . then told we don't have to wait anymore . . . i would just give a big "SIGH" "there goes the few hours of my life" and get on with what i have to do next . . .

I've this strong urge to fly to japan now . . . . . . probably after ORD . . . the sakura season is coming ! ! ! APRIL ! ! ! maybe fi you guys are free and have the cash to spare . . . you should go there ^^ i'm definately going man . . . . wait till my hair grow long enough T_T hahaa . . .

Oh well ^^ . . . going back to camp again ahah . . . just 4 hours out of camp for a breather ^^

Seriously hope i'll snapped out of this shitty feeling . . . argh~~

"I think i know why i miss you . . . and its just going to stay this way forever ^^ nevermind even if our path doesn't cross anymore . . . it will just be a warm feeling thats going to keep me going"

? ? ?

Probably i will lead 4 men under my me . . . for the rest of my NS life . . .

I'm classified as combat-support unit . . . mortar detachment . . .

I'm the one who will shoot at enemies without looking at them . . . and the enemies will have to run from me . . . for i rain hell on them . . .

T_T but man~ its cool to be under artillery trained . . . but i will be posted . . . i think not as an instructor but as a sergent to a active combat unit at bukit panjang . . . actually i wasn't so worried about the distance and the men there . . i'm more concern weather i have time to come out and take my driving test . . . i'll have to make a trip to brunei from what i heard from on of the higher ups in that combat unit during june for 2 weeks ? i've been holding the test back for quite a while . . . hope i get the lisence the next test lol . . .

Ah mann~~~~ just hope i get to stay back as instructor

Enough grumbling . . .

T_T

Sigh Sigh Sigh

Nights off . . . so i came home to rest for a while . . .

Got posted to Arty Institution . . . but i'm trained as a mortar spec . . .

Bad news . . . after this 6 weeks of training will be posted to 5 SIR i think . . .

I DUNAWN ! ! ! Its damm far lohz . . . at Bukit Panjang . . . HAI ! ! ! I DUNWAN TO SPEND THE REST OF MY NS LIFE THERE . . . .

Still got hope . . . out of the 13 CPLs 4 will be chosen as Instructor . . .

I got like 30% chance to get it . . . base on your knowledge and of course your attitude . . .

I hope i can become instructor here . . . its like so far to travel to bukit panjang everytime you book out . . . Khatib is so much nearer to my house . . .

Sigh . . . Quite low morale . . . depress . . . arghhhh damm sad . . . . i wonder if i can shake out of this feeling . . . hai . . . can only hope . . . but i'll do what i can to bring up my chances . . . to stay as instructor . . .

I'M CPL AW W H

^^ Passed ! ! ! I've cleared the 28km road march which starts from Thursday 10pm till Friday 5 am plus about 1 hour graduation in Full Battle Order attire immediately after the march . . .

The march was long and tiring . . . i almost want to opt out after 20km . . . because of the terrain we were marching on . . . slopes !!!!!!!!!!!! quite a few opt out of the march during the 24th km . . . . while the rest push on for their final achievement in BSLC . . . i'm glad i did it . . . and only God knows how i did it . . .

I basically don't feel like talking throughout the march . . . my foot is covered with blisters even though i wore two socks . . . coupled with gortex boots . . . my waist was bruised because the load was resting on my waist most of the time . . . during rest points when some of my friends took off their boots we could see smoke . . . yes smoke from their boots LOL . . . even we are emmitting smoke from our body . . . we were very warm and our shirts are soaked wet with our own perspiration . . . one of my bunk mates even got his own boot lace YES BOOT LACES wet with his own perspiration . . . its not easy . . . i haven't caught a good sleep since then till now which is like 9 pm ?

Whats the highlight of the march ? I was the front scout throughtout the march with my GUARDS sergent . . . lol basically we can call this 28km march a "Fast March" there is a big difference between a normal march and a fast one . . . fast march is as if you are running but because of the load you carry you cannot really run but walk very briskly . . .

During the march we pass by NTU hostel . . . a group of very beautiful ladies boarded a cab and went pass us . . . they wave at my platoon mates lol ^^ it did give them some moral boosting . . . some even say jokingly that if they wave again . . . he would dash into the cab ahah ^^

Road marches is a task that requires you to overcome all physical pains and focus on your mental endurance . . . the moment i stop walking all the pain will set it . . . the moment i step on a rocky surface my blister will hurt like hell . . .

