YiJie and Me at Furnance ! Very HOT !
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Thursday, July 07, 2005
A shocking news
Read the papers my dear friends ? or have you heard from the radio ? that a 16 year old boy jump to his death at his girlfriend HDB flat .
I was doing my usual filing work with YiJie and we were listening to radio and i happen to hear this .
What went wrong ? The girlfriend 17 year old wanted a break up with the boy but he cannot take it so he jump to his death . . . their relationship was 9 months if i wasn't wrong . So after listening to those psychaistrist i feel that its really true . . . when you cast your life into relationship your life revolves around him/her alone only . . . you will definately feel the loss of everything when that person leave you eventually . Forlorn of all hope . . . love . . . care . . everything . . life become meaningless for you . I can understand how this guy feel . . . i had that experience before and it was really tough in the begining . . . so i'm still picking up things slowly . The mum of this guy must be feeling utter depressed . . . miserable you should say . . . I feel sorry for him really . . . there is a chance for him to win the girl back if he is alive or even meet other girl but now . . . he did not see anything after the breakup . . . all he could see is darkness and eternal lonliness .
My words to him if i was there in front of him
" Life is a gift to each and everyone . . . should you fall and hurt yourself badly . . . i will be there to pull you out no matter how long it takes . . . you may have made mistake in this relationship but that doesn't mean you cannot become a better person . . . it may be tough but time heals . . . life can still be beautiful without a relationship . . . you will meet the right one in time to come . . . trust me"
My advice would be : A breakup may not be a bad thing in life . . it will make you understand more about yourself and become a better person . Though its always hard to take that very step but you must look far out into life and not just infront of you. Life is never smooth sailing you have to taste a lot of colours in life in order to appreciate the beauty of life. Letting go isn't such a bad thing . . . this is just a phase of life each and everyone of us go through . . . always look beyond whats infront of you . . .
Mum : "hey i heard that laser surgey for the face cost 5k ! but its ok son you go do it i pay first ! next time earn back pay me . ( smile ) "
My mother is wonderful . . . as usual i notice her smile ever since she held my hand . . .
Love isn't about being there always . . . love has to be felt . . . care and love goes hand in hand
Initiative plays a role . . . to feel love you need to care . . . you don't care how would you love
It comes from inside and not from outside . . . its just there sometimes without haing you to do anything . . .
Take care folks
I was doing my usual filing work with YiJie and we were listening to radio and i happen to hear this .
What went wrong ? The girlfriend 17 year old wanted a break up with the boy but he cannot take it so he jump to his death . . . their relationship was 9 months if i wasn't wrong . So after listening to those psychaistrist i feel that its really true . . . when you cast your life into relationship your life revolves around him/her alone only . . . you will definately feel the loss of everything when that person leave you eventually . Forlorn of all hope . . . love . . . care . . everything . . life become meaningless for you . I can understand how this guy feel . . . i had that experience before and it was really tough in the begining . . . so i'm still picking up things slowly . The mum of this guy must be feeling utter depressed . . . miserable you should say . . . I feel sorry for him really . . . there is a chance for him to win the girl back if he is alive or even meet other girl but now . . . he did not see anything after the breakup . . . all he could see is darkness and eternal lonliness .
My words to him if i was there in front of him
" Life is a gift to each and everyone . . . should you fall and hurt yourself badly . . . i will be there to pull you out no matter how long it takes . . . you may have made mistake in this relationship but that doesn't mean you cannot become a better person . . . it may be tough but time heals . . . life can still be beautiful without a relationship . . . you will meet the right one in time to come . . . trust me"
My advice would be : A breakup may not be a bad thing in life . . it will make you understand more about yourself and become a better person . Though its always hard to take that very step but you must look far out into life and not just infront of you. Life is never smooth sailing you have to taste a lot of colours in life in order to appreciate the beauty of life. Letting go isn't such a bad thing . . . this is just a phase of life each and everyone of us go through . . . always look beyond whats infront of you . . .
Mum : "hey i heard that laser surgey for the face cost 5k ! but its ok son you go do it i pay first ! next time earn back pay me . ( smile ) "
My mother is wonderful . . . as usual i notice her smile ever since she held my hand . . .
Love isn't about being there always . . . love has to be felt . . . care and love goes hand in hand
Initiative plays a role . . . to feel love you need to care . . . you don't care how would you love
It comes from inside and not from outside . . . its just there sometimes without haing you to do anything . . .
Take care folks
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
I found this somewhere . . . take a moment to read
A girl in love asked her boyfriend.
Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?
Boy: You, of course!
Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?
The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said,
Boy: "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"
The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted,
"Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"
Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while.
He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.
Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way.Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."
Five years went by...He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.
In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.
One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them.
She smiled at him gently.
Boy: How are you?
Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?
Boy: No.
Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.
With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.Good bye...
One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world.Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.
Wenhao : Its funny how people come to learn that they were wrong after so long . . . . as i had mention before the decision you made today may not be a right one tomorrow . . .
The medication effect is weak ! i don't feel tired at all . . . >.<
Sick
I'm down . . . tired ! I didn't went to work today because i feel so dizzy when i woke up ! I guess partly is because i did not have enough sleep lately plus last night i seriously can't get to sleep which i don't know why . . .
Now i must go down to polyclinic to get MC for my supervisor.
Life has been rather smooth sailing for quite some time . . . yet smooth sailing journey also means that i feel kind of lonely at times . . . Well i guess this is just a phase of life too . . .
Is this fate or is this destiny ? I wonder . . . what the future has for me . . . i hope to graduate soon from poly . . . i just wish to leave this place as soon as possible to start another new phase of my life . . . who will i meet ? who will i end up with ? I dare not think about it anymore . . . its beyond my control how things could happen right in front of you . . . before you can even react
changes would have been made . . .
Two more days to go . . . i'm looking forward to weekends . . . to go out with friends . . .
I'm tired . . . but yet my heart never rest . . . why . . . . . .
Now i must go down to polyclinic to get MC for my supervisor.
Life has been rather smooth sailing for quite some time . . . yet smooth sailing journey also means that i feel kind of lonely at times . . . Well i guess this is just a phase of life too . . .
Is this fate or is this destiny ? I wonder . . . what the future has for me . . . i hope to graduate soon from poly . . . i just wish to leave this place as soon as possible to start another new phase of my life . . . who will i meet ? who will i end up with ? I dare not think about it anymore . . . its beyond my control how things could happen right in front of you . . . before you can even react
changes would have been made . . .
Two more days to go . . . i'm looking forward to weekends . . . to go out with friends . . .
I'm tired . . . but yet my heart never rest . . . why . . . . . .
Monday, July 04, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
What the !
Was talking to my sister about this guy who is wooing her . . . guess what he did !!!
He cut his arms ! and posted the pictures on MSN ! to show her friend ! he did this i think because of my sister ! OMG !
Actually its not such a big deal i seen such cases in secondary school . . . i still remember her lets call her P . P comes from a very complex family background and she mixes around with lots of bad company. She cut her wrist many times and tell me its nothing ! it feels good . . . wait before you condem such person think . . . why would one inflict such pain onto one self ? Do you know what he/she is going through ? I found out for this guy who is wooing her has some family problems . . . kind of similiar to P back then . . . i also during my working life come across such adults who undergo depression did such things . . . they are those silent pain inflicters.
People like me ah who feel depress, will like cry father cry mother say want to die want to get knock down by car all this but we don't do it because we are chickens !! Its releasing the pain by saying rubbish which sane people won't do it but well try not to say so much otherwise people may mistaken .
Back to P and this Guy . . . I became P's friend for a while and talk to her . . . slowly she open up to me and i realise her pain , though i can't really understand the pain but as time pass she become better . . . didn't cut herself so much but she quit school soon after . . . i think few years back i saw her on the street and shes smiling at me as usual . . . shes ok now perfectly fine and very cheerful . . . the Guy who is wooing my sister i think is either ATTENTION SEEKER ? or reallY NEEDS HELP but i guess i don't know him but he walks my sister home last time . . . now my sister don't want him to send but if he insist ah ! wahahaha i go down fetch her la lolx ! If he try funny things on my sister ! i very sure he won't be able to walk anyone home again . . .
