All About My Life

Once a while

2012-02-02T19:39:00.002+08:00

Quite a while since i wrote anything here ...

This may go unnoticed ... but i guess its alright ...

I'm at the stage of worrying for the future expenses , housing , marriage , career .... the list never seems to end ... the worries never ceased ... but once a while i ask myself ... all this will not matter if tomorrow is your last day ... then why am i thinking and worrying so much .

First it does not help , second it creates sleepless night ... then i will feel extremely tired at work ... i will screw up the work ... my boss will screw me ... the director will hammer me ... the cycle goes on ... then i will be fired ... my life becomes a mess ... but the source of the problem came from me ...

I think this will happen if we don't set our priorities and our life's focus ... i guess its still considered alright to worry once a while , well who doesn't right ? But there has to be some form of solution generated from that worry ... meaning that worry should not be bottomless ... it should not be something which is endless which eventually it will just eat into you ... therefore ... if you cannot solve it ... forget about it ... if you can do something about it ... then just do what you can ... because life is really that simple ... I'm sure most people are doing something or trying to do something for their life's trouble ... and i think ... that is all we can do , because what else other than trying and doing what you can ? .. ... ... doing nothing will change nothing ^^ .

People worry because we want the best ... if you set a target beyond your means ... it becomes a problem rather than motivation ...

So be very clear with what you want ... if you are sure on what you want in life ... your actions will change together with your focus, then you will reach what you want in life eventually ... there is no promise to this ... the end result may be what you want ... it may not be what you want ... but it will definitely be better than where you are now

once a while ... think of where you are now ... wasn't it due to the decisions you made ages ago ^^ ....

Randoms

2011-10-17T18:36:00.003+08:00

Got a job ... after so much thinking ... or rather i didn't have much choices at that point of time and it was like pressing myself to get a job ... social pressure ... i guess ...

So this is my 4th week already into the work ... and if you ask me ... my job pretty much requires a lot of PR skills than technical knowledge ... the work environment and people are some of the best i can say ... the compensation package for salary isn't all that great except that the benefits such as leave, dental is quite good ...

Well you can say that as long as you are good ... you will get the pay eventually ... i'm just afraid that i made the wrong choice ... but seriously who can tell me what is right other than myself ... if i myself don't even know what i want ... then who else would ? I don't wish to lock myself up and trapped ...

I know the ultimate reason or rather the goal i seek is to create the best family life ever ... because this is somewhat lacking for me ... because my parents had to work very hard to give me and my sister the education we need and also the financial support ...

One day i will be in their shoes too ... but i don't wish to miss out on the life ahead and the chance to have strong family/friends bonding ... but i also cannot earn too little ... otherwise i will be brooding over how to earn more money every single day ...

I think everyone wants such a scenario where u have enough to spend ... enough to save ... enough time to do what you like ... enough time for everything that matters in life ... but many people say its hard to achieve all of it ... i want to ... and i am trying to find out how ...

I guess giving myself 1 year in this current job would be a good assessment if i want this for my life ... i am questioning myself every now and then ... if this is the path i want ....

Vex .... Troubled .... Lost

2011-05-04T22:26:00.003+08:00

As i approach my final 4 examination papers and my presentation for the final year projects ...
I am also nearing the end of my Uni education .... Which also means i have to make a decision to join the industry ...

I'm not sure if i will end up with a 2nd upper or a 2nd lower honours ... i'm pretty secured for a 2nd lower .... but i'm trying to get a 2nd upper ... because it offers more job opportunities ... most of my peers secured their jobs already ... and most of them are big companies ... the salaries are pretty decent and way above my expectation ...

While i'm brooding over where to focus on ... my peers walk ahead of me ... I'm still pretty lost ... its pretty scary actually ... because i'm afriad of entering the wrong industry ... and you become stagnant ... then you would be out of the rat race ...

I'm kind of lost at this stage ... i know my ultimate goals ... but i failed to plan for the process to achieve my goal ... and that ... is crippling me now ...

Graduating soon

2011-05-02T19:44:00.001+08:00

Graduating soon ...

So many worries ...

Job ah Job ...

Ding Dong Ding Dong

2011-04-16T11:52:00.001+08:00

2 more months to exam ! Study Hard People !

Some reflection ...

2011-02-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

I'm quite emotional ... lots of feelings ... filled inside me ...
I know i won't be some great engineer or someone good in management ...
What i am studying ... i know it isn't my interests ... i am just pushing myself to do it ... because everyone else was doing it ... there wasn't much option ... for me ...

I know what i had wanted ... since a long time ago ... to be the pair of ears ... to heal wounded hearts ... i am sure it is much more fufilling for me than punching numbers on calculators or churning reports that never ceased to stop ...

I want to be that pair of ears ... the person to be there ... because there aren't many out there ...
I understood some of the common pain some others had experienced before ... maybe the journey to healing others is tough ... but the end result would definately be worth it ...

I know what i want ... like it was just meant to be ... i hope i get that job ... apart from having to work on saturday ^^ ... hope i will be shortlisted ...

2011 ~

2011-02-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

Looks For jobs ...

Clear my FYP ...

Start Planning ... for the future ... house ... bla bla bla ...

Welcome to the working society ...

I will miss school life ... classmates and mugging books together is fun ...

Continue to smile ...

Continue to bond ...

For this shouldn't be the time we part ...

Contacts can still be maintain as we each pursue our path ... ( like i have any ... Ha )

Whats in store for me ?

Hope i get all As again ... so i can reach 2nd upper ... more doors will be open ^^

Raining and Exams ...

2010-12-03T17:55:00.002+08:00

Yup i'm sitting for my examination in about a weeks time from the time this post is posted. Then very soon i will be left with my final semester and i will be entering the working society >.< hope i get a job !!!.

Oh i just want to say the rain today is pretty cooling and yeah ... just feel like saying something here haha .

I just want to share something ... i think its pretty important to keep looking at your spouse/gf/bf/husband/wife ... Maybe it sounds pretty dumb for me to mention this when everyone should know it ... When i say look ... i mean to " hear them emotionally and look at them physically"

But then one day ... you will forget that i did mention this ... and perhaps you will stop looking at them ... thats perhap one of the reason why relationship erodes away as time pass ... i think everyone is guilty of it and there is nothing wrong ... there is a tendency for everyone to take things for granted and only look for fault in people as and when we like just because we are unhappy with certain things ... but before we start blasting away at those closest to us ... i hope people will take a few seconds to think clearly who they are really looking at ... standing there right in front of you is that someone who had spent her/his lifetime with you ... so don't ever loose sight of that ... don't ever discredit what they had done ... perhaps with this ... you can avoid pretty much a lot of senseless arguments that meant nothing in the future yet could actually cut into the bonds you both shared ...

Just study every feature ... the eyes ... the ears ... the nose ... the .... .... .... try it ... you may just notice something very different ... maybe got new wrinkles ... ^^ but if you don't look now ... the changes will go un-noticed ... and so will any chance to bring you both closer ^^

AlrightZ ! Rainy days are simply the best yah !

Good Luck To NTU PEEPS A A A A A A !

Family , Friends , Future

2010-11-21T19:42:00.002+08:00

Imagine you have a timer that tells you the day which you may "disappear" from the surface of the Earth to some place call Heaven ... Nirvana ... Sea of Stars. Tons of names actually for that ... but if have such a device , would you want it ? Some may think that its quite a burden to know of such event, create unecessary stress and many issues .

But does it ever cross your mind that , when you have such a gadget with you to inform you about the day your time is up, it would probably change the way you look at life ?

You probably wouldn't snap at those you hold dear so easily . You would try to spend more time with your friends to enjoy movies , games or even just talking over a cup of coffee . You would probably take more time off your computer screen to look at your Mum and Dad a little bit more. The fine wrinkles and greying hair that seems to appear on them more often , then you realise they could hardly hear you as they age.

How do you really make use of your finite time ? Turning 25 pretty soon , if you ask me what have i been doing ... i think i dare to tell you i've probably miss out a lot in life for the past 25 years ... so on average i still have like 55 years more to go , base on the mean lifespan . So 25 years of study 35 years of working ... i will be like 60 years old ... then i have like 20 years of life left if i'm still healthy and not senile ... i'll probably be too old to take roller coasters , going for late night suppers , running everyday , my friends may be too old to gather almost every weekend ... So ? i'm not going to waste the next 35 years chasing after material gains. Just to make sure i make enough to keep the family and myself going. I'll probably waste 35 years and likely regret on that .

Looking at people face to face and talking to them directly cannot be compared to "LOL" on those social network . You can't hear your friends laughter, the wrinkles they make when they smile too hard ... their facial expression ... their irritated look when you tease them ...

Does it occur to you that 15 years ago ... handphones were so alien to us ... pagers were the norm .... you still hung out with your friends ... talking over those phonecards operated phones ... when meeting up at one location is like some holy promises and no one will "put you aeroplane" by simply giving you a call to tell you they cannot make it .... somehow or rather ... i feel that its easy to overlook all these ... but as a reminder to myself and the folks who may read this ... don't forget that we don't have lifespan like elves or dwarfs who live hundred of years . Go for physical communication whenever possible and don't pass up on those gathering events ... who knows when the next one will be right ?

Love your old folks at home ... and love the folks around you ... Life is indeed precious ... and probably no words can explain it ... you have to experience it with the right attitude and the right actions ...

What is your dream ...

2010-11-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

Hello folks ,

My blog isn't dead, its just that i am so busy with school work that i have no time to sit down and reach into my soul to write what i would like to share. I am staring at my work most of the time wondering how am i suppose to study to score in the exams so that my degree looks a bit more ShinY to capture the attention of my future employer. If you do not already know, i am currently in my 4th year doing a bachelor in environmental engineering. Sounds great & promising ? Thats what i thought so too when i saw the title of the course but it turns out that the prospect isn't that great when you talk about being empolyed. Let me tell you this, this isn't what i wanted. My dreams were more inclined towards socialogy or psychology, but i wasn't smart enough back then to realise the importance of going into JCs so that its easier for me to land in an Arts Faculty instead of an Engineering one. I prefer conversation to dispel people's fear , offering comfort , a listening ear when no one is willing to. Simply because i know how painful and lonely when you so much wanted someone to be around to listen to you but yet there isn't a single soul you can turn to. That is something i wish nobody has to go through , and i think its something worth every effort from me comparing to what i am doing now. Its a dream that i will try to fufill if possible in the future ... if its something you love doing ... you are very much likely to excel at it. What is your dream ? Do you like what you are doing now ? Lets not talk about regretting what you never did , because its over and you cannot turn time back . We lament at our past decisions for not accomplishing certain things but after complaining we must get back to the present and continue to move forward. Time is something which escapes even the most powerful and rich person, eventually your time will end so don't spend too much time harping on things you cannot change. Why not think about what you can do in the future to fufill something which you wanted to but not had the chance to. For me , i probably take some postgrad diploma if i have the chance to afterall if it cannot be my dream career , it can still be my hobby right ^^ .

So do you like what you are doing now ? If not , why don't you try looking at another perspective ... you might have some new understanding which might turn out to be better than what you think ... Being an engineer is not that bad ... as long as i have sufficient income to lead a peaceful life ... have a home ... going for simple dinner and movies ... some holidays once a while ... i think its pretty enjoyable ... i bet you for it ... Life's most enjoyable moments often doesn't cost you much ... Moments that warm your feelings up create the memories that will last you a life time ... when the time comes for you to recall your pasts ... these are the moments that will come to you ... and not how much cars, bags, shoes you own. Its not too late to discover this ... we all know it ... but we simply overlook it ... here is my reminder to you peeps ^^

Final year ~

2010-08-29T17:52:00.002+08:00

School Starts tomorrow and i will officially be in the final year of U~ Finally after studying for like so many years ... but then again the fear of joining the pool of jobless people in the market is freaking me out haha ...