I'll continue later . . .

I caught a cold . . . a real bad one . . . now i'm going to see a doctor ^^

Blink ^^

Just went to watch the Jack Neo's movie . . . i think its alright if you're looking for some laugh ^^

Turning 21 ! ! ! This Thursday . . . i'll be doing my final 28KM road march in SISPEC . . . the guys will probably come " take care " of me . . .

Will i celebrate ? Probably not . . . i mean well , what do you mean by birthday celebration . . . get a cake ? people ? buffet ? put them together and you make a wish . . . thats birthday ? i don't see the meaning behind it actually . . . birthday is like a day where it marks a brand new year on earth . . . maybe not . . . ahah i'm not sure . . . i don't have that "Happy Birthday Mood " . . .

I just live day to day . . . and the DAYS are passing by much faster than i thought T_T i'm aging man~ maybe next time when i'm attached or married or what so ever status . . . celebrating birthday wouldn't be such a bad idea . . . and of course not during NS time . . .

Maybe i'll just make a wish this time . . . maybe no cakes in front of me . . . i'll probably have whole meal bread and a hard boil egg as my "cakes" thats what you have for breakfast in camp sometimes . . . noodles might be good ^^ haha

Wish ? Simple . . . i'll keep wishing every year for the same thing till it occur . . .

It isn't really a birthday wish . . . its actually my wish for what i want in this lifetime . . . so it comes in a package of " Setting up own family , Carssssss , house big enough for everybody , happy old age retirement with many grand children , not having to worry about day to day living "

^^ Its that simple isn't it . . . the house and car is definately not a problem . . . :P the family part is ahah . . . if cupid doesn't knock on my door i guess i can become a monk lol . . . like how esther always say~ . . . "Be a monk wenhao , good for you" !@#!@#!@

Guess i have to agree with my Instructor . . . " wenhao , what you lack is confidence in yourself "

^^ But well :P Maybe there isn't any drive in me anymore . . . ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZzzzzZzzzzzzzz

I'm tired . . . time to sleep

Hahah i gave away 140 bucks this year ^^

Woo hoo my sister playing for me ^^
My Lovely Grandmother ^^
This Is A Lively Chinese New Year ^^

Just came home after "giving" away $140 bucks lol but well i don't feel the pinch . . . maybe i'm happy with the atmostphere :P

My lucky star today was my sister ahaha she helped me won $70 ++ BUT after she left for home i started to "give" money back . . . Cousin Cong keep asking me to raise the stake lol BUT WTF it backfired 3 times and my winnings are gone . . . i had to "refill" from my own wallet . . . i'll return the next year ahah

At one point during the day i suddenly thought of " you ALL know who " . . . quite miss the time where i get Cousin to fetch her to my family side . . . she would smile and greet everybody . . . of course shes my lucky star ^^ she would sit there quietly watch me play then i would ask her to give the cards a gentle touch ^^ then TADA . . . money starts rolling in :P those where the days.

Well . . . take care of yourself . . . hope you have a good piggy year with your beau . . .

Hope the posting i get this coming friday is good >.<>.<

Happy Chinese New Year Folks . . . hope you guys win big big

Back and Glad ^^

I'm back for the holiday ^^ HOO YA ! ! !

Heres a short review on the assessment exercise . . .

Wanderer : Day check point found 3/4 Night Check point 0/2 with Full Battle Order

Basically we screwed up the night one because the check point CANNOT BE FOUND even when we scout the area for 2 hours . . . it wasn't so bad for the day as we found 3 out of 4 check points ^^
Grand Slam : GOOD . . .

Wait till i get the picture to show you folks ^^i was my section harbouring commander and had to set up my side of the base . . . it took us a while to get things up and after setting up my job was done, then its time for mission. I was the enemy most of the time while my section mates assault me . . . because my assessment was done long ago so during this exercise others were given a chance to lead the section and the sergents will see what they are capable of ^^ but because every mission only 7 men will leave the harbouring base the rest will stay and help in manning the base. When they return from mission a fresh new 7 men will be picked for the new mission , but the only one who will be assess on will be the section commander so i was sent out as one of the men under a section commander as the rest was very tired from the previous mission. After one mission under the lead of my section mate . . . i was shagged out lol then people will scold you " SHAGGED CANNOT THINK PROPERLY AH ? "When i wear helmet half my common sense is gone and i basically become a walking zombie who . . . :P but it was fun . . . it is tough but we learn how to enjoy all this tough moments.