I wonder what will happen to this guy . . . but oh well can't be bothered so long he doesn't bother my sister . . . at least woo a girl in a right manner man ! talk to her is enough already ! the rest takes time !
Performance training tomorrow night !!!!! going to be so tired !!!!
He cut his arms ! and posted the pictures on MSN ! to show her friend ! he did this i think because of my sister ! OMG !
Actually its not such a big deal i seen such cases in secondary school . . . i still remember her lets call her P . P comes from a very complex family background and she mixes around with lots of bad company. She cut her wrist many times and tell me its nothing ! it feels good . . . wait before you condem such person think . . . why would one inflict such pain onto one self ? Do you know what he/she is going through ? I found out for this guy who is wooing her has some family problems . . . kind of similiar to P back then . . . i also during my working life come across such adults who undergo depression did such things . . . they are those silent pain inflicters.
People like me ah who feel depress, will like cry father cry mother say want to die want to get knock down by car all this but we don't do it because we are chickens !! Its releasing the pain by saying rubbish which sane people won't do it but well try not to say so much otherwise people may mistaken .
Back to P and this Guy . . . I became P's friend for a while and talk to her . . . slowly she open up to me and i realise her pain , though i can't really understand the pain but as time pass she become better . . . didn't cut herself so much but she quit school soon after . . . i think few years back i saw her on the street and shes smiling at me as usual . . . shes ok now perfectly fine and very cheerful . . . the Guy who is wooing my sister i think is either ATTENTION SEEKER ? or reallY NEEDS HELP but i guess i don't know him but he walks my sister home last time . . . now my sister don't want him to send but if he insist ah ! wahahaha i go down fetch her la lolx ! If he try funny things on my sister ! i very sure he won't be able to walk anyone home again . . .
I wonder what will happen to this guy . . . but oh well can't be bothered so long he doesn't bother my sister . . . at least woo a girl in a right manner man ! talk to her is enough already ! the rest takes time !
Performance training tomorrow night !!!!! going to be so tired !!!!
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Dreams
Been dreaming a lot lately . . . i mean dreaming in my sleep . . . it was a sweet dream always but as it is . . . will only be a dream . . . cannot happen at all .
Went for my half dress performance training at DaMai secondary school and it was superb although i am a bit clumsy when trying to find my spot to stand . . . . I'm doing the first row wave and not in the tower stacking anymore . . . but still serve as a backup in case those baseman becomes so tired . . . to carry on.
So hows my attachement . . . can't really say much about it but i guess i just have to go through it positively . . boring you may say or rather its easy to doze off there.
Cut my hair till short short which makes me look real . . . fierce . . .well i wonder who will approach me with this look ^.^
Yesterday was pretty fun. . . watched Initial D with Kenny , Nigel , Allan , and later on we had CK , Weehiong , Ernest to join us for dinner at Lao Pa Sa~ The portion we ordered was too much and the LALA was EWWW~~~ very sticky . . . i think not fresh . Before we actually eat we took a walk a marina there with a lot of army guys there practising for NDP and PLANES ! Cool . . . the sound of air craft rip through the skies though its defeaning but its very COOL. . . to fly high without limits . . . thats what i want . . . Weehiong work on your turnings ! We almost puke when we sat in your car ! *joking* Thanks for the ride by the way.
A sentence i heard today from a friend of mine . . . hes a teacher by the way
" Whatever decision you made now may not be a right one in the future "
Went for my half dress performance training at DaMai secondary school and it was superb although i am a bit clumsy when trying to find my spot to stand . . . . I'm doing the first row wave and not in the tower stacking anymore . . . but still serve as a backup in case those baseman becomes so tired . . . to carry on.
So hows my attachement . . . can't really say much about it but i guess i just have to go through it positively . . boring you may say or rather its easy to doze off there.
Cut my hair till short short which makes me look real . . . fierce . . .well i wonder who will approach me with this look ^.^
Yesterday was pretty fun. . . watched Initial D with Kenny , Nigel , Allan , and later on we had CK , Weehiong , Ernest to join us for dinner at Lao Pa Sa~ The portion we ordered was too much and the LALA was EWWW~~~ very sticky . . . i think not fresh . Before we actually eat we took a walk a marina there with a lot of army guys there practising for NDP and PLANES ! Cool . . . the sound of air craft rip through the skies though its defeaning but its very COOL. . . to fly high without limits . . . thats what i want . . . Weehiong work on your turnings ! We almost puke when we sat in your car ! *joking* Thanks for the ride by the way.
A sentence i heard today from a friend of mine . . . hes a teacher by the way
" Whatever decision you made now may not be a right one in the future "
Thursday, June 23, 2005
No items for blog
Did too much exercise now i got shaky hands . . . very rough palms cause never wear those gloves for carrying gloves . . . shall update more about my attachement and photos . . . . stay tune . . .
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Monday, June 20, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
A tiring day
Went for the YCF training today . . . was a rehersal for all the Headquaters but not for mine because of a sudden change in formation so we did not rehearse while the rest put up a really nice show though its just only a rehersal . I saw lots of people there this time not all men because Headquaters 1 and 2 comprises of a lot of ladies . . . the dancers are very graceful and charming ! Will be getting the tickets for the event and THE ACTUAL performance is 2 weeks later will be performing for 3 consecutive weekends . . . I was sloted into the front doing human waves ! and formation ! Going to face a lot of VIPS so hope i get to have early release from Exxon Mobil on wednesday and friday . . . need to go for practice ! and see the dancers !
On the way to my grandmother house i fell asleep on the train . . . was suppose to alight at Yio Chu Kang Mrt but i slept till Orchard ! I think its because someone nudge me suddenly which work me up . . . was kind of embarassed to actually miss my stop . . . feeling so weird when i stood up and trying to squeeze my way out ! Brother Ah Cong has ORDed already and he got into SIM doing marketing degree . . . and he told me " hey lets set up a shop " just a causual chat but i think its possible to me . . .Ok i shall stop here will be posting some changi airport photos taken recently ^.^
On the way to my grandmother house i fell asleep on the train . . . was suppose to alight at Yio Chu Kang Mrt but i slept till Orchard ! I think its because someone nudge me suddenly which work me up . . . was kind of embarassed to actually miss my stop . . . feeling so weird when i stood up and trying to squeeze my way out ! Brother Ah Cong has ORDed already and he got into SIM doing marketing degree . . . and he told me " hey lets set up a shop " just a causual chat but i think its possible to me . . .Ok i shall stop here will be posting some changi airport photos taken recently ^.^
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Friday, June 17, 2005
Closing the door
Tired . . . really feel tired .
Thanks for everything . . .
I'm closing the door . . .
I'm searching for something . . .
I cannot find it . . .
Let me find it . . .
I will get it . . .
You're out . . . forever . . .don't come knocking
I won't answer . . . not to you . . .
Time to rest . . .
Going for 1 year training to get into OCS ! If possible pilot position in army . . . Kenny better pray for me when i in camp . . . Tired tired . . . Still got stuff not completed . . .
Thanks for everything . . .
I'm closing the door . . .
I'm searching for something . . .
I cannot find it . . .
Let me find it . . .
I will get it . . .
You're out . . . forever . . .don't come knocking
I won't answer . . . not to you . . .
Time to rest . . .
Going for 1 year training to get into OCS ! If possible pilot position in army . . . Kenny better pray for me when i in camp . . . Tired tired . . . Still got stuff not completed . . .
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Monday, June 13, 2005
Tired
Do you remember the first day we met even now?
You looked abashed, hanging your head
And turning your eyes away
I wonder when such a manner became so dear to me
It makes me feel a little nostalgic
Don't you feel so?