Hope i land a pretty normal job ... normal salary ... to enjoy my normal life ... so that i can build a normal family ^^

I'm a bit sick at the moment so this entry is short ... will be uploading USS pictures here as well ^^

Sunny Sunday ~

2010-08-08T10:39:00.002+08:00

I've recently received an invitation to a friend's wedding reception then it occur to me that i've grown very much in age ... it seems as if time just went past, with me struggling to plan the future.

When i was a few years younger i would ask people how are they doing during those gathering session. But now i would ask them when are they going to get married . I couldn't figure out why i ask them such questions but i guess that its only natural for me to ask . A friend asked me how is it possible that people would be sure of the one they are currently dating would eventually be the best souldmates for them . I can only say that why choose to go into a relationship then only to end it eventually ... i think it pretty much turns you or the other person upside down inside. Every phase of your life you meet different kinds of people , those which may not appear intresting or appealing to you may suddenly appear at a later stage of life .

Does this mean you give up your current partner and trade them for someone better ?

Does that indicate to others that your partner isn't good enough for you anymore ?

Can you gurantee that the new partner would find you good enough eventually ?

All forms of relationships reaches a peak and settles down ... there are those with never ending excitement and romance but you have to work for it ... if you simply choose to have a new partner just to experience that thrill once again then eventually you would settle down into a marriage not because you want it ... because you're too old to be playing in the field ...

Somehow a safe person is never as intresting as those dangerous ones ... But then again ... what kind of love are you seeking ? what kind of person are you seeking ? If you seek the thrill now but yet you want those stable life later on ... its pretty hard to find but its not impossible though .

Of course ... unhealthy , abusive r/s ... you better get out of it ^^

Take care peeps

Big Walk ^^

2010-07-19T18:44:00.003+08:00

Big Foot ^^

Both of us went to try out the Anlene Bone Health Check ^^

QianYing didn't make the cut and her score was moderate risk ~ low calcium~

Goodie Bag Collection for Big Walk . Extremely messy and crowded ....

Tada ! My Big Walk Mate ^^

I woke up at 5.30am to prepare for the Big Walk but the distance wasn't as long as i had expected it to be . It was pretty short and well you can say crowded and squeezy at some point but you do get to see the MBS and that DNA bridge ( Double Helix ) incompleted though ... Lots of construction going on so it kind of spoil the whole image ? ~ Maybe i will get Qianying to run with me soon hahah ^^ help to increase her bone mass :P

July 31st BPS gathering ... PEOPLE please check your email other wise my SmS limit will burst in no time , so sorry about the inconvinence if you don't like to check your mails .~

Raining

2010-07-04T09:26:00.002+08:00

It rains almost everyday now ... ... Its the southwest moonsoon season which stretches from June to September ~ so i guess it will continue to pour almost everyday

^^ Cleared my Industrial Attachment with Grade A- !!! The grade helps to push up my overall GPA up but its still a long way to reach 2nd upper honours ... if i want to attain it , that would means scoring no lesser than A- for every modules which i will be taking in the final year which includes the final year project .

Seems pretty tough but its worth putting the effort ... paper qualification is like a passport to more places. It doesn't make you a better worker but it allow you to gain entry to some places which it would be impossible if you have none ...

If you ask me ... do i remember everything i learn ? I would tell you , i had forgotten most of them .

Currently working as Temp Staff at the previous company ... to earn some extra cash so i can enjoy the last month of holiday properly ^^

Everything is going well so far ^^ except that i need to make Mum shed some weight ...

And also i have another personal goal to achieve by August ! Get IPPT GOLD before my window closes next FEB ^^ get the remaining 200 bucks ... to get 9 min 44 sec for 2.4km run is quite challenging >.< the fastest i clock recently was 9 min 58 sec ... my lung almost burst ... but i will still be trying for it ^^ its a kind of personal achievement ...

Let the rain continue for as long as possible ...

Part 2

2010-05-31T18:39:00.002+08:00

Cactus Valley !
Rose Valley !

BOH Tea Plantation

TomatoessssS !!!

Part of the tour group ... The one with pink long sleeve sweater and the orange stripped jacket aunties like to disturb me haha and they became my temporary "Grandma" . Saw the one in Blue-Yellow wind breaker ... that will be mother-soon-to-be-in-law

The trip quite fun with the Grandmasss ... haha . The views here are not too bad and the weather is pretty cooling ... no need aircon to sleep at night ... the ambient temperature is about 22°C ... cold enough ^^

Hee Hee ^^

2010-05-31T18:20:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps i just return from Cameroon Highland ... Its a tour with Qianying family and her mums briskwalking club peeps ... The Grannies and Grand-daddies ... so here are some of the pictures !

Nightmarket

Honey Combs for sale anyone !!! I never buy it because i'm afriad it will be too sweet ...
Roast Chicky ... Never tried it ... haha

Not sure if you can find the pancake in Singapore ... Cost about 60 cents each ... Nice

Carrot Cake ...

The journey quite longgg sit for about 12 hours ? Of course there are breaks here and there plus lunch and dinner ^^

I know what is most important ...

2010-05-20T17:59:00.002+08:00

After 24 years of trying to come up with the top 5 things i cannot give up and its a must have.... here they are

1.Family - Mother , Father , Sister , Future Wife , Future Kids , Relatives ...
2.Friends - Too many ...
3.Sleep - That is my fear ... if you all aren't away of ... sometimes i got days which i find it damm hard to fall asleep .... causing me so much anxiety which can drag for days or weeks ...
4.Someone to talk to - I hate being alone to be honest ... and if you put me in a working environment which theres no one to talk to ... i think i will quite within months .
5. ... ... ... ... empty ... ... ... ...

I think if i got those 4 stuff the rest would seem like small fry to me ... because this 4 are what is most important to me ... ever ...

IA is ending soon by the way ... but i will be continuing as parttime staff there and leave 1 mth of holiday to enjoy before school term starts again ... Well my final year i guess and i hope i won't feel so sad to graduate ... school is tough but yet its fun because of the people you see and laugh with everyday ...

Hope i don't tear too much ya ~ so its going to be the working society soon huh where people BS each other ... why ~ if its like school ... i think everyone would be very happy when working ... ^^

mm . . . .

2010-05-09T10:22:00.000+08:00

I think every now and then there would be articles or something written on the day where the earth will get destroyed or humans become extinct ...~ Then after reading them you would start to wonder what you will do if it happens ... After a few days later you will soon forget about it and carry on with your daily life ... shopping , movies , working , gossips with friends ... ect. ect.

If you ask me ...

I would really love to live everyday to my fullest just so that i won't regret any moments later on in life but sometimes its just so difficult ... your boss starts to yell at you when you enter the office ; the train & buses gets so packed with "Ah Nehs" who doesn't give a sh*t when told to move inwards, indirectly causing you to be late then you get another earful of musics from your boss AGAIN ... ... The tranquility i had would soon disappear ~... End up i would waste my time complaing about this and that ... The morning traffic for public transport is really really cannot make it ... not sure about the roads since i don't have a car ...

Maybe just maybe i can make use of the time to say better things rather than complaining about things i cannot change ... just so that i can live my day to the fullest WITH only positive stuff .~ But i guess its not really possible ... since complaing is like part of human's nature ... seriously ! are there any one out there who doesn't complain ? Maybe ... I'm not sure about that ... but i sure complain a lot ...

Maybe i'm not a very positive kid to begin with so its hard for me to live my day with no regrets because i forget things pretty easily and read things pretty negatively ... ask Qianying and she will give you a big Yes~ Quite tough for me to remain on that " Live life as if today was your last or tomorrow is dooms day " track .

Probably once a while i try to remind myself i have to take things with stride and accept things that comes along ... squeezing with "Ah Nehs" is part of life and your boss was just having a bad day ...

But one thing i do keep in mind ... i won't live forever so certain things i have to let go therefore i can move on with life ... no point holding on to things that happend already or people's opinion of you, well because theres really nothing you can do about it ...

Don't confess when its too late ... how about confessing now ? Just do it ... ! Take this as a reminder from me for today ...

Have a great Sunday people~

Dine Dong~

2010-04-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

Left 1 more month plus to the completion of IA !!! But hopefully i can remain there as temp staff until 1 month before school starts ... to earn some quick bucks for trips and stuff ...

Been running until the knee hurts ... and the leg become skinny -_- damm ugly ... maybe should eat more and put the weight back ... no injury no nothing ^^ but the thought of those sickness that comes with excess weight is a put off to me ....

Well can't run much anyway due to the rainy season in the evening especially ... so i guess have to do other form of activity ^^ ROPE skipping ^^

As for the 2nd gathering for the BPS peeps ... we see if everyone ... and i mean EVERY SINGLE ONE can really free up their time to attend ^^

Opps time to go for skipping ~ stay healthy & drink lots of water people the flu flu season is coming ...~ ...

Rainning More Frequently ...

2010-03-26T18:31:00.001+08:00

Holy banana ... recently bought one blood pressure monitor for the folks at home ... cause they seldom monitor their BP status so i got to monitor it for them ... i can use that too ^^ but i got the cheapest model since i found the other functions really useless to me in my opinion . Unless i can afford the $60 000 BP meter which is the accurate one ... the normal ones has an error range of about +-5mmHG just that they have additional memory function and so called more accurate ... But oh well i guess this is good enough ^^

IA is going to be over in like 10 weeks time .... we're busy choosing our Major Electives which can be quite a pain the a*s since the class is limited to a certain number of people . In order to stick together as a team, the NTU folks had to think and plan what to take ... Will be graduating like real soon ... 1 year more ... i think i will miss the school life which i had been enjoying ... in particular the holidays ^^ working life seems to be so mundane and full of backstabbing and -_- evil ars*hole who will try to devour you if you're not careful ... Luckily none dare to get close to me so i'm more like neutral to everyone ... in fact i wouldn't want to be involve in any shi*s ... at the end of the day my life span is limited ... getting myself so troubled working isn't just worth it ... sometimes i cannot figure out why the hell people like to scr*w each other up so much ... do they gain satisfaction ? If that is the reason i think the better go for some thrills ride or something ... isn't that better ?

As for me ... i just want to return home ... get out to run for like 20-30 mins ... have dinner ... enjoy my time with the family ... what else ? the rest doesn't matter really ~

Mafia ... Wenhao

2010-03-20T09:40:00.000+08:00

Boys and Girls check out the email for BPS Gather Gather Session ...

If you do not receive my email ... either you did not bother to check ... or you set me as junk ...

Haha ... Oh well ... just check with the rest ...

Date is set on 18th April ... Venue : Unknown ...

Bring YOUR camera ... Future notices will come to you peeps already on the mailing list .

If you are suppose to get the mail from me ... and you did not ... just call me ~

Lets have some serious talk ^^

2010-03-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

Still serving my time .... doing industrial attachment . Left about 3 more months to go and i will be done . Downside of this would be final year project and landing myself a job OR if my grades doesn't fare too badly ... MAYBE can consider doing Masters ... maybe i really can become Dr Aw afterall. Haha oh well ... we shall see about that after my return to school . I'll be in the final year soon and theres so much to think about . Getting the queue for house (BTO) , getting the 2 ladies ( Yiting and Shuning ) to brief me on those savings la insurance la accident la .... policies ... in case you don't know , these 2 ladies happens to be some of my oldest oldest friends among my list and if you can't trust anyone for policies i think you can go look for them ... i got their links on my blog so you can get in touch with them directly ... I don't gain any comission for the above statment ... they got lots of passion in what they are doing so i believe they deserve the attention they should be having ^^

Seems very long when everyone had dinner or meetups ... are there any good days around ? I only get to see the Bachelors with me most of the time ... Where is puiyee ? Where is ee mei ? Where is simone ? Kenny should be returning as well ...