So the field assessment pass very fast and i was extracted after the night ambush mission to prepare for the OfficerCadet School interview the next day. Quite shocked that i was selected out of the rest for this interview . . . i'm happy yet i was afriad because its not easy to pass the interview . I sat for the interview already . . . vetted by some high ranking officers and warrant officers . . . i was a bit nervous . . . i'm not sure if they are impressed with me but well ^^ if i'm able to get in i'll have to be prepared to suffer more T_T heard from Dickson that Jungle Confidence Course is back for the cadets so if i'm so lucky as to enter the Officer's Corps i will have to go through that course . . . but i hope i don't go in ^^ scared . . . scared i can't survive ahah . . .

After OCS interview, i was short listed for 7 SIB Sniper selection but when i went there and listen to the talk i withdraw myself out ^^ because ^^ the 7 SIB is under GUARDS so after the Sniper Course i would have to undergo GUARDS conversion course T_T because i'm a bit tired of out field training so i decided that i'm not intrested so i withdraw ^^

Finally i'm going to graduate as Coporal after next week ^^ . . .10 weeks is over le ^^

I'm very happy to go through SISPEC . . . its tough but it really makes u stronger . Everyone will tell you its tough but when you look at all the hardship you went through its sweet in the end. I enjoy those moments where we leave camp very early and come back the next day morning . . . its tiring and tough but when everything ends , we would sit down and clean arms then when you turn and look around you , you see your friends shagged out face with messed up camo cream laughing at you . This moment . . . this memory . . . money can't buy them , although i injured myself a few times i never regretted coming in . . . yes i do complain about the comfort level here but deep down i know i achieve somethings some people might not achieve.

Hey Nigel ! ! ! Go for SISPEC . . . you won't regret it . . .

So bascially i'm doing well ^^ but a lot of aches here and there ahah ^^

Back and going soon . . .

~>.<~ extremely tired . . . just finish my section live firing at 3 am and i just book out at 7 am . . . but i have to report back to camp at 8 pm . . . not much free time today . . .

Basically my saturday was burned for that T_T but well 1 more week to go and i'll have a short break . . .

Finally ! ! ! Heres a quick review of what i did for the week . . .
Standard Obstacles Course ^^ i cleared : 9 mins 09 seconds
I feel very happy about that because ! ! ! ! i always stuck at the low rope and i can't climb up the rope with one try SO my timing for the course always hit 11 mins which is a fail ~ . . .

By the way for Basic Section Leadership course the passing timing is 10 mins 30 seconds and for Advance Section Leadership course the passing timing is 9 mins 30 seconds .

All the physicall fitness tests are over and i'm clear from them while those who haven't clear those have to keep taking the test till they pass . . .

Lastly i will be gone for a whole week . . . YES ITS exercise " Grand SLAM " out field . . . sleeping in the field . . . . and the exercise is coupled with " Wanderer " where a few people in a small team find check points all over the place . . . its a FINAL navigation test where you wander around and get lost >.< . . . So what awaits after all this is a short break ^^ because of Chinese New Year . . . YAY

I'll give a final review soon about my 3 months of training . . . after which i will be posted out ( Hopefully ) and more new stuff to come ^^

Ouch~

^^ Home sweet home after field training >.<

This time i did not roll onto the road ! ! ! but ! ! ! . . . . this is how the story begin

I was tasked as the sub machine gunner . . . the weapon is damm heavy plus the other stuff i carry with me . . . me together with 6 of my other section mates form a detail as fighting patrol at certain place . . . remember all this are mock battles . . . no one is injured in this exercise except me LOL . . . cause i blur blur when i wear helmet . . .

So we have to engage enemy when we see them . . . then as we approach to an enemy site . . . the first 3 person walking in front of me did not see a hole in front but ! ! ! they did not fell into it . . . when its my turn to dash out . . . BOINK ! my left foot went into the HOLE ! ! ! my weapon dropped , helmet drop . . . fall flat on mimosa plants which is damm thorny . . .worst still i twisted my ankle . . . but still i have to carry on with the mission otherwise the whole assessment thing would be screwd up . . . lol >.< after mission cleared a new task was given. . .

