Once a while

Quite a while since i wrote anything here ...

This may go unnoticed ... but i guess its alright ...

I'm at the stage of worrying for the future expenses , housing , marriage , career .... the list never seems to end ... the worries never ceased ... but once a while i ask myself ... all this will not matter if tomorrow is your last day ... then why am i thinking and worrying so much .

First it does not help , second it creates sleepless night ... then i will feel extremely tired at work ... i will screw up the work ... my boss will screw me ... the director will hammer me ... the cycle goes on ... then i will be fired ... my life becomes a mess ... but the source of the problem came from me ...

I think this will happen if we don't set our priorities and our life's focus ... i guess its still considered alright to worry once a while , well who doesn't right ? But there has to be some form of solution generated from that worry ... meaning that worry should not be bottomless ... it should not be something which is endless which eventually it will just eat into you ... therefore ... if you cannot solve it ... forget about it ... if you can do something about it ... then just do what you can ... because life is really that simple ... I'm sure most people are doing something or trying to do something for their life's trouble ... and i think ... that is all we can do , because what else other than trying and doing what you can ? .. ... ... doing nothing will change nothing ^^ .

People worry because we want the best ... if you set a target beyond your means ... it becomes a problem rather than motivation ...

So be very clear with what you want ... if you are sure on what you want in life ... your actions will change together with your focus, then you will reach what you want in life eventually ... there is no promise to this ... the end result may be what you want ... it may not be what you want ... but it will definitely be better than where you are now

once a while ... think of where you are now ... wasn't it due to the decisions you made ages ago ^^ ....

Randoms

Got a job ... after so much thinking ... or rather i didn't have much choices at that point of time and it was like pressing myself to get a job ... social pressure ... i guess ...

So this is my 4th week already into the work ... and if you ask me ... my job pretty much requires a lot of PR skills than technical knowledge ... the work environment and people are some of the best i can say ... the compensation package for salary isn't all that great except that the benefits such as leave, dental is quite good ...

Well you can say that as long as you are good ... you will get the pay eventually ... i'm just afraid that i made the wrong choice ... but seriously who can tell me what is right other than myself ... if i myself don't even know what i want ... then who else would ? I don't wish to lock myself up and trapped ...

I know the ultimate reason or rather the goal i seek is to create the best family life ever ... because this is somewhat lacking for me ... because my parents had to work very hard to give me and my sister the education we need and also the financial support ...

One day i will be in their shoes too ... but i don't wish to miss out on the life ahead and the chance to have strong family/friends bonding ... but i also cannot earn too little ... otherwise i will be brooding over how to earn more money every single day ...

I think everyone wants such a scenario where u have enough to spend ... enough to save ... enough time to do what you like ... enough time for everything that matters in life ... but many people say its hard to achieve all of it ... i want to ... and i am trying to find out how ...

I guess giving myself 1 year in this current job would be a good assessment if i want this for my life ... i am questioning myself every now and then ... if this is the path i want ....

Vex .... Troubled .... Lost

As i approach my final 4 examination papers and my presentation for the final year projects ...
I am also nearing the end of my Uni education .... Which also means i have to make a decision to join the industry ...

I'm not sure if i will end up with a 2nd upper or a 2nd lower honours ... i'm pretty secured for a 2nd lower .... but i'm trying to get a 2nd upper ... because it offers more job opportunities ... most of my peers secured their jobs already ... and most of them are big companies ... the salaries are pretty decent and way above my expectation ...

While i'm brooding over where to focus on ... my peers walk ahead of me ... I'm still pretty lost ... its pretty scary actually ... because i'm afriad of entering the wrong industry ... and you become stagnant ... then you would be out of the rat race ...

I'm kind of lost at this stage ... i know my ultimate goals ... but i failed to plan for the process to achieve my goal ... and that ... is crippling me now ...

Graduating soon

Graduating soon ...

So many worries ...

Job ah Job ...

Ding Dong Ding Dong

2 more months to exam ! Study Hard People !

Some reflection ...

I'm quite emotional ... lots of feelings ... filled inside me ...
I know i won't be some great engineer or someone good in management ...
What i am studying ... i know it isn't my interests ... i am just pushing myself to do it ... because everyone else was doing it ... there wasn't much option ... for me ...

I know what i had wanted ... since a long time ago ... to be the pair of ears ... to heal wounded hearts ... i am sure it is much more fufilling for me than punching numbers on calculators or churning reports that never ceased to stop ...

I want to be that pair of ears ... the person to be there ... because there aren't many out there ...
I understood some of the common pain some others had experienced before ... maybe the journey to healing others is tough ... but the end result would definately be worth it ...

I know what i want ... like it was just meant to be ... i hope i get that job ... apart from having to work on saturday ^^ ... hope i will be shortlisted ...

2011 ~

Looks For jobs ...

Clear my FYP ...

Start Planning ... for the future ... house ... bla bla bla ...

Welcome to the working society ...

I will miss school life ... classmates and mugging books together is fun ...

Continue to smile ...

Continue to bond ...

For this shouldn't be the time we part ...

Contacts can still be maintain as we each pursue our path ... ( like i have any ... Ha )

Whats in store for me ?

Hope i get all As again ... so i can reach 2nd upper ... more doors will be open ^^