Sometimes I wish i had all the time in the world to do what i feel is worth well ... working life is like ... so much time taken up ...

Dad recently loss pretty much weight and we finally forced him to get a check up at Mount Elizabeth Medical Center ... Me and Sis accompany him to the specialist to have a colonscopy and gastroscopy ... as my late Grandmother and Grandfather has history of stomach cancer and colon cancer respectively therefore i insisted to the doctor that he has to do it ... thankfully the result was pretty good except he had some infection in the stomach and acid reflux .... have to ban some of the food for him and adjust his eating habit . So he has to do the scan every 3 years ^^ which is good ! Finally knock some sense into his head .

Whats with me and Qianying up to lately ? Well going for dinner on fridays ... running around on saturdays ... haha meet up with NTU peeps ~ to lao yu sheng ... dinner ... movies ... Theres limitation in Singapore ... travelled to most of the places also ... we even check out the household items haha ... toliet bowls are damm expensive i tell you ... beds ... haha ... you folks must be thinking ... wenhao getting married liao is it ... ! U bet i will get married ... but still got sometime more ... you need a job ... you need MONEY ... AND a good house location ... And shes pretty shy ... so don't disturb her ... or i smack you !

Oh well enough for the updates ... I shall be going for my run ^^ take care peeps and hydrate yourself often because the weather lately will be pretty bad for a while ... don't let the heat toast your brain ^^

Hello ....

2010-02-21T09:51:00.001+08:00

Tada ! Ashton resting on me ... he doesn't like to stay in the cradle seat for too long and loves being carried all the time ... but he would stay put when he hears my heart beating haha

I think i've sort of lost the intrest to blog ... maybe its due to the fact that i'm quite tired when i return home from work and also working everyday is quite repetitive ... let see what i have done in this year so far ...

Visited the air show .... which is quite nice and huge~ except for the scorching sun ... you can view the pictures in qianying's blog ...

Visited River Ang Bao ^^ must go ! this is quite a recent event ... which i think will be ending soon ... try to smell the candy dragon ! because its made from malt so it got this very sweet scent which makes you feel like biting it ... just a warning to you peeps going there ... it is crowded ... there are rides for you and the queue isn't long ... theres the bumpy car too ! i think it cost about 5 bucks ? not sure ... should be quite affordable plus the fact that you seldom see such rides here so its worth going for it ...

Chinese New Year was never quite the same when the grandfolks isn't around anymore ... so its me and cousin and little nephew Ashton ... ^^

So i suppose i should be updating everyone with pictures soon ^^ weekends i guess ... somehow people still waiting to read ~ because i don't twitter lol

Waaa .... Working is tiring ...

2010-01-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

Hello people ^^

Industrial attachment is like .... zzz zzz zzz sometimes you get things to do sometimes you got nothing to do ... and people like to find problem with you ... because you got nothing to do ... and they never fail to think that there are only so much we can do ...

Because of the working hours ... i tend to spend my time a lot more carefully ... dinner with qy when ever possible and of course our own time together ... be it going to shopping malls ... or staying home to cook ... or going to parks for some sun ... have to manage it properly ^^

Nigel is working as property agent ... thats what i know so far ... have yet to see him ... so nothing much to update ... its work ... weekend ... work .... weekend ... seriously under paid for the time i spend working ... best of all the travel time is quite a killer ... but well i can only say ... i'm running almost everyday so that i won't become an uncle with a pot belly ...

So even if you are working ! please make sure you exercise ... though its tired ... i know it myself ... 6 am wake up 7.30 pm reach home ... where got the energy to run or exercise right ? but just 30 mins is enough ... for me ... i just make sure i can step out of the door step and i will continue to do the 30 mins routine ... running ... ~ otherwise ... tsk tsk it will be very unhealthy ...

Helloz ...

2010-01-14T18:26:00.000+08:00

Sorry peeps ...~ most likely won't be updating for 6 months ... unless i free ... because now i'm doing Industrial Attachement ... wake up 6 am ... come back almost 8 pm ... go for my 30 minute run ... come back dinner ... 1 hr rest ... then its bed time ... a bit sad life huh ... tsk ... better get a car next time ... so i got more TIME ... to sleep and to rest and ... to spend with people ~

FireWorks

2010-01-09T16:57:00.000+08:00

Phuket II

2010-01-05T11:59:00.000+08:00

Resting peacefully huh

you know those fishes that eat your feet ... fish spa ? we try the cheapo kind ... 4 SGD about 15 mins the lady cleaning weiyang's feet ...

Dinner time !!!

Erm ... No comment

Our Drinks ... Lemon Tea ...Fanta Orange ... Orange ... Pineapple

Phuket II

2010-01-05T11:54:00.001+08:00

This is just some of their donuts ... still got another 50% more types

Mmm ... custard shop... something like the donuts shop in Sg .... but its way way way cheaper

Nothing much here .. except our goodies

Thats Zhiyang with Weiyang counting our money left ...

This shop isn't selling hokkien mee ... Its actually PRAWN noodle shop ...

Phuket I

2009-12-30T11:44:00.001+08:00

Patong Beach ... Scorching Sun ... and Costly Sea Activities ^^
Tuk Tuk ... most often you would see red Tuk Tuk only ... and this one is special ^^ Depending on the distance you travel and how you haggle ... the charges varies ...

Thats our buffet breakfast at patong beach lodge ^^

Ah~ Problem at hotel ...~

Our Arrival at the airport greeted by TAXI TAXI TAXI .... MINBUS SIR ?~ CHEAP CHEAP TAXI ... cheap my arse ...~ all want to "tok" us ... took a cab to beach lodge 600 baht ... and i sit in front with the drivier driving at 160km/h luckily nothing happen ... the driver drove us not to our hotel straight away but to some travel agency which i believe he has links to so that the sales person there can promote stuff to us ... as usual ... i do the talking .... and the lady got no choice but to let us go ... when i ask her do i look like a liar ? she say yes ! Seriously do i look like i'm lying when i say i will return ? ... lol she say ... YA ... I think they should choose their client properly ... people like us ... most often had places in mind already when we board the plane ... so why would i listen to your plan ... ? But well thanks to her ... i got a new name "George Lim"

It was very funny ... If only i had record the whole process down ...

More to come ... Apparently ... they say i am the father of the 3 sons ... Nigel Zhiyang Weiyang ... Seriously do i look like their father ...~ You should see my nemo cap picture ... tsk ... stay tune ^^

Ding Ding

2009-12-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

Very long no blog ... results out ... A bit unexpected ...

Structure Design A
Gene R Us Pass
Water Supply Engineering B+
Wastewater Engineering B-
Solid Waste Management A-
Gen Environmental Engineering B+
Hydraulics A-

And .... this pulls me into the 2nd lower honors Yay ^^ qianying got 2nd upper honors ^^ and the rest of the peeps did very well ...

Will be uploading photos for trips to phuket ... and i will be starting my Industrial attachement in 2 weeks time ^^ after that i will be in my Final Year ... YES ! Finally ... And peeps please check your mail ... for gathering updatess .... yiting la ... simone la... and many more ... please check your mail ... i need comfirmation ~

Alright Wait for the photos ...

Exam Over ...

2009-12-09T09:56:00.001+08:00

Exam over ! Industrial Attachment Result Out ^^

Ermm ... hope i don't fail any of the subjects ... Time to catch up with the holidays ...

Will be going to phuket on 23-28th .... Exam Results out on the 30th ...

Need to catch up with a dinner together with Simone and peeps ...

And .... What else ... ?

Haha i am Uncle already ^^ got a very cute nephew ^^ have yet to go and carry him ...

And this week is movie craze ... Mulan , Zombie Land , Ninja Assassin and FengYun tomorrow ...

Peeps want anything from Phuket ? Mail me ...~

Does it matter ... yes it does ..

2009-11-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't be blogging now ... but oh well ... i mugged heavily for the past few weeks ... to prepare for the exam ... which i think i am pretty confident with ... but i was wrong ... 4 question 2 hrs 30 min ... i had to struggle ... struggle because i had to make sure i pass ... the question was out of the norm ... Should have expected that but the vast disparity was overwhelming ... I had that feeling of walking out during the examination ... this is the only 2nd paper ... i had 5 more to go and its going to be tougher ... I hope i don't have to repeat this module ... the whole 2 hours leave me badly battered mentally ... just feel like giving up ... but i can't ... i know i can't give up ... theres too much on the other end of the scale ... this is like the last semester where i had to study like no tomorrow ...

I hope can clear ^^ ....

all is not lost ...

1.25 months to go !

2009-10-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

>.< EXAMS ARE COMING WOOT !

1.25 MONTHS TO GO .... and this semester will end happily i guess ... hope i won't screw up and the revision starts now ...

Its quite a tough 3 month this time ... though i was expecting it to be slightly lighter than last semester but it turns out to be twice the workload ...

Hope i pull through again ^^ and it will be HOLIDAYS YEAH !

Until then i probably don't have much to write here ... wait for the holidays again ^^

^^ take care people and keep fit ok !

You never change your views ?

2009-10-10T18:27:00.000+08:00

We had our obligations and you had yours ... why can't you understand something as simple as that ? Are the rest giving you pressure ? If so why can't you tell us ? It isn't fair to you but that doesn't mean you should be unfair to us . You don't have to be the one taking the hit , i am old enough to protect you from anything ... just tell me . Theres reason for us not being able to go yet u simply brush our reasons aside accusing us of having fun . It only proves to us one thing ... we never grew up in your eyes and the same for the rest too . What about the rest ? those who couldn't go ? Do they HAVE better reasons then us both ? I don't wish to compare or get into an argument with you because there is nothing to gain from it . We had choices in life and we simply choose to move forward and take care of the important things first ... please understand .

mm . . . .

2009-09-26T15:06:00.000+08:00

I often see people say the more failure you encounter the better you become in dealing with future encounters . What if all your encounters were doomed to fail ? Will you still be optimistic about your future ?

I supposed that sometimes we say such things, the main purpose is to pacify our troubled minds. Otherwise how do we continue moving on right ? But then again , if shits happen more than you can take i doubt it will be sufficient .

Sometimes my mind wanders off and then i start thinking ... why are certain people so oblivious to others feelings . Do you encounter such people in your daily life ? Don't you feel like giving them the shit they are doing to you ? I do feel like giving them a piece of my mind but i doubt they can take it ... and its probably not beneficial for me to do that ... If i was 8-10 years younger i might throw a chair at them ^^ . Will be turning 24 in like less than 6 months ... looking back at the time i throw the chair at Daniel and the me now ... woa still look as fierce but no more fire -_- sometimes its rather pointless to get mad at something when you have no control over it ... just walk away ... just keep quiet ... just think about other things ^^

But then again ... why are certain people so oblivious to others ?? Don't they have feelings ? Probably they have yet to experience shit ... Perhaps down the road they will understand one day ... I suppose this is part of growing up ... part and parcel of life ~

Goodbye my beloved Grandma~

2009-09-24T18:53:00.001+08:00

She passed away last Saturday ... a few hours before we could all celebrate my nephew's 1 month old. She had lived her life to the fullest without regrets . Despite the pain she was going through ,her last moment was a peaceful painless one ... everyone was beside her .

Today she was cremated and i'm feeling a bit empty ... its hard for me to accept the fact that my Sundays would be different from now on. Its hard in everyway ... but all i can say is if she was around, she will always tell me " Its alright ... nevermind about it ^^ "

I don't need sympathy from anyone, because its unlikely anyone will have the same feelings as what i am feeling now ... I'm not trying to be mean here, but i think you all should know it that unless you are the one going through the actual situation, its almost impossible to share the same feeling as the person ... All i am asking is ... don't ask me about it and don't tell me to take care ... i don't think its necessary ... everyone is being kind and i know that ... the reason why i never tell many people is because i just want to go through this quietly ... its nothing glamarous , its nothing much to brag about ...