I was tasked as the section commander to lay ambush on enemy at certain location and many weapon system gunners for me to deploy . . . very tiring when i have to deploy them at the ambush site . . . made a mistake by deploying my men too near to the killing zone where the enemy are suppose to come . . . but overall its still ok >.< thats an assessment for me so luckily all the booby traps i set trigger off and we get to return back first for a shower :P

^^ Damm fun at times but ! ! ! the palces i went this time is full of spiders as big as your palm ! ! ! you know those normal spider webs where u jsut sweep off with your hands ? The spider webs created by these huge spiders doesn't get damaged so easily . . . we got caterpillars running into our pocket notebooks lol . . . and on of my section mate fell down into a pool of oiy muddy water T_T when we saw that . . . all of us "SIAM" that area and find a drier place to conceal ourself >.<

I'm back once again

HELLO PEOPLE !

Just cleared 3 days field camp training on section fighting at some wulu wulu jungle . Its fun but its muddy , dirty , wet . . . and sometimes very demoralising T_T when we screwed things up.

When i go for field training i normally change my uniform whenever i had the chance because it stinks when you can't shower for like days !@#@!# but washing the uniform part is worst too . . . for this field camp almost everybody stick to wearing one set of uniform for 3 days ! ! ! Thats holy stinky stench we've got there . . . we powdered ourselves like mad . . . theres a requirement for poweder bath . . . i'm sure those who go through my life knows . . . we have to powder very thickly and then ! ! ! pull the elastic ends of our undergarments and let go . . . it should go "POOFFF" and the powder starts forming smoky atmostphere . . . thats the standard for powder bath . . . till now i still hate field camp . . . so did any one fell down again ? YES . . . i slipped and fell down twice on a sloppy hill . . . and almost roll onto the road . . . !#!@#!@

I also did a life firing of a grenade launcher look a like weapon and its damm funny to listen to the sound of the round going off . . . the sound is "PONG" ! ! ! The recoil is quite heavy if you don't stand properly . . . can't imagine such a cute looking round to be so devastating . . . i can't tell you much about this as well . . . i don't wish to get my ass burned because of this entry :x

I'm going for a few more mission soon . . . some that last a whole day some last through the night . . . those are going to be more fun ^^ but DEFINATELY more dirty than the previous ones . . . my defination of dirty is . . . muddy and you can see creepy crawlies like maggots . . . earthworm , caterpillar which is damm colourful and spider as big as your face lying around and sometimes they crawl onto you without you knowing until your buddy take his rifle and butt you in the face . . . i have caterpillars crawling on my finger without me knowing until i'm preparing for dinner !@#!@#!@# what the hell . . . ants that is enormously big bite you and you get some buns on your skin which doesn't heal very fast . . . mosquito that has extremely powerful sucking straw which can pierce through double layers of clothing and suck all your blood out . . . worst still their bites don't heal fast . . . it takes like err 3-4 days until the swell disappear . . . its damm itchy i tell you . . .

What else you all want to know ? Drop a message at the tagboard i try to answer as best as i can ^^

BACK~

Back from a hectic training week . . .

^^ just want to sleep right now . . .

so how was my navigation exercise ? good and bad . . .

Good because we found SOME check points and manage to return back safely . . .because during the exercise the rain poured through the whole exercise area like no body business . . . at low lying area water can go as high up to chest level . . . WTF right . . . plus its swampy and hell quick sand ! T_T

I was trying to get to my second check point and we were told not to attempt anything dangerous because we were on our own . . . and i came across a rather wide area cover in muddy water . . . we were slowed down by the rain . . . cost us about 1 hour just to track a few hundreds meters so i had to get our group across in the fastest way as night begins to fall as well . . . i walk a few steps and the water only reaches my shin . . . as i carry on walking to the middle part i sunk to my thigh area . . . HELL i panicked and F**K i sink in deeper , Thank God there was a tree new by and i pulled myself out before i start eating mud for dinner . . . so i got no choice but to tell the rest to take a detour . . . but because the stream of muddy water was covering a wide area and we're running out of time . . . we trekked up stream for 25 paces and tried to cross . . . i cross first and got some logs to support the rest over . . . we're totally covered in mud up to our shin level . . . and the best thing . . . my handphone got soaked . . . !@#!@#! got damaged in the process . . . sigh no choice but to buy a new one . . . ^^