Many seasons have passed by
With quick steps since then
When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again
We talked overnight about our future and the moments
I felt they were so dazzling and precious
Tears welled up in my eyes
When I thought it would be nice
That I could forgive my past some day
When the white snow melts
And the city becomes vivid and colorful
I like to keep you closest
To my heart
The days we couldn't understand each other and parted
The days of tears, the days of smiling faces
Whatever may happen and whatever mood you may be in
I'll always accept you
Carols . . .Sung by Ayumi
Tired . . . just tired . . . Slept for 4 hours only ^.^ falling down soon . . .
I wish to be like rain . . . which connects the never-intersecting sky and earth . . .
Night shift at CPTC is certainly boring at times but i kept myself busy . . . was throwing stones with Neyton. We try to hit the stones which is so small and quite a distance from us . . . eventually we hit it . . . how many tries did it take ? I guess we have been sitting there for almost 1 hour plus before we hit anything . . . Neyton is a very persistant guy that i admire him for that . . . as my days in CPTC is running out the number of days to know those in my class shortened . . . just when everything was picking up . . . everything seems to be coming to an end . . . i guess i reach out to some already and the response was pretty good ^.^ slowly ~ Once i have nothing to do i will leave this place as i had told Esther . . . but where ? I guess still far for me to decide on that . . . Ryan told me only 4 pilots will be selected every year ! Can you imagine the chances ! But not going to give up on being a pilot thats a dream i wish i can fufilled . . .my sister rebonded her hair lately looks so pretty now . . . Nigel you cannot have her ^.^ . . .
Don't give up dreaming . . . its the only place where nothing is impossible . . .
You looked abashed, hanging your head
And turning your eyes away
I wonder when such a manner became so dear to me
It makes me feel a little nostalgic
Don't you feel so?
Many seasons have passed by
With quick steps since then
When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again
We talked overnight about our future and the moments
I felt they were so dazzling and precious
Tears welled up in my eyes
When I thought it would be nice
That I could forgive my past some day
When the white snow melts
And the city becomes vivid and colorful
I like to keep you closest
To my heart
The days we couldn't understand each other and parted
The days of tears, the days of smiling faces
Whatever may happen and whatever mood you may be in
I'll always accept you
Carols . . .Sung by Ayumi
Tired . . . just tired . . . Slept for 4 hours only ^.^ falling down soon . . .
I wish to be like rain . . . which connects the never-intersecting sky and earth . . .
Night shift at CPTC is certainly boring at times but i kept myself busy . . . was throwing stones with Neyton. We try to hit the stones which is so small and quite a distance from us . . . eventually we hit it . . . how many tries did it take ? I guess we have been sitting there for almost 1 hour plus before we hit anything . . . Neyton is a very persistant guy that i admire him for that . . . as my days in CPTC is running out the number of days to know those in my class shortened . . . just when everything was picking up . . . everything seems to be coming to an end . . . i guess i reach out to some already and the response was pretty good ^.^ slowly ~ Once i have nothing to do i will leave this place as i had told Esther . . . but where ? I guess still far for me to decide on that . . . Ryan told me only 4 pilots will be selected every year ! Can you imagine the chances ! But not going to give up on being a pilot thats a dream i wish i can fufilled . . .my sister rebonded her hair lately looks so pretty now . . . Nigel you cannot have her ^.^ . . .
Don't give up dreaming . . . its the only place where nothing is impossible . . .
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Saturday, June 11, 2005
The value of time
I'm seriously lacking of sleep . . . possible cause would be irregular sleeping hour . . . Did not slept for 48 hours in total and i'm still alive and kicking but probably i will get red shot eyes soon or perhaps headache but i guess the napping time i had in Jurong CPTC did help me get some rest .
Pretty fun day there but realise that someone wasn't meant to be in our group . . . can't really say hes bad but he likes to do things without asking everyone . . . what for you need a group when you don't participate ? Well i don't like to go on about this person but i can say he should be thrown into the crocodile pit in reptile park . . . whatever happens next i hope God bless him.
Had a lot of blister on my foot when i play soccer barefooted and now i'm having difficulty walking . After my handover shift to another group i took a ride on Wiro's bike to meet up with Yiting . . . Puiyee . . . Ee Mei . . . Nigel . . . Kenny . . . Allan . Was pretty amaze with Ee Mei explosive hairstyle but she still looks perfect overall . . . except she became fair .
Feli~ ask me one question today is her face rounder ? I took a look and nod my head she almost came to silence me . . . >.< i guess shes happy . . . when a person is happy normally they would indulge in food i guess . . . thats perhaps true to some extent . But its ok guys still find you attractive so theres no need to worry yet . . . but if you keep that up perhaps you might face some problem but it should be ok . . .
So what is my title for todays blog ? " The value of time " howcome i set that as a title ? Sherri posted on my blog howcome i'm so busy . . . The reason why i'm busy is because i wish to keep my life full of colours and happiness . . . and also to value time . Time keeps going non stop so its best not to let any slipped pass you without making full use of it. . . I have a friend who quit poly and went to private school and she quit it again . . . i ask her so what do you do when you are free ? She : Enjoying myself . . . i feel that shes making full use of her time even though shes not studying which to some may be seen as a waste of time but to me she is doing great . . . as long as you feel you are not wasting your time around you should go ahead and do it but of course there are things which has to be done . . . the value of time would be determine by how you use your time . . . if you use it wisely it will be priceless . ..if you misuse it . . it will become a junk .
Also time will make you look at things in a different perspective perhaps it change a person over time . . . sometimes you have to learn to view things from a different angle and not be so headstrong and refuse to budge . . . you only make yourself suffer . . . as to how you can see things in a different angle its up to your life experiences . . . as you fall down you must pick yourself up . . . look back and run further up the hill and as you go higher it will become a tiny spot to remind you of your life experiences you had gone through. . .
When u fall down . . . you bleed if you hurt yourself . . . you may feel tired to move . . . you may feel like giving up . . . but do you know . . . its ok to fall down . . . Babies who learn to walk also fall down but after crying they will just pick themself up and walk again . . . they learn how to walk slowly even though they fall . . . sailors don't just stop sailing when they cannot see land, they will just continue to sail until they find a place to settle down. . .
so why should we stop when we fall . . .
Pretty fun day there but realise that someone wasn't meant to be in our group . . . can't really say hes bad but he likes to do things without asking everyone . . . what for you need a group when you don't participate ? Well i don't like to go on about this person but i can say he should be thrown into the crocodile pit in reptile park . . . whatever happens next i hope God bless him.
Had a lot of blister on my foot when i play soccer barefooted and now i'm having difficulty walking . After my handover shift to another group i took a ride on Wiro's bike to meet up with Yiting . . . Puiyee . . . Ee Mei . . . Nigel . . . Kenny . . . Allan . Was pretty amaze with Ee Mei explosive hairstyle but she still looks perfect overall . . . except she became fair .
Feli~ ask me one question today is her face rounder ? I took a look and nod my head she almost came to silence me . . . >.< i guess shes happy . . . when a person is happy normally they would indulge in food i guess . . . thats perhaps true to some extent . But its ok guys still find you attractive so theres no need to worry yet . . . but if you keep that up perhaps you might face some problem but it should be ok . . .
So what is my title for todays blog ? " The value of time " howcome i set that as a title ? Sherri posted on my blog howcome i'm so busy . . . The reason why i'm busy is because i wish to keep my life full of colours and happiness . . . and also to value time . Time keeps going non stop so its best not to let any slipped pass you without making full use of it. . . I have a friend who quit poly and went to private school and she quit it again . . . i ask her so what do you do when you are free ? She : Enjoying myself . . . i feel that shes making full use of her time even though shes not studying which to some may be seen as a waste of time but to me she is doing great . . . as long as you feel you are not wasting your time around you should go ahead and do it but of course there are things which has to be done . . . the value of time would be determine by how you use your time . . . if you use it wisely it will be priceless . ..if you misuse it . . it will become a junk .