So peeps out there , thank you for showing your concern ... ^^ i know you peeps care but its enough ... let me come to terms with it myself ... ^^ only i know whats best for myself ^^ .

Have a nice weekend people ... and don't tag my board for this entry .

Still the same ^^

2009-09-12T15:20:00.000+08:00

Sharon got married just recently .... ^^ Grats Grats :P 09092009 Check out the facebook if you aren't aware .

So who is going to be next in line ^^

Mm... whats going on lately for me ... its still the same old mugging every single day . Except i take a break once a while to sleep longer to watch movies with the peeps or qianying ... other than that ... it will be books books and more books ... can't seem to get anything right at this moment ... i guess its pretty normal since this is my 3rd semester in school ...

Haven seen some of the folks for a while already ... just a bit more and its holiday ^^ 8 more weeks to go and exam will begin ^^

Week 2 End ...~ Current week 3

2009-08-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

I'm not very free to blog or write anything here ... because 90% of my time were spent in school doing tutorials and trying to understand what the Drs~ are teaching .

So week 3 now ... 10 more weeks to exam ... University life is very hectic ..~ the moment you slow down you will be overwhelmed easily or if you are unlucky crushed by those strange formulas ...

My last saturday burn because kenna call back to do ippt ~ I CLEAR LIAO LOR ... silver some more ... but some itchy backside must call us all back ... waste time ... but i still clear it 2nd time with a silver again ... this time i clock 10.37 second ^^ for 2.4km~ 10 seconds faster than my previous run but well its not gold so the incentives won't come ... unless i can shave that 45 seconds away lol ... but quite impossible unless i train everyday >.< never mind ... that can be shelved aside ...

Currently is busy with school work mainly >.<

Why my holiday soooo short ~

School has begun ~

2009-08-14T00:07:00.001+08:00

Week 1 will end when you read this ... yup 13 weeks of school and exam ...

My 1 semester before i go for attachment and then return for the final year ...

I wish this semester will pass quickly and painlessly ...

I'm taking 7 subjects ... and tough luck 6 cores are all calculation intensive ... all about water engineering stuff ...

So its work again ^^ but its better to suffer now than regret for life ...

i just want to finish this ^^

So i probably won't be posting anymore post here for a while ...

And my blogger seems to return to normal already ^^

I try to upload photos during the weekends ba .~

Doesn't work ~

2009-08-01T10:45:00.000+08:00

Something is pretty wrong with my blogger ... but oh well ...

Pretty busy ! ... Stayed at Gleneagles hospital overnight to be nightwatch for Grandma because apparently only the maid and me quite free to do so ... everyone was afriad the cancer had return but the CT scan showed every part of her is healthy , her heart specialist also say her heart is in very healthy condition . Overall to say she is healthy ... the fact she cannot walk and weaken so much is because of age and the rate of nutrient loss is too fast . So she will be returning today and tomorrow i will be going over to see her . Because she has always been walking a lot thats why only now her muscle mass starts to decrease at such an alarming rate ... Trust me if you don't exercise and take ur fitness now for granted i bet that you won't be able to walk very well at age 60 onwards . Not to mention other shitty old aged illness that comes along with age . Grandma eat very lightly and at age 80++ going to hit 90 soon the blood vessels are 68% clogged . To think her diet from young till now was vegetables and fish ... and she exercise a lot ... it can still be clogged ~ . The doctor says u can eat right exercise right ... but the vessels will be clogged over the years no matter what ... not eating right will just speed up the clogging process .

Quite true ... Its like a pipe line ... over months and years the pipe surface will be deposited with bacteria cells which will grow .... algae and stuff ... the difference is ... its easier to clean a pipe than blood vessles ... She has to take special protein supplement and other nutrients drink . Maybe will be installing some exercising machine for her at home too .

... i couldn't stand watching the nurse draw blood from her ... the agony shown on her face was quite painful to me ... i had to walk away ... just to wipe those tears away ... and when she can't get to sleep i will just go next to her and hold her hands ... she will frown at me and say " hao~ your hands very cold " , I just told her to get some sleep even though its at 3 am~ ... time doesn't seems to matter much now ...

If you ask me does she have any regrets ? I will say she has none ... and shes still worried if i had eaten or not ...

If you ask me ... do i have any regrets ? I will tell you i have a very big one ... that is not recording more videos of her ...

2 weeks more

2009-07-27T14:30:00.000+08:00

Argh 2 more weeks and school term will begin ... after a long 3 month ++ break for almost everyone except me . Because i had to go back and finish my term in the army so now i only get to enjoy 1 month of undisrupted break ... which is going to end .

Running ... movies ... going out with the folks ... I find that my time pass by pretty fast . But i guess all these aren't important eventually ...

I've come to realise something which i regret a lot ... i should have capture more videos of my visit to Grandma house ... the people there and most importantly her . Shes pretty ill now ... unable to even sit on wheelchair ... shes still healthy but weaken a lot due to age ... 80++ there are no underlying sickness or anything ... more time will be spent over there for me ... because she has taken very good care of me all these years ... ^^ Won't go much into that because it will become very emo for me haha ...

I suppose i will update more in the next entry after ... some outings ^^ I wonder will there be a steamboat coming up ?

Car Boot Sale

2009-07-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

This is the carboot sale at the BIG SPLASH . Zhiyang and Nigel selling their transformers . Zhiyang's Sister and Cousin selling their clothing and accessories.

Qian Ying came to give support and take a look too ^^ and also let me ferry her around the ECP in the double seater bicycle.

Ernest and Emeris came halfway to give their support . They left a while later to go for their blading session .

Hengky and Weiyang join us for dinner in the evening ... ^^

mmm ...

2009-07-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

Well ... ^^ I've been at my grandma house the past few days ... pop in to see her ... After the morning session with Qianying ... i went to accompany her ... while walking in ... i saw aunt pushing her around the estate ... she became wheelchair bound 3-4 weeks ago ... the pain in her leg made walking impossible . Her will to live seems going downslope as observed by cousin ... so everyday someone will be visiting her ... cooking her porridge ... getting what she wants .

She love to walk ... she love to be occupied but being bounded onto a wheelchair takes everything away ... she become more weak and frail as time passes ... she keeps looking down all the time ... so we try to talk to her ... to keep her going . Her main worries will still be her children and grandchildren ... hope she will get better ^^ theres still a lot of things to be done ~

80% Groupies BBQ session

2009-07-07T13:11:00.000+08:00

Why titled as 80% ? because we are short of 20% attendence ... and i'm deeply sorry for those who were not called up ... because this session was decided very last minute and not that you are forgotten but don't worry there will be another steamboat session organise by Nigel ...~

Zhiyang , Puiyee , Ee Mei , Allan and Me went earlier with all the prepared stuff for this BBQ session ~ ... Actually we had a lot of food wastage and Ernest even brought along 4 big Durians ^^ It was pretty good ~

Kenny feeling guilty for not being of much help so he took up the role to take over BBQing the food~

The Organizerzzz for this session ... Uncle Aw and Ee Mei ~

The ladies who attended this session ^^

Pretty Fun~Lets have another gathering with everyone in it ... ~ this one not enough haha ~

Oliver's 23rd Birthday Steamboat ^^

2009-07-07T13:06:00.000+08:00

Some of the pictures for Oliver's 23rd Birthday which takes place at his condo function room ...

These are the Peeps from NTU ... Mainly some random Photos taken from all the shots you can view most of them on my face book ^^

Steamboat ^^

Lesle drag the whole dustbin into the function room

Don't ask me why i take a picture with Qianying together with a dustbin beside me ...

Oliver the Birthday Man ~

Now i must use another method to upload photos ~

2009-07-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

We travel to Whampo Blk 90 to eat ... Basically its around Kenny's old home suppose to try the food from Yummy Guides but the stalls were either close or just starting up ... But either way I try to get some of the better ones ahah so to feed her properly ...~

Smile Smile only haha~

All the food for less than 8 Bucks ^^ Enough to feed 2 person to full though ahah

There we are ^^ At night while on the way to get her home haha ... I wonder why she look so pale in this picture ... If you click her blog you will see the pig face tsk~

Theres a BBQ going on during Monday and Tomorrow will be Oliver's Party ... i wonder what are we having for steamboat ...

I've been having headaches on the left side behind the ear ... its like some strain or pulling force there ... couldn't get rid of it . Since the holiday starts ... it comes and goes ... and i doubt its migraine ... I don't have it and for someone so relaxing now ... why is that even possible haha ... It drains my energy ~ everytime i have it ... and i must sleep to get rid of it ... maybe when you pass the age of 21 all sorts of nonsense comes to you ... your knee starts to ache ... your shin hurts after running too long ... you get headaches for no reason ... you lose intrest in things you like to do when you were younger ... i cannot stick to watching tv or playing games for more than 1 hour ... i will either get bored or feel very tired ahaha ... mind you i do run 2-3 times a week so not exercising isn't the cause ... i drink milk everyday ... and eat apples every night ... apart from those food tours with my girl there ... i never eat much at home ... mostly is cooked by mum for dinners or else i cook pasta myself ... Lack of vitamins ? Lack of water ? can't be ... I ruled out eveyr possible reasons haha except that shit happens when you grow older ... Maybe its time to go for a check up to iron out the issues ... And if i haven't been seeing you peeps for a while please forgive me if i forget your name ... its either i am suffering from dementia or i brain is seriously not working right ... i cannot remember the names of the people whom i use to know ... scary huh ... maybe i might forget yours one day ... don't be angry because i didn't mean to ... lots of white hair coming out as well ... tsk ... whats going on really ... i will have to find out for myself ...

Grandma hasn't been well since i haven't visit her for 2 weeks ... from walking to being wheeled chair bound ... imagine that ... T_T her body so frail and thin that it hurts to even hold her hand ... she barely remember me even though she seem me quite frequently ... the Doctor says she lack of nutrients ... but well she can't consume much due to her past operation which removes a porttion of her stomach away due to cancer ... the adsorption rate is lower despite the food she gets ... no oily stuff for her as it will give her very bad diahrrea ... Luckily everyone takes time off to visit her to make sure she doesn't feel lonely ... watching tv with her or just talking to her ... its all that matters .

Again all these just remind us that time doesn't wait for you ... they don't give you the chance to redo things once you've done it ... if there are things you need to do and there are things you need to correct ... do it now or you may never have the chance . Make the decision that you feel is right for you ... and not base on others decision or influence ... its your life ... you only get to live once ... i always try to remind myself this so that i don't do stupid things or say unecessary things to people ... if its not beneficial then it probably won't be in the future ...

have you been smiling ? or have you been crying ...

Ding Ding

2009-07-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

Ah~ I tried to upload photos but i not sure why it didn't appear at all ...

Ok i try to get the photos up before i blog >.<

Clementi ? Jurong East ?

2009-06-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

Woo ...

Today went to eat the food listed in the Yummy Guide ....

Qianying and I went to clementi to eat the Wonton mee and the porridge ... Total cost is only $8.20 ... The wonton mee portions pretty big ... and you get 5 pieces of Wonton ~ ... qianying say the charsiew a bit hard ... but i think mine was alright ... haha and the porridge was pretty ok too . If you don't like those porridge which had been added with lots of salty elements i think you can try this one ^^ Both the stalls are at just at the market beside the MRT station ...

Afternoon we walk around and pretty much nothing to buy even though i wanted to make her try on some clothing haha ... and we tried the DimSum ... mm . . . the JiuCai Dumpling NICE ... but i realise they got branches all around so a bit silly to travel there to eat it . Its at Jurong East by the way haha ^^

Will be going on another trip with her ^^ Forgot to take more pictures , if not i can post the pictures of the food here haha ...