Night fall and we plot our path wrongly and went the wrong direction . . . ended up we got lost . . . imagine when there is no torch light and you couldn't see your hand T_T . . . my section marte Andy lead us back until a point where he doesn't dare to venture any further for fear of wandering even futher . . . so no choice . . . . die also must get out of that place . . . my compass was damaged slightly because of the water but after setting the right path i just walk ahead of the rest and told them to tag along base on our last calculation for back tracking to base . . . i'm like the bulldozer clearing all the spider webs and branches away for others to walk LOL . . . after about 30 minutes of walking we hit the track and i was so relieved to be back . . . after we settle down i took out the map and discuss with the rest . . . we found out that we were venturing out of the exercise area . . . a place where there is no check point for us LOL . . . it is definately a good experience ^^ . . . i got a few thorns pierced into my palm but my buddy got it worst . . . he held onto a thorny plant when he fell and the outcome is damm ouchy . . . . . . ^^

Next up section fighting . . . 3 days field camp T_T its camo time . . . argh . . .

I need to get some sleep man . . .

Gypsy . . . A time to get lost . . .

^^ Argh busy week coming ahead i guess ^^

Going to book in soon . . .

So hows everything ?

Before that . . . Yijie i'm sorry i couldn't attend your party T_T . . .

So ! Still alright but the tough period is coming . . . but well it will be over before i know it . . . ^^

Going for topo exercise mainly this week . . . hope i don't get lost in the forest ahah . . .

Pretty cold weather lately . . . guess i've caught a cold too . . . hope it doesn't gets too serious . . .

Nothing much . . . just hope to finish the next 5 weeks fast in SISPEC . . . i want to get my driving lisence fast also . . .

Range . . .

Just cleared some "Range" bitten by the ever famous Commando Mosquito !#!@#!@!@

Once bitten take forever to heal unlike your daily household mosquito . . .

They bite through thick clothing and insect repellent and THEY NEVER STOP BITTING YOU .

The bitten area swell up like Chicken Bao !#@!#!@#!@ . . .

Thinkk i better come up with countermeasures before my blood get sucked dry . . .

Bought some dark chocolates . . . woo delicious . . . the cranberry cookies i bought from Marks and Spencer also taste good . . . but kenny says its not healthy to indulge in it . . . but well once in a while ^^

Maybe we get the crab imported from japan one day for steamboat WOOHOO . . .

Ah i'm just so tired but NO . . . i'm not going to sleep ( though i jsut fell asleep on my desk a moment ago ) haha but a little chocolate woke me up . . .

VERY SOON i will be able to beat the 9.45 mins timming for 2.4km run . . . not very sure what i got for this trial test but its somewhere near 10mins ?? or a little bit more . . . because if I DON'T get Gold Award for fitness . . . i don't get to book out ! ! ! ! #@#!@

A brand new year ^^ Happy New Year Folks

2007 is here in like a few hours time ? ? ? . . .

Turning 21 next year ^^ pretty cool . . . i got nothing to wish for in the new year ^^ :P i'll just get my hands dirty and achieve whatever i want to achieve . . . ^^

Was quite amazed at how fast 1 year had passed by . . . "Shocked" lol

Pretty happy year for me though . . . nothing to worry about . . . at certain time just thought of some err old yet sweet memories i had with some particular person . . . but well ^^ when you embrace the right emotions . . . whatever s*it you're facing in front of you would be easily overcome ^^

Before 2006 ends . . . i wish you readers all the best in the coming new year . . . those waiting for girlfriend or boyfriend to drop onto your lap please start taking initiative because it doesn't happen when you just dream about it ^^ you make your dream come true by taking action . . .

Do your best in whatever you are doing and to those who are getting married this coming 2007 DON'T FORGET ME ON THE WEDDING INVITATION LIST YOU HEAR ME ! ! !