Also time will make you look at things in a different perspective perhaps it change a person over time . . . sometimes you have to learn to view things from a different angle and not be so headstrong and refuse to budge . . . you only make yourself suffer . . . as to how you can see things in a different angle its up to your life experiences . . . as you fall down you must pick yourself up . . . look back and run further up the hill and as you go higher it will become a tiny spot to remind you of your life experiences you had gone through. . .
When u fall down . . . you bleed if you hurt yourself . . . you may feel tired to move . . . you may feel like giving up . . . but do you know . . . its ok to fall down . . . Babies who learn to walk also fall down but after crying they will just pick themself up and walk again . . . they learn how to walk slowly even though they fall . . . sailors don't just stop sailing when they cannot see land, they will just continue to sail until they find a place to settle down. . .
so why should we stop when we fall . . .
Friday, June 10, 2005
A kite story
Woke up late today . . . was suppose to reach bedok at 11am but end up reached at 11.30 . Today was pretty good ! A day filled with Rain . . . Rainbows . . .Scorching Sun . . . Tasty Food . . .and a beautiful day .
Meet up with Shanyu , Lili , Aishah , Mei Mei , Shixiang and Neyton to go ECP because Shanyu and Mei Mei want to learn to ride bicycle. At first the rain came as soon as we settle down but it went away . . . Perhaps someone was feeling sad . . . Soon after we got the Bicycles ! Mei Mei had a bad fall when trying to make a turn . I guess it hurts pretty bad . . . well theres always a first time . . . A rainbow appear all of a sudden when droplets of rain fell . . . it was beautiful .
SO what about the kite story ?
The wind came . . . i decided to fly kite . . . i bought a 6 bucks Kite and it flew high up into the sky but it got tangled to a tree branch . . . had no choice but to snapped it . . . the kite line was fixed back with a not . . . and it went up into the sky again but not long after it started to crash as it tilted to one side of the wings . . . had a hard time getting it up with Neyton . What was so sad about this kite, is that when it was high up again after the line break and refixed the kite gave way and the line snapped from it . . . the kite flew away . . . i went chasing after it . . . when i located it i cannot get it down from a tree . . .I tried . . . i really tried . . . branches , slippers all this i use . . . but it just will not come back to me . . . Neyton said " let it go " the rest too told me to let go . . . Neyton got another kite for me this time a cheaper one $5.50 and i use the line from the old kite and the new kite . . . this time the kite flew even higher and was so stable in the high sky . . . even when rain fell upon it , it still manage to stay up there . . . it was this time the rainbow appear . . . soon we attached the line to a place so it will stay there . . . but some morons kick the stick which kept the kite stable . . . and there it goes ! the kite flew so far so high i tried to grab hold of the line but it just fly away . . . eventually it got stuck but it was still flying except the line was stucked to a tree . . . i feel sad when i lost the first kite . . . the second kite was there flying still . . . i thought i lost it for good . . . when we were returning back home . . . i went to search for the new kite . . . it was there on a tree as well but it was reachable . . . though the rest think it was not possible at first . . . aishah : ah hao doesn't give up . . . yes i did not just let it stay up there . . . soon after several trhwos from me and neyton we manage to get the kite loose but the wind pick up and almost blew the kite off . . . we tried jumping and jumping and neyton got hold of the kite and there the kite return back to me ! i went to look for the kite which got stuck earlier hopping it would fall down . . .but it did not i tried throwing another stick to get it but the stick too got stucked up there . . . aishah : don't be greedy .... stick to this kite and let the other go . . . i left without looking back . . . that kite wasn't meant to be mine . . . very happy to get the new kite back . . .
Sometimes giving a second chance may not result in the best possible ending but its worth trying . . . even if things do not work out you may still want to try doing something after you failed . If all is lost you just let it go~ . . . slowly because you tried your best . . .
A new hope is always around . . . when my new kite was up in the sky i was happy but when it flew off i did not feel so sad again . . . if its meant to be mine it will be . . . true enough the kite came back the wind did help after all . . . but if i just did not try to get it back you think the kite will just come to me ? To forgive is to give you and the other person a chance to try out again be it friends or love its the same . . . unless you do not believe that the person can do it then perhaps you would not give that person a chance . . . if there is no such belief in the person then don't even think about being with the person . . .you would only hurt that person. . . everyone is kind everyone can change but its just how they go about it , how you bring and encourage them to change for the better . . . Its not about filling up your partner's heart . . . its about bringing out the best of each other and be happy , even a quarrel can be a good thing . . . Don't run away from anything just faced it . . . Yes the kite is now resting on my desk i will take it out and let it fly again. . . .
Don't pull the string too tightly . . . the line will snapped . . .
Don't let it go too far from you . . . it might never return . . .
Strike a balance and it will forever be yours . . . but is that easy ? Its up to you . . .
Everything comes with a price . . . i thought the most expensive kite is good but it wasn't and my $6 bucks kite flew off . . . . sometimes what you put in may not pay off but do not dismay your effort will never go unnoticed . . . it may not be recognised to the one you intent to but someone by the side can see it . . .
Go find the kite that truly belongs to you . . . let those kite which choose to fly away from you go . . . let them find their true owner . . . if you put the effort to care and forgive you will . . . a 2nd chance is necessary . . . nothing can be succeeded in the first run . . . unless you are so lucky but most probably you are not . . . if no one forgives and give another person a chance . . . truly the world will be a sad place to be in . . . but i know there are people out there who share the same belief with me . . . 2nd chance . . . i know its worth it .
Meet up with Shanyu , Lili , Aishah , Mei Mei , Shixiang and Neyton to go ECP because Shanyu and Mei Mei want to learn to ride bicycle. At first the rain came as soon as we settle down but it went away . . . Perhaps someone was feeling sad . . . Soon after we got the Bicycles ! Mei Mei had a bad fall when trying to make a turn . I guess it hurts pretty bad . . . well theres always a first time . . . A rainbow appear all of a sudden when droplets of rain fell . . . it was beautiful .
SO what about the kite story ?
The wind came . . . i decided to fly kite . . . i bought a 6 bucks Kite and it flew high up into the sky but it got tangled to a tree branch . . . had no choice but to snapped it . . . the kite line was fixed back with a not . . . and it went up into the sky again but not long after it started to crash as it tilted to one side of the wings . . . had a hard time getting it up with Neyton . What was so sad about this kite, is that when it was high up again after the line break and refixed the kite gave way and the line snapped from it . . . the kite flew away . . . i went chasing after it . . . when i located it i cannot get it down from a tree . . .I tried . . . i really tried . . . branches , slippers all this i use . . . but it just will not come back to me . . . Neyton said " let it go " the rest too told me to let go . . . Neyton got another kite for me this time a cheaper one $5.50 and i use the line from the old kite and the new kite . . . this time the kite flew even higher and was so stable in the high sky . . . even when rain fell upon it , it still manage to stay up there . . . it was this time the rainbow appear . . . soon we attached the line to a place so it will stay there . . . but some morons kick the stick which kept the kite stable . . . and there it goes ! the kite flew so far so high i tried to grab hold of the line but it just fly away . . . eventually it got stuck but it was still flying except the line was stucked to a tree . . . i feel sad when i lost the first kite . . . the second kite was there flying still . . . i thought i lost it for good . . . when we were returning back home . . . i went to search for the new kite . . . it was there on a tree as well but it was reachable . . . though the rest think it was not possible at first . . . aishah : ah hao doesn't give up . . . yes i did not just let it stay up there . . . soon after several trhwos from me and neyton we manage to get the kite loose but the wind pick up and almost blew the kite off . . . we tried jumping and jumping and neyton got hold of the kite and there the kite return back to me ! i went to look for the kite which got stuck earlier hopping it would fall down . . .but it did not i tried throwing another stick to get it but the stick too got stucked up there . . . aishah : don't be greedy .... stick to this kite and let the other go . . . i left without looking back . . . that kite wasn't meant to be mine . . . very happy to get the new kite back . . .