Kaiwen's 21st B`day BBQ

2009-06-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

NTU Peeps with Birthday girls ^^
Qiang Ying and meeeee ^^

Everyone from engineering ^^

Qian Ying with little boy ..>~ the little boy likes her

Avril ^^

Ding Ding ...

2009-06-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

Another someone just pass away huh ... pretty unexpected ... and here i am to remind you peeps ... it may just happen to us ...

I wonder if everyone knows the time that they will die ... will they start living their lives ? will they stop those nonsense conflicts with one another ... and be more kind to each other ?

Will knowing when your time ends make a difference ... ?

Will you then start to do something ?

2009-06-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

Nigel with the egg tarts ^^

Weiyang and Zhiyang with the burgers lol ... quite tasty

At ... the mall ...

The mee soto i ordered ...

Rare appearances ^^ Ex NDU Hengky :P He probably joining the biathalon ... with Nigel ..

The above picture is about the short trip to Malaysia to eat ... or rather to walk around .. ^^ Wasn't very successful because we kind of mess up the whole thing ahaha ... by getting lost ... :P Better luck next time ^^ Weiyang is leaving for Tokyo in July ... You guys want anything just let him know .

Random PIctures from Bird Park

2009-06-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Qianying looking far ahead ...

Big Birds !!!

This one not very afriad of me ...

Ding Dong ^^

The World Blood Donor's day entitled me to 2 complimentry tickets to the bird park so we went there anyway ... ^^ Took us about 2 hours plus to finish walking the whole place but its a pity the show was always packed with people due to the crowds that day haha ... but nevetherless it was still pretty enjoyable despite the hot day ^^ .... and the birds can get very stinky :P

Sorry too busy at the moment ...

2009-06-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

I almost doing COS everyday ...

If lucky like today i will be able to come home ...

So the blog will not be updated for a while till end June ...

Some pictures first ...

TOoo busy ...

2009-06-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

Always in camp ...

Now i kenna arrow to do 4 COS duty ... 2 was planned ... 2 was last minute bomb thrown onto me ...

Sometimes the planning part screw up ... you get pissed off with these kind of last minute arrangement ... because it screw up the rest of your plans ... your personal ones ... but there is no point in arguging ... no point in dissuading the ones who arrow you ... because it will just make you more pissed off ... I just take it and tell him what my plans were ... if it wasn't taken into consideration ... i will still fufill my job ... because there isn't really a point to complain and complain about it ... these kind of things sure happen ... they better pay me on time ...

Qianying baked cookies for me ... niceee ... sorry i finished everything before i can take photos of it ... was supposed to have dinner with her on Friday but well last minute called to take up duties which was left behind by irresponsible people so i had to make alternative arrangements ... i hope the Saturday even won't be interrupted ... i really hope so~

So ... 3 more weeks to go and i will finish everything ^^

Ding Ding

2009-05-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

Finisher T~

Nigel 4 hour plus completed the run ! He was one of the groupie who ask me to try running !

Here we are ^^

Finished ! 42km~

2009-05-31T18:23:00.001+08:00

First full marathon ... lol 6 hours 55 minutes ... i think i walk more than i run ...

First 20km was ok ... took me about 2h hours 15 to hit ... but halfway stomache ... find toliet ... but nothing ...~ just stomache ... then blisters sets in ... woohoo ... run for another 2 km ... leg starts to cramp up ... and i walk/run for the rest of the 20km ... thought i could finish at 5 am but my walking speed was so slow that ... even other people who walk can walk faster than me ... ... almost wanted to just stop and give up ... so hungry and tired ... and i see all the kopitiams around ... mac donalds ... but then i just wanted to finish it ... so eventually i did ^^ ....

When it rains ... and you are going for breakfast ... haha this is what happens when u're stuck at traffic light waiting to cross ...

In the rain ^^ Ding Ding !

Ding Dong ...

2009-05-29T01:04:00.000+08:00

This picture is very funny ... i also don't understand how this shot can be taken lol ... Qianying seems to be sleeping and smiling ahah ... and my face ... don't ask me why ahah ... like drunk like that ... sorry ! i never drink ... lol maybe too hot ...

So this coming saturday will be running sundown 42km with Nigel and some of his friends ... Weiyang because of his ankle injury will not be running with us ... i hope i can finish ... so i get the finisher T-shirt ^^ Ding Ding ... This holiday is pretty packed ... And must enjoy it to the fullest ... ^^

Exercise Run Run Run ~

2009-05-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

You don't seem me writing that often anymore ...

Because i spend most of my time in camp ^^

Do what ? Morning go for run with battalion ...

Sleep ... Eat Lunch ... Train the men for their trade course ... Gym .... Dinner ... Go home ...

So quite typical ... Kenny has return and he has yet to say hello ... DUDE ! So ... I'm waiting to meet up ...

And ... where did my Kitty go ... ~

Results out ...

2009-05-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

Results pretty unexpected ... better than i predicted so heres the following !

CV2002 COMPUTATIONAL METHODS B

CV2102 STRUCTURES I B-

CV2901 ENGINEERING DRAWING AND MEASUREMENT A-

CV2902 ENGINEERING INNOVATION & DESIGN B+

EN2502 ENVIRONMENTAL PROCESSES B-

EN2503 ENVIRONMENTAL MICROBIOLOGY B

EN2603 HYDROLOGY B+

EN2703 LABORATORY 2C B+

MS8202 SYMMETRY AND CRYSTALS A-

And it improved my cGPA a lot ... was so worried but ... its out and i'm still alright ... Moving on to year 3 ^^ ... I'm a happy man ~

Its time

2009-05-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

So my case is done ! .... I get to stay out while finishing my remaining days ... Boss allowed ... and will not be sending me for course ...

In just 2 more hours ... results will be out ... all the best people ... we should all do fine i guess .

Ding Ding

2009-05-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

Can things get any better ? ? ? ... They really want to stretch the old bones huh

Sad ...

2009-05-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

Why suddenly tell me must stay in ... Knew no one there ... even the bosses are all different ... Hope got new instruction tomorrow ... tentatively is stay in T_T June 29 will finish serving ... why make me stay in and pull my stuff back >.<

Now it will be so depressing to stay in ...

No one knows you ... and in the night it will be so boring ... no one to talk and laugh with you ...

It doesn't serve any purpose >.<

Thursday result release ... now mixed with so much emotions ...

Scared of the results and hai ... now its all so depressing T_T ... why so messed up ~

Lets see

2009-05-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

Caught a pretty bad flu ... fever for 3 days ... on off on off ... tsk ... who pass it ? Sister ~ keep blowing her nose to the sink ... i think the whole area is filled with her germs ... she does that pretty often lately ... nevermind ... wait till she gets it ... !@#!@#@

The EID project has finally ended ... and now whats left is to wait for the results on the 22nd ... and again ... must hope never fail any subject >.< Lets take a look at some photos ...

On the train home ... for some ... Suntec for us ^^

The As Goddesses sulking ...

Weiliang our speaker and Yenting ! Thats our poster !

Lets slow down the pace and think ... I think most of the readers here are from groupies and some from school ... so the age group is around 21-24 ... fast huh ? Just when you had the impression that you just finish your o level yesterday ... now you're in University or Army ... or some already in the working society ... on the average i think we've live almost a quarter of our lives ... so the next 30-40 years or so ... we will probably be working our a** off to earn enough money to survive ... and to enjoy of course ... ^^ Any idea whats your ideal life style next time ? I think i just want a simple and comfortable one ... one which allows me to enjoy movies and dine a places which i like ^^ and of course travel overseas once a while ^^ ... Life is seriously too short for worries ... i might be here typing this and the next thing you know i might not be around ... pretty unpredictable ... don't get me wrong ... i don't want to die young lol ... NO WAY ... if can i make sure i live till old old ... without sickness of course ^^ ... Its better to be happy and live life the way you wanted it ... sometimes the money factor for daily needs is kind of "BO BIAN" so we must work ~ ... ^^ But i guess thats part of life as well ^^

End of Year 2 Sem 2

2009-04-28T12:29:00.000+08:00

Tada ! Exam Over ! Lets take a look ... at the peeps involved for the mugging~ .... It has been a pretty long journey of mugging and coffee and ENDLESS junk food ... but everybody should be alright when the results come out ... PASS CAN LIAO ....

So ? Whos this ? ^^ QianYing ! another one who aces the exam~ I'm stuck with her :P

Can see the one in green at the FarFAR back ? Thats PuiHan the Goddess~ Ace all her papers de ~ Simply amazing ...~ The guy in orange "Max" also another one who aces the exam ~

This is the newly formed Exam Study Group ... Sometimes got Jerry and the Goddesses around also ... Last semester got the guys only ... Most often are the

5 ORIGINALS .... Weilian Lesle JianMing Wenhao Oliver ~

This is what happen when poly peeps took over the place ... This is our exam hall ... and THATS our last exam for this semester ^^

Exam Over

2009-04-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

Exam Over ! Wait for result and pray ~ Tsk Tsk ~ Lets take a look at some photo ~

MM . . . warm ~

2009-04-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

The weather lately isn't very conducive for exam preparation ... well ... last minute preparation ...

Process ... was quite a bit of stunning ... definately made mistakes and some of the questions was really beyond my scope of understanding ...

But its over ... and I HOPE to pass it ... >.<

Tomorrow is Microbiology ... I am hopping to ace this paper ... or rather the paper i had put a lot of effort in ... But i expect the paper to be difficult ... Its like ... ya~ Going to go for a cold shower before i revise my work again ... Had to ace it no matter what >.< ...

The day ...

2009-04-17T19:08:00.000+08:00

Since when is computational methods so tough ... for the past 6 semester the exam papers are rather similar but this semester IS TOTALLY NEW ... brand new questions .... I hard a tough time ... was struggling with myself not to give up ... ... i thought i had sufficient preparation ... or thats my own wishful thinking ...

Almost walk out halfway ... i couldn't see myself passing ... that paper crushed my hope ... i had thought that the paper shouldn't be that difficult ... well at least not to the extend that you can't do it ... but zzz ... i paused for 5 minutes and calm myself ... i had a lot to lose if i don't overcome this so i decided to give it all i've got ... i may not be able to solve the question but i never leave any blank ... even when i know i am bullshitting for some of the questions ... i just write something ... i was that desperate ... i really hate this feeling ... why after sitting for exams so many years and now i felt this kind of desperation .... its only in Uni~ argh ... i did study ... and i study very hard for it ... maybe i'm not inclined towards this >.< BUT never mind ... i just want to vent here ... if not i got no other channels to speak out ... everyone is feeling pretty low so its not wise to trouble them ... tsk ... i hope there will be moderation .... if not i cannot gurantee my pass ...

It was bad ... and when i think about you ... i'm even more worried >.< . NVM next coming paper ... Environmental Process ... .... another killer ... Paper set by 1 Prof and a Dr~

This is crazy !!!!

Tsk ... My 10 went to kitty's side ...~

2009-04-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

Liew Careless careless ...

Today exam was in my opinion ... doable ... but I MADE HELL LOTS OF CARELESS MISTAKES ... suppose to divide by 100 i went to divide by 10 ... THIS KIND of mistakes should happen in primary school only ! why is it i am also letting it happen ... MINUS SIGN FORGOT TO PUT ... this one very classic ... EVERYTIME ...~

But i think and i hope i can pass today's Structures 1 exam ... Next paper ... Computational Methods ... Let all of us make it through this semester again ... i don't wish to see anyone or myself to tarpao~ ...

Best of luck ... ^^

Mmm . . . .

2009-04-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

Today AutoCad drawing quiz over ! Was pretty simple ~ and i must say very lucky~ . Grandma's ring got bring me luck ! ... So exam i comfirm wear it ! But of course i must be as prepared as i can so that i won't be shocked . Wednesday the first paper will begin ...