Those who are going army soon . . . i would tell you " WELCOME TO THE ARMY " :P

Lastly . . . "Hey there , i'm not sure if this is going to reach you or not . . . but from the last few conversation we had way back , i think you are doing pretty well in every aspect of your life . . . though things gets a bit rough at times i feel that you have the abilities to overcome it . . . because thats what you are made up of ^^ stay strong , stay cheerful and be happy."

Heres me and puiyee ^^  

Nice right ^^ A gentle side of Puiyee~  

DAMM unfair . . . i ordered the wrong one . . . T_T see what the rest got for desert . . .  

MY CHOCOLATE CAKE -_- Miserable one 

Puyiee and Yiting ^^ . . . Are you going to ask me to remove this picture ? ? ? 

Couple of the Day ^^ . . . Edmund and Yiting ! ! ! Don't try to get Ting because Edmund will send you right to jail ^^  

Kenny eyeing something . . . ~  

A pose from Simone ^^ Great Smile there ^^ 

VOLA Simone and Kenny at . . . NYDC Christmas EVE's SPeciaL 

Long WeekEnd ^^

Its good to have long weekend ^^ . . .

But T_T I injured myself . . . think i stressed out my right arm too much while doing the standard obstacle course . . . bla~ can't lift up my arm without feeling a sharp pain at the joint . . . think it will recover by itself ^^ can't disclose too much stuff i do in SISPEC . . . don't wish to get sent to detention barrack for something i post here so ^^ whats the way to know more ? Join the army yourself :P

Its tough mentally when you have to learn one thing today and you have to be tested on it tomorrow . . . grades would be given and how well you do determines where you go next . . .

My time so far taught me to make decision faster . . . not to brood over certain things that often . . . issues which i have no control over would not linger in my mind anymore . . .

Heres what i told a buddy of mine

"Can you gurantee you would still be alive tomorrow ? No right !
Did it occur to you that one day you will aged and die ? You're too occupied with other things to think about yourself right ? ( Nodding his head )
Then what the hell are you doing now ?
Treat everyday as your last , spend sometime for yourself and i'm sure it would benefit you more then what you are doing to yourself now . . . "

Anyway his girlfriend finally realise hes the she need . . . hes a blissful man now and in OCS . . . he still owe me root beer for the bet i had with him LOL . . . though we're just a few KM apart in terms of distance we still encourage each other to move forward because of the tough training we go through .

Are you making use of every seconds of your life ? . . .

BACK

Err . . . i almost wanted to give up on the first day when i went in to SISPEC . . . probably because of the environment . . . We didn't get scolded , didn't get punished but it just felt so uneasy . . . very uneasy . . . i just don't feel that i can get through all this . . . basically i got no confidence in myself . . . but as the days pass by i slowly adpated to the way of life there . . . i'm not sure what my second week is going to be like but i guess i will just hang on for 8 more weeks till i graduate ^^ . . . Pretty stressful when you become the Section Commander . . . responsible for everyone's existence . . . Oh well . . . The physical training there is WOA ! Up 10 levels compared to BMT -_-

Yesterday i did the 4 km Endurance run with Boots and Vest only . . . about few hundreds metre to the end i started to walk LOL . . . i can't keep up with their pace because the front man is running too fast than he should be !#!@#!@#! mind you its not a straight road . . . its full of up slope and down slope . . . but still manage to finish it because Lenard keep urging me to go on . . . its funny when you can run faster in IPPT but when it comes to Endurance Run i can't keep up . . . LOL have to admit i'm not combat fit T_T

But well ^^ What doesn't kills you only makes you stronger right ^^ . . . In Sispec we must start to use our rusty brain lol . . . Lots of lectures and physical training awaits . . . not to forget COUNTLESSS OF OUT FIELD TRAINING . . . PLEASE STOP RAINING ITS GOING TO GET REAL MUDDY . . . don't wish to crawl in mud . . . T_T centipedes would be swimming into my shirt T_T . . . HELPPPP !!! LOL

Are you guys well ? Its rainy season and i think most of the people would start catching colds . . . stay healthy ^^ and enjoy this coming Christmas and New Year ^^ . . .

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year people ^^

So whats my wish for christmas ? Mm . . . To be extremely happy on that day ^^

ARGHHH . . .

I'm going to report to camp in like 7 hours time . . .

Lots of butterflies in my stomach . . .

Argh command school . . . .

Argh . . . T_T 10 weeks . . .