Sometimes giving a second chance may not result in the best possible ending but its worth trying . . . even if things do not work out you may still want to try doing something after you failed . If all is lost you just let it go~ . . . slowly because you tried your best . . .
A new hope is always around . . . when my new kite was up in the sky i was happy but when it flew off i did not feel so sad again . . . if its meant to be mine it will be . . . true enough the kite came back the wind did help after all . . . but if i just did not try to get it back you think the kite will just come to me ? To forgive is to give you and the other person a chance to try out again be it friends or love its the same . . . unless you do not believe that the person can do it then perhaps you would not give that person a chance . . . if there is no such belief in the person then don't even think about being with the person . . .you would only hurt that person. . . everyone is kind everyone can change but its just how they go about it , how you bring and encourage them to change for the better . . . Its not about filling up your partner's heart . . . its about bringing out the best of each other and be happy , even a quarrel can be a good thing . . . Don't run away from anything just faced it . . . Yes the kite is now resting on my desk i will take it out and let it fly again. . . .
Don't pull the string too tightly . . . the line will snapped . . .
Don't let it go too far from you . . . it might never return . . .
Strike a balance and it will forever be yours . . . but is that easy ? Its up to you . . .
Everything comes with a price . . . i thought the most expensive kite is good but it wasn't and my $6 bucks kite flew off . . . . sometimes what you put in may not pay off but do not dismay your effort will never go unnoticed . . . it may not be recognised to the one you intent to but someone by the side can see it . . .
Go find the kite that truly belongs to you . . . let those kite which choose to fly away from you go . . . let them find their true owner . . . if you put the effort to care and forgive you will . . . a 2nd chance is necessary . . . nothing can be succeeded in the first run . . . unless you are so lucky but most probably you are not . . . if no one forgives and give another person a chance . . . truly the world will be a sad place to be in . . . but i know there are people out there who share the same belief with me . . . 2nd chance . . . i know its worth it .
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Where did the stars go ?
Went to gym today . . . The meal before my gym includes 2 packet of instant noodles and 1 soft boil egg . Plenty of water ! . But today the gym wasn't crowded but i saw the usual faces there. So the same old stuff there except i train my legs now . Can feel the power in my legs ! So on the day when i carry my wife down the carpet i won't go soft ^.^
After gym went to meet the" girl from another planet " but i went down way too early to wait for this sister of mine . So i actually slept at the station for one hour ! I was just so tired . That i got terrible headaches but it was ok after a while .
So sister you choose what you want for your piano class . . . pop or classical . After that we took a stroll around PS got my slippers and she got a bag for her mum and shirt for her dad . I was amaze at how she spend without blinking but its cool ~
Passby the jigsaw shop in PS . . .went in to see but the "puzzle" cannot be found . . . i saw a very nice puzzle too, its a female angel with glowing wings . I should be getting that and frame up in my room ^.^ . A total change in my room once i get to Ikea . . . can't decide the table measurement yet but will go down to take a look soon. Decided to go for laser surgery WOO HOO but need to do more research still , 7 Days MC if i do it. Mum keep worrying about me but i told her on the phone that she should not to think so much . I was upset once but that doesn't mean its forever, i've picked myself up , tons of things to be done . Told her that i will not just fall and rot there, i can hear her cry . . . shes my mother and she cried for me again . Thats unconditional love i feel from her . I believe in her . I use to get lousy grades but shes always there when i go to her and she would tell me to study hard all this . . . seeing her work so hard makes me feel the importance of education and the importance of being there for one another .
When you feel sad you turn to someone ?
When you feel happy you walk away ?
Is that the way to treat a person ?
I don't think that is the way . . . Learn to appreciate one another and forgive what they have done if its forgivable . Sometimes we don't forgive its because we cannot see what the other party see that is the time both parties has to sit down and really talk . One cannot have their ways all the time . . . be it in frienship , relationship or kinship . You need to give ! Don't be always on the recieving end . If someone needs your help just help ! If you feel tired you have to let the other party know that you need to rest a while before you can continue helping. Who doesn't feel tired ? So why keep it inside ? Let the person know so things can change for the better . If you keep it inside you only make yourself feel so miserable the other party might think you don't care anymore . Its still up to individuals . . . there are some who can say things out but there are some who doesn't . So it really is up to each and everyone of us .
Letting yourself be heard isn't being demanding its about being heard and recognised.
Make the best of everyday . . . .
I'm going to rest in my dreams . . . will be flying kite tomorrow . . . hope i can get the kite .
After gym went to meet the" girl from another planet " but i went down way too early to wait for this sister of mine . So i actually slept at the station for one hour ! I was just so tired . That i got terrible headaches but it was ok after a while .
So sister you choose what you want for your piano class . . . pop or classical . After that we took a stroll around PS got my slippers and she got a bag for her mum and shirt for her dad . I was amaze at how she spend without blinking but its cool ~
Passby the jigsaw shop in PS . . .went in to see but the "puzzle" cannot be found . . . i saw a very nice puzzle too, its a female angel with glowing wings . I should be getting that and frame up in my room ^.^ . A total change in my room once i get to Ikea . . . can't decide the table measurement yet but will go down to take a look soon. Decided to go for laser surgery WOO HOO but need to do more research still , 7 Days MC if i do it. Mum keep worrying about me but i told her on the phone that she should not to think so much . I was upset once but that doesn't mean its forever, i've picked myself up , tons of things to be done . Told her that i will not just fall and rot there, i can hear her cry . . . shes my mother and she cried for me again . Thats unconditional love i feel from her . I believe in her . I use to get lousy grades but shes always there when i go to her and she would tell me to study hard all this . . . seeing her work so hard makes me feel the importance of education and the importance of being there for one another .
When you feel sad you turn to someone ?
When you feel happy you walk away ?
Is that the way to treat a person ?
I don't think that is the way . . . Learn to appreciate one another and forgive what they have done if its forgivable . Sometimes we don't forgive its because we cannot see what the other party see that is the time both parties has to sit down and really talk . One cannot have their ways all the time . . . be it in frienship , relationship or kinship . You need to give ! Don't be always on the recieving end . If someone needs your help just help ! If you feel tired you have to let the other party know that you need to rest a while before you can continue helping. Who doesn't feel tired ? So why keep it inside ? Let the person know so things can change for the better . If you keep it inside you only make yourself feel so miserable the other party might think you don't care anymore . Its still up to individuals . . . there are some who can say things out but there are some who doesn't . So it really is up to each and everyone of us .
Letting yourself be heard isn't being demanding its about being heard and recognised.
Make the best of everyday . . . .
I'm going to rest in my dreams . . . will be flying kite tomorrow . . . hope i can get the kite .
A song
My eyes met yours again, we talked a little.
My heart throbbed and I hid my feelings behind a smile.
As I was afraid I might not be able to go back to the times.
When I had not known you.The wind has already gotten cold.
Laughing voices fill the air with white breath.
It may be because of the winter.
That I feel like crying for nothing.I remember that night when we first met even now.
We have come to know each other little by little.
But suddenly I find I know nothing about you.
Please tell me what you feel by the time I understand it.
You can even shout.My love grew when we couldn't meet.
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you.
I found I couldn't go back to the times.
When I had not known you.
Please don't smile with such sorrowful eyes.
As if you were about to be broken and disappear.
What can I do, my dear?My love grew when we couldn't meet.
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you.
I find I can't go back to the times.
When I didn't know you.
Why sometimes I can't say honestly?
Why sometimes I can't be tender?
Why sometimes we hurt each other?
Why sometimes we check each other?
Why sometimes my heart aches so much.
Why always my heart goes out to you?
I can't think of anyone but you.
I can't think of anyone but you.