Best of luck people ... and to you too love ^^ ~

Ding Ding ... Tsk Tsk ...

2009-04-08T21:46:00.001+08:00

When the fish meets the lion ...~ the fish kidnapped the LION ! :P

Out of ABC liao ^^ .... Nigel GAMBATAE ~ ....

I think we both want this to be rather low profile ? When the time is right the news will come ...

So~ Stay tune for this special news >.< made be rather elated ~ lol

So today was the BIO 2nd QUIZ ... i wore the ring Grandma gave me ... while travelling to school i saw a couple . An old couple , the grandfather .. grandmother kind ... the grandmother seems a bit lost in her thoughts due to her aged but the grandfather still held onto her hands guiding her to the busstop ... when he let go and let her to walk she just stood there not knowing what to do ... he prompt her to go over to him ... but still as lost ( due to old aged i guess ) ... he went over and held onto her ... That was extremely touching ... they seems to be going to shop for groceries and my question is ... So peeps out there ... pls hold hand till the time you can't don't let go when she/he can't remember who you are because somewhere within them they still remember your warmth ^^ ... Thats the love story part i witness ...

QUIZ WAS GOOD ! Thanks to the ring Grandma gave me ! Brings me a lot of luck ! Quiz was in my opinion very easy ... since its not MCQ where i tend to doubt myself ... but a lot of essasy to write ... and i hit the jackpot for the calculations ... woot ... brezze through the paper and i can still smile at the professor at the end of the quiz ^^ I SUPPOSED and i hope this marks will elevate the pass failure i had for this Zzz Bio~

SO its exam next week ... preperation still going on ^^ .... can't give up~ :P or else someone might stuff me with Tuna ... or lipids~

mm .... ....

2009-04-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

I think i'm at my limits ... guess i need to sleep a bit more early ... the headache is getting a bit on my nerves ...

So exam is just 1 week plus later and ... i'm not very certain how i will fare this time round ... doesn't seems to be very well prepared yet ...

Structures 1 : 15th april
Computational Methods : 17th April
Environmental Process : 20th April
Environmental Microbiology : 22th April
Hydrology : 27th April

5 Exams this time round ... and so far i flunk Microbiology quiz ... theres another upcoming quiz next week which I WILL use it to make up for my past failure ...~

The failing rate for Structures 1 is pretty high according to seniors and even the professors themselves ... 4 question 2hr 30 mins ... Might sounds a bit too long for you peeps but ITS not enough ... i think should give like 3 hours ...

mm . . . I need like 90% luck this time round ... i don't know if what i am doing is sufficient ... i'm just trying ... putting in whatever time i have ... simply just to make it through ... clear this year i will be in year 3 ... there is only one semester for year 3 and the other half is industrial attachment .... year 4 is pretty much a give away ... this semester results is very crucial ... nevermind the honors rating ... just let me pass ~~ B min~ lol~ not very much to ask for !

Best of luck to everyone for the exams ... i hope i'll be around next semester ^^

Woo ...

2009-03-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

Woa ...

Took MRT .... one pretty sweet lady sit in front of me ...

saw me with a big bag .... then we keep hearing cat's mewing sound ....

SHE keep staring at me ... OF COURSE NOT BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO KNOW ME ...

She is either thinking i am keeping a cat on me ... or i'm carrying some shiet stuff ....

Why must be me ~ ... the Curry Man beside me also got big bag .... !*&@^#&*@!^#*

But she very sweet looking ~

The End~

The war has begun~

2009-03-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

Excellent~ the exam is coming in 2 weeks time ... 40% up to level only ... HOW ?

MUG MUG MUG ...

I need to mug hard for the post exam celebration :P

Tsk Tsk ...

All study hard ... there won't be any people tarpaoing anything this semester ...

How should i term this ...

2009-03-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

Things are what it seems to be ...
There seems to be a veil covering every thoughts and action ...
Somehow everything seems to be beautiful ...
But when i peer deeper into this ... its such a disappointment ...
Why does it have to be like this ...
Was it necessary ... if such intention exists then let it made known ...
Its utterly disappointing ... why bother to put a mask on when that mask can be seen through ...
Its just a facade ...

Disappointing ... really ...

Lets see ... Heres something ~

2009-03-22T02:25:00.000+08:00

Heres a story ...

When i was in the army ... i was the sergent for my detachment of 5 guys ... since we must dig this baseplate position ... there is a man allocated to this job ... but you know its hard to dig when so much load on you ... and when you are thin and strengthless ... its even harder ... so who do the job for my 4th man ... ? Me ~ one of the few who dug for their men first ... when we were doing this proficiency test ... i dig with my guys ... since i can land the hits heavier and harder to the soil ... thats my way of telling them ... i'm no different from you all ... just because of the rank i have ... it doesn't mean i will just let you suffer ... Thats not me ... if i can help you ... i will help you ... if i can't help you ... I STILL try to give what i can ... What i don't wish to go through ... i also don't wish to go through , i too don't wish them to go through ... my men didn't give me problems ... maybe some mischief at times but when its time to be serious ... they are very serious ... they cook magee for me ! ~ thats the nicest thing they do for me ... outfield i run here run there ... so i got no time to cook ... then they will cook for me ~ for that ... i had a pretty enjoyable time when serving my days ...

So why ... is the time outside of army so fake ... ? People just like to shield up and not open their arms to others ... why ? ~ i know of some ... who told me that they will never share willingly ... this is the kind of society we are living in ... some tell me i should just rely and don't bother about others ... wth ? ~

.... .... I had a pretty wonderful night ^^ so~ time to sleep~

When the groupies comes together ... a few missing though

2009-03-22T01:24:00.001+08:00

The dudes who are always there

The friends who never left my side ^^ a few missing from this picture because of work and projects .. i'll post the rest when we go out for the make up session ...

Kenny i took your cheese cake away first !

Simone thank you for the cheesecake and the hand written parcel ^^

The sunshine girl as usual ^^ Yiting !

Heres a short clip from a year ago in Cambodia ...

When memory fades ...

2009-03-19T23:56:00.000+08:00

Its funny ... i didn't have this problem last semester or any years prior to now ... i keep making careless mistakes ... calculator punch wrongly ... values read off wrongly ... made the wrong payment amounts ... and all these are happening too frequently ... just too frequently to be normal ...

Was it really because i was too careless or was it something else ...

Now i'm only moving forward ...

This ... is it ...

2009-03-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

Ok anyway ... That lousy post was deleted ~ I did not pass the quiz >.< But i'll do better for the next one ... period ~

Enough sulking ... so ~ just have to keep going ...

Ding Ding ...

2009-03-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

Woa ... Was pretty rush today since the Hydraulic Lab ended a bit later ... Rush to get the TUNA SUB and ... wenhao ... wenhao !~

I look around ... WOA its Joanne and Aisha ... was on the way for my next lecture ... so i had to eat the sub on the way ... but i decided to talk to them for a while ^^ ... Both still look very beautiful as time passes ^^ and they graduating next year :P And i will be making some arrangements for some visiting ! ...

So Crystallography has finally ended with me getting a B+ on average i guess ... thats a rough estimate for the 4 quizzes i took over the past 3 months ... and i'm so glad its over ... my GPA like 3.19 only ... unlike the other peeps ...3.5 and above lol ... I AM TRYING HARD TO GET AS MANY As THIS SEMESTER ... so all these need hard work ... no choice ... no one will study for you ... you control every thing you do and you make sure you are good at it . ^^

Back to work ...

Blink Blink ....

2009-03-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

Mizuki Nana - Deep Love

Snow falls in the night sky
We drew close and looked up
The warmth as we held hands
Felt so gentle

Will that promise that should have lasted forever
Vanish into the light blue rift between the clouds?

Just being by your side, that was all I needed
Before I knew it, my dream had grown larger than reality

No matter when or where
Hold me in your arms tightly, tightly
Even if passion dyes the ordinary things
These feelings for you are my everything
I believe they’ll never end
You’re the one I’ll always be watching

Will the words and time we exchanged alter its shape?
The moon’s tears melted down its white cheeks

“Don’t go, stay a little longer,” I start to say again and again
“We can see each other anytime,” I tell myself again and again

We suddenly began to run
Headed in different directions, we can’t be stopped
The silence tears me apart more than I imagined
If I can be allowed a single wishI want to say, “I’m sorry”

No matter how much I feel for you, you won’t know
I have to say it, I have to start moving
Our secret will remain hidden
And just be forgotten, won’t it?
So…please, come here right now…

Just being by your side, that was all I needed
If we meet again, I wonder if we can share even more laughter

No matter when or where
Hold me in your arms tightly, tightly
Melt me with a body temperature hotter than passion
These feelings for you are my everything
I believe they’ll never end
You’re the one I’ll always be watching

...........................................................................................................Nice ... and Its just so nice ...

Ding Ding ^^

2009-03-08T17:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night went out for dinner with Zhiyang and Weiyang ... and we tried our luck with those UFO catcher ... seriously 3 23 yr old guys playing with those machine ... you must be thinking whats on our mind ... and Zy and Me caught something ... :P Weiyang gave up ~ Then they decided to watch "Coming Soon" ... I am very bad with these kinds of movie ... but i know someone who is extremely good at this ... So i got some shock of my life last night ... T_T yes the whole chair shook when i jump >.<

Just cleared 1 tutorials ... and i had still had 4 more to go ... 10% of a formal report left to write ... and revision for exam ... Did i mention that my exams is next month ? ... The pace is WOW amazing ... but I WILL MAKE IT ! No buts ~ so good luck to the rest of the peeps as well ... Then if all things goes well ... I WILL BECOME A YEAR 3 STUDENT ... sounds great huh ... yeah I also hope so too ! ^^

So i'm just waiting for Nigel's return ... and Kenny's return ... When nigel return ... the folks will meet up one time ... a big one i thing ... then i will go into my cave and study ... you probably won't see me blog at all for like 2 months ? Kenny will return during my 3 month holiday ... and woo more outings ... i probably find some crap jobs to kill time and earn a bit of money ... because i will be going back to finish up the 1 month NSF liability ... So EVERYONE in school ... HANG IN THERE ! :P

Just push yourself ... today quite good ... 4 hours do 5 question ... LOL ... yesterday even better 5 hours write a few pages of report only ... its camping in school for me ... i'm more productive in school ... maybe i write too slow ... and my fingers too fat to press calculator in a fast way ... theres this goddess in school who MIGHT just impart me her skills lol ...

She watch horror movie not scared ... seldom got much opinions ... pretty kind ... pretty patient when coaching me stuff ... not afriad that i will sell her ... in fact i won't ... err when you look at her you think she looks like a block of ice ... but no ...~ you will be sooo wrong if you think shes a block of ice ... and her memory is incredible ... she can remember i dun like bitter gourd but i still eat it anyway ... oh ! when she drink water ... her face change colours ! quite sensitive to heat ba i guess ... and SHE BLUSHES ... ... ... ... she probably tsk at me when she read this lol ...

Ok i'm in a rush for time ... need to go grandmother's house ^^ I'll catch you folks in 2 months time alright :P In the meanwhile ...stay happy stay cheerful ... don't let the heat get into you ... drink more water ...

The only time when you truly fail is the time when you give up ...

Reflection ...

2009-03-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

I didn't stay back with the folks in school to deal with those remaining online lectures since i had an appointment for my ankle . I was just on time and after i submitted my documents i only had to wait for like 15 minutes and it was my turn to see the doctor . Basically he twist my ankle in various angles to check if my ligaments are back in place and told me that the reason why its still painful is probably due to the damaged done to the muscles . He just caution me to be careful with my activities and allow more time to set in so that the muscles and ligament will heal .

Then i made my way home ...