Anxious . . . . whats going to come . . . oh boy . . . .~

Yet at the same time . . . i know i will look back one day and laugh at all this life experiences ^^

It will be over before i know it ^^ ( I hope so )

See you folks this coming weekend again . . .

Ahaha Specialist ^^

Combat Spec . . .

Going to report to Sispec on Monday . . . i guess its going to be another hell for 3 months . . .

LOL but well its what i have to go through ^^ Then there will come a day where i can lead 7 men under my wings ^^ Isn't that good ? You do things together . . . and you suffer together . . . thats where bonds begin . . . same for relationship right ? Except what couples endure is totally different . . . logically it still applies . . .

Going to wear that smelly helmet again . . . T_T LoL buts its not that bad when you have many others suffering like you . . .

Going for ball game later ^^ see you folks ^^

MIDNIGHT SUN . . .

Go catch the movie ! ! !

I went to watch with zhiyong and he rate it 4/5 . . .

Though the whole cinema only got less than 10 people . . .

I'm not sure if many can appreciate this but . . . if you like 1 litre no namida . . . or you're into japanese drama . . . this is a must ! ! !

Check this video in youtube ^^ heres a short movie preview
MUST WATCH . . .

Very cute Yui ^^

SisPEC ! ! !

Posted to SISPEC . . . INFT LDR

With me are David , Zhiyong , Shixiag . . . MORE TO COME . . .

Though i lost Dickson to OCS lol but all the best to him still . . . thats what he wanted and this is what i wanted ^^ . . .

More upcoming news . . . going to donate blood . . .

Great Day Great Ladies ^^ And i had a great time . . .

Do i need to say more ?

Woke up pretty late . . . OH BOY block leave is ending soon ! ! ! Argh i wonder where will i be posted to . . . but anyway it was a great wednesday for me . . .

I rush a few episode of Shakugan No Shana before i went to meet Lady Felicia for coffee ^^ . . . Saw her cousin and her sister ^^ pretty ladies like Felicia too, i guess the genes runs in the family . . . But i think i too fearful for the two little girls . . . but i was busying thinking of ways to enlighten Hao Jie Mei lol . . .

Talk with Felicia for over 2 hours plus plus . . . my longest conversation with her so far . . . it does shed some light about her too ^^ and i wonder how was it for her . . . By the way Felicia you look great today ^^ that new hairstyle looks great too ^^ .

Next up i went to meet Shuning after during her dinner break . . . I can't remember whats that restaurant call but WOA the Skewer Prawn is GOOD . . . Its at Marina Square by the way :P Just a pity i only had one hour with her ^^ So she went back to mind her job . . . Busy me walking around looking at various stuff . . . the sakae sushi setting at Marina was cool . . . but well i don't like to dine there anymore . . . there are better places for me to try sushi ^^ HohOHo

Then i rush down to catch a movie with Zhiyang . . . actually Hush and Weiyang was suppose to come but LOL hell i mixed up some stuff so only left me and Zhiyang . . . Eragon . . . mm . . . so so and there is a sequal to it . . .

I came across another upcoming movie which is a JAPANESE MOVIE " MIDNIGHT SUN " . MUST WATCH OK PEOPLE . . .

Dying Girl . . . Love Boy . . . Record songs . . . Immortalise Her voice . . . Bla Bla BLa

Get it ? :P

Never felt any better than this day . . . Guess i spoke the most today lol . . . So much for today I have things to attend to :P

Oh cousin going BangKok Again . . . and i have to report to CAMP myself T_T no more free rides for a while :P

Hey enjoy the festive seasons ok people . . . Christmas is coming , i'm sure all your wishes will be granted . . . If it doesn't its ok because theres Christmas next year also . . . Just keep wishing and don't give up on your wish ^^

OK enough said . . . Bye Peeps ^^

Topic ?

Freed ^^ . . . Nothing to do . . . come here type rubbish . . .

Went J8 last night by myself . . . Bought one regular "Ultimate"

Woo hoo that coffee nice ! :P

Bought a lot of food home . . .

Saw this shirt at U2 but no more Medium size !#!@#@!#!

Lots of babes there when i went ahah . . . even the assistant at SnK is so lovely :P

No good movies to watch too lately . . . mm . . .

Going out later again ^^