Oh Dear
Tired. . . tired . . . Met up with Sherri and Esther last night to have sushi at Funan . . . And chatted quite a lot . . . how things change with time and how time change us . After sushi at Funan went to swensen . Ordered Chocolate Crunch . . . taste no so bad but it left me feeling thirsty. Mum called and was so worried where i went . Reached home at about 5 am when cookies gave us a ride back . Nice chap and thanks for the ride . Was suppose to meet someone at 8.45 am but just too tired to do so. Sorry i'll meet you up another time . . .
I'm feeling tired . . . just tired . . . guess i better go back to bed . ZzzZzz
I'm feeling tired . . . just tired . . . guess i better go back to bed . ZzzZzz
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Refreshing Rain
Having my instant noodle when typing this. . . So . . . where should i begin ?
Yesterday was pretty fun whereby everyone got wet during our fire fighting practice and eeryone was smiling so happily. I also took note that the night will rain . . . perhaps i saw the dark clouds looming over certain areas of Jurong Island . True enough it rain when all of us was taking a train back home . Very heavy rain, i could sense that whoever is crying or feeling sad must be feeling very miserable and heavy inside their heart .
So where did i go in the middle of the night ? Was chatting online halfway when i got a call from a classmate of mine and he asked if i wanted to go out so without thinking i agreed. Basically its because hes around my area so we went to have supper. Begin to talk about relationship all this . To my suprise they told me about a married couple who has been married for 71 years. I was WOW how did they manage to do it. There were 3 of us and each of us gave different opinion on this issue . But we kind of agreed on something. When in a relationship love cannot keep it going forever. Two people being together need to have goals in life so they can reach out to this goal in life which will bond them together for life. 71 years can you imagine their committment towards each other ? I doubt many would appreciate this . When you have reach the stagnant stage of a relationship it would be best to start something new. Otherwise you would start thinking "howcome we are together" , " how did i end up being with you " all this . . . would one day result in the end of the relationship . It may or may not happen and its up to individuals . So after a long time at the coffee shop we went for a game of pool till 3 am and went back to the coffee shop . We left for home at about 3.45 am . On the way towards my friend's bike he said this sometimes you have to believe in this " what is yours will be yours , what isn't will never be yours no matter how much you want it so badly " this is what his mum told him when he suffer a big setback in life and thats what my mum told me as well. I guess its true . . .
Why force it when you know it cannot happen . . . but sometimes its worth giving a try . . . we are humans with feelings after all . Sometimes things may happen in a way you never thought it would be possible. A decision is never wrong or right its how you see it . But you have to be responsible for you own action . . . no one will carry that for you . If you choose to let someone go then be prepared he would never return to you but sometimes keeping someone who doesn't belong to you also serve no purpose . There needs to be a mutual feeling between two for anything to work out . . . In life nothing is smooth sailing . . . giving up is never an option for you . . . just try your best and if things doesn't work out it isn't so bad after all . . . tell yourself this " at least i tried my best " don't live with regrets . . .
What is yours will always be yours . . . .
Yesterday was pretty fun whereby everyone got wet during our fire fighting practice and eeryone was smiling so happily. I also took note that the night will rain . . . perhaps i saw the dark clouds looming over certain areas of Jurong Island . True enough it rain when all of us was taking a train back home . Very heavy rain, i could sense that whoever is crying or feeling sad must be feeling very miserable and heavy inside their heart .
So where did i go in the middle of the night ? Was chatting online halfway when i got a call from a classmate of mine and he asked if i wanted to go out so without thinking i agreed. Basically its because hes around my area so we went to have supper. Begin to talk about relationship all this . To my suprise they told me about a married couple who has been married for 71 years. I was WOW how did they manage to do it. There were 3 of us and each of us gave different opinion on this issue . But we kind of agreed on something. When in a relationship love cannot keep it going forever. Two people being together need to have goals in life so they can reach out to this goal in life which will bond them together for life. 71 years can you imagine their committment towards each other ? I doubt many would appreciate this . When you have reach the stagnant stage of a relationship it would be best to start something new. Otherwise you would start thinking "howcome we are together" , " how did i end up being with you " all this . . . would one day result in the end of the relationship . It may or may not happen and its up to individuals . So after a long time at the coffee shop we went for a game of pool till 3 am and went back to the coffee shop . We left for home at about 3.45 am . On the way towards my friend's bike he said this sometimes you have to believe in this " what is yours will be yours , what isn't will never be yours no matter how much you want it so badly " this is what his mum told him when he suffer a big setback in life and thats what my mum told me as well. I guess its true . . .
Why force it when you know it cannot happen . . . but sometimes its worth giving a try . . . we are humans with feelings after all . Sometimes things may happen in a way you never thought it would be possible. A decision is never wrong or right its how you see it . But you have to be responsible for you own action . . . no one will carry that for you . If you choose to let someone go then be prepared he would never return to you but sometimes keeping someone who doesn't belong to you also serve no purpose . There needs to be a mutual feeling between two for anything to work out . . . In life nothing is smooth sailing . . . giving up is never an option for you . . . just try your best and if things doesn't work out it isn't so bad after all . . . tell yourself this " at least i tried my best " don't live with regrets . . .
What is yours will always be yours . . . .
Monday, June 06, 2005
2 Wings Above The Clouds
Usual stuff in Jurong Island . . . As i was locating the valves around the plant i stare at the sky again, dark clouds started forming . . . at this moment a fighter plan flew past i . . . i could see the load it was carrying and with the body frame it look like a F-16 to me. In a few moments i could hear the sound from the plane shearing across the sky . . . i love planes in fact i'm very intrested in fighter jets. In the new few minutes another one flew by but i cannot make out what this plane is but it carry too few loads with it. Doesn't seems to have the dog fight ability in the skies, look weak to me.
After the two planes flew past the sky started to weep. Rain . . . it came again, i wonder who is crying again~ . . . it started soft and ended heavily. I wish i can know who was it . . . perhaps someone can go to that person who is crying so hard and give a hug to him/her.
Everyone of you must have cried before isn't it ? Ever since the day you were born. But i'm going into hurting tears. . . yes those tears which you shed when you were hurt so badly. When that kind of tears fell you wish the one who hurt you or the one you love would hug you. Even if someone who doesn't know you that well just sit beside you. . .you will just let everything out . When your heart bleeds too much till it cannot take it anymore you will just have to cry to let all the pain out. When you lose someone you love so much you would cry very hard isn't it . . . or your heart will feel so painful . . . but can tears really bring comfort to your wounded heart ? I believe so . . . because when you cry someone would be beside you at times . . . ever look at the person who just sat there beside you without saying a word ? They still care and love you . . . take a deeper look and you will see how they sat there silently caring for you in silence. Their pressence is very important . . . its not what they say to comfort you, its about being there for you physically and emotionally.
I've been there for someone who cried because they lost someone dear, i know i can never feel their pain i know i can never feel the way they feel but they need someone to just be there. You think they are able to absorb what you say to them ? Sometimes words cannot do anything so just sit there and hold their hand . . . or hug them ( if they allow it ) it would make them feel a bit more safer but expect them to even cry harder when you do that . . . ( i don't know why but it always happen ) my mum did that to me and crap i cried like mad when she did that . It makes u cry harder but it makes you feel so much better .
Just be there for one another . . . . sometimes when you think they don't care about you just think what they have done for you before . . . the past is something worthy of holding on to at times . . . it may not be necessary bad always .
" if you don't have any hope you can never see whats behind your hope "
. . . this sentence i read from a bookmark from a friend of mine although its not really the same but the meaning is there.
Can you get the meaning from it ?
I believe in hope . . .
After the two planes flew past the sky started to weep. Rain . . . it came again, i wonder who is crying again~ . . . it started soft and ended heavily. I wish i can know who was it . . . perhaps someone can go to that person who is crying so hard and give a hug to him/her.