I always think a lot during the journey back home but i never manage to write down what my thoughts were during those times ... since i just finish listening to the online synchronous tutorial i thought i should just write something here before i go and clear up my work again ...

Have you ever had situations where you stand back and look at yourself and say " what am i doing here ? " "What was all these about " "Were they even necessary? " Its a pretty strange thing .

As for myself , i don't really understand what i'm going through now . Then i look back and look at all the mistakes i've done , pondering about the love that left me ... and it does bring a tinged of sadness to the heart . Then all those " was that necessary ? " " why did that even happen ? " pop into my mind and i would picture that whole "what if" thing again . Call that daydreaming and it might probably fit that category ... probably my reflection time ^^ a reminder to myself i guess .

Was that a reason why sometimes people look back to their past and have those very nostalgic moments ... sometimes i asked, why do people have to go through so much emotional rides in life just so that they truly appreciate what they have ... why can't it be an innate ability ? Was this the only way for people to mature ... was this the only way for us to remember ...

Maybe its the rain ... maybe its the old folks i saw at the hospital that made me wrote this ... Time is escaping through my hand every second every minute ... not looking back at me and say hey " wenhao if you don't hurry and treasure me now , eventually one day i will leave you " Knowing all these ... i still look back at the time that has already left me ... i do look forward to whats coming ahead ... but the looking back thing didn't ceased ... perhaps ... just perhaps i left something back there which i wanted very badly ... ^^ the rain has ceased .. so will this entry ^^

This is purely random thoughts ... so don't go come tag and say wenhao you ok a not ? if i not ok i comfirm call you peeps lol ... alright ... thats all for now ^^ for goodness ! if you do read at least tag "hello" !

Its a sad ending ....

2009-03-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

Maybe some of you won't agree with what i want to say about this issue but ... i somehow still want to defend this guy to a certain extend ... at least that his driving force for such action was out of desperation .

You guys should be aware that some shit incident happen in school .. A prof got hurt and a student died . I'm am in no way connected to any of them and what i'm about to say IS JUST PURE REMARKS ... I REPEAT "PURE OPINIONS OF MY OWN" !!! DON'T SUE ME !!! JUST TELL ME TO TAKE DOWN THIS POST BUT MAFIA FLUNY HERE STILLS WANTS TO VOICE HIS THOUGHTS ... NOTHING MALICE !!!

I think he probably is either very sad because of grades or projects and all these drove him into desperation . And i am very sure he realise his mistake after that ... and hes sure that what he has done will stripped him off everything he had work so hard for the past few years. For someone to carry out such choice ... his heart and world must have be terribly shattered into pieces . No amount of comfort or care can bring relieve to him ... depressed ? This incident made me recall something , i once heard over the FM that a guy killed himself over a breakup by jumping down at the ex-girlfriend's house .

I remember my aunt once says ...

Aunt : don't think i don't know , guys sometimes say to the girl when they breakup , "if i die , how would you feel"

Me : just want to know how important they are to them ma ...

Aunt : precisely ! you all love to hear lies !

Me : at least that is a last piece of comforting thing that meant they were important to their exes before ... and sometimes ! girls just take these too seriously .... -_-

Me : IF the guy die ... he is stupid ! because he cannot improve himself anymore ! ... he won't get to love or date anymore ... don't even talk about marriage ... when a person die ... there is NOTHING to be done anymore ... all is gone ... SO why should people be so silly to choose this way out ? ... It may take freaking long years to change ... it may take decades to get hitched again BUT you're alive and YOU'RE doing something !

Aunt : I'm happy you know this !

Me : I'm not that stupid ...

So i say no sane person would want to end their life like this ... Depressed , sad, feeling hopeless and all this negative thoughts can drive sane people to do that . But what made me wonder was ... why no one notice it ? People simply don't bother ? I won't say the fault is entirely his ... because no one is born to hurt others ... no one ... his logical thoughts gave way to his emotions and probably he lost control of himself ... Yes indeed we cannot condone such action and i am not saying it is ok to cause physical harm to others ... What i am saying is before you blame and condem such people and their actions ... pause and ask why do they do it ... every cause has it reasons ... the reasons may not seem plausible to you but to the people at those critical moment ... for example ~ you don't get angry just by standing around , someone has to trigger that "angry" button in you for that to happen ... its sad that he choose that way out ... and very wasted because hes going to graduate soon ... Why, i wonder ? ... and of course its unjust for the professor too .

Rain + Melodies ...

2009-03-01T17:25:00.000+08:00

What do you get when you throw me alone at home with + raining heavily + those classicals music ...

You get a reallly soft mafia ... -_- ...

I just poured through my Past year papers for maths and some are pretty tough questions ... tomorrow on i will be camping in school till pretty late ... so i DON'T SLEEP unecessarily ...

I always wake up at 8 .... but i return to sleep after i silence the alarm clock ... I PURPOSELY put extremely far away from my bed so that i will walk a certain distance and it should stop my sleepiness BUT IT FAILED ! .... i drag my self to shower ... AND STILL FAIL ... the only way i can stop it is keep myself away from my room and bed T_T that is to go to school ... luckily today i manage to do some work ... if not i have no idea what will happen to me ...

Seems like my memory is getting very bad ... i keep writing the wrong numbers and my memories are all jumbled up ... maybe not enough practice i guess .

I wonder what got into me this semester ... this is soooo not me ... my focus is totally out !

I think i knew what was going on >.< but how to stop it ! ... Ignore ? Forget ?

I guess i just stay back to study in school ... stay away from my desktop ... stay away from my comfort zone ... i had to do this ... -_- if not ! i comfirm sweep floor next time ...

I'm spending too much time dreaming about unnecessary things ...

23 liao ! still like that ... &*@!^#*&@!#^*& wth ~

LETS DIG UP some really OLD TIMES

2009-02-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

Oh Boy~ ... Durians ~ this was like taken 2 years ago ...

NIGEL ! LOOK AT YOU !

Wahahaha ... Check out simone's blog if you have access to it ... she will probably write something about this post of mine LOL .....

MORE Pictures !

2009-02-26T01:11:00.000+08:00

I AM ONE OF THE PEEPS WHO COOK FOR EVERYBODY !

By the way thats Huiling beside me ... Say want to help end up run away -_-
The one in green is Jerry .. Mr Ferryman ...
The one in Red is the BOSS OF THE EVENT ... HIS HOUSE !

Another 2 legendary girls in school

See .. Only King Guan cooking with me ... so sad right

We want to eat satay also must do it with charcoals in our hand ...

Sad ~

Show u guys some photos

2009-02-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

One of the legendary ladies in school : Kaiwen ...

her grades ... is unreachable for the commoners ...

Another legendary person in school ...

You peeps behind ! Will get it from me ... Posters for the Project you all settle !

See the one in orange ? That is another legendary person ...
Everytime exam without fail sure sit around me one ...
THEN ... she always feel sad because she feels that she will fail ...
Results come out ... all A+
Legendary right !

Weiliang ! and my Shirt ... Nevermind about my shirt ...
Weiliang is one WOOT ... You talk to him ! sure get sweep off by him ...

The commando Lesle ... During the exam prep ... we mug together and thats how i know him ! Very smart and lively person ... Today i was in school studying with him also ...

I got more photos which will be posted up soon ...

The boss of this event ... not shown yet !

A yellow envelope ...

2009-02-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

A cat followed me home ... i just came home from the gathering for poly peeps only ^^ ...

Its fun ... i keep cooking ... and had tons of photos taken as if i was the host ...

When i get the photos i'll show u all ^^

Blink Blink ...

2009-02-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

The rain was definately welcoming ... although it made my papers a bit soggy to touch ...

Today i learn something !

Weiliang was sharing about his experience .... and heres something he said

"A seed isn't told by anyone or anything to grow or bloom into a flower , its only doing its best to do what it is suppose to do"

"We cannot choose which family or where we are born , we may not even have the chance to decide how our lifes will end eventually , but inbetween this we have a choice to decide how we want to live our lifes "

"When things become hard to bear ... never give in to hardships ... though the outcome maybe uncertain ... giving up is a definate end ... there won't be happy endings if you don't even bother to try "

So ? GET UP AND WORK HARD !

Seriously ...

2009-02-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

So its the end of my 22nd year of life ... now its the 23rd ...

So what have i really learn during my 22nd year of my life ?

Learn from mistakes ...
Don't be quick to judge a person ...
Give people time ...
Don't give pressure to others ...
Stand by the side and watch ... if they sink ... then give a hand ...
Hug people more ...
Study in school ... zz monster always attack me at home ...
Keep dreaming ...
Remember people who help you ...
Praise someone everyday ...
Make people laugh everyday and you would be happy too ...
If someone needs your help ... help them earnestly ...
If that someone is making use of you ... just help them ... i'm sure shit will befall on them someday ...
Be good to yourself ... don't snack too much ... run more ... have enough sleep
Drink 2 glasses of milk on weekends ... drink coffee everyday in school ...
Say sorry if you have done something wrong ...
There is no point in getting angry at people ... just ignore them ...
Miss my younger days a little ...
Don't be too harsh on yourself
Keep my grandmother happy ... and never let her feel lonely ...
Learn a new white sauce reciepe for pasta ...
Tuna is a nice food ...
I'm still thinking of .......

^^ Thats 23 in total ... celebration ? wait for Nigel to come back ... :P

Tired ...

2009-02-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

Today class ended pretty fast .. 3 hours of AutoCad ... 1 hr tutorial ...

Went to Orchard with the Qy and Kw and Jerry ... Since the girls are getting a gift for their friend we went along to eat there .

Where ? Most Burger ...

And something amusing happen ... or rather funny ... Jerry ordered the butterfly prawns and the Auntie delievered the food without it so Jerry disturb her a bit ... I also disturb the Auntie a bit ... Then the auntie starts to disturb me ...

Auntie : You married ?

Me : No ah !~

Auntie : Then you playboy ?

Me : No No No No ... ( is she thinking that i'm hitting on her )

Auntie : You very cheeky ah ! Are you a pervert ?

Me : Alamak No la ! .... ( What have i got myself into )

The Auntie went off ...

Moments later ... she came to clear some of our trays ... then she give asked ... whats my name

Me : Wen Hao ...

Auntie : AH Beng ?

Me : Wenhao !

Auntie : Ah long ?!

The folks with me were bursting out with laughters ~ ...

Auntie : Wenhao ~ Nice name very ( xi wen ) , but you don't look like that !

Auntie : How old are you ...

Me : 23 ah ...

Auntie : SO YOUNG ! SO YOUNG ! You look too matured liao ... ( old )

Then she pat me and say ... joking ah ...

This auntie seriously can be my grandmother already but still very cheeky with me ... Ok i was cheeky with her first ... since shes so up to it ... i'll play along ... in the end i lost ... >.< So her name was Auntie Wendy ... those kind of lovely aunties or grannies you would find in fast food joints who seems bored serving those people who won't speak to them ... I different ... nowadays i disturb a lot of people ... and people always got bad first impression about me ...

Even the friend of Qy and Kw think i was a pervert ...

My first sentence to him :

Me : want to shake hands ? ( BIG GRIN )

You all tell me smile and be friendly ... now people scared T_T holy cow ! ...

Afterall everyone had a pretty happy moment then ^^ You wouldn't want to know how Jerry was laughing when we were in the Sony Shop ... I think i made people pretty happy today ...

I told this new friend ....

Me : IF you ever wish to quit your work ... you can come and work for me you know ...

He : errr no thanks ah, haha

Me : ( Shit ... he really took my word for it huh )

Me : Hey dude i'm joking only ... if you don't believe what i say just ask Qy and Kw ... lol

What a day ... who says it will always be a sad day ^^ ... Enjoy peeps ... i need to drink some coffee and start working laterz ...

I know i know ...

2009-02-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

This is like one shitty year ... i mean for almost everyone ...

And its the same for me ... shitty ... but still bearable ... sometimes i also feel shitty because of quizzies ... results ... events ... but don't fret ... things will change ... it won't stay the same forever ...

Remember ...
" We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand ."
"By Randy Pausch"

Certain events are inevitable ... we may be the cause or indirectly the cause of our misfortune ... but to choose how we deal with it ... we have a choice and control over it . Nevermind we make a mistake ... if there is a chance for you to make things better then focus in doing it ... don't dwell on it too long ...Its not worth the sweat and sleepless nights ... Have sufficient rest and continue to do your best . I may flunk my 1st microbio quiz ... i still have time to work on it and do my best in the 2nd one to even things out ... thats my focus now ... whats done is done ... i can only remind myself never to again repeat that mistakes which i had made ... i cannot turn time around no matter how much i wish to undo the past ... certain things are just impossible . So instead of dwelling about it everyday ... why not take a rest and look at things in a new perspective . It may be sad or disappointing ... find a friend and grumble about it .

You will be fine ... I promise you ... that tomorrow will not be the same as today ... because like how i always wanted to be told. I want to tell you peeps that ... if you're undergoing some real shit now "You WILL be Fine ... EVERYTHING will BE OK given TIME ... "

Don't WASTE time brooding too long ... do it if you know you must ... and don't forget ... one day you will realise that you don't really have so much time you thought you had ... keep it as a reminder so that you don't waste your finite time on unncessary worries ... theres more to life than that ...

Its just ... disappointing ...

2009-02-18T16:59:00.000+08:00

Just when you think you had most of the questions right ... you went out of the theather ... everyone started to discuss ... then you start to recall ... " one wrong , two wrong , ... " Then you realise ... most of your choices were wrong ... then you start thinking ... shit ... you start to calculate the scores base on some probability skills ... then you realise ... you might fail ... because you're threading inbetween pass and fail ... how did it come to this ...?

I asked myself ... i had some of the answers correct but changed it last minute ... why did i do it ... for that moment i started to doubt myself ... i doubt my choices ... had initially hope for a B grade for this microbiology quiz ... so it can buffer the exam effect ... seems like i may not even pass it ... MCQ was easy ... its easy to score and easy to make mistake ... its either A B C or D . Theres no other way about it ... its either u get it right ... or you get it wrong ... theres no inbetween ... I'm not sure how badly i've done but from my guess after hearing the discussion ... i'm pretty much doom to fail ... not that i want to fail ... nobody enters an exam hall waiting to fail ... its just .. sigh ~ just want to see the grades now ... good or bad i'll still accept it ... just don't like to be hung up in the air ... waiting to die ...

Better luck for the 2nd quiz and exam i guess ... just have to pick up the pieces and work hard again ... it isn't over yet ... but just sigh ~~~

Alamak Alamak ...

2009-02-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

Quiz Frenzy Today ...

Hydrology ... well ... since all help help ... should be ok ...

My Structres I ... ITS OMG ... I CAN DO ... BUT WRONG ! why ! Calculated wrongly ? ... Since i clear Mechanics of Material last semester ... i'm allowed to take Structures 1 ... so basically i move with the flow without failing . This course however is a pre requisite for Structural Analysis Drawing ... and the failing rate very high ... i'm sticking my effort in quizzes so i don't sink so much during exam if it happens to be hard . BUT TODAY OMG ....

All support reactions correct ... but the MEMBER WRONG ! why why why .... my concept to form equations is right .... why why why .... Tomorrow is Microbiology ... Tons of stuff to remember ... but well still alright for that ... Sad ? Fear ? ....

I'm starting to fear ... and its a good sign ... because i think complacency sets in when i'm not afriad ... i want to finish this ... this time i had additional reasons to finish this ... have to pick up fast ... so next week which is my recess week ... i ask Lesle and Oliver if they will be in School a not ... i'll be going back to study ... i'm not trying to act hardworking ... staying at home will just tempt me to rest ... which is already sufficient during weekends ... still a bit more before exam craze begins ... thats when everything break loose ... ... ...

Study for a purpose ...

.... Must get rid ... of these

2009-02-15T23:18:00.001+08:00

Back from dinner ! ... Shall not bore you guys with family events ... because its extremely nice LOL ... But i didn't take much photos ... Either way there is another dinner again on May ... but oh well ... Huiyi drove me home becaose Cong was at the clinic queueing up ... Pauline was especially red today ... she went to wakeboarding ! Holy ... very active cousin of mine ! ...

Ok ... i don't know why but the fear of me not making it this semester is creeping in ... and yet i got no motivation ... not a slightest bit ... i'm like doing things half heartedly ... and shit my mind is just so occupied ... WHY ... i will camp in school tomorrow and the following recess week ... i need to buck up ... i know where i stand if i continue being like this ... this is so half assesd work ... simply hate this nuah self ...

Can't take it ... need to snapped out of this ... argh~

Feb 14th ...

2009-02-14T14:24:00.000+08:00

Woke up late ... whole schedule was messed up ...

Attempted to run at stadium was held back ... because of some competition going on ...

Swimming continues as normal ...

Went to get a pair of Khakis ... and a canvas belt ...

Had lunch at market ...

Back home ... and going to hug my books for the rest of the day ...

Thats my Valentine ^^

Sad ? Nah ... I'm not bothered nor can be bothered with this day ... I actually agreed to some extent with Jerry ... why must this day be the day where you become more lovey dovey ? I mean everyday should be the same ... you shouldn't just buy flowers for her/him just because its a day dictated internationally ... I prefer to go with randomness ... ^^ keeps the fun going keeps the love lasting ...

Its not a day for the singles to feel sad ... gather your friends and go out to have some fun just like any normal weekends ! Just that you might see flowers walking around more than usual ... Or you happen to have serious loading of quiz for the following week like me ... just hide at home and study hard ^^ if you understood what it means to love ... this day is just a normal day ... like any others ... ^^

But either way ... i hope the couples today enjoy themselves ! those confessing ( good luck ) ! those studying ( study hard ) .... those doing nothing ... go catch some movies ... and most importantly ... Happy Valentine's Day .... may you renew the oath you once promise to each other ... ^^

With Love ~
Mafia Fluny ^^

I don't know what the chinese means but ...

2009-02-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

Quite nicely done ... Jerry edited the photo .... so ya ... Enjoy laughing or ... enjoy the memories witht he eyes close ? Was it something like that ? LoL ...

Friday the 13th ...

2009-02-13T20:33:00.000+08:00

That was part of some random pictures Jerry took while at the chinese garden ... i'm still downloading the rest ... and today is freaky Friday ... or rather ... quite embarassing for me .

First ... went to lab ... printed the documents twice ... because i draw wrongly ... cost me extra dollarz T_T ... Lab ended ... went out after checking i had submit the assignment ... I saw Kaiwen Qian Ying , Huiling , Weiliang .... who went ahead of me and Jerry talking to Yan Ting and Li Ling about Oliver who is in Kenya now ... attending some conference .

THEN ! While i was thinking ... woa they're on pretty good terms ... i heard .... not really the actual replication but somewhat same meaning ...

Kaiwen to Yanting : You have a friend female de long hair .... ...

YanTing : Ah huh ... Why ?

Kaiwen ( Cheeky Smile ) : Oh i got a friend ... wants to know her name ...

Everyone : ( Turn their head look at me and burst out giggling )

Me : ( Trying my best to defend myself ... even Jerry forsaken me ! ) No No No ! I just ....

YanTing : Orhhhhhhhhhh ........

I was quite far so i couldn't hear properly ... Actually ... i should have just went to the toliet ...

So we went for lunch ... with everyone enjoying the moment except me who is going to die of embarassement ... after lunch ... we walk to Jerry car ... but we walk to the wrong carpark ... took the correct path ... and we ... BUMP INTO YANTING AND ASHLINE AT THE MOST IMPOSSIBLE PLACE ...

YanTing : HELLO WENHAO ! ( I think she cannot contain her laughter anymore)

The rest also started to giggle ... Ashline was the name of the girl they asked ... or was it spelt as Ashely ... oh nevermind ~ they went up and talk to her ... and i OF COURSE went straight to another corner ... Its OMG LA ... of all places ... they are there ... the peeps still can tell me its destiny ... i tell you its because today is Friday the 13th ... OMG ... Monday i'll be in deep soup ... Weiliang will be broadcasting in the lecture real soon ... I know how hes going to do it ... and its OMG la~ ...

Its funny and quite enjoyable ... since this incident actually allow us to mingle around more freely ... someone starts a gossip ... people start to poke fun ... people know one another ... you make more friends ... life in the class won't be so dull ... life in school will be much livlier ..

So do i really had something for this Ashline/Ashley ... ? Its actually what Jerry says ... he say i will be attracted to this kind ... so i went along with him ... so ... NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.

Today my another lab mate not present ... also a girl ... Wanying ... since wanying was involved in Red Cross ... she was giving out phamplets the other day ... Kaiwen ... took one ... folded it into a heart ... and pass it to her during one lab session claiming it was from mee .... OMG ... Kaiwen ... like to disturb me a lot ... she lucky i got nothing to disturb her with yet ! YET ! ~ Ya let me intro ... The one on the right is Confucius the middle one is Kaiwen ... and ... QianYing ! ~ ... After they left ... Me and Jerry went to run around Confucius also ... hopping he will give us some luck this year ... ^^ More stories up :P and Happy Valentine's Day people ~

Oh simone message me .... the Groupies celebrating for me sia !~ belated one ! we will wait for Nigel's return ^^ ... Alright ... have to go back to books .... enough random rantings ... ^^

.... Seems like the ankle cui !

2009-02-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

Actually ... i tried running a fews steps after the bus ... and ... IT FELT different ... and really ... the ankle has a dangling feeling ... T_T i wore the ankle brace and tried ... it felt like before my injury occur ... the marathon is coming ... and i need to train up ....

Guess i have to run lesser this saturday ... :P Ok thats a bit for update ...

All About My Life

Once a while

Randoms

Vex .... Troubled .... Lost

Graduating soon

Ding Dong Ding Dong

Some reflection ...

2011 ~

Raining and Exams ...

Family , Friends , Future

What is your dream ...

Final year ~

Sunny Sunday ~

Big Walk ^^

Raining

Part 2

Hee Hee ^^

I know what is most important ...

mm . . . .

Dine Dong~

Rainning More Frequently ...

Mafia ... Wenhao

Lets have some serious talk ^^

Hello ....

Waaa .... Working is tiring ...

Helloz ...

FireWorks

Phuket II

Phuket II

Phuket I

Ding Ding

Exam Over ...

Does it matter ... yes it does ..

1.25 months to go !

You never change your views ?

mm . . . .

Goodbye my beloved Grandma~

Still the same ^^

Week 2 End ...~ Current week 3

School has begun ~

Doesn't work ~

2 weeks more

Car Boot Sale

mmm ...

80% Groupies BBQ session

Oliver's 23rd Birthday Steamboat ^^

Now i must use another method to upload photos ~

Ding Ding

Clementi ? Jurong East ?

Kaiwen's 21st B`day BBQ

Ding Ding ...

Random PIctures from Bird Park

Sorry too busy at the moment ...

TOoo busy ...

Ding Ding

Finished ! 42km~

Ding Dong ...

Exercise Run Run Run ~

Results out ...

Its time

Ding Ding

Sad ...

Lets see

End of Year 2 Sem 2

Exam Over

MM . . . warm ~

The day ...

Tsk ... My 10 went to kitty's side ...~

Mmm . . . .

Ding Ding ... Tsk Tsk ...

mm .... ....

Woo ...

The war has begun~

How should i term this ...

More Old Videos

Lets see ... Heres something ~

When the groupies comes together ... a few missing though

When memory fades ...

This ... is it ...

Ding Ding ...