Everyone of you must have cried before isn't it ? Ever since the day you were born. But i'm going into hurting tears. . . yes those tears which you shed when you were hurt so badly. When that kind of tears fell you wish the one who hurt you or the one you love would hug you. Even if someone who doesn't know you that well just sit beside you. . .you will just let everything out . When your heart bleeds too much till it cannot take it anymore you will just have to cry to let all the pain out. When you lose someone you love so much you would cry very hard isn't it . . . or your heart will feel so painful . . . but can tears really bring comfort to your wounded heart ? I believe so . . . because when you cry someone would be beside you at times . . . ever look at the person who just sat there beside you without saying a word ? They still care and love you . . . take a deeper look and you will see how they sat there silently caring for you in silence. Their pressence is very important . . . its not what they say to comfort you, its about being there for you physically and emotionally.
I've been there for someone who cried because they lost someone dear, i know i can never feel their pain i know i can never feel the way they feel but they need someone to just be there. You think they are able to absorb what you say to them ? Sometimes words cannot do anything so just sit there and hold their hand . . . or hug them ( if they allow it ) it would make them feel a bit more safer but expect them to even cry harder when you do that . . . ( i don't know why but it always happen ) my mum did that to me and crap i cried like mad when she did that . It makes u cry harder but it makes you feel so much better .
Just be there for one another . . . . sometimes when you think they don't care about you just think what they have done for you before . . . the past is something worthy of holding on to at times . . . it may not be necessary bad always .
" if you don't have any hope you can never see whats behind your hope "
. . . this sentence i read from a bookmark from a friend of mine although its not really the same but the meaning is there.
Can you get the meaning from it ?
I believe in hope . . .
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Trust
bruise myself today again because someone step on me today.
Its for the performance . As if i just got love bites from my girlfriend. LOL all over my shoulder.
Because of my school work i can only go for the training on Sunday
Thus i'm made a rotating baseman meaning i would be swopped in and out at times .
The first attemp to lift 8 man standing on our shoulder up was a failure.
One side could not take the stress and all 16 baseman could not make the formation
Second attemp was a success which i feel so good about.
After the training my friend send me to MRT and from Boon Lay
I took the train all the way to Yio Chu Kang Gym.
Now i'm typing this from my Granny House.
Yes i devote myself to those who care for me
Those who doesn't deserve any shall recieve none
Might seems very bad but look deeper ino my words
They mean something more.
Where are you now ? I'm thinking of you ^.^
Stay happy ok. There will always be rainbows after the rain.
Going to get posted to harbourfront i think. So far again T_T but i hope the pay is good.
My dear sisterS i wonder how many i have now. Uncountable i guess.
Time to plan an overseas trip. I wonder when will it be ^.^
Make it happen . . . You live only once so make the best of your life.
Its for the performance . As if i just got love bites from my girlfriend. LOL all over my shoulder.
Because of my school work i can only go for the training on Sunday
Thus i'm made a rotating baseman meaning i would be swopped in and out at times .
The first attemp to lift 8 man standing on our shoulder up was a failure.
One side could not take the stress and all 16 baseman could not make the formation
Second attemp was a success which i feel so good about.
After the training my friend send me to MRT and from Boon Lay
I took the train all the way to Yio Chu Kang Gym.
Now i'm typing this from my Granny House.
Yes i devote myself to those who care for me
Those who doesn't deserve any shall recieve none
Might seems very bad but look deeper ino my words
They mean something more.
Where are you now ? I'm thinking of you ^.^
Stay happy ok. There will always be rainbows after the rain.
Going to get posted to harbourfront i think. So far again T_T but i hope the pay is good.
My dear sisterS i wonder how many i have now. Uncountable i guess.
Time to plan an overseas trip. I wonder when will it be ^.^
Make it happen . . . You live only once so make the best of your life.
A night of memory
It was a night. . . which i had not enjoyed for a long time . . . a chat , a flashback of what life is all about . Usual chat about girls and hows school life at MacDonald but we soon immerse into a chat which only old friends understand. . . perhaps they understood everything about each other.
As we shifted our location to an open area i lay down with my eyes locked into the skies. It wasn't clear as there were still clouds at midnight but as it reaches 1 - 2 am the skies started to clear and stars starting to appear. . . our conversation become more heart felt . . . Ignorance is bliss thats what we agreed on after some stories from everyone . Even i felt that way . . . when you are so high up in the sky you tend to see things which you wish you didn't know . . . i wished i was in the lower sky where everything still seems so beautiful. Knowing too much isn't so good either . . . perhaps thats why people tell lies to cover the truth but can they keep it forever ?
Strange after 3 hours of staring at the sky there was no sight of any falling stars . . . howcome ? But my heart felt a pain somehow . . . who was it for . . . who was i thinking of . . . i did not search into my heart for the answer . . . i know if i search for the answer i would end up being miserable again . . . i decided to let things go with time . . . i asked this buddy of mine can you find anyone similiar to us in your class ? his reply was a firm no . . . i guess its true . . . neither can i find anyone similiar to my old friends in my class . . . so much things which cannot be changed . . . so much things i wish to change but yet reality is cruel . . . it will never let you undone anything . . . life is not a show . . . there is only one take . . . once you done it means it cannot be changed . . . it will be marked not anywhere but in you . . . an ugly scar if it was a bad thing . . . a beautiful mark if it was a good thing . . . how many scar have you caused to others ? how many mark have you given to others ? Each and everyone of you affects one another life . . . do not think that you did not . . . even if saying a thank you to someone whom you don't know might change his mood for the day . . . perhaps even cheer him up.
Still . . .
Well its late i shall stop here . . . need to sleep have to practice my item tomorrow . . . will be performing at Toa Pa Yoh "don't know where" at the moment but i guess a big hall i think during July . . .
Sweet Dreams Every One . . . . You only get to rest in your dream . . .
As we shifted our location to an open area i lay down with my eyes locked into the skies. It wasn't clear as there were still clouds at midnight but as it reaches 1 - 2 am the skies started to clear and stars starting to appear. . . our conversation become more heart felt . . . Ignorance is bliss thats what we agreed on after some stories from everyone . Even i felt that way . . . when you are so high up in the sky you tend to see things which you wish you didn't know . . . i wished i was in the lower sky where everything still seems so beautiful. Knowing too much isn't so good either . . . perhaps thats why people tell lies to cover the truth but can they keep it forever ?
Strange after 3 hours of staring at the sky there was no sight of any falling stars . . . howcome ? But my heart felt a pain somehow . . . who was it for . . . who was i thinking of . . . i did not search into my heart for the answer . . . i know if i search for the answer i would end up being miserable again . . . i decided to let things go with time . . . i asked this buddy of mine can you find anyone similiar to us in your class ? his reply was a firm no . . . i guess its true . . . neither can i find anyone similiar to my old friends in my class . . . so much things which cannot be changed . . . so much things i wish to change but yet reality is cruel . . . it will never let you undone anything . . . life is not a show . . . there is only one take . . . once you done it means it cannot be changed . . . it will be marked not anywhere but in you . . . an ugly scar if it was a bad thing . . . a beautiful mark if it was a good thing . . . how many scar have you caused to others ? how many mark have you given to others ? Each and everyone of you affects one another life . . . do not think that you did not . . . even if saying a thank you to someone whom you don't know might change his mood for the day . . . perhaps even cheer him up.
Still . . .
Well its late i shall stop here . . . need to sleep have to practice my item tomorrow . . . will be performing at Toa Pa Yoh "don't know where" at the moment but i guess a big hall i think during July . . .
Sweet Dreams Every One . . . . You only get to rest in your dream . . .
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Raining Slightly
It was raining slightly today . . . a tingle of sadness can be felt in the air. . . which of you out there is feeling so upset ? I wonder . . . had only a few hours of sleep before i met up with Shanyu for the medical checkup for the attachement. Got the doctors to wrote a memo for us to prove we are fit enough. So both of us got the stuff we need for the job i guess. I guess our working location would be in Harbour Front. I have to leave CPTC fast i cannot take it there anymore i like the people there but for some reason i just don't wish to be there perhaps of the distance or something more . . .
Hope the Feli~ , Shanyu , Ah Sha and Lili enjoy themself ^.^ as for me i got some food back for my sister who is at home eating magee . . . i guess thats about it today . . . strange but do you know i was thinking of you ? I called you but there was no response i hope you are ok . Your voice sounds so sad when i manage to call through . . . whatever happen don't give up . . . there is always hope . . . if there is no hope just fall back i will catch you for sure . . . I go to gym ok ^.^
Sis's bf was complaining about my sis attire being too transparent before leaving home so they actually woke me up when i was napping. I went to told my sister to just change into another one and i added one sentence " Remember what i said ? Don't just think for yourself " I guess the boyfriend also got it . I sense tension building up so i have to KPO a bit otherwise their outing would be ruined so now both of them went out happily. Bet i did made the right move in the end my sister did not change and the boyfriend also did not complain anymore. Sometimes you lose your cool because you cannot see the view of the other party but it doesn't hurt to be frank at times. Give and take . . . respect each other's wishes one cannot just be so self centered and neglected how the other feel just by saying "you don't know how it feels" " i cannot feel anything from you " . Learn from one another instead of harbouring the pain inside, let it out . . . without communication how can you ever progress ?
Ah~ running late for the BC meeting . . . got to go dear folks~ A lesson learn i guess ^.^
Hope the Feli~ , Shanyu , Ah Sha and Lili enjoy themself ^.^ as for me i got some food back for my sister who is at home eating magee . . . i guess thats about it today . . . strange but do you know i was thinking of you ? I called you but there was no response i hope you are ok . Your voice sounds so sad when i manage to call through . . . whatever happen don't give up . . . there is always hope . . . if there is no hope just fall back i will catch you for sure . . . I go to gym ok ^.^
Sis's bf was complaining about my sis attire being too transparent before leaving home so they actually woke me up when i was napping. I went to told my sister to just change into another one and i added one sentence " Remember what i said ? Don't just think for yourself " I guess the boyfriend also got it . I sense tension building up so i have to KPO a bit otherwise their outing would be ruined so now both of them went out happily. Bet i did made the right move in the end my sister did not change and the boyfriend also did not complain anymore. Sometimes you lose your cool because you cannot see the view of the other party but it doesn't hurt to be frank at times. Give and take . . . respect each other's wishes one cannot just be so self centered and neglected how the other feel just by saying "you don't know how it feels" " i cannot feel anything from you " . Learn from one another instead of harbouring the pain inside, let it out . . . without communication how can you ever progress ?
Ah~ running late for the BC meeting . . . got to go dear folks~ A lesson learn i guess ^.^
Emptiness
Feel so loved by you and being cared for.... but i hope this isn't another dream.
Can it be materialised ? Could anything come out from it ? I hope it would happen.
Looked forward to see you again...
Its about time i guess... a promise you made still remember ?
Theres no need for sorry and apologies.
You knew what i wanted.... you cared for my feelings like how i cared for yours....
We both still has to take a rest first...
I know your stand with "him" so don't worry its not going to affect anything
You made it so clear to me how can i not know ?
It takes time ^.^
Its for you. . . .I've fallen for you i guess . . . perhaps from the start i had you in my mind already.
For now i wish to stand up from the messy setback
Rushing into it with you would bring us no good.
What can i say . . . when my competitor is so much stronger than me . . .
If its meant to be it will be . . if really we are meant for each other no matter where you go i will still be there waiting . . .
I promise . . .
Can it be materialised ? Could anything come out from it ? I hope it would happen.
Looked forward to see you again...
Its about time i guess... a promise you made still remember ?
Theres no need for sorry and apologies.
You knew what i wanted.... you cared for my feelings like how i cared for yours....
We both still has to take a rest first...
I know your stand with "him" so don't worry its not going to affect anything
You made it so clear to me how can i not know ?
It takes time ^.^
Its for you. . . .I've fallen for you i guess . . . perhaps from the start i had you in my mind already.
For now i wish to stand up from the messy setback
Rushing into it with you would bring us no good.
What can i say . . . when my competitor is so much stronger than me . . .
If its meant to be it will be . . if really we are meant for each other no matter where you go i will still be there waiting . . .
I promise . . .
Friday, June 03, 2005
Sunny day where did the rain go ?
It didn't rain today but i can see dark clouds forming.. yet no rain drops from the sky...why ?
I wish it rained today because of the hot environment i had to work in today. So whats up with my training at Jurong island ? It was fun seriously i love talking around with people my class mates especially. Funny bunch of people and those new friends which i made from the time there. Yes their impression of me was GANGSTER again ^.^ see i'm always labelled as a bad guy. As i said i'm not really how i look anymore. Maybe those who really know me does know that i had a very bad temper before. But now its so different already.
Time change a person
Event change a person
Love change a person
But to become a better or bad person is really up to the person
Got ticked off today for FAILING my assessment while being a leader at the same time. You see thats the problem when you are appointed to lead. You are suppose to set an example to the rest and if you fail to do so you will be labelled as GARBAGE ! Which in fact is my driving force because i am NOT A GARBAGE. I'll show that My Shine i'm not LOUSY ! Just wait ! He think everytime he look into my eye i scared ! LOL i always stare back at him but thats to show that i'm not afriad of him and not to pick a fight with him.
Ding Ding. So much things to do..so little time...when will i ever finish watching orange days !
Ok i guess i have settled the transportation problem for my school need to call the company tomorrow hope nothing goes wrong >.< ok SHOW TIME ! Need to relax a while.
I wish it rained today because of the hot environment i had to work in today. So whats up with my training at Jurong island ? It was fun seriously i love talking around with people my class mates especially. Funny bunch of people and those new friends which i made from the time there. Yes their impression of me was GANGSTER again ^.^ see i'm always labelled as a bad guy. As i said i'm not really how i look anymore. Maybe those who really know me does know that i had a very bad temper before. But now its so different already.
Time change a person
Event change a person
Love change a person
But to become a better or bad person is really up to the person
Got ticked off today for FAILING my assessment while being a leader at the same time. You see thats the problem when you are appointed to lead. You are suppose to set an example to the rest and if you fail to do so you will be labelled as GARBAGE ! Which in fact is my driving force because i am NOT A GARBAGE. I'll show that My Shine i'm not LOUSY ! Just wait ! He think everytime he look into my eye i scared ! LOL i always stare back at him but thats to show that i'm not afriad of him and not to pick a fight with him.
Ding Ding. So much things to do..so little time...when will i ever finish watching orange days !
Ok i guess i have settled the transportation problem for my school need to call the company tomorrow hope nothing goes wrong >.< ok SHOW TIME ! Need to relax a while.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
It rain again
Yup it rain again today.... so whos crying out their heart again ?
So when ever you are down just cry it out. Because they sky will turn dark and rain will come. I will know someone is crying their heart out. Call me if you got no one to turn to i may be the last one but i will not just abandon you out in the rain.
Heard a lot lately but perhaps things happen for a reason so just take things with stride and let it go. Going to Ikea to get my stuff and must go for physical check up for my attachement thing. Troublesome man!
Rain is a good thing.....Humans are weak when it comes to emotional problems. Will we ever learn ? ^.^ I'm still learning.
So when ever you are down just cry it out. Because they sky will turn dark and rain will come. I will know someone is crying their heart out. Call me if you got no one to turn to i may be the last one but i will not just abandon you out in the rain.
Heard a lot lately but perhaps things happen for a reason so just take things with stride and let it go. Going to Ikea to get my stuff and must go for physical check up for my attachement thing. Troublesome man!
Rain is a good thing.....Humans are weak when it comes to emotional problems. Will we ever learn ? ^.^ I'm still learning